Victor Ferrer Obituary

Has it been that long my friend? I look at your art and still think of what you said, "One day my art will be appreciated", and I told you: It already was. Blessed be.

Hey daddy I love and miss you please continue to watch over me all of us I wish I had more time with you I love u

Your daughter

Hi tio,

Its late on a Tuesday (technically Wednesday), and I came across this website just because I wanted to look up my fathers name on google. I was only 4 when you passed away. Im now 20 years old attending college. Unfortunately, I dont have any memory of you, and the only things I have to remember you by is your paintings hanging in our house. Although I wasnt as gifted in drawing as you were, I was gifted in music. I played in my high school and college band. Im currently majoring in economics and hopefully will find a well-paying job after I graduate. I hope you are looking after all of us from up there with titi Evelyn, grandma, grandpa, and everyone else; but I especially am hoping you are looking after my father. The more people looking out for him, the better :)

Im sorry Im just coming across this page now, and Im sorry not many people have written to you in the past couple of years. You are always in everyones thoughts.


I love you.

Hi daddy merry Christmas another year with out u an I want u to know I love an miss u. Dad at 42 I still don't have it right or at least I feel as if I dont. I wish I was closers to my cousins so I can be a lil closers to u I love them dearly. I am not going to put my business on here but I just pray you help me grow up an do things right please help in the right direction and if there is people in my life that mean me no good please lead them away from me fast I love u babe an miss u dad tell juni I miss him so much love him too an grand ma an grand pa an titi Evelyn God bless u all rip miss u guys

Hey daddy I love you miss you merry Christmas

Happy Birthday Mami! =)

Love u pops miss u so much...
Vicky

I love an miss u so much

Please continue to watch over us love u so much

Vicky
Ur daughter

Well junior, I have not written in a long time but I think of you everyday.please help Me and guide me thru life. Help keep my son safe and bless the kids always.

Hi Papi,
I miss you so much, I love you dearly, so much has happened since i last posted... I am still in wisconsin, and working out of home, I am now a at home care taker for JJ. your grandson. all the kids are great, you are a great grand dad to a beautiful lil girl named anaya. I miss my side of the family so much... I wish I could here from them. Last I heard Titi Evelyn is now with you and grand ma and grand pa. I miss you all. I love all of you dearly, although i could show it by stayin intouch with the family but I do in my mind heart and soul.... I love all the ferrer family because that is where I am from you guys. Daddy I always wish you and I had a tighter bond, but i hope you know even though we did not I did not love you any less. I blaim it on my up bringing, but me learning from my mistakes I did not pass it on to your grand children all in school working and very well taken care of. I live in a nice little house in West allis Wisconsin, bout 20 minutes away from my mom. and 2 hours aways from chicago. Daddy i miss my other side of the family so much... But most of all you and grand mas love to me was so uncondintional i wish i had it right now. Remember how some holidays i would just pop up and you and grandma would be so happy to see me. i felt the love and i miss that. i also miss my cousins aunts and uncles, i know i have a huge part of my heart out there i hope they know i do think of them always. i try and find them just to say hi and visit, but its hard i loose touch always. Well I am taking care of home, loving my kids and mom and sisters, of course you know my brother is up there with you so my family is little. But know you are never forgotten, i tattooed you and grandma and juni on my arm never to be forgotten... I miss you so much, i hope in the next life that i am still your daughter and we have a stronger bond that no one can break... I love you papi. Miss you give my love and kisses to Grand ma Grand pa, Juni and Titi Evelyn... i love u... always...

Well, labor day weekend is here! Hmmm...I wonder what would have been our family plans for the weekend. I'm sure it would have been on Sunday for Nick's birthday. Imagine walking in and seeing grandma sitting on the sofa watching a baseball game and mami chilling, sipping on some pop that she knows she shouldn't be drinking!! :) Sometimes it's the little things that we so much. Like the reassuring kisses making us feel like everything will be okay, the peep talks reminding us that God will get us through it, the comforting hugs, the taste of certain foods that made the palates in our mouths scream for more, the sweet smell of your perfume, the wisdom of your words, the feel of your hand holding mine when we crossed the street together...even at 30!! :) I love you beautiful...God, if you're listening to this...please bring her to me in one way, shape or form. Please give her a kiss and hug for me. Anyhow...I guess I should get back to my new everyday life. Love you beautiful!

Well....my first mother's day w/out mami came and went. It was very emotional and hard to get through...but just like Nov. 17th, the worst day of my life, I got through it. I miss her so much...now to deal w/my first birthday w/out her. Why is all I can ask but then again....why not?! I wouldn't wish what I'm feeling on anyone. Anyhow, peace and blessings to all! xo

Aye mami....I miss you so much. We're all taking it hard...but I'm so worried about Papi. Almost every morning I wake up to him crying...my baby can't even barely smile and has big bags under his eyes. Please watch over him for me mami...I can't afford to lose him ANY time soon. I can't even bare the loss of you, my beautiful baby, my chuncky monkey, my best friend, my everything. I hope and pray I'm making you proud, Lord knows I'm trying hard! I love you mami...can you please ask Jesus if he'll let you come visit me in a dream? Hopefully you're able to sooner than later! Bendicion my love and until next time, forever missing you and loving you!

Our deepest sympathies, your pizza friends at Phil's Pizza D'oro.

Mami gone?? Naaahhh....my mom? The most beautifulist woman in the world? Yeah right...not possible. This past week has been a nightmare right? Celebrating her life, seeing her in a coffin, lowering her in the ground..YEAH RIGHT!! But wait...papi's still crying, my nephews and nieces are still hurt...my brothers are still in disbelief, why is everyone hugging me and reassuring me that everything will be okay? I mean, this HAS TO BE A DREAM..right? This can't be my reality...but yet the Lord blessed me w/another day and MADE ME realize that it is. But why her? Why so soon? We just lost my grandmother not even a year ago. We were just sipping pina coladas on Luquillo Beach in P.R. We were just talking on the phone...she was going to cook dinner on Tuesday so that we could eat together...WAIT MOM PLEASE...ONE MORE KISS...ONE MORE HUG...ONE MORE PHONE CONVERSATION...JUST ONE MORE ANYTHING AND EVERYTHING!!! PLEASE!!!!!!! How can I take care of Papi the way that you did? Aye mami, I've been so strong until now. Today has been the hardest day for me. I love you my love and can't wait until the day that we all meet up on the golden streets of heaven...until then, I will never be complete again.

TO THE FERRER-RIVERA FAMILY WE THE MATOS FAMILY ARE VERY SORRY FOR YOUR LOST OF A WARM HEARTED AND CARING WOMAN IN EVELYN ALWAYS SMILING SORRY FOR NOT BEING AT THE WAKE WE WILL MISS HER IN OUR OWN WAY FROM CATALINO(PICHY) AND TABATHA MATOS AND THE KIDS

Bendicion,

It's been quite a long time since i've written an entry here. Titi Evelyn passed away yesterday. Please give the family strength to get through this, especially Padrino George, Melanie, Pupo, and Johnny. God only knows what there going through right now. I'm deeply sorry for losing touch with you Titi. I hope you know that I love you and never stopped loving you. Give lots of hugs and kisses to Mami, Papi, and Tio Junior for me.

Bendicion, Papi, Mami & Victor

I miss you guys with all my soul and heart. I wish I can hear your voices again.

George lost his mom recently. I'm sure you have already met up with her.

One day we will all be together in heaven in peace and healthy.

Pray for us who are still waiting to meet up with you guys.

God Bless You !!!!!

George & Evelyn

Hello Lil Grandma, Grandpa and Tio Victor!

BENDICION!!

As you know, my Grandma Clara passed away about a month ago. It's like I can't belive that I only have one grandparent left and he's all the way in Puerto Rico....not to mention that I haven't seen him in 18 years. My heart aches at the realization of you all not being here w/us. I think about the good old days and man oh man do I wish I could bring them back! All of us....all together!

Please watch over papi and mami. They took Grandma's passing REALLY hard...Of course you know why and of course it's rightfully so, it's just hard. It's hard to have to shelter my own feelings and emotions because I have to be strong for them. It's still an ongoing process...even after so many years that you all have been gone. You guys not being here is something that still effects us each and every day.

I know it's been a long time since I've been on here and for that I apologize. Just know that you guys are always in my heart, prayers and thoughts! I love you and wish I could see all of you guys together in Heaven. I know I will eventually and for that I am greatful!

Your loving Grand-Daughter/Niece

Hello Daddy,

I love you and miss you, I hope you here me when I pray every night....

I love you
Vicky
Tell Grandma I love her....

Well Grandma, to think...you've been gone over a year now. It feels like it was yesterday when we were all at your house celebrating Thanksgiving. It was SOOOO nice to see all the family together, It felt like the old days when Grandpa was alive and we would all come over for the holidays. God how much I miss you two! I've always been blessed enough to have both sets of grandparents in my life but you two were truly the ones that I was closest too. It's like I still smell your scent on a beautiful sunny day and it's weird because it overcomes me and makes my eyes water just thinking about it. What I would do to have one more day w/you two! Anyhow, I just wanted to drop a line and let you know how I feel in writing..because god knows that I'm constantly saying it in my prayers or even when I'm alone and talking to you guys, I KNOW YOU HEAR ME AND ARE NEAR!! I love you and adore you more then words can say and truly thank you for being the best grandparents a person could ever ask for! Bendicion and forever missing you! xo

Tio Victor,



Wow, how time flies!!! To think yet another year has passed by. It's crazy because I remember when you first got sick how much you reminded me of grandpa. It was a horrible feeling....it was like it was happening all over again too soon and did'nt know what to do or how to react. Anyhow, what matters most is the fact that you are no longer suffering...You, grandpa or grandma. I love you and miss you very much and want you to know that you're gone but never forgotten..Your legacy will always live on thru us!! xoxoxoxo

Mami,



It's been a while since i've heard your voice, that warm comforting voice that always soothed me, that voice that always uttered helpful words of wisdom. You were always there teaching me and loving me the only way you knew how. You watched me grow into a woman, you always supported me no matter what. You were proud of what I was becoming, loving me endlessly without question, never judging my feelings or actions. Throughout my childhood, teenaged years, and especially those seven months you were at the hospital you were watching me mature slowly into the person I am today. I was watching you struggle to stay alive and still you were strong for me, god you were always so strong for me!! You always put me first. You told me over and over that everything would end up right at the end that I would be ok. You always knew what to say to make the world seem like it was on our side. But now, the world took you away from me, leaving me without you, longing for your love, motherless. leaving me Without someone to tell me only the things you could that always made me feel better. Leaving me without someone to wipe away my tears as they roll down my cheek god I miss your touch. LEaving me here feeling hopeless without being able to share my fears, my joys, and my triumphs. I've missed you every day since you've been gone. I've been wishing for you to be here with me every minute since you've been away. I know that you will always be near, you always let me know that you would. I never felt unloved by you. I miss you, but i find that i'm grateful for having loved you,and you being a big part of my life, that is what helps me conquer your loss. Thank you mami for everything. I LOVE YOU!!! Cristy!!

Grandma....or should I say Lil' Grandma because that is what I called you! :) I miss you sooooo much!! It's like I still can't beleive it. You were the most beautiful woman that stood with such grace and dignity; the type that we all hope to be. You truly are my inspiration and I pray that we can hold this family together as you and grandpa did. Please, Please, Please give my precious mother the strength to deal with your lost and also the strength to take good care of her health so she too can live a long wonderful life. MUAH Y BENDICION GRANDMA! Thank you for my "modeling career" back in the dayz!! :)



Grandpa...You've waited so long to have your lovely wife back by your side and now she is!! I know you'll take care of her like you always have...If not, SHE'LL MAKE SURE YOU DO! ;) Forever in our lives left here on mother earth... We love you, thank you, and miss you...



Tio...WOW...You were the first of the boys to have them in your life and now you're the first to have them back!! I'm sure it's definetly worth the wait! I can only imagine the beautiful paintings in the sky to come! Love ya tio! xoxo

Hi Daddy,



I miss you so much, today is the death of our beloved Grand Mother, and I am so sorry I did not get to say good bye. Once again I was a way from the family and heard the news by way of phone. I am attending the wake and funeral, I submitted my prayer patitions for you, grand pa, my brother Juni, and now my sweet Grand Mother, I will miss he, the love she gave me meant so much, because she always made me feel apart of the Ferrer family, even though I felt like an out cast. Well papi, I miss you and wish I still had time with you, I wish I spent more time with you as a daughter and father should have, but know I love you just like I love mom and my Lord Jesus Christ. I know I have you to thank for saving me out of any trials i have been put threw, and I know you have been beside me through all good and bad times, I love you daddy and please tell Grand ma, I love her and I am going to miss her dearly. Tell Grand pa I love him too.

DADDY & TIO,



WHERE DO I EVEN BEGIN! PLEASE GIVE MOM, THE FAMILY, AND MYSELF THE ENDURANCE TO CONTINUE ON WITH WHAT HAS BEEN BROUGHT UPON OUR WAY. PLEASE CONTINUE TO WRAP EACH OF US INTO YOUR ARMS SO WE CAN REMAIN CLOSER TOGETHER, NOW IS WHEN WE NEED EACH-OTHER THE MOST. I MISS YOU GUYS VERY MUCH. I LOVE YOU!! CRISSY!!

Well Wow Its been a long Mintue Since I Last Been on here..hmm what do i say ...all i can say is dat i miss u dearly and i think of u all da time i dont think there isnt a time where i dont think of u..its been 3 long years and its like ure still here with us just we cant see u and i wish i could..yesterday me and heather got into talking about u and we just laughed at da things u use 2 do..but then we talked about how much missed u..i just wanna thank u once again for being the father i never had u raised me from a a lil gurl into what i am 2day thanks for being there when i needed u and i kno u will watch over me as time goes bye i love u and miss u very much contunie doing what u do best and dont 4get 2 paint me my rainbow in da sky i will be looking out for it i love u and BENDICION Muahzzzzz!!! until next time TE AMO MUCHO PAPI!!!!

Hey grandpa! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE! I wish you were here to celebrate it w/us! We miss you so much it's like I can't even begin to explain how much. But you know...and I guess that's all that matters! Bendicion my love and thanks for always being there with me grandpa! Besos

I was just starting at your painting (one of a few that I own) and I thought wow, I can't believe the artist is no longer here. Than I realized: Yes he is. Now stronger than ever. You are missed Victor, even when people were not around they still thought of you. I have one of your paintings in my office and it is of a child sitting on a pier just looking at his/her reflection in the water. I imagine why you painted it and I always thank God I own it cause the interpretation is everything I want it to be. Thanks for your craft. The legacy will always live on. Take care....Damian Omar Plaza/Department of Corrections/CDC

Hey tio and grandpa, bendicion! Well my b-day just passed and of coarse grandpa you were on my mind. My mom had a dream w/u...and let me just say, THANK YOU! U know what I mean by that! I love you guys and just wanted to drop a line or two or three..lol...Missing you always...xo

Well dad, where do I start. Many things have happened since the last time i wrote you. i MISS you very much and especially today on your anniversary, i would give my life to see you again. Things are not the same since you left us. There are so many things I need to tell you and maybe things would not be the way they are. I started the year bad and at this point, it does not look like it would end any different. I miss you so much. I wish you were here. I love you always and I Never will forget you. Your absence hurts as much today as it did 8 years ago.

Hey Daddy,



I can't believe tomorrow will make 8 years. Seems like yesterday you were helping me with my school work. I love you daddy. I miss you so much.

Hey Dad



Well its been a long while since i been on here.things with me are going good i always think of u as u may know and i talk to you every once in a while..I LOVE AND MISS U DEARLY u will forever be in my thoughts just keep doing what u have been doing watching over the family like u always do.until next time i love u and miss u BENDICION MUAHZZ DAD...

Hey Daddy & Tio,



Well, Thanksgiving is approaching. I have a lot to be thankful for. This is the first thanksgiving in a long time, that most of the family will be together at mom's house. Mom is so happy!! :)Thank you for all the little blessings you've sent to our family. This thanksgiving will be a memorable one. THANK YOU!! I LOVE YOU!! I MISS YOU DEARLY!!

Hey Vic,

It's been awhile, but as you know, you've been in my thoughts. You know whats going on, all I can say is THANX! Love and miss you dearly.

Hi...bendicion! Havent' been here in a while and I apologize! but don't worry...I'm back once again leavin my mark! I luv u both very much and can't even describe how much u all are missed. But as long as we have eachother ur memories will never perish! Thank u for alwayz being there for us...lord knows what we would do or how we wud be if we didn't have u! Oh...and btw...happy anniversary grandma and grandpa! kisses and hugs!

Hey Tio!

Hey thanks for getting the family 2 gether again i was sooo happy 2 see da family laugh and have a good time.Thanks for giving Carmen a beautiful baby thanks alot for what u gave us it really means a whole lot 2 our family.And i kno ur in heaven smiling down and caring good care of us well i dont really want 2 waste ur time so keep painting those wonderful paintings well luv ya lots



bye

(smiling while writing and sending lil kisses 2 da screen!)

Hey Daddy & Tio,



Well, I was surfing thru the net and I remembered about this guest book. I'm very sorry that I haven't written in here. Well, lifes been pretty good. I can actually say that I've completed a major chapter in my life, a long journey. I finally graduated from High School. God does it feel great! I know deep down you had something to do with that. U never did let me give up did u? Thanks!!! It felt great to have that diploma in hand, you would have been proud, just as proud as I was. I know that you were there with mom. I felt you. One chapter closes and another begins. I'm off to college now. Can you believe it, lil o me goin' to college. This should be exciting, but I can't surely do it without your help. As far as my life, well what can I say, all I do is work. Keeps me busy I guess. Gives me a sense of responsibility. It's true what they say, hard work pays off. Then again, two wonderful angels by my side helps a lot more. Thanks for everything. Thanks for all the answered prayers. Please continue to shine some light over our family, and especially mom, she seems to be missing you guys a lot more lately. Till the next entry love.....

Cristy

Hey Dad,



I know it has been a minute since you hurd from your daughter, Well I miss you, and know that all that is going on with me you had part to do with. I mean all the good, is cause you had a little talk with God and told him I can be ignorant at times but I am a good girl and have only faith in him. Tell grandpa I said bendicion. I love you daddy and hope you keep me safe.



Love always Vicky

Hey Dad..



Well wow its been a while since i last wrote let me first say bendicion!!Also i havent been writing 2 u like i use to and im sorri..well i just got back from puerto rico with maria And benny da reason we were in puerto rico was because bennys baseball team won da championship so they went down there to play sum guys out there..as i was out there we were in rio grande i was watching benny bat and as prieto looked up At da sky he notice a rainbow of course i thought of u..i started 2 get teary maria took a picture of it but it never came out..it lasted for about a good 20 mintues all i could do was stare at da rainbow and think of u.cus i knew u were painting up there with da angels and dat rainbow made my day.thank u for looking out for us dat day in puerto rico. it made me happi and realize dat i miss u more den ever.well things with mom r doing good we r going 2 go see u in about a week so keep an eye out for us!! well dad diz is about it im going 2 end it here bencdicion and i love u alwayz and i miss u see u later MUAHZ!!!!

My Dearest Brother,



I miss you, sometimes I need guidance and don't where to turn. I love you and I want you too know that finally I understand your pain. I often go see you and I am happy to know that Lucy takes care of you. God Bless you my brother, I know we'll meet again.



I love you,



Carmen M.

Hey grandpa and tio! Bendicion! I was just thinking of you guys...maybe because the holidays are so close. Things have been okay lately...u know...same oh same oh! Grandma was sick a couple weeks ago but thank god she's alright! She's a strong woman and so beautiful at that! All the time I see her I just want to shower her w/big hugs and kisses! (with her little cute self) I love you both and miss you more then words could say! But of coarse u know that!



Well that's it...that's all! Just leaving my mark once again in this guestbook. Continue to bless us all and thx again for all the great memories! xoxoxo



Your loving granddaughter and niece,

Hey Baby



Happy Birthday my love. I really do miss you. But I'm sure you're partying with pops. You're not alone. We will always be together in spirit.



I love you and dad very much. Please continue to watch over mom and us.



God is blessing you both always.



Take care my love,



Your Sister,



Evelyn & George



xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

Hey Dad



Well 1st of all i wanna say Bendicion!!Muahzz Also 2day is your birthday so Happy Birthday sexy baby i love u and i miss u...tell grandpa Bendicion And i love him And i miss him..well dis is it until next time i love u and i will alwayz miss u BENDICION!!!

Hey tio...Bendicion! I'm writing to say Happy Birthday!! Unfortunatly ur not here to celebrate with us but that's okay...ur in a much better place. And most of all ur w/grandpa...so it's all good! =) Of coarse u both are very much missed and will forever remain in our hearts! I love u both and will see u soon! Until then....

You truly were some angels
sent from God in the heavens above.
Your shocking deaths just broke the hearts of everyone you loved.
When I found out that you had died
I thought that they were wrong.
You were both so alive - and then
just like that, you were gone. Flames blown out in seconds,
Confirming our worst fears -
Lights that shine no more on earth
for which we shed many tears.
But still you are both my beacons
And I need you right now.
You hear all the prayers I say
Because they are answered somehow.
I wish that you both could be here,
But in a way you are.
Your symbols In dreams and rainbows goes everywhere with me,
so I know you can't be far.
It still is quite a shock to me
that you both had to die;
But no one will forget you
I love you, and goodbye.

Dedicated to My Tio Junior and Daddy

WOW!! I can't believe it's been a year since u last parted. Seems like only yesterday U were at Mami's house throwing pillows at me, so I could wake up. I miss U very much tio, more then words could ever express. It's memories like the one I just shared, and many more, that help ease the fact that your gone. I love you very much, and bendicion..

Papi,

Bendicion. How could I forget you. The person who raised me the best he could. The only father I ever knew. The best one, I may add. The man, who gave me everything he ever could. The person who showed me nothing but happiness during my child hood days. How I wish U were here to see me now. Getting older, almost graduating, working. Soon getting ready to go to college and start my very own life. In that life, I will remember and put to use everything that U and mom have taught me. I will not let U both down. Who would have thought that Lil Cristy, will soon be on her own. Of course with ma by her side always. I miss U now, more then ever. I guess that the older U get, the more u realize and comprehend how much u really need of someone. For example a father figure. I know that even though U aren't here physically, thru Mom U r. I feel you when she hugs me, and kisses me, even when she touches me. I know that the love she has for me, which is more then words can ever ever express is double by your presence within her. I admire Mom so much, because she has raised me on her own ever since you parted. It hasn't been easy on her, but she has never given up hope. Mom and U are the reasons why I've been so strong. U both have never given up hope on me. U guys have always trusted me. U guys have always been there for me. As well as my family. I can't ask for a better family, then what I have now. I have a family who cares. Even though at times I may get scolded at, here and there, I never feel unloved. On the contrary, I feel full of love. U can see it in there eyes, how much they care. Thank U for always answering my prayers. I ask u, once more, to take care of mom, to give her the strength to continue on with life. Take care of my family, and give them nothing but happiness and peace. If something negative were mean't to happen. Then, give us the Serenity and peace of mind to pass thru it. I love you with all my heart, and more then words and anything in this world can ever express. Till the next letter...

Cristy*

Esta es una cancion para ti querido Hermano. Que te extraño....

Al doblar las campanas detras de
Cada rostro estava la tristeza,
De no vorver lo aver.

Desierta estan las calles,
Que el caminava.
Y solo en mi mente,
Podre vorver lo allar.

Neccesito su presencia,
Pues le temo al la aucencia.
Ahora duerme para siempre,
En un mundo differente.
Yo lo estuve en mis brazos,
Y senti su amor profundo.
Mas tan solo en un segundo,
Se iso parte de la nada.

Te voy a extrañar,
En cada segundo,
Te voy a extrañar,
En cada momento.

Necessito su presencia,
pues le temo a la aucencia.
Ahora duerme para siempre,
En un mundo differente.
Yo lo estuve en mis brazos,
Y senti su amor profundo.
Mas tan solo en un segundo,
Se iso parte de la nada.

Te voy a extrañar.
Espero que un dia,
Amor de mi vida,
Te vuerva a encontrar.
Esperando por ti,
Para vorver nos amar.

Te quiere,
Tu querida Hermana
Que te adora,
Nilda*

Dear Dad & Junior;

Well its been one year since Junior left us and 6 years & 7 months since daddy left us, it still feels as if it were yesterday. As you can see, it has been a tough year for the family. My share was also hard. Tory and the kids went back to Puerto Rico last week and it was very hard on me and Tito. We wanted him to live a better life here but I guess he had other plans. We moved to a smaller apartment closer to my job and it is nice. Oh daddy, I miss Tory so much. I hope it gets easier everyday. I know that if you had been here, you would have gave him good advice. I miss you guys alot and please watch out for the family. God bless you and Junior always. Please keep an eye out for the family. We still need you.
I love you guys.
Mirna
(ps) Dad, thanks for the dream.

Hola mi amores:

Hey Victor, it's been a year now and it seems like only yesterday. I was talking to mom and she was crying and heavy hearted that she misses you soooooo much. You know me, "the cryer" just joined in on a sobbing frenzy with her, but then I started to tell her that we need to think of the happy times we had with you. Like the time when we were kids that you ordered the pizza and wanted to pay it by giving up brother Richie. Or the time you lost $5.00 and mom and I watched as you walked up and down Fullerton Avenue like a mad man in search for them $5.00. I finally made her laugh and told her that I know in my heart that you and papi are fine. I love you guys and I want to thank you for the message you and papi sent me when I was watching "Crossing Over with John Edwards". I am still shocked and sooooo happy with that message and everyone I tell the story to agrees that the message indeed was for me.

I will always miss you and pops but I will never forget you both. I know you both are watching over us and taking care of mom. I love you bro and bendicion pop. Papi, I sure miss you, my best friend, I love you always.

Love, hugs & kisses

Evelyn & George

To think...it's already been a year! How time flies! Well as u know alot has happened within the year that u've been gone. both bad and good...but u know what they say...If the lord brought u to it he'll bring u thru it! We have a new addition to our family. His name is Geremyah...he reminds me so much of u and grandpa. He's so chubby and has the most gorgeous eyes! My mom calls him Salsero Sinatra! It's like the lord took you and gave us him...he makes u want to melt! Then again u and grandpa had that effect on many!! =)

On a more serious note tho my dad had a heart attack a couple weeks ago. The feeling was oh so familiar considering what happened to u and grandpa. Of coarse it scared my mother and I and most of all my dad. It made him realize that he has to take his health a little more serious! So I ask thru the grandkids, children and loved ones....help my dad and watch over him. For the lord knows he's our backbone! Just like u were for many and grandpa was for grandma.

Of coarse I ask that u continue to do what u do which is watch over us and guide us to the right path. Theres alot of temptation and evilness out there but that's just the devil being the demon that he is. But with you all, the lord and eachother...theres nothing we can't get thru!

I love you both and of coarse miss you more then words can say. I thank u for all the good times and most of all for the luv u've both given us. Continue to paint those skies with that one of a kind Ferrer touch! Muuuah and Bendicion! xoxoxoxo

Hey Victor,

Well, I never met you or ever got to know you. But as Maribel (My friend) has been telling me about you. and I'm truely sorry for what had happened. seems like you we're a good heart person and that you we're there for your owns. If you're listening to me right now let you be the guardian angel for them aswell. we love you!

Hey vic

Well its been awhile since i last wrote in here...well i wanted 2 tell u that 2day marks a year since u have leafed us...and let me tell u what i fell. i fell alone but i know im not cus u will alwayz be with me and looking over me..what is going thru my mind right now is wow already a year and it seem like yeserday...victor i miss u alot this past year has been kinda difficult.im doing ok in life but i guess since i always had u there with me i never worried about anything.But i know ure lookin over me and your watchin me.Things with me have been great im doing good..i will alwayz contiune to miss u alwayz i love u my sexy baby...what i would do to call u that again..well me and cristina alwayz called u that...well today me mom maria and cristina are going to go pay u a visit...well dad i wanna let u know that contiune looking over me and the family muahzzzzz ilove u alwayz and i will contiune 2 have have u live in heart alwayz..i love u muahzzzz well thatz it for now until next time sexy baby BENDICION!!!! muahzzz

Hey Papi,



It's Me Vicky, well it is about 11:04pm and I could not sleep I am up thinking of you and wish I had you to talk to right about now, I am so sorry you and I could not have that Father Daughter relationship, but the love was alway there I know it was someone had to remember me. Any way Daddy I miss you so much Every time I pray at I always ask God to send one up to you and Grandpa. Daddy I need you today I am 30 years old and still feel like i don't have it together I am working and the kids are fine, I also am attending church faithfully, Pappi I don't know if I mentioned this to you before but I am married now and I thought it was the best decision of my life now only God will answere that for me. He is who I confide in because if I tell people I won't get the respect I deserve. The lord seems to answere me in many way, I just don't know why it comes to men I find my self making the wrong decisions, well papi I was in tears and I wanted to speak to you I just wish you were still a phone call away.



I love you

Vicky always Ferrer

your daughter misses you.

P.S.

Pablito, titi Gorginas son past away today 37 years old and he died of a heart attack, and Juni might be next although I am praying to god that he spare him at his young age. please watch over Juni, I love you papi

take care

Hi you guys...Bendicion! Well grandpa ur b-day was on Sunday. Obviously u know that we went to go visit both you and tio that day. It was emotional of coarse but felt good to spend at least a little time w/u! Of coarse we miss u very much and boy do I wish I could have hugged u, kissed u, and sang happy b-day to u. U were the best grandfather a girl could have and I thank u for that!



I love you both and miss u very much! May you continue to watch over us and we thank u for all the good memories! Muuuuuah to u both!



xoxoxoxoxo

Hey Dad



Well its me Mari let me start off by saying bendicion!!!well i know i havent been writing to u much but thats because i have been busy u know...but now that i have the time let me tell you we have not forgot about you. we will forever think of you... u will always be in our hearts....I love u my sexy baby thats what me and cristina use to call u when we seen u in the hospital ..u used to like that word cus thats what u would call us...i guess we rubbed off on u with that word huh ....haha...well my sexy baby contuine doing a good job looking over us with grandpa tell him i said hi and muahzzzz. i love u guys so much and i will forever miss u guys....well thats it for now until ill write to u again muahzzz ilove u my sexy baby!!!! Bendicion!!!!



Love u always

Mari

Hello grandpa and tio. First and foremost BENDICION! Theres really no reason for this entry besides me saying that we all luv u's and miss u's VERY MUCH! The grass is starting to grow and the flowers are beginning to bloom. Just sure signs that spring is officially here. As u may know...My b-days this month. I'm not really asking for much. Just for you all to continue to be with me every minute of the day!



Thanks for being our guardian angels...Lord knows we need u! I love you both with all my heart and until we meet again u'll forever remain there! Bendicion and a bunch of kisses and huggies from us to you! Muuuuah!



xoxoxoxoxo

hey bro.

was just thinking of you and thought id drop u a line whazzzzzzzzzzz up

miss you a lot hope your ok

and tell dad i miss him dearly love both of you`s and always thinking of u

love you always eddie, mildred,mireha,jazzy and kiara

Hey Victor,



Hey well let me start off by saying bendicion!!!well i know ure up in heaven looking down on us and we will continue missing u forever and ever..well theres sumones birthday coming up on the 27th of this month and its cristina"s. me and her were talking today about how u use to wake her up early in the morning and sing to her happy birthday she was telling me there will never ever be sumone like u that can sing her happy birthday like u can.and i cant get over how fast she is growing up already the big 17 and i remember when she was only 5 years old wow how she has grown up to what she is today.well let me let u go i love u always and forever continue looking down on me and the family guide us thru each day that comes..we love u and miss u until next time bendicion and i love u muahzzzzz



mari

Hello Everyone! Sorry that I haven't been on here for a while. Just been swamped with work and all. Although that's no good excuse. Well I just wanted to let everyone know that their all in my heart and prayers. I luv u all very very much. And I'm so proud to have u all in my life. Anyhow, it's good to read what's on my little cousins minds! It's like woah! That's deep! You young ladies continue to do ur thang! Just always make sure that it's the right decision and becuz u want to do it! Don't let your friends or anyone influence you! Remember...u not only have your uncle/father looking after you but also your grandfather. Lets continue to make them proud girls....cuz i know I am! Again I love you all very very much...If you ever need someone to talk to or a shoulder to cry on just give me a call!! I'm always here for each and everyone of you!! Muuuuuuuuah to all and bendicion to 'lil' grandma, my parents, aunts, uncles, etc. Just remember that we were all born to die...but are you leaving your mark on your luved ones like tio and grandpa did on us? Just a little something to think about! xoxoxoxoxo

Hi tio

this is dezi again i noticed someting very important in mille's and cindy's room its you card to heaven we were all talking about when god called you home. we just talked and talked about it. and that night cynthia noticed something very odd in your house. see saw angels dancing and singing but no words . i said to her thats nothing to be scared of its just grandpa, you and my father's , fater dancing and singing. then we all just cried. cried happiness because you are ok and safe. and a few weeks afer that cynthia and i and mille noticed something there was white stuff and crystals and around the room it was magic , and jourey for us . we just forget our trobles then. thats all for now.

Hey dad,



Well its been awhile since the last time i wrote in here and im sorry its just that i havent been online to much.well yesterday marked 7 months since u had leafted us things here r the same like always.we will continue to miss u every single day there isnt a day we dont talk about u or think of u.well i love and i miss u dearly u will be missed but never ever forgotten but i think u already know that am i right. well until next time i love u always bendicion ...love u always and forever



mari

hi tio i just wanted to say happy dr martin luter king day we still all miss you dearly and we know that we are going to see you again with the same old beautiful we will hear you in the voice of in humming bird you will be painting the same old pitures the last time we seen ya. ok i love you rest in peace and tell mr dr king happy b-day and i hope that you are free in the promise land.!

DEAR VICTOR,



Let me start off by saying bendicion what u have taught me since u were rasing me..I also wanted to say:This is for my cousion melanie who i got nothing but luv for her..It is so true what u said about the family Let me say this I know that my last name isnt FERRER but ever since my dad introduced us to the family i feel like im apart of it. and i am soo glad to be a part of this wonderful family i love each and everyone of u guys thats goes for all my aunts and uncles.I can remeber the day i met cristina(WOW HOW SHE HAS GROWN)she was only 5 years old and i was 9 and she was the most sweetiest Lil girl.Now shes all grown up.And i wanna to thank u for giving me that opurtunity to be part of ure life ya u r gone but in my heart ure still here at home joking ,laughing, being mad (LOL)But what i am trying to say is that u were the best dad a girl can have and i am grateful 4 that...to all my anuts and uncles I LOVE U GUYS VERY VERY MUCH and u guys have been great to me.. what i am saying is that please lets be a family again he would have wanted the same so until next time i love all my aunts and cousions and uncles bendicion and i love u guys love always



mari

Dear victor,



Let me start off by saying bendicion!!what u have taught me to always do.I also wanted to say:This is for my cousion melanie, It is so true what you are saying about the family guys my dad may be gone but please dont forget about one another yes we think of the moments we had with him good, bad, happy etc..Let me say this i know my last name isnt FERRER but ever since my dad brought me and my mom into the family i feel like a FERRER and iam so glad to be part of this wonderful family and i love each and everyone of u guys.I can remeber the day i met cristina(WOW HOW SHE"S GROWING)she was only 5 years old and i was 9.she was the most sweetiest Lil girl i met.Now shes all grown up.and i will like to thank god for blessing me with a wonderful family and to say im part of them makes me proud. I will also like to say thanks for rasing me the way u have there will never be another victor like u that can scream at me like u did.but mom always told me never get mad at victor when he screams at u hes making u understand the values of life.what im trying to say is that i love u for teaching me what i know today.....Once again i will like to say i love each and everyone of u guys...But please dont let my dad"s death break up the family he is wacthing over us with grandpa I LOVE U GUYS ALWAYS

and thanks for hearing me out until next time bendicion i love u





Love always

mari

Titi....I would never loose faith! My family is too dear to me. It's those beautiful memories that keep that faith inside of me/us. With a family as big as ours theres nothing but hope and unconditional love! Muuuuah to everyone!! And may god continue to bless us! Not with houses and cars but with love and time spent with one another!

Junior and Dad;



Well, the new year started and so far, so so. You know whats happening with us. Its amazing how people younger than I make more sense then us who are older. Melania is sooo right. Although we were still close, we have drifted a bit from the rest of the family. I know we don't do it on purpose, however, we have. I wish daddy was here because although sometimes he would force us to come to the house, we were together. Those were nice times. We would all stand by the stereo and sing along with all the christmas songs. Daddy would tell mom not to feed everyone so fast because they would leave early and he wanted us to stay longer. He would always be in charge of the guiro, Carmen would grab the tamberine(?) Nilda the microphone, Richie sitting quietly but clapping, Eddie and Junior watching whatever was on TV but clapping along, Evelyn and Me in the kitchen with mom. I would do anything to have just one more christmas like that. Melania, hopefully we still have a chance. Don't give up. I love you guys and I miss you.



Mirna

To my Tio Victor, Loving grandfather and Everyone who reads this:



Hmmmm where do I begin? I typed a message about a week ago and for some reason it never came out. So I'm just going to try and remember everything and see if you all feel me on this...So here we gooooo.



First and foremost MAN HOW TIME FLIES!! To think it's already been 6 years since the lord took my grandpa. The beautiful man that helped make this wonderful family that I have. The man who's smile was worth a million dollars and who's hugs and kisses were priceless! I remember everytime he use to kiss me I would get a rash from his beird cuz my skin was so sensitive...Man what I would do for just one more of those. Or when I was about 8 or 9 and tio use to live with grandpa and grandma. We were hanging out and he's like let me paint ur nails. He grabbed his paints and painted palm trees, morros and all kinds of stuff. I swore I was the bomb!! I went showing my nails off to all my friends like DON'T HATE!! =0)~ (well of coarse back in those days that saying wasn't even out hahaha)

Or do you all remember our family parties? Them bringing out the instruments and microphones...singing arginaldos! It was the Ferrer version of American Idol! hahaha =) Every x-mas was at grandmas house. No matter what other plans u had u better had showed up...OR ELSE!!

I ask u all one question...What happened? Why don't we do that anymore? It just goes to show how one person can keep a WHOLE family together! Everyone...I'm not here to make u cry or feel bad I'm here to make a point. We're all in eachothers lives for a REASON. In order for us to find that reason we have to come together and figure it out as one!! Grandpa and tio Victors passing proves that we only have ONE life to live! It shows that none of us are promised tomorrow. It's like when tio was taken it was a dejavue of when grandpa died. One minute they were fine and the next...they were gone. It hurt! Really bad! But then u stop to think...Man grandpa's not alone anymore! He doesn't have just anybody...he has his first born son! I don't know about u all but I'm pretty happy to have the two best guardian angels anyone could ever have! Yes I'm sad and yes i miss them very VERY much. But like Cristinas poem says...WHEN THE LORD TAKES US BACK ONE BY ONE THE FAMILY CHAIN WILL BE LINKED AGAIN. Those are strong words to live by. Don't dwell on what u could have done or should have done. Be happy that u were blessed enough to know them, hold them, and have them in ur presence. Weather it was everyday or once a year....U still were blessed to have them and so were they to have u and I.

Look at all the people that didn't know them. Who can look at one of his paintings and say...WOW THAT'S BEAUTIFUL..who's the artist??? It's a good feeling when u can say MY UNCLE, FATHER, BROTHER, ETC. We're all very proud of the both of them...Always have been always will be.

I love you all and thank you for hearing me out and "feeling me" on a few of these things. But u guys...it's one thing to read it and agree to it...but it's another to actually do it and make change. These words are from my heart and are sincere as can be. I just hope that we all can become closer and make more efforts with one another. Again I love you all and am blessed to have each and everyone of u in my life. I know we may not be that close...or who knows some of u may not know me or remember me...but the fact that we have Ferrer blood is enough to know that theres always someone who's gonna be there for u and who's love is unconditional. God bless u all and of coarse Bendicion to all my aunts, uncles, parents, and grandparents, etc.

WITH MUCH LUV,

xoxoxo~Melanie~xoxoxo

aka

Melania

(My aunts know what that means) =)

hey tio

iam sorry that i didnt write you sooner tio victor. please help our family get together again. i love you and rest in peace

HELLO TIO

WE MISS YOU BUT YOUR FACE TO FACE WITH THE CREATOR.TELL GRANDPA THAT WE ALL MISS YOU.WE HOPE THAT YOU ARE MAKING THOSE WONDERFUL PAINTINGS. WE LOVE YOU PLEASE WACTH OVER THE FAMILY MAKE THEM SEE HOW SHOULD LIFE BE.

LIKE MELANIE SAID LUV YA.

AND ALWAYS REST IN PLEASE

DESIREE COLLAZO

DEAR THEO VICTOR

WE ALL MISS YOU SO DEARLY BUT WE YOU ARE FACE TO FACE WITH THE CREATOR. I HOPE THAT YOU ARE MAKING THOSE BEAUTIFUL PAINTINGS IN PARADISE.AND IF YOU SEE GRANDPA TELL HIM THAT WE MISS YOU AND WE WILL SEE YOU AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.HELP THE PEOLPE SHOW THEM HOW SHOULD LIFE BE.PLEASE WACTH OVER OUR FAMILY BECAUSE WE DONT NEED A OTHER LOSS. WELL OK I LOVE YOU AND PLEASE AND ALWAYS REST IN PEACE.

DANNYS DAUGTER DESIREE NICOLE COLLAZO.

WE ALL MISS YOU!

Hey Dad,



Well it is Christmas day and I was thinking of you. I know you are up there one of jesus angels, so spread love from me. Dad tell Grandpa I said bendicion, I want to start off by saying Merry Christmas, I remember how much you use to love celebrating Christmas with the entire Ferrer Family, I just wish I would have paritcipated more than, its alright because I always had you in spirit. Daddy, my little sister had a baby girl today, I don't believe you ever met her but I just thought I'd let you know. I am thankful for all I have today, I just have been a little tempermental against the ones I love. I should learn to be patient and bequiet, and let life take its course. Well, I dont know where I get my stuburness from. Well Daddy I want to wish you the best and hope you still watching over me. I love you and miss you Daddy. You Grand children wish you and miss you the same.





Love you Daughter



Vicky Ferrer

Hey PoP"s



Well as u might know today is christmas!!! and all of us wish u were here with us opening gifts but instead ure with grandpa clebrating it up in heaven..Well we all know that christmas was ure favorite time of year mom was telling me "When it was time to take down the christmas decorations in the house u use to tell her "lucy please leave them up one more day they look so pretty"and thats what she did cus she said if it was up to u everyday will be christmas...well i just wanted to say that we love and miss u everyday not just on holidays or ure birthday but everyday that comes...well i guess thats it ill let u go until next time bendicion to u and grandpa.



love

mari

Mi querido hermano,

Merry Christmas. We miss you very much. You live in our hearts and always in our memory.



I love you,



Carmen M.

Dear Junior & Dad;



Today is Christmas Eve and I cannot believe it!! This year went by soooo fast that if you blinked, you missed it. It was a tough year for everyone. I hope 2003 brings us a little more joy. We are getting out of work at 11:30 am. That is good because I still have to buy Dariel's gift. He is such a typical little boy, we wants bike, a motorcycle and cars. For his sister, he asked for a doll, a motorcycle and some cars. (I wonder who for?). Well bless us all. Love you guys.



Mirna

Well Dad,



I took a little time out to read the entries the family made. It is true what Titi Mirna says, holidays makes you feel like you are more alone. Well Dad, I miss you and regret I was not next to you, when you needed me most. I remember calling your nurse on Sunday to check on you because I could not go, because of distance, the nurse said oh he is fine, he is actually fussing at the nurse because she won't let him watch T.V. loud. I started to laugh and I asked her if you aite and is everything well, she said he is actually doing better than when you left yesterday (sat.). I told her to tell you that I was comming out to be with you on Thursday, and that I missed you and love you, while I listened to your response on the phone. You said OK. Than Monday, I couldn't make it to work in time and to hear from a co'worker that you passed, Dad what happened? Why did you leave me, why didn't you wait till I came back, it is not fare. I know I can't be angry but I am hurt, because I miss you and love you and wish I had more time with you. I am almost 30 years old and can't bare the thought of you beeing gone. I made many desicions in my life that I am not proud of, I hope now that you are a part of the Lords team you will help me out. Dad, I love you and pray every night, I ad Grandpa in my prayers because I know you are reunited and watching out for the fam. I just pray I am included. I wanted to be a part of buying your head stone, but I could not afford it right now I hope the family will accept my money in the future when I can spare it. I know this is one thing I grew to be a very strong women, I have always supported my self, and took care of my own responsabilities, I believe the will to survive did not only come from Mom, because I here there is a lot of you in me. I remember when you and I use to draw together and you always told me don't let my talent go to waist, now I wish I would have listened to you, because you gave me the gift of art. Well dad I have rambeling on and on it is cause I miss you, and wish we had more daddy and daughter time.



Remember you took me to the circus, I think I was around 8 or 9 I rode a elephant, I will never forget that time we had, I love you daddy, I have to go because I am crying to much.



Love you

miss you

please be with me

Vicky Ferrer

key word Ferrer

Dear Junior;



Well its been 5 months since your parting and 6 years to the day since dad's parting. They both landed on the same date. Well the holidays are here and again you know who your family and friends really are. Life is tough but must continue. Sometimes I think holidays come around to make you feel more alone then what you really are instead of being joyous. If people only appreciate their love ones when they are alive and not when they are gone. I know I was not by your side when you parted but I think you chose that. You and dad did the same thing, you waited to be alone to go and I think that is very admirable. Although we all wish that we were there for you more than what we thought we were. You know, I did not know that you did not like poultry until you were in the hospital. I think nobody did, only mom. I guest each of us knew something about you that no one else did and in its own way, we each held a special place in your heart.



Remember when I lived in Lowell and I went to Chicago to see you guys, mom and dad lived on Diversey and you and Lucy lived accross the street. The morning we were returning back to Lowell, you told me that you wanted to give me a going away gift and you ran to your house painted me a picture and ran back to give it to me. It took you 45 minutes. It was a painting of a pink clown. It was still wet and it was so pretty. You wrote a really nice message on the back. Everywhere I have gone, that painting, the map of Puerto Rico you painted for me and your 2 posters have gone with me. But that one painting is special because it came from your heart. On Sunday December 15th, I hung that painting in my grandson's bedroom knowing that through that painting, you and dad are watching over him when he sleeps and plays. I wish daddy had met him so he can see how special he is. He reminds me of Tory when he was small. He acts just like him and he is as sweet as Tory was. Don't get me wrong, he also inherited the nickname you gave Tory, "el electrico". Those are some of the nice things you did.



Since I started working at this office, I have met some people who know dad's brother Rico and knew dad. Today, I talked to another SSA employee in Caguas who turned out to be our second cousin. Cool right! Well sweetie, I'll talk to you soon. As always please watch out for Mom and the guys.

I Love and miss you and dad so much.



Love,

Mirna

Hey victor



Well it"s been 5 months and all of us down here miss u dearly and we think of u consetly. u r always in ure hearts,minds and soul may god bless ure beatiful soul.i love u very much and im always thinking of u tell grandpa bendicion for me i miss u both very much



love always

mari

bendicion

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Hey Sexy



Well as u might know and probley allready do today is Thanksgiving day and like always we were thinking of u.we miss u dearly and we love u very much.please dont forget the rainbows i know i havent asked for one yet but im sure ure getting around to it and i cant wait to see it.well i guess thats it until next time bendicion and we love and miss u very much u will be missed.





mari

Hey Baby,

I wonder how many people knew that you didn't like turkey but insisted on Mom cooking one because of tradition? I remember that just as I remember those very special things about you that make you unique. Victor, it's the memories that live in our heart that will keep you close to us forever and know that you will always live in the hearts of your loved ones. God bless you always.



Carmen Milagros

Junior;



Well thanksgiving is tommorrow and again I am far from my family. Although that is my decision, I still miss them dearly. I hope that next thanksgiving I will be able to go home with Tito, Tory and the kids. That would be great. I love you and miss you.



Mirna

Dear Victor,



As the holidays near, we remember fondly better times. Within these memories, you are very present. I miss you, not because of what you did for me or others, but because of who you are. I love you and God bless you always.



Carmen Milagros

Hey pop"s



well its been 4 months and i still picture myself with mom going to pic up grandma to go see u at the hospital but insted ure with god under his wing.well guess what i seen grandma today i know its been so long since i seen her she hasnt changed but today she looked sad but i already know y.well i guess thats it ill see u unitl next time bendicion i love u very much and miss u dearly. ure always in my heart



mari

WELL ITS BEEN 4 MONTHS TODAY SINCE YOU LEFT. I WISH YOU WERE AROUND. MOM REALLY MISSES YOU. YOU WERE THE ONE THAT MOSTLY VISITED HER SO SHE FEELS YOUR ABSENCE PRETTY MUCH. SHE IS A STRONG WOMAN. I GUESS PEOPLE DON'T GIVE HER THE CREDIT SHE DESERVES. MY FAMILY IS DOING GOOD. WATCH OUT FOR MOM. I MISS YOU GUYS.



MIRNA

Well dad it's me Vicky, missing you as always. I really wish we had more father daughter time, I find my self more thinking of you more and more everyday. I guess its true what they say you really don't appreciate people that should be close untill they are gone. Well I know it was probably best, but I wish you where here and god would have waited, but he called you it was your time. I just hope you are in my life now and guide my every move. I have not kept in touch with the family much I hope they are well, I know you along wiht Grand pa are watching over them especially Grand ma. I have given my self to he lord now and feel so much better, not that I was out there bad but I needed guidence, and now that you are gone the lord will provide. It hit me hard to here my Dad is up in heaven, because now more than ever I know I need you, one time I almost thought you came to me in my dreams, I was a little girl even Grandpa was in this one, you guys were laughing at something I did, well if that was you, it felt so nice to see you. Well papi I am ill, I wish I had grandmas soup to make me feel better, but I have to settle for campbells, I love you, I talk you on occasion in my prayers at night, I know you hear me because I always feel this sence of security, so say bendicion to grandpa, and don't forget to visit me in my dreams, because I miss you so. I love you





Vicky Ferrer

your loving daughter

Dear Junior;



Well, she is here. My grandaughter was born the day after Tito's b-day, November 8, 2002 at 12:24 pm. She is beautiful. She looks alot like Tory and Dariel. Her name is Alanie Victoria Rivera, 5.15 lbs., 18 inches long. Thank you for answering my prayers. We are very happy. I love you and dad and god do I miss you guys!



Love,

Mirna

Mi Querido hijo,



Adios con el corazoñ,

Que con el alma no puedo.

Venimos a despedirte,

De sentimiento me muero.

Tu seras el bien de mi vida,

Tu seras el bien de mi alma,

Tu seras el pajaro pinto, que Allegre canta por la mañana.

Cantemos todos cantemos,

Alabanzas al Señor.

Y undios le pediremos,

que nos de resignacion.

Tus familiares y amigos,

venimos a despedirte.

Siempre te recordaremos,

Por la amistad que nos distes.

Cantemos todos cantemos,

Alabanza's al Señor.

Y juntos le pediremos,

que nos de resignacion.



Para ti mi hijo departe de tu madre, que te quiere y nunca te olvidara. Que dios te me Bendiga Siempre.....

Hello My Love,



Well it's coming up to 4 months since you left to hang out with papi. I miss you both so very much. I'll always remember you because every room in my home has a painting from you.



We buried Ramona today. I'm sure she's there with all of you at peace. But here is a poem I read that I want you to read:



I am home in heaven dear ones

Oh so happy and so bright!

There is perfect joy and beauty

In this everlasting light.

All the pain and grief is over,

Every restless tossing passed,

I am now at peace forever,

Safely home in heaven at last.

There is work still waiting for you,

So you must not idly stand;

Do it now, while life remaineth

You shall rest in God's own land.

When that work is completed,

He will gently call you Home;

Oh, the rapture of that meeting,

Oh, the joy to see you come!



I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU!

YOUR SISTER,

XOXO~EVELYN~XOXO

Mi querido hijo,



Primero que nada, te echo la Beñdicion. Y espero que estes junto a tu papa. De mi te dire, que estoy bien, siempre recordando te. Porque nunca, te podre olivdar. Recuerdo cada dia que me llamavas y que me venias a visitar cuando sola me encontrava. Te dire, que nunca podre olvidar la ultima visita que te ise en el Hospital. Cuando te vi, que estabas cambiando la television me puse tan contenta. Cuando yo iva pensar, que esa noche tu te ivas para no volver. Quisiera saber que paso esa noche. Pero eso lo sabes tu y dios. Espero, en ti, y el Señor que lo que paso me lo digas en un sueño. Porque todavia no puedo pensar que esto alla susedido. Junior, siempre viviras en mi corazoñ. Igual que mis demas hijos. Quiero que sepas, Que el dia tres de Noviembre fue la primera misa que to ofresi. Te la isieron en la iglesia. Y asi sera todo el tiempo. Si ves a tu papa que se que esta a tu lado. Dile que siempre ruego a dios por el y por ti. Que siempre lo amare, para el resto de mis dias. De Vicki, esta bien. Ella me llama cada ves que puede. Le ases mucha farta. Bueno querido hijo, que dios te me bendiga siempre y que te tenga en la santa gloria. A ti, tu padre, y a mi querida Amiga Ramona, que enteramos ayer. Nunca los olvidare. Donde quiera que este, los llevare sercitita a mi corazoñ. Hasta la proxima Carta....

Hey pop"s

well what can i say?im speechless right now all i know is that ure gone and never coming back but hey god knew what he was doing when he called u.so did i in a way but i didn"t think it wouldnt be this soon and that fast.but things down here r going good mom saids hi and shes love"s u but u allready know that.well i guess thats it until next time BENIDICION I LOVE U



MARI

Tio Junior,



We little knew that morning,

God was going to call your name,

In life we loved you dearly,

In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you,

You did not go alone.

For part of us went with you,

The day God called you home.

You left us beautiful memories,

Your love is still our guide,

And though we cannot see you,

You are always by our side.

Our family chain is broken now,

And nothing seems the same,

But as God calls us one by one,

The chain will link again.

Dear Junior;



Its been 3 months since you left and although you and I didn't talk everyday, I miss you very much. Well alot of things are going on in my family, that is why I haven't talked to you. Because you and dad are with me always, I am not going to write my issues here. I do hope you pray for my kids. My daughter- in-law and my son. She is not doing too good. It has been a rough couple of months. Please help us. I love you and pray for you and dad every chance I get. Take care of mom and the rest of the guys. I am still trying to get a hold of your son but no success. I am not going to stop until i find him so help me do just that. Take care hun. Talk to you later.



Mirna

Hey Pop"s



Well let me start off by saying benidcion!!!as u have always taught me to do.well what can i say that i havent said already?all i know is that it has been three months and i cant get it through my head that u r gone and never coming back.i miss u everyday and im always thinking of u and talking about u with mom.we talk about the funny times we use to have and how u use to make up stories and just laugh.there isnt a day i dont think of u i talk to u before i go to sleep but i think u allready know that .oh ya and i want to thank u so much for hearing me out about how i didnt want a certain somebody to buy the house (u know who im talking about).becuase of my paryers and ure loving care for me u did as i ask i told u "vic please whatever happens please dont let this person buy this house" and what happend u listend to me and u didnt let it happend.thanks for lisenting to me u were always a great listener thank u and i love u.well things down r going great and as u already know how were keeping the house and ure memory through the house will always remin in this house not thru pics but through the family and ure paintings.we all love and miss u dearly u will be missed but never ever forgotten i love u always and thanks for heraing me out but until next time BENCIDION I LOVE U ALWYAS





MARI

Hey Vic,



I'm at work thinking about you as always. I'm very much speechless right about know so much to say and not enough time to write it. Although every thing that is going on you already know, for I know you are with us.

do you remember saying on how mom was always doing so much for others and in the community and she was never recognized well she finally was recognized. My mom was nominated for an award called the first ladies walk. We all were there to support her and we all know you were there as well. It was a wonderful experience for mom. They dressed her, they sent a limo to pick her up and she even modeled the clothes. She looked so beautiful. I even gave a speech that was to cry for, about my mom. We are all so very proud of her. But most of all my mom is loved and cherished by alot of people as you are, we miss you very much vic, missed but never forgotten. Hey vic you already know whats going on with the house, mom and I feel you have alot to do with this and we aren't mad at you, because we really know that there is alot that can be done and will get done with your blesssings, everything happens for a reason and you are that reason so please look over us and guide me so that everything goes smoothly for us and were able to accomplish our goals with this house. You already know what are intentions are. Not to menton the advice that was given to me by carmen, it's like if you were talking through her. Hey vic one more thing, thank you so much for giving me a sign in the backyard although it did spook me a little but I felt at ease after talking to mom about my encounter. I want to thank you for watching over my children, and giving me that sign that Sam was o.k. Thank You so much, I love You and miss you very much.



Maria

Dear Victor,



Its really hard to believe that the day came that you decided to go home. Strange is'nt it, that all the time you thought that people were pushing you to go to the doctor, in fact they were doing it for your own good. Lucy is the strongest women I have ever met because I would always say to myself, Wow she really cares for this man even when he would kick and scream. You were lucky cause not everyone experiences that kind of "love".



My friend you were so lucky. I was fortunate enough to buy one of your (in my eyes) best paintings. Of the Angel (in brown) and with the stars shooting up to the heavens.



My friend you have finally reached the destination to that painting. Thank you for your art and craft, you leave behind a Legacy that can never be forgotten.



Did you ever even realize that I was at the hospital on your last days. I saw that you were ready to meet the creator of your talent.



And I knew that he was about to call for you. Hey, Heaven needs talent too. Your paintings will now be made for the Heavens and with ease to your hands. Rest now, until another time comes, always know the "Angels" did exist. They really did. God Speed to Lucy Roman and Mari and to all the other family members. You were something else. Thank you again for your craft and for "Beauty" of the brush that you gave to any and all that knew you. Thank you for your eye for creativity and your talent (oh that talent), and the eternal mark you left on canvas for those who knew you. Say hi to Davinci and all the other great painters, you are now with the best.



Friends always, Damian Omar Plaza (City of Chicago/CDC) 10/02

Hey Victor,



Well like everyear everyone in the world has a birthday well guess what?today is mine and to see that ure not here to see me turn the big 20 is really hard on me.because everyyear on this day i wolud wake up to a cheerful victor that would always say HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARI and u wolud always tell me so what do u want to do on ure day. but u would always tell me lets go have breakfast and that always made me happy beacuse it was just us two.well i want to thank u for at least seening me grow up and seeing me go threw my teenage years u have been there thru thick and thin.but i know ure going to be wacthing me thru the rest of my life u might not be here but ure here in sprit and ure always with me for the rest of my life.i love u always and once again i wish u were here to help me clebrate this day i know u will be with me today i love u always and forever.until next time BENDICION!!!



lOVE Always

Mari

HEY POPS,

Well its only been two months that u have been gone and all i know is that my heart aches everytime and and i sit there thinking man only two months its seems like it was just yesterday.all i know is that i miss u like crazy and there will never ever be another victor like u.u have been great ya me and u have had r times but we learned to get over it in time and i want to thanku once again for what u have tauhgt me about life and how it is out there in the world.well i guess that it ok.MY SEXY BABY i love and miss u like crazy!!!!! well bye bye until next time



MARI

Hey Papi,



Well today is a gloomy day and as always was thinking of you. Daddy I wish i had you here with me, I find my self still crying, wishing I had more time with you, one day I will get use to the fact you are gone. I am 29 and already lost a part of my heart, although I know you are with me spiritually I will never forget you. But I do miss you, I still have major things to acomplish in my life and wish you where here to share them with me, and that is why I come to tears because I know you won't be. I love you and miss you, I have yet to go by Grandmas and get a picture we took in the hospital, I will so I can keep it close. I love you dad and miss you so much.



Your Daughter

Vicky.

Well Junior its been another month since you left us and it still has not sunked in. It will someday. I was looking at the paintings I have that you did. You have so much talent. I don't have many but, the few that I do, are very precious to me because you painted them especially for me. Tory brought me a picture that he had of you next to one of your creations. He has it in his car next to daddy's picture. Life is just tough.



I talked to mom yesterday and she is doing good. Watch out for her and the guys. We all need from you and dad. I love you very much.

Take care.



Mirna

Hey Pops,

Well i got bored so i thought i write to MY SEXY BABY!!!well like every year the boriuca fest was this sunday and just to think that ure never going to be there doing face painting u will be doing it in heaven with the angels and i am thankful to have had a dad like u that was bless with such a talent and i will always tell pepole my dad was the greatest artist ive know.and u will be missed but never ever forgotten and i love u always.well this weekend we had a rain storm and like always they say after a storm there will be a rainbow and there wasnt one but i know ure thinking of one to make very pretty and colorful so can u please do me a favor dont forget the rainbow ok iwant to see it like i see ur beatiful paintings that r in the house ok.oh ya ill be enrolling in college and i want u to do me a favor and please watch over me when things get hard for me and make sure i dont get mad at the smallest things in life guide me thru this part of my life i need u to be there with me so that im not scared.well i guess thats it ok i will see u next time my sessy baby!!!!!!!



bendicion

mari





I LOVE U !!!

Hey Babe,



Just wanted to say hey. Yesterday I took Mom to la fiesta de Bandera a Bandera. It was nice, but strange. I saw Cuca, the Artist. I told her about you and she was deeply saddened. I miss you everyday, but today seems harder. Take care and God bless you always.

Te quiero,



Carmen Milagros