Nicholas Nelson Obituary

Dear Nick,

Geez. I cannot believe 2009 passed and not one word was written to you. Not having the internet at home has held me back, and I feel horrible about this. You are always in my mind, heart and soul and I think about you every day. But, I am sure you know that already.

I missed telling you happy 25th birthday. A day I cannot imagine not being able to celebrate with you. I am so heartbroken. I had you when I was 23, so I can only imagine where your life would have taken you.

I did bring decorations to the cemetery and your special tree at the park, but not writing it down, well it seems I failed you.

I love you so much and miss you till it hurts way into the core of me.

Well I'm here at the library in tears, so I better stop for now.

I will keep your memory alive.

Forever your Mom

Hi Nick,

Well, another Thanksgiving without you. It saddens me so. I know you have Grandma with you, so that helps ease my pain.

Timmy is almost 8 and it's so hard to believe he was only 1 1/2 years old when you passed.

It looks like he has some artistic talents just like you. I am so very happy about that.

I just wanted to let you know how much I love you and miss you even more with each passing day, week, month, year. It, for me, has not gotten any easier with time. Just the opposite.

Well, I hope to make you proud of me some day. I want and need to do something in your memory. I just haven't quite found the right thing. I have some ideas though.

Well, I will visit again for what would have been your 24th birthday, December 12.

I love you and miss you so very, very much. Please give Gram a hug and kiss from me.

Loving you with all my broken heart,

Dear Nick;

I’ve been coming to your page for many years. I have been praying for your mom and family, but especially for your mom. I found your memorial when I was looking for a copy of my brothers obituary, we have the same last name. Anyway, in 2004, I registered you with find a grave. I would like to turn ownership of the page over to your mom. She can upload pictures to it and make any changes she would like or she can even delete the page. I have most of my family entered as I want people to know how special they were. Here’s a link to your page. Once your mom signs on to the sight she can drop me a note and I will have ownership transferred to her.

http://www.findagrave.com/cgi-bin/fg.cgi?page=gr&GSln=nelson&GSfn=Nicholas&GSbyrel=in&GSdyrel=in&GSob=n&GRid=9196592&

Thank you,
Paula Nelson

Hi Nick !!
Well, Mom did it again. Got herself into a mess. Quit my job and looking into an adventure.

I miss you so much and have you on my mind constantly. Both you and Grandma. I know you two are together and watching over us.

This July will be 5 years. I feel the same now as I did when you died. Full of such pain and sorrow.

You will always be on my mind and in my heart.

Love you !

Hi Nickelodeon,



I'm sending four hugs your way for your Fourth year in heaven. ( I asked Grandma to deliver one for each year to kind of make it up to you)



We really, really miss you, but it makes it a little easier to bear knowing that Grandma is with you and that you are with her.



I know I'm a day early, but with this new job and going to the lake tomorrow, I didn't want to miss sending you a wish and our love.



Please don't think that we will ever forget you, because that would be impossible.



Well...I just wanted to send our love, hugs, and if I could, a can of pop and Pizza Hut Pizza, (haha) to remind you that even though I haven't written for awhile,it's not because you weren't on my mind, I just wasn't near the computer.



LOVE TO YOU ON YOUR FOURTH ANNIVERSARY IN HEAVEN.



Aunt Laura...Uncle Gary, Kelly, Dan, Chooch, Peanut, and Gretzky too!

Dear Nick,



My eyes are tearing as I write this to you. Tomorrow it will be 4 years since you were taken from all of us. The pain and loss has not faded. It never will. I love you so much and cannot bear living here without you.



The only way I've been able to continue on here is to keep pushing reality back into my mind. Of course I talk about you all the time and think about you many times during the day. But, I don't want to "deal" with this. Ever.



Having Timmy around helps keep me from going insane. (although I know you've kept an eye on us and can see he is quite a handful !!)



I saw your butterflies at the times I really needed to see YOU. Thank you for them.



You will never be forgotten in our hearts, minds, souls and memories.



Please give Grandma a hug and kiss from us all.



We all love you and miss you so.



Until I see you again.....

Love,

xoxoxxo

Happy St. Patrick's Day Nick,



All I can say Nick is that I miss you so much. My eyes still fill with tears when I think of you. Now I have you and Grandma gone.



I wish we could have a St. Patty's day drink together, now that you would have been 21.



I miss your laugh, your smile, listening to your music or just having a pizza together. I even miss arguing with you.



I'm sorry I couldn't decorate your tree this year. I bought the clover garland, but between the rain, mud and wind, I just couldn't get there on time.



You and Grandma have a nice day in heaven together. Please give her a hug for me.



I love you forever and ever Nick.

Happy Valentine's Day Nick,



Another one without you. I miss you so much. This year though, you will be spending it with Grandma. I will not.



This was always a very special "heart" day for us. I wish we could be together.



Please give Grandma a kiss and hug from me and she will give you one from me.



You will never leave my heart or my mind Nick. My love still grows stronger for you every day.



I love you!!

Happy 21st Birthday Nicholas,



I kept thinking about how we would be celebrating your very special day if you were here. As it turned out, as you know, Grandma is in the hospital in critical condition and all I could really do for you was get you balloons at the cemetery and your tree at the park and send some up to heaven. When Timmy came home, he and Gramps and I sent more up to you and one is from Grandma.



I miss you so very much and it is hard to understand why you were taken from us.



I thank you so much for being by Grandma's side during her surgery and when we cannot be with her. You give her strength. I know she misses you and would like to be with you, but she knows how much she would be missed here and that we still need her.



I promise to make things up to you for your 21st birthday. I know how excited you would have been. Me and my friends lit a candle for you and I know you are in the hearts of so many people. Just like Jen the hygienist who sent a card to me. She wrote to me what a great kid you were. How you discussed your dreams with her. That you both liked the same music and that you wanted to be on radio. She said it was so kind and thoughtful of you to have sent her a card once. She couldn't imagine why it took her so long to write to me. Her card came at just the right time. I had just gotten home from the hospital. To see that card and the words she had written about you, made me so happy and proud. It was just what I needed at such a low point.



I thank you for being the wonderful, funny, handsome son you were and still are in my heart and mind.



We all love you so much.



Keep watching over Grandma please. She knows you are with her. She loves you so darned much too. And I know she misses you so.



Hugs and Kisses to you my dear love.



Forever in my heart, I love you.

Nick:



Well, it is your birthday today. Gram, as you know, is not doing to well. Please watch over her. Your mom needs her dearly. Wishing you the very best today. Hope you enjoy it. Although, I am not too sure GOD will allow you to party hardy on your "21st" up there in heaven. But you can manage to have some fun in other ways.

Happy Turkey Day!



Sorry Nick. I wish I could have written sooner. I miss you so very much.



We had dinner, as I think you know, at Aunt Laura's. Everytime one of the Klosak children (Gary's sister's kids) walked in I thought of you. Courtney is your age and the others are close by. It was so hard. It IS so hard.



Now with Grandma sick and needing surgery, it is just too much.



I know she is scared and is thinking she is going to die. She even showed Gramps how to pay the bills. I am so heartbroken. We need her. I need YOU.



I know you have been with her and I know you will hold her hand during surgery. She loves you so much and misses you just as intensely as I.



Your 21st birthday is coming soon. I cannot believe it!! I wish you were here so we could go out and celebrate.



It is just so unfair.



I know you are doing well. I do notice the little things you do.



I love you so much.



I cannot believe Timmy will be 5. Just six days after your birthday. We are planning a party at one of your favorites when you were little, Chuck E Cheese. Of course it was called Showbiz back then.



Well, I must go for now.



Love you forever,

Hello Nick,



Well, I made it to Peoria (by myself this year) for the Gift of Hope Celebration of Remembrance Day. I could not believe this was my 4th year attending this ceremony. As usual, it was inspiring, touching, sad and made me so proud of you by giving two people the wonderful gift of sight. Seeing the world through your eyes Nick. I felt the love, hurt, pain, from all the families surrounding me that had lost someone they loved so completely, but left the best legacy... the gift of life, hope. Knowing that a part of you is still here on this earth. These two people seeing the world through your beautiful, mischievious, brown eyes truly amazes me. The tissue you gave for arthritis research and burn victims.



I still need to meet those 2 people in person though. It has been a little over 3 years. Enough time I think for them to get adjusted. I will never be "adjusted" to losing you. Ever.



I miss you so much and I hope you get mine and Timmy's good night kisses. We see your butterflies.



I love you Nick. All of us do. We miss you terribly.



Love you with all my being.

p.s. I hope you don't mind, Timmy is playing with a "select" few of your wrestlers. (The rubber ones that won't break.)

XOXOXOXXOXOXXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX

Nick:



Just wanted to drop you quick line. It is July 27, 2005 and tomorrow will be a very hard day on your mom. She has something special planned for you. If you can manage to show her some sign that you are there with her it would be great. She has cleaned up your room quite a bit. I think her and your brother will start to watch movies in there on your DVD as soon as it cools off a bit. You can drop in and enjoy it with them. Maybe knock over one of your wrestlers to let her know you are there. I can tell that your passing is getting a little easier on your mom. She loves you very much and will always remember and miss you. Hope things are going well for you up there. Keep on drawing and I bet by now you can really play a mean guitar.

My Sweet Nicholas,



Nick. I cannot control the tears when I know that you have been gone for 3 years on the 28th of this month. The most devastating day of my life.



You have been missed so deeply.



I look at your picture and I wonder how you would look now. Would you have cut your hair. Grown a mustache or ?



You would be almost 21. And I cannot believe any of this happened.



What would you be doing. Would you be living at home? Going to art school, working with music. Would the girl you'd be dating be my daughter-in-law one day?



So many questions and thoughts that now will have to go unanswered. Unseen. Your laughter never heard again.



I saw Weekend At Bernies the other morning. It was one of the last movies we saw together. It made me think of you and I laughing in your bedroom. I think it was about 2am. Too late to eat Taco Bell but I think we made a frozen pizza and ate it instead.



Timmy has gotten so big. He is 4 1/2 now and was only 1 1/2 when we lost you. He still knows who you are. He always will.



Each time we see a Monarch butterfly, we know it was sent from you.



Nick you will always be remembered not only in my heart and mind, but in the many people whose lives you touched with your charm, wit, intelligence and your music and art.



I love you with all my heart and soul Nicholas.



Love You!

Miss You!

XOXOXOXO

Happy 4th of July Nick,



I still remember our last one together. It makes me smile. It makes me sad. Just to know we cannot spend it together ever again.



I was so thrilled last year when the butterfly you sent came to me and sat on my shoulder. Staying by my side for a little while. I know you could see that I was feeling so sad and lonely without you here. It really did help and I hope to see one again.



I did see the beautiful black winged, metallic green bodied dragonfly. He was so cool yesterday. Staying by me, following. Listening to my words. What is in my heart. And then the butterfly appearing out of nowhere.



I do miss you beyond words. My love is everlasting.



Please be with me on the 4th again.



All my love.

Hugs and Kisses from me, Timmy, Grandma and Gramps!!

Hey there Nick,



Well, I couldn't stop thinking about you on Mother's Day. It is surely a sad day for me and I miss you terribly. I saw the beautiful butterfly and it did cheer me up. As always.



The warmer weather is upon us and it just makes me think of you walking outside. Of course, I doubt you'd be doing much of that now. You'd be cruisin with the radio blasting. I wish with all my heart you could be doing that. And so much more.



Danny is graduating and I just cannot believe that you were never able to. And with Kelly just finishing her sophomore year. What was your life to have been?



I love you more and more each day and miss you. We all do.



Hugs and Kisses to you Nick.



With all my love and affection,

Mom

Hi Nick,



Well, this Friday is April 15. Twenty years ago you had your first open heart surgery. It saved your life after going into congestive heart failure. I was so scared, but knew that God would keep you here with me. This was a very special and important day to us. Always.



I miss you more than anyone could miss someone who ever brightened their life and was their life.



I love you so much!!



Love with all my heart.

Hugs and Kisses,

Happy 2005 Nick,

I was writing to my brother-in-law,

Jim who we lost on January 9th, and decided to drop you and Bobbo a line too!! How can we lose with all these angels we have in heaven watching out for us! We miss all of you sooooo much, but we know you are all in a perfect place free from harm!!

Love, Debo

Hey Nickelodeon,



Happy Valentine's Day....you'll always be in my heart!

LUV YA BUD,

Aunt Laura

My Dear Valentine Nick,



The third Heart day without you. This was always a very special day for us. It was usually a visit to Dr. Arcilla for your checkup and then it was "Nick" Day. No school. Just you and me grabbing lunch and off to Toys R Us, or as you got older, some music stores. And no matter how old you would be, this would always be our special day that we would do something together.



I miss doing this with you. I miss everyday without you.



Someone left you a gift at the cemetery. A beautiful box with red velvet. Wrapped in a red bandana and tied with twine. I can see a gold cross. I cried when I saw the box and knew that someone had not forgotten. But, I know you will never be forgotten.



I actually had a Valentine's date this past Saturday. I do think you sent Bob to me. I am hoping we have a future together. I still feel the butterflies I felt when I first met him. I have been so very sad since you died and he has made me feel some happiness again.



I love you Nick and will through all eternity.



Happy Valentine's Day to you Nick up in heaven. Hugs and kisses from Timmy and me. I know Grandma and Gramps send their love as well.



Love you!

Merry Christmas & Happy

New Year Nick,



Once again, I had a difficult time getting to a computer before and after Christmas. Sorry this wish is so late.



Christmas is Nicholas. And always will be in my heart and mind. Timmy helped get me through, feeling his excitement and also his birthday on the 18th.



Did you see the "Nick" tree? All the ornaments you made in school with your picture. And the ones I bought for you over the years. I hope you liked it.



I did decorate your tree at the park too, but with the wind and weather, it wasn't holding up very well. In fact, I still have the garland and whatever ornaments are left on it.



I miss you so much Nick. The tears have not stopped. I really don't want them to.



As you know, and I am sure sent my way, I met a very special person who brightened my life. He came at the perfect time. His name is Bob and he has been wonderful. He has the brightest smile and the most intense blue eyes. He makes me so very happy. I hope he will be a part of my life for the rest of it.



I do feel guilt too, because how can I feel happiness without you? I love you so much and still find it incredibly hard to live my life without you. To wonder what you would be doing now. What your girlfriend would be like. Timmy chasing you all over the house. Looking up to his big brother. I often say to him, if Nick was here....



He does know who you are. I hope you get the kisses we blow up to you.



I am trying a new attitude for this new year. To be happy and carefree. Light and breezy. I hope I can do it.



Well, I must go now. I love you and miss you and know that you are doing tremendously well up in heaven with God.



Please watch over Timmy for me when I cannot be there with him.



Love you forever,

Mom

Happy B-Day Nickelodeon!



Miss you lots on your 20th birthday and everyday. LUV YA BUDDY!!!!!

Aunt Laura

Happy Birthday Nick,



I cannot believe that this is going to be your 3rd birthday without you here. My eyes are filled with tears as I write this. I miss you so incredibly much. We ALL do.



I am sorry I wasn't able to write a Happy Halloween note or Thanksgiving. As you know, I talk with you each day and

I am having the people you love over for my "Nick Remembrance Day". I know you will be there.

You'll see our glow from the candles. We'll be sending balloons, so try and catch one!! They will have special notes on each one of them.



Last night I had this fantastic dream that I got a second chance to be with you. When I woke, I realized it really had been only a dream.



Sunday the whole world will light candles at 7pm in rememberance for all the children that died. I will attend the ceremony and meet other parents who too have lost the most important people in their lives.



I am going by Wojo's too to see if they hung one of your pictures.



I love you Nick and will for eternity.



Till I see You!!



Love,

Mom

XOXOXOXOXOXO

Hi Nick,



I wasn't near a computer on July 28, 2004 to write you and have desperately wanted to. I feel so badly that I could not write sooner.



Two unbelievable years have passed and I miss you more and more. I have to keep telling myself to believe that you are in heaven (paradise). You are with God and loved more than you could possibly imagine. But it is so extremely difficult to know how much of your life here we are missing together. The pain is neverending. My heart, shattered.

But I am trying so very hard to keep my faith.



I just think about all the things you are missing here and the summer concerts you enjoyed so much. Going to a Sox game together. Playing basketball and driving around. Only by now you would be driving in YOUR own car or van. Timmy would be chasing you all over the place wanting you to take him outside or for a ride to get ice cream or just to have you tickle him.



It was so hard to go by the cemetery that day. The place I visit so much and to remember that I first stood there 2 years ago knowing I could never see you again. Never believing this nightmare could ever happen. I hope the balloons made it to heaven. I know some friends/family stopped by too and I saw some friends by your tree. It made me so happy. I know that you could never be forgotten!



I just can't take it here much longer. God gave me Timmy to take care of. And he is a beautiful little boy. So full of love, laughter and mischief. Just like his big brother. I just don't understand why I can't live my life here on earth with my two sons.



I will try and live my life the best I can so I can see you in heaven. Eternity together.



I love you Nick and will never, ever stop. You are in my heart, mind and soul.



Love you.



XOXOXOXO

Hello,

I don't know you or your Mom but I feel a bond with both of you!

My nephew Nicholas Nelson passed away on February 4, 2004, at the age of 20 and I went to visit his guest book and read about you! You sounded like such an awesome young man and your Mother sounds like an incredible person.

My deepest sympathy to Mom. We don't know why such wonderful young people are taken from us...God has a plan for all of us.

I always remember we are only a breath away from the people we love and miss so much.

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philippians 4.13

Jean Bettencourt

Dear Nick:



I am leaving for vacation tomorrow and I know today is the most horrible day for your mom. I hope she is doing ok. Just wanted to let you know I am thinking of you. As I mentioned before, I did not really get a chance to know you but according to your mom you were one heck of a guy. I hope you have continuted to draw while you are up there. Your drawings were really amazing. I am sure you have made lots of friends. Take care and I am sure that some day we will meet again. God bless you and all of your family and friends who miss you so!

Hey Nick,



I can't stop crying or thinking about you. Today is 22 months since I lost you. It hurts just like it did 22 months ago. Actually more so. It is still so unbelievable to me. I hate waking each day knowing I can't see you and I dread nights just knowing you won't be coming home.



I know Mr. Ruhnke is with you and his sons. That eases my mind tremendously.



I am planting this weekend "Forget-Me-Not" flowers by your tree. YOU will NEVER be forgotten. YOU will NEVER stopped being LOVED or THOUGHT about each and every day.



Both Brendan and Steven have graduated. Brendan will marry in August. I wish you could experience all that they are able to.



Kelly is done with freshman year at college and working now during the summer.



I am sure you watch over them and are able to enjoy their lives.



I miss you so terribly much. I am sure you have complete happiness and more love than you ever knew existed.



I love you Nick and pray that God will take me into heaven so that we can be together through all eternity.



I must go now. Please forgive me for not being as good a mother as you deserved.



I LOVE YOU with every part of my being.



Love and Kisses,

XOXOXOXXOXOXOXO

Hi Nick,



Today was a very special day for us. Your first open heart surgery. A day I knew would come, but wasn't expecting just yet. I knew there was something wrong and brought you immediately to the E.R. Little did I know you were in congestive heart failure and could die.



God took care of you and the dedication of the doctors and nurses. I had an incredible amount of faith and love. I just knew God couldn't take you away from me. Not yet. You had a life to live. A purpose.



It was the scariest day of my life. They had to stop your heart and hook you up to a heart/lung machine. They needed to use artificial tubing to serve as your artery, replace a valve and to put a patch over the hole in your heart.



You were such a soldier. A strong little trooper. Boy were you angry after all of that. You didn't smile at me for the next couple of days. I felt so sad and helpless. I prayed you were not in pain, but who knows if you were. You had your chest sliced open, and all sorts of tubes coming out of everywhere. You were so uncomfortable and I am sure scared. I guess as scared as a four month old could be!



You made it through though with flying colors. Such a brave little man. You would have to face so many more obstacles.



I could hardly wait to bring you home, yet so scared something would happen.



This was the surgery that saved your life.



As you know, we would always do something special together on this day of celebration and joy.



Mr. Ruhnke is with you now. I am sure you have met his three boys. Gordon, Shawn and Steven.



Please keep close to them. They are wonderful, caring, loving people.



I love you honey and miss you.



Timmy sends a big hug and kiss.



I wish you could be here so we could spend the day together. Just like we always did.



Hugs and Kisses,

XOXOXOXXOXOXXOX

Hoppy Easter Nick,



I can't believe this is our 2nd Easter apart. I bought garland to decorate your tree and will have balloons at the cemetery. I should be buying you CD's and having you help me hide Easter eggs for Timmy to find.



I just miss you terribly and can only imagine what you would be doing with your life. How much you've grown and changed.



I've started to write the people who have your eyes. I am hoping to hear back from them. I would like to meet them some day so I could see your eyes once more.



I'm doing something special for you and Gram. I'll let you know what happens with it.



I just want you to know how I'll never forget you or stop loving you. I never could !!



You are my firstborn and I can't help but cry for you each day.



I LOVE YOU NICK.



Love,

Mom

Saw this, and thought of you



"God's Loan"



I'll loan you for a little time a child, He said for you to love while he lives and mourn for when he is gone.



It may be sixteen or seventeen years, or twenty two or three, but till I call him back, please take care of him for me.



He'll bring his charms to galdden you, and should his stay be brief, you'll always have his lovely memories as a solace for your grief.



I cannot promise that he will stay, since all from earth return, but there are lessons taught down there, I'll want this child to learn.



I've looked this wide world over, in my search for teachers true, and from the throngs that crowd life's lane, I have selected you.



Now will you give him all your love,nor think thy labor in vane, nor hate me when I come to call, to take him back again.



I fancied that I heard you say, "Dear Lord, thy will be done." For all the joy thy child shall bring, the risk of grief I'll run.



I'll shelter him with tenderness, I'll love him while I may, and for the happiness I've known, forever-grateful say.



But should the angels call for him, much sooner than I had planned, I'll brave the bitter grief that comes and try to understand.



( Author Unknown )

Dear Nick:



I did not know you too well, but I feel like I do from all the wonderful stories you mom has told. Today is 1/28/04 and it is a very hard time for your mom. Ask GOD if you can let her know is some type of way that you are alright. Visit her in a dream or something. She really misses you and can't seem to go on without you. I know she will love and remember you forever, however, if you could just tell her it is going to alright then maybe she can deal with this terrible loss a little better. I hope you are enjoying it up there. I am sure there are plenty of things keeping you busy. All the music you could ever want. Also, I bet you have a large collection of your wonderful sketches and drawings. Take care!



From: Your mom's friend Becca

Merry Christmas & Happy New Year Nick,



I am very sorry this is written so late. I was not able to get to a computer during the holidays. But don't you wonder if I was thinking about you, because you filled my mind endlessly.



It was so extremely painful and hard to go through them again without you. The second year.



I don't even want to be here for 2004 because it is so much harder than 2003. Not having you with me here does not get easier with time. I just miss you so much more and wonder about the path you would have taken in this life's journey.



I am still so angry with God. I know you are loved where you are and able to do all the things you could not do here. But I miss you so very much and feel that you had so much to offer in this world.



I am sorry, but I will cry each day for you. I still need to go through your things, but it is still so very painful. I feel like a snoop. Your room will still be Nick's room. I just wish I had been able to give you more and had been able to spend more time with you.



Christmas was Nicholas. I wanted so much to be able to buy you concert tickets, cds and a gas card for your VW Bus. To take care of you and to laugh with you. I wanted to be able to drink egg nog with you and pig out on all the great christmas cookies and snacks. I just wanted to be able to hug and kiss you.



Please visit me. I know you do, but I hope in a dream I can see your beautiful smile one more time.



Love you forever and ever,

NICK-I had some free time on my hands and I thought I would come and write to you. It is now 2004.I really was thinking.And I know i didn't really know u but wow,how i miss everyone that has died in my lifetime.Can you please tell my grandpa,grandma,grandpa,uncle and everyone else in my family up there that i said hi and i love them very very much! Miss and Love you Nick..Love always sara

Happy 19th Nick!



I've been real busy lately and I apologize for not writing in awhile. Can't believe that today would have been your 19th Birthday. Wow! Time sure does fly. Still not a day goes by that I don't think of you. You were a big part of mine, Gary's, Kelly's, Dan's, Chooch's, and Peanut's lives. Watch for me today. I will come by to personally give you your birthday wishes. As always, you will forever hold a special spot in my heart, not just today, but every day. Hope you're enjoying your day in heaven. Miss you much!

Love, Aunt Laura

Happy 19th Birthday Nick,



December 12, 1984. Gosh Nick, it seems like yesterday since you were born. I was scared and excited at the same time. I really wanted a little boy and I felt so blessed when I got YOU!! You made me sooooo happy and you were so darling. Then, when I found out about your heart, I was devastated. My poor baby might die. You were a little fighter though. Making it through 2 open heart surgeries and the other problems you had as you grew. You always lived your life so courageously. I admire you so.

Like the Aerosmith song " Don't Wanna Miss A Thing " that is how you lived your life.



Being sad, lonely and missing you doesn't even cover what I am feeling since you have been gone. Depression, anger, guilt. Knowing there is nothing I can do to get you back. Tears are part of my everyday. I am not a whole person anymore.



I will send a special balloon your way tomorrow. Just like last year. I will light a candle too. I hope God let's me feel your arms around me. Giving me that last hug I wasn't able to give you.



I love you with all my heart and soul, my awesome son.



Missing you!!



Love,

Dear Nick-

Happy holidays.I know ur missed alot.i was look at pictures acouple days ago. and i found acouple that u were in..15 days til christmas day! i know its gonna be hard for ur family. but they have to remember the things u would have done. or said. Thats the joy of it. MIssing someone like you can be very hard.But ull always be in everyones heart. cause everyone u met you touched in someway!

I wrote alil poem for the family members that had died in my family. Thinking of you, I will now pass it on to you.

You are missed my many.

But loved by more.

You gave people the strenght to grow.

You were Hugs and Kiss.

But now. your the stars and wishes.

Everything will be ok.

Always remeber if you miss nick as much as I know people do. Look at the sky. and send a prayer~cause everyhing WILL be ok.



Always my love*sara*

Happy Turkey Day Nick and Happy Halloween,



Another two holidays without you.

I can't believe I didn't write about Halloween. You just loved that holiday. Each year, planning what you would be. It was a big part of your life. I am sooo sorry. Timmy was spiderman and I guess I got caught up with his excitement. I am truly sorry. I thought of you so much and wished you could have trick or treated with us. It brought back so many memories of when you were just a little boy like him. You too were so excited and I think by each summer you knew what you wanted to be. Now Thanksgiving again without you. These special days keep getting harder with time, not easier. Actually each day does. I am feeling more and more down. I know you don't want me to be this way, but I cannot help it. I have tried to block reality, to gloss over the knowing that I will never see you on this earth again. Not even sure if I will make it to heaven.



December will be the most difficult time again as this year you would have turned 19. I can't believe it. I would have had a 19 year old!! Now, I just have to use my imagination to see where you would be right now. Art school? Taking classes to become a film maker? Taking a little time off and working for now? Driving your VW Bus? Wearing your sandals? Playing new music for me? Playing with Timmy and putting your headphones on him. Him chasing you around and calling out your name. Running in the house after school to look for you. The brightest smile in the entire world when he sees you. Oh it's the hardest thing in the world losing you. I won't let you go though. Not ever.



I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU MORE THAN ANYONE COULD EVEN IMAGINE. I lost me, when I lost you.



Forever,

Your Mom

Hi Nick, Well here it is October 1st and we have another wonderful summer under our belt. Sara called me tonight to read some of the entries in your guest book. I hope you know how many people miss you. Whenever I hear Aerosmith's song I can't help but think of you. I know that you are HAPPY and WELL and that is the one thing that keeps everyone going. Keep watching over all of us the way you have been. You're doing a fine job!! Miss You

Luv Ya,

Debo

Nick,



Well, today is my birthday and I know you are with me. I saw your star this morning twinkling high above the trees.



This is my second birthday without you. It saddens me so.



I just want you to know that I'll never forget all of my birthdays with you. The concerts you took me to, seeing Sinbad at the Holiday Star Plaza and sleeping overnight. The cards you made for me when you were little. The laughter and joy you brought into my life.



I miss you tremendously.

I love you forever and ever.



Thank you Nick, for being the best son, the best friend and the brightest person I have ever had the pleasure to have known.



I am so proud and honored to be your mom.



With all my love,

Hugs and Kisses,

Nick-I don't even know where to start. I realize that I was not a big part of your life, as I barely saw you due to work or school. But when I saw you, we always had fun. Before you, Nick, I didn't believe in God. But you helped me to realize that there is something after we die, a better place to experience. I don't know why I haven't expressed my feelings about you and your untimely death to anyone before, but tonight I thought of you and started crying. I saw you in a dream last week, and you were happy. Thanks for letting me know that you're ok. I'm sure that The Klosak's can verify that I was hardly a good friend or even a good cousin. But I just want you to know that I love and miss you. I look back and remember all the times we had, with the wrestling, playing outside at Grandmas, or just hanging out. But as we went along in life, we seemed to drift further and further apart, even though I wanted to get closer. My last two memories of you are when we went to Aerosmith and when you came over one day to pick up Timmy. That last time I saw you, I barely spoke to you, and I regret it. I always thought I could see you another time. But I'm going to have to wait to see you again. I can remember exactly when I found out you died. I was working and looked up and saw my brother Brendan standing there with my sister. I knew from their faces that something was wrong. Brendan told me what happened, and I didn't believe it. I didn't cry until the next day at work. Your funeral was the first I had ever gone to, and it was the saddest day of my life. I still have your picture in my wallet, right next to Timmy. I know I haven't visited your grave or tree yet, maybe because I don't have a license or car. But it's probably because I know I wouldn't stop crying. Since your death, I have tried to learn about your life, looking at Richards' yearbooks, asking questions about you, and just reading what others say about you. Hopefully when we meet again you can show me all the times in your life that I missed. And hopefully your mom knows that I love her too. Even though I hardly see your mom or my other cousins, let them know that I care about them and hopefully we can become closer. If I continue on in my life to become a filmmaker (as I hope I do), my first film will be dedicated to you. I Love You Nick.

Hi Nick,



It is now over 13 months since you became an angel.



I still cannot believe it and I miss your more and more. Not sure how long I can go on. Losing you is an open wound that will never heal.



I have been looking through some of your things. It has been so difficult. I will save everything. Your room will remain the same. It is YOUR room.



I just wanted you to know that a day does not go by, or even an hour that I don't think about you.



I love you and miss you.



You are forever in my heart and soul.



Love always,

hey Nick, Its hard to believe that it has been a year since you've been gone, it seems like only yesterday. Since you've been gone there has not been anyone over here to push me around, play horse "tips", watch the simpsons and seinfeld, or laugh at the pimp bot on Connan O' Brian. Don't worry about your mom, we are doing are best to take care of her, and your brother timmy still remembers you. You are greatly missed here as well because you were here so often u were almost immediate family to us.

Hope to see you again someday.



Your cousin Dan

nick i cant belive that u have been gone for a whole year it went by so fast. i remember u coming over and hanging with me and chooch we would have alot of fun.than on christmas u liked staying the night and watch us open presents than go home and open yours. me and chooch will never ever forget you. because we both love u so much!!



your little cuz,

Cheri

Nick,

OMG...I can't believe it is one year today that you left us. I remember it as if it were yesterday. Still feels strange to not have you around. I guess that will never ever go away. I miss you calling me and asking to come over to the house and the Pizza Hut we used to get. You would be very proud of me...I'm a "loyal" Looper! Someone has to listen to your music for you. My pleasure. I just wanted to let you know that you are still in our hearts and in our minds and in our prayers everyday. We will always remember you. Love ya lots Nickelodeon!!!!!!!!!!!

With Love,

Aunt Laura

NICK-WOW. HARD TO BELIEVE THAT ONE YEAR AGO I WAS ON MY WAY WITH THE KLOSAKS HOME>> AND HEARD THE BAD NEWS. I CANT BELIEVE YOUR GONE> SOMETIMES I WONDER>> IF YOU EVEN KNEW WHO I WAS. I KNOW EVERYONE MISSES YOU> AND FOR THE LITTLE I KNEW YOU> I MISS YOU TO> YOU WERE SO NICE EVERY TIME I SAW YOU> U ALWAYS SAID HI. SOMETIMES I WONDER WHY GOD DOES THIS TO SOME OF US. I MEAN I KNOW HE LOVES ME AND YOU. BUT WHY SO YOUNG. I BREAKS MY HEART TO KNOW THAT WE BOTH HAD HEART PROBLEMS. I MEAN I NOW WONDER. WILL THIS HAPPEN TO ME? I MISS YOU ALOT. I CANT BELIEVE IS BEEN A YEAR.FOREVER IN MY HEART YOU WEILL ALWAYS BE. I PRAY EVERY DAY THAT I WILL GET TO SEE YOU AGAIN. I HOPE ITS SOON!



MUCH LOVE SARA

Dear Nick,

I won't be at a computer on the 28th. So I am writing to you now. I cannot believe that it is now one year since you have died. It is so hard to even write that word. I told you once that if you died, I would die too. Well, I am still here, but my spirit, my soul died the day you were taken away from me. I never got a chance to do all the things I hoped we would do together. You never had a chance to make your dreams come true. Timmy never had the chance to know his big brother.



I go from sadness and so many gigantic tears, to anger, to emptiness to tears again and on and on. Every emotion that a person can have are sometimes all felt on the very same day.



I can't make sense of this. I know it is not up to me, but to keep believing that there is a heaven and that you are feeling more love than you ever knew was possible, so much happiness that your heart is full and the kind of peace that is unexplainable, unimaginable.



I still do find losing you unbelievable. I know you have visited us though. Grandpa even admits to that. As I will carry you forever in my heart, I know you have not forgotten us and one day we will all be together again.



I can't stop crying though. I will cry each day for you for the rest of my life. I just miss you beyond words and my love for you continues to grow. My heart is shattered and I just can't stop regretting things. There were so many things I should have done. Maybe you would have still been here with us today.



From the start God had a plan for you. I am lucky that he did not take you from me that day after you were born and turned blue. I would have never known such a handsome, funny, smart, artisic, talented person. But the 17 years was not long enough. I can see my nephews grow and wonder what your life would have been like. I can only imagine. I can only hold onto the years I had with you. Timmy knows who you are. He sees your picture. We talk about you. I want you to know that you will never, ever be forgotten.



This next year will be even harder than the first because I will be missing you even more, if that is possible.



I hope that I can make it to heaven one day. I haven't been the best person in the world. But I just wanted you to know that my love for you was always unconditional and I could never be mad at you for long. WE just both had these darned tempers. But then again, we both knew how to make people laugh too!



I love you Nick. I always will.

Oh Nick,
I am missing you so much it hurts and I can feel my heart breaking into pieces.

In 20 days it will be one year since you died. It is and will always be too unbelievable to me. I just can't stand it any longer. Tears come out every day and I just don't know how I will get through my life here without you.

I know God gave me Timmy to take care of just like I did you, but I don't understand why I can't be with both of my sons. It is just too unfair and I wish I could just see you or hear your voice one more time. I need to see you smiling and wearing your shorts/t-shirt/your sandals and most especially your long hair. I want to hear you laugh again and I want you to play your music for me and to draw another picture.

I need you so badly.

I love you more than a person could ever be loved and will think of you every day for the rest of my life.

You are my best friend and I hope that when I talk with you each day you can hear me.

Again Nick, I miss you and love you forever and ever.

Dear Nick,

I have written this poem for you. On June 7, 2003 a beautiful Colorado Blue Spruce tree was planted at Lawn Manor Park in Oak Lawn, in memory of you, my wonderful son.



Within My Heart



Within my heart lies Nick's memory,

In his honor, is planted, a very special tree.



It will grow strong and it will grow tall,

Through summers, winters, spring and fall.



A place to come when you are feeling low,

Without any lights, it will still have a glow.



Nick loved to laugh and Nick loved to hear a song,

He touched many lives but wasn't able to be here for long.



I see him now, headphones, sandals, his long hair,

Living his life the way he wanted, never knowing my secret prayer.



For God to bless him and give him the chance to survive,

Never believing the day would come when my beautiful son would die.



Nick never had the chance to graduate or to turn eighteen,

In time, having a little brother, we didn't realize what it would mean.



He can never show him his wrestlers, share his music, the 3 stooges too,

Draw a picture together, play basketball or take a trip to the zoo.



I know in my heart and deep down in my soul, Nick is with us still,

In rainbows, snowflakes, thunder & lightning, butterflies upon a hill.



Nick was the most courageous and bravest person I ever knew,

An old spirit with so much creativity, dreams that will never come true.



When you think of Nick please smile, as he wouldn't want you to be sad,

Just remember the fun and laughter and the good times you had.



For Nick was surely a miracle, a very special friend and wonderful son,

The chance to know him I am grateful, for we are the lucky ones.



So when I look up at the sky at night and see Nick's shining star,

I know he is an angel in heaven, and never very far.



God will give us all a chance, to meet Nick one again,

My son, a brother a cousin, - a grandson, nephew, friend.



As days go by he will be remembered, especially at Christmas,

Within all of our hearts are treasured memories, of my funny, sweet, Nicholas.



I Love You Nick and miss you with every part of me.



6/20/03

My Beautiful Son,

I miss you more and more everyday. Today is 10 months now. I still have a hard time believing. I will never accept it and my life will never be the same again. I just love you so, so much. I will be having a tree planted just for you. It is a Colorado Blue Spruce--a Christmas Tree. I thought you might like it. It will be planted at Lawn Manor Park. Whenever anyone is feeling low, they can come by and bring something to put on it. Timmy and I play there now. Hadn't been there since you were just a little guy. I don't know why I'm still here cause I always told you I'd die if you did. I have died inside though. My heart is forever broken and I will cry a tear each day until I see you again. I just can't stand it here without you. Tomorrow was to be your senior graduation. It is killing me inside that you have to miss being a senior. The king!! The school gave you a wonderful tribute in the yearbook. A page was dedicted just for you and Mrs. Knytych, Coach Porter and Vicky Murray had so many nice things to say about you. But who wouldn't??



Please know I speak with God and ask him to send you to me in a dream, or just to appear wearing your Aerosmith T-shirt, shorts, sandals and long hair! To smile and I will know you are safe and happy. I know you are loved in heaven. Music I am sure surrounds you. Timmy knows you love him and blows kisses to your picture. You will never be forgotten, my dear Nick.



Love you and carry your laughter and smile in my heart and soul.



Miss you forever!!

Luv,

Hoppy Easter Nick...



Just wanted to take a few minutes to let you know that I was thinking of you today. I remembered teasing you when you would go through and eat the kids candy instead of eating the candy in the basket I gave you. I really missed that this year. I really did. I love ya. Talk at you soon.

Love, Aunt Laura

Hello nick- i was reading a book but i came across a poem that i would like to write in here for you .. so here it goes...



I wonder as I wander

out under the sky

why do people i care about

always have to die



Are you happy where you are

wherever that maybe

I wonder as a Wander do you still think of me



Is it nice up there in heaven

For i know you made it there

are the clouds made out of marshmallows

Do you know that i still care



I look up at the winter sky

and shed a single tear

i think of all the days gone by

ill always hold u dear



i wonder as i wonder

out under the sky

why do people i care about

always have to die

- Hillary Beg leiter



love sara alyssa randall

My Dear Nicholas,



It is 8 months today since I lost you. It is still too unbelievable to me. The other day, when I stopped by the cemetery, two pretty girls were there visiting you. I was so happy to see that you had not been forgotten, although, I don't know how anybody could.



You are my sonshine, even today, on this rainy and depressing day.



I just wanted you to know that I think about you just about every minute of every day. Timmy looks in the sky at night and asks "Nick's Star"? I told him you were up there and when it's not cloudy I see you in the morning, and sometimes at night. Timmy will always know who his "big brother" was.



I miss you till it aches. I think about your smile and your laughter. I have a hole inside my heart that will never close.



I love you with all my heart and soul and know you are at peace, and filled with happiness and love. I bet you're dunkin' the basketball up there!



I love you Angel!

Mom

Happy Valentines Day Nickelodeon!



It's me...Aunt Laura. I know I'm a couple days late but you know me...always busy...but not too busy to get the chance to write you and send you my love, all our love, for "Heart" day. Just wanted to let you know that you are always with me, today, and every day. Love ya lots you big lug!

LUV, ME

Hey Nick,

im just on to say have a great heart day.You are missed by everyone.. you mom,your brother,aunts,uncles,grandma,gradpa,friends,cousin... and ME!hehe.. You will forever be in my heart.. Happy heart day nick.. love you lots...



all my love sara randall

My Dearest Nick,



Happy Valentine's Day!!



We've now missed many days, weeks, months together. Holidays most especially.



Valentine's Day was special though because it was your "heart" day. Now it is my first one without you.



My heart is shattered and I miss you tremondously. I die a little bit with each passing day.



You're my hero, my angel. Nothing is the same and never, ever will be.



I love you with all my heart and soul.



May Peace, Love and Happiness surround you for eternity.



You will be with me always and never, ever forgotten.



I LOVE YOU!!



Mom

Nick



Just was thinking about you and I wanted to thank my/our "Guardian Angel" for making sure that no one got hurt when we got in the car accident on Monday. You did good!!

Also, can't believe it's already been 6 months. Still miss you and think of you each and every day.

Love ya bud.

Aunt Laura

nick-

it is now 2003... and for some reason you were on my mind.. i would just like you to know.. that you are missed by many people. I was with the Klosaks this weekend. I saw that Uncle Gary did hang the shirt you made him. I saw your picture in many placeS,but today.. you were just on my mind..I'm glad that i knew someone else that had a problem with their heart too. It makes me feel better to know that im not the only "special" person that god picked.



love sara

Hey Nickelodeon,



It's time to say goodbye to 2002 and hello to 2003. It's been a very tough year for all of us, especially the holidays and not having you here with us. We seem to get stronger with each day, however you will never be forgotten. You will always be a part of our lives no matter what year it is. All of our love now and forever.

Love,

Aunt Laura

DEAR NICK,



IT IS COMING CLOSE TO THE NEW YEAR OF 2003



LOVE

CHERI ;)

Dear Nick,



It is here, and it's the First Christmas that you will not be at the table with us.



Although, the first one is always the roughest, The Nelson Christmas will never be the same again. This is the second Christmas without Robert Klosak, and altough it will be better, it is still quite different for there will always be something / someone missing that was a major part of the festivities.



We will try, and I know that we will all make the best of it. We all have too. For we all know that life goes on, and as all of us eventually find our seat at the Holiday Celebration in paradise with you, the rest of us must continue to celebrate the earthly traditions for the future generations of Nelsons and Klosaks to enjoy here on earth.



We will be thinking about you, talking about you, sharing some memories of you, and we will all be keeping you as close to us as you are keeping us close to you this Holiday Season.



Merry Christmas Nick, your presence will be sorely missed this year and the years to come.



Nick, Please stay extra close to all of us this first Christmas that you will not be at the table with us.

Happy 18th Birthday Nick!



Love you and miss you lots. Thinking of you always, especially today.



Love,

Aunt Laura

Dear Nick,



Thinking alot about you today, on what would of been your 18th birthday.



You are sorely missed by all of us.



Happy Birthday Nick.

I'M SPENDING CHRISTMAS WITH JESUS CHRIST THIS YEAR



I SEE THE COUNTLESS CHRISTMAS TREES

AROUND THE WORLD BELOW

WITH TINY LIGHTS, LIKE HEAVENS STARS

REFLECTING ON THE SNOW.

THE SIGHT IS SO SPECTACULAR

PLEASE WIPE AWAY A TEAR.

FOR I AM SPENDING CHRISTMAS

WITH JESUS CHRIST THIS YEAR.

I HEAR THE MANY CHRISTMAS SONGS

THAT PEOPLE HOLD SO DEAR

BUT THE SOUNDS OF MUSIC CAN'T COMPARE

WITH THE CHRISTMAS CHOIR UP HERE.

FOR I HAVE NO WORDS TO TELL YOU

THE JOY THERE VOICES BRING

FOR IT IS BEYOND DESCRIPTION

TO HEAR THE ANGELS SING.

I KNOW HOW MUCH YOU MISS ME

FOR I FEEL YOUR BREAKING HEART...

BUT THROUGH OUR MEMORIES SO DEAR

WE'RE NEVER FAR APART.

I CAN'T TELL YOU OF THE SPLENDOR

OR THE PEACE HERE IN THIS PLACE.

CAN YOU JUST IMAGINE CHRISTMAS

WITH OUR SAVIOR FACE TO FACE?

I'LL ASK HIM TO LIGHT YOUR SPIRIT

AS I TELL HIM OF YOUR LOVE.

SO THEN PRAY FOR ONE ANOTHER

AS YOU LIFT YOUR EYES ABOVE.

SO PLEASE LET YOUR HEARTS BE JOYFUL, AND LET YOUR SPIRITS SING

FOR I'M SPENDING CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN, AND I'M WALKING WITH THE

KING!





that is the poem i would like you to read... i hope you enjoy...i hope it brings joy to ur heart...

nick-i didnt know you very well but i know that you ment alot to many people and you will be missed by many.. your in my heart have a merry x-mas and a happy new year...

all my love sara

Nick....Just wanted to say Hi and Happy Halloween.....



It's been three months today. I can hardly believe it. Been thinking about you alot lately. Halloween was always one of your favorites. Just wanted to let you know how much I miss you. Gary and your cousins miss you alot too. Lots of love. Auntie Laura

nick-

The kloask gang has to my much...

about what you said an dhad done..

i remember times when you can over and i was there...you seemed to have alot of fun here...When i heard what happened i feel apart...

i was with the klosaks when they heard too...Auntie Laura turned to Uncle Gary with a tear in her eyes and a frown...and said are baby nick has gone...i turn and said your joking never do that again and she said i wish i was joking...and everyone turned blue...we sat 4 an 1:40 thinking of what is happening with tears in my eyes cheri starts hugging me with surprise i say she everything is going to be ok..and she said sara i miss him more than ever...we hurried to your house... had no idea what to say... and the next day were very slow we thought of you all day and night...it surly was a big fright...we still think of all that you have done ...im hear to say even though i didnt know you as much as i have liked... your still in my heart...tonight





love always,

Sara Randall

Nich-o-las,

God, I can't believe that you have been gone for one month now. We all still hurt so much and miss you so much. Some days are better than others. Keeping busy helps with that. I know I have been so busy and haven't been able to make it to the cemetery, but I do talk to you everyday. I hope you hear me. I believe you do and that gets me through. I know the hurt will become less painful but my memories of you will never fade. I think of you everyday and that will never change. Just wanted to let you know that you are on my mind today and always. Be talking to you. Love you and miss you more than you could ever imagine.



Love your favorite Aunt,

Laura



PS. Say HI to Grandma and Bobbo...let them know I miss them a bunch too.

Linda Lou -



There are no words that can make this easier for you. There is nothing that I can do to take this burden from your heart. No amount of trying is going to bring Nick back to you. These are my greatest frustrations.



I recently read that Mark Twain (Samuel Clemens) lost his daughter, Susy, to meningitis when she was 24 years old. Eight years after her death, he was still trying to cope with the enormity of its impact on his life. He said trying to put his loss into words was futile, to do so, he wrote "would bankrupt the vocabulary of all the languages". I believe that it is true, that there is no word or phrase that can describe the loss of a child. It is for this reason that I never sent you a condolence card. What could it possibly say?



I have wondered before, that perhaps we are all "on loan" to each other in our lifetimes for specific purposes. I think about what mine is and how well I might be fulfilling "my purpose" in this life.



I think Nick had a purpose - it was to be your best friend and to give you the strength that you needed. How different your life would have been had it not been for him! How different so many other lives would have been if not for him.



In "It's a Wonderful Life", Jimmy Stewart is given the opportunity to see the impact that his life had on others. It was the smallest things that made the biggest differences in others' lives. I think that you can know that same must be true for Nick.



In closing, I don't know how you feel. I can not imagine what you are going through. I have experienced the loss of some of my closest family members, but not the loss of a child. I can only tell you that you will never "get over this". Time will not heal all wounds. What will happen is that you will come to an ability to think of Nick and the life you had with him and be joyful of it, not sad. I promise you that there will be a day that will come when you will be able to laugh again and not feel guilty about it. Nick would want you to be happy and to embrace your life. He would want you to remember him and to celebrate him. He would want for you to live.

Nee Nee, Nick-

I'm still trying to believe that you aren't here with us anymore.It seems like only yesterday that we were seeing each other on a regular weekend basis.I know that it got hard once I began dating for me and you to sit and actually have some close conversations, but I will never forget the ones we have had. You are a very inspirational person to me because you never cared what anyone said to you about your looks and your interests because those are what mattered to you, and in such a criticized time of life, highschool, you didn't care what other people said. You have always been a wonderful artist, from your basketball drawings to your wrestlers, and then to your bands. They are all so amazing.I'm really going to miss seeing you on Christmas Eve with the good ole "Krisp Kringle" shirt. It was definetly my favorite. I'm really happy that you got to meet Adam. He is special to me, and he thought u were really cool.I am truely saddened by the loss of you, but I know your still here. I know you are watching over me, Dan, Choochie, Peanut, My mom and Dad,and everyone. Trust me Nick, you won't ever be forgotten. Stories will always be told and pictures will always be seen. I have had a picture in my room of me you and Dan sitting at this little table when we were little, and it's just so cute. I put it right next to my bed now. I'm really looking forward to seeing you. I miss you so much. Have fun up there, We'll be praying for you! :) Love you forever!



Miss ya sooooo much

Lots of Love,

Kelly

(KaShelly)

My Remembrance of Nick



It's hard saying goodbye,

I don't know where to start,

To express all of the love,

I have for you in my heart.



12-12-84 you were born,

Your poor little heart already tattered and torn.

The Docs fixed your broken heart fine,

I hope my broken heart will heal over time.



I gave you cousins who love you,

Frist Kelly, then Dan.

The twins Peanut and Chooch,

Chooch your favorite "Little Man".



I know Uncle Gary was tough on you,

And at times liking him, you did not.

However, when you realized why he did it,

For him in your heart you held a soft spot.



The biggest smile you ever gave me,

And I don't mean to gloat.

Is on your last birthday,

When I gave you your "Jim Morrison" coat.



You loved coming to our house,

Every Christmas Eve you would say,

"Auntie Laura can I stay overnight,

And watch the kids open gifts Christmas Day?"



Gar' and I are your Godparents,

So we could be there for you.

You are more like our third son,

And I believe you knew it too.



You love music, your art,

You are funny, we'd have a gas.

Then in the same instance,

You could turn around and become a pain in the ass.



Your tapping on the table,

Was your drum, was your snare.

It drove me nuts and I told you,

"Stop that, and while you're at it, cut that damn hair!!"



Playing basketball, Nintendo,

Pizza Hut pizza we ate.

You'd clean my refrig out of pop,

Saying "It's not diet. That's great!"



I know it's time to say goodbye,

I just don't believe it, I just can't.

Just remember I"ll miss you,

"All My Love" from your Favorite Aunt.



Love Ya Nick,

Aunt Laura

Dear Linda and Family,

Our hearts are aching for all of you. Thank you again for stopping by the other day. We are grateful to be given the chance to say "goodbye" to Nick. All I keep thinking is that it was certainly a privilege to have known him. He was a fine young man and I'm so glad that he and Jon were friends. God must have had other plans for your beautiful, talented son. As we said together, his soul belonged to another place, another time. May God watch over you and your family. You did a fine job raising Nick.

Reggie Sabadosa (Jon's Mom)

This is truly a great loss for everyone who was close to Nick. I still remember the old times with wrestling and grade school, and the more recent times of fun in and out of high school, and going to concerts with Nick. This is so hard, because he was so young, and had a long and prosperous life ahead of him. My condolences go out to his entire family, and Nick, we're all going to miss you, we don't forget you!

I only wish i could have got to know him better. he was a friend that will be dearly missed for his kidness and his loving personality.Nick i will miss you but you have went to a better place.

Dear Linda,Timmy and the entire Nelson family, Our heartfelt sympathy goes out to you in the loss of Nick. I can't seem to find the words to express the feeling in the pit of my stomach,however, I have found two poems that I would like to share with you in hopes that it will give you some comfort at this time.

"THAT OTHER LAND"

by Anne



It is not far away,the place to which they go.

It is just beyond the starlit skies;

it's where the moonbeams grow-

And night is day and day is night and sorrow comes no more.

Where love abides beyond the tides upon a golden shore,

And we must wait here for awhile-until it's time to go.

Although we carry on,we mourn,because we miss them so;

And through the years,GOD dries our tears..."My peace I give".

Oh GOD...We thank you for your help and the chance to live.



"I WANT YOU TO KNOW"

by Angela



A brief moment of darkness

was all that I knew,

before Heaven's Gate

came into my view.



Loved ones and friends

I had missed for many years,

welcomed me with open arms

and many happy tears.



All the hurt,fear, and pain

that I have ever known,

is gone from my life,

I am finally home.



I gazed upon the Lord's

sweet smiling face,

and for the first time in my

life I knew and felt His

grace.



Cherish the memories for noone can take them away!

To the Family:



I was working with Nick at the time that this tragedy happened. I was there and I viewed everything that occurred. I truly enjoyed working with Nick, and at this time, I am saddened and burdened with what was placed on me and on your family. He had a fantastic sense of humor and he always tried his best in doing what he did. Boy, do I have stories for that. I truly enjoyed having him as one of my employees and I will miss him. My deepest condolences to your family and friends.

Dear Linda



It is said that there is no greater loss to any parent,than the loss of one of their own children.



We look at our four, and though there are many times we could give all of them away, we couldn't even fathom the thought of losing any one of them.



We were all shocked as well as deeply saddened when we heard of Nick's sudden and untimely passing,

and we all truly share in the grief of this great tragedy in the Nelson Family.



We know that the road ahead will not be an easy one for you, but we will always be there to help both you and Timmy along the way.



May your fondest memories of Nick help ease your pain during this difficult time, and may these same memories keep Nick always alive in your heart.



We know that Nick is now truly in Paradise, and we also know that although he would want us to take a moment or two from our earthly lives to celebrate his life, Nick would also want all of us to gradually get back on with our own lives again as well.



Our thoughts and our Prayers are with both you and Timmy during this difficult time.



We will always be there for the two of you.

Nick, you were one of the most wonderful people I ever met, and you'll be missed by many. I remember when we became very close, talking constantly online, or chatting on the phone...and when you came up to my cheerleading practice to see me =) I'll miss you, I love you.

Nick you will be missed by many. I remember you from middle school you used to be good friends. I give my condolences. Love ya Kelly

Offering our deepest condolences during this difficult time.