Jessica Rubio Obituary

She finally got to you and as much as i miss yall i know i have two people waiting to welcome me in.

Love you, love mom, and cant wait to see yall again.

Another year without you, I hope your Mom found you and Gramma... How about sending some lottery numbers for us??? LoL, still love you, still miss you... Uncle G...

You know... there are so many things I want to say but you already know what´s in my heart. I miss you more and more as times passes us by. I always wonder who adult Jess would be today. For one thing, I know you would have been an amazing Titi to my kids... and probably get them into a lot of sneaky trouble. Until we meet again... just know that I hold you in my heart every day. I miss you and I love you!!! Forever and a day to infinity and beyond!

Gosh it's been way too long. I think of you often Chica, pull out our pics and hold dear to my heart our great times. Keep shining love you dearly!!!

I love you Jess!!! Today, yesterday and forever!!!!

Jess I hope you guys found Bobby on his way up. Now you have another cop in heaven!

Gosh I can't even go visit you. Haven't stopped missing you. Haven't stopped wanting you home. You'll always be right here in my heart though. Love you princess that's another thing time can not change. MOM

You keep the music pumpin through my veins J. Rubes..... I miss you nena and i think about you all the time...

"She was angel amidst all the haters/

The Lord took her early cuz He knew that she would change us/

Into something better that we couldnt even dream/

Rest in Peace Mama, I hope its better than it seems//

You stay in my spirit and influence my writtens/

And i know you loved dancin so ill keep this song spinnin/

Tone C ill, I wish i were the Boss//

I would bring you back, you were my first friend lost....//

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Hey Jess,
I just want to say that not a day goes by that i dont think about what a great friend u were to me. You were there for me through the worst times in grammar school and I think about you all the time. I wish i could visit you more. We had so many hopes and dreams and I wish you couldve been here with me through this crazy life. We miss you more than ever girl. See you soon :)

Dear Jessica

We miss you a lot, and will always remember you. Although you're not here with us, we will always wish you a happy holidays as if you were. I love you, my hugs are with you. - Judy

I lived a regretless life, until the day I found out of the horrible news that one day, the day I heard you were gone...after that point, I live with one regret, that I never truely got to know you and spend much time with you. I'll always regret that... my thoughts are with you always. - Russ

Hey Jess Richie has a Puppy and named it Brutus. I must say he is stubborn like you. Wants to do things his own way, LOL
I hope Allen found his way to you guys. But I know all you had to do was shine a light onto the billboard you called a forehead LOL Our Secret joke there little girl!

hi jessi
wow its been awhile since i got a chance to talk to u the thing that hurts me is not hearing u laugh and i miss your warm loving hugs i wish i could be hugging u right now keep looking down on us cuz ur a shooting star that shows love every moment that u fly by i miss u very luv u

I still remember you as a young girl,saying my name "Kenny Ken" as you called me from the second floor of your house on Paulina St..I do you miss so much Jessica..May our paths cross again some day..Love Ken Ken..aka Kenny Ken

Just like to say that i miss jess alot and when she would walk past my post and try to crossthe street on a green light i would tell no u cant do that and did she say to me ok aunit lisa and i aways think of her as other daughter to me and her mom is my friend and i will alaways be there for her if she wants to talk but jess just kept looking down on us and i love u and miss u love lisa marie kuffel nelson

I don't even know where to begin... I still miss you as if you just left us yesterday! I can't believe it's been so long. I still drive by the old house and have to remind myself that you won't be trying to chase my car down Grand Ave. just to give me a hug and say hello! It gives me some comfort knowing that one day we will meet again. I live with some regret too though. I wish I had made more of an effort to be there for you but sadly I can't change the past. I love you Jess and will miss you dearly for all my days on this earth! On a happy note, I've had twins, they are almost a year old now. My girl already has a bubbly little attitude like yours. LOL! But they both keep a smile on my face. Keep watching over us all. Until we next time... <3

Wow it felt so good to hold you and feel those warm hugs you used to give to us all. - My dream - We were playing catch in the middle of the street and we were a pretty good distance from each other & you kept rambling on about Josh. I kept asking you what you were saying because I couldn't hear you, so you came stomping like usual and threw your mit on the street and said MAAAAAAAA I'm so happy for Josh. Then we were no longer in the street playing catch we were laying on my bed. You just stared at me touching my face and telling me how much you loved me and missed me and how happy you were for Josh but not explaining anything so when I asked why are you so happy for Josh you looked up and said it was time that you had to leave I grabbed & hugged you and begged you to stay for just a little while more. You said No Mom I Have to go or I can't come back. Then when you moved from the bed there was a beautiful baby girl laying there asleep & I asked "Jessi who's baby is this?" You crawled back and said Oh I just have to give her butterfly kisses and tickled her cheek until she smiled & then you were gone. I opened my eyes and still could feel you in the room. I stayed up most of the night trying to figure out who is going to have this baby girl, and savor the warm hugs you gave me.
I miss you so much my heart hurts.
Love you
Mom

Another year is coming and going like a speeding train. So many things passing by so quickly. But missing you each day still moves like a slow turtle.
Sassy came to the house yesterday and M.J. kept calling her Auntie Jessica showing her pictures of you and saying see there you are Auntie Jessica I missed you so much. Sass got so quiet she just sat there and read books with her just like you used to do with her at that age. It's so funny how M.J. knows so much about you. Thanks for showing us all through her that your still around keeping up with the family.
I love you so much baby.

7 YEARS LATER AND I STILL TALK ABOUT YOU WITH PEOPLPE THAT NEVER KNEW U... THATS JUST HOW SPECIAL YOU R ... I ACTUALLY WAS TALKING ABOUT U MONDAY NIGHT AT DINNER W A FRIEND... TALKING ABOUT HOW I HAD SUCH A BEAUTIFUL FRIEND FULL OF SO MUCH LIFE... U WILL FOREVER BE MISSED ... IT NEVER FAILS I COME ON HERE N CRY... LIFE IS TOUGH... BUT GOD IS IN CONTROL OF EVERYTHING.. EVEN WHEN WE CANT UNDERSTAND IT... AND THATS MY COMFORT N HOPE IN HIM... LOVE YOU FOREVER....

Man Jess,
It's been so long n I miss u so much,u was always good at keeping the order n my life now I need u 2 embrace Jeff, just as u would have done me, let him know just as u already do no 1 could ever take the place held n my heart by he and u!!!!! As 4 mom don't worry bout her I done had plenty babies 2 keep her plenty busy...she gone kill me 4 keeping them away 4 so long!!! The youngest 1...Princess she's a riot just like u!!! Mostly importantly I came 2 say I dearly love n miss u!!!
Love yo sister from another mother_

Jessi,
I miss you so much!! I'm sure you know I have a beautiful lil girl, Jessica Emily, I named her after you. She is so spunky like you LOL!! I miss my sissi poo, now Franco is up their with you, its been so hard, I love you all so very much and it hurts that I can't see any of you...I love you sissi poo!!
Love Mari_

Hi Baby!
Wow 50 wow.. It's gonna be hard to celebrate without my 2 favorite girls with me. I would love to see you if just to hear you say my name would be the greatest gift of all. Sometimes in life people don't realize just how much they have always looking beyond to find something more then what is right in front of them. I always appreciated you may not have gotten along 100% of the time but never were you ever out of my thoughts or my heart. And you always knew this. Gosh I love you so much. And I pray that I get my birthday wish.
Kisses
Mom

Hello Jess tell everybody there happy holidays I know you are with all of them and having a good time,miss you much not seeing your smiling face and happy laugh.Have all the angels watch over us because we all need help,tell Em I miss her but I know she is with grama Francis.Love you all

Wow Manny is with you now. Keep him safe under your winds while we pray for his mom & family.
I miss you babygirl gosh how I miss you.
Mom

Yo! Jessica~
::waves hands in the air, jumping up and down::
Over here in Pittsburgh!
Down the street from Madeline!
Honey Lamb, thanks for your intercessions on Maddies' behalf...keep it up, because it's working...
I know you know all this already, but it's good to say Thank You to someone you love...
btw...tell that Grandma of yours that Maddie's Granny says Thank You to her, too...
I especially like the trick with the bubbles...that has Emily written all over it!
Love...
--Auntie Karen--

I love you Jessca.....and I will always miss you..

Hey Baby Girl, haven't written you in a minute.
Just wanted to say Happy 1 day belated, and say Hi to Gramma for me.

Uncle G

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
LOVE YA
AUNTIE PAM

Jessica Emily..... (i wanted to write you this wkend but my internet was down but i sure did pray for your family :0) )
its crazy how time goes by so fast... five years Jessie...and so much has happened... its hard to believe five years ago i would see you cartwheeling in your socks down the hall at school, yelling at Mrs.Gearon :0) or singing your favorite song at the time i remember 2 of them being "go shorty its ur birthday by fifty cent" lol or J.Lo "all i have" .... i look baack and realize what precious children we were.... five years and life can change drastically... you still come into my thoughts often and when i hear R. Kellys 'I wish" i think of u and my grandmother... i believe that the memories i have of u are not based about how long i knew u that caused me to be so affected by ur absence but instead the person u were in life and how u brought me smiles n joy through exchanging advice (as young as we were), and appreciating eachother as the young girls we were.... i could only imagine the joy u brought to the ones who really had to honor of being there with you and for you for years.... but resting in the Lord's presence is a priviliege.... missing u may hurt at times... but through the pain there is joy... some joy be the memories we shared w you, other the anticipation of seeing again, and others the thoughts of u still very close to us.... whichever may apply the truth is you were and still loved... i thank God i meet you... you will never be forgotten to me.... your gonna always have a special place in my heart becuz you planted yourself there in life & now u will always remain.... :0) I love you still not for all the memories but for who you were.... until later xoxo God bless your family... c.martinez

Jessie
Sending you a bunch of kiss and hugs,Im always thinking and wishing you can see all the babies you brought us, and Jess you really made Susie a great mom you would be so proud.
I Love You
Auntie Pam

Two days babygirl
OMG I've done so good up until now.
This pain in my heart is killing me.
It's cutting into my soul like a knife.
Forever in our hearts right?
Forever in my soul. I swear Jessi this is so hard to live through each year.
If you only could have been here when I got that e-mail from Marcela omg you would have been so proud of me I really didn't cry too much in front of her but Jessi she thought you forgot about her.
Could you imagine. Remember stalking North & Kedzie that whole week when they told you she was around there! lol Wait till she see all the things you two shared together through the years. Wow and a week before this day. I guess it goes to show you really wanted us to find each other. God Bless her Jessi she needs your hugs and ok give her a special dream too. She would really appreciate it. I swear!
Well let me close my eyes and send you a kiss. Remember forever in my soul forever until we reunite!
Mom

Yo! Jessica~
Your Mom is right about the frowns, looks and lifted eyebrows...and I have the photos to prove it...LOL!
Keep on keepin' an eye on these babies, especially WITH a lifted eyebrow...
--Auntie Karen--

Jessi
Its almost another year.
So many things have happened and life has done this whole 360 for me. I have to step back and take a deep breath sometimes because at times my life becomes overwhelming with fear if I'm going too fast or if time is moving too slow. Gosh I wish we were laying on the sofa or bed looking at the celing just talking stuff about all this stuff.
I still talk to you about everything at night. I know you hear me. It's just that sometimes I need to feel you. I need those hugs and those frowns and dirty looks and lifted eyebrow conversations. hehehehe Oh I miss you babygirl so damn much. And life is starting to begin again. But you will always be a part of it Jessi I swear no matter what. Pinky Promise!
Mom

OMG its been forever since I have written huh? You still love me? I know just like to ask!
Makayla looked so beautiful today. She is such a good girl she just doesn't like your father! (hehehehe) Gosh she crys so much when he goes by her. I think he's just too loud. She likes gentle people and quiet times. She likes to sleep in my bed like you did. She kickes me just like you did. Hey remember right after I got out of the hospital from the car accident and you insisted on staying by my side and slept with me the first night? Yeah I can laugh now about it but damn when you kicked my ribs that were broken it really hurt. lol Well she does the same thing has to have her leg across me. I love when she wakes up and touches my face until I look at her and see her innocent smile so full of love. You know when you have children and do everything with them and watch them grow and evolve into these adults you can't ever imagine loving anyone more than that..... Until you become a Grandma gosh your heart swells with so much love for that little human being.
Remember how we would talk about you giving birth to little Jeramiah Joshua??? lol you always had the name ready. I wish you would have left a piece of you here with me. But its alright I see the things your teaching Makayla.... She likes patty-cakes and He's got the whole world in his hands just like you did. I pray that when she starts saying her prayers that she doesn't get as extensive as you did draging the God Bless mommy - daddy - family - dogs cats strangers man down the block Aunt Pams dog and everything else you could think of in that day. You wanted God to bless everyone who came into your life. And I know your still asking Him to keep us safe. I feel you baby always.
Well just wanted to say I love & miss you tooooooooooo much.
Kisses & Hugs & all my love
Mom - aka - Joyce - aka MAAAAAAAAAA.
P.S. And that clicking with the mouth that Makayla is doing is not funny. You drove me nuts with that and to hear her start that I could only get goosebumps from it!

Ohhh Jessica,
What an emotional/hormonal time of my life. I often have dreams and think of our memories that make me cry like a baby, Horse use to think I was crazy but I couldn’t help it. When I found out that I was pregnant, it kind of explained it all. I guess the main thing that bothers me is that we aren’t able to stick with our plans, it going to be really hard for me to pick a god mother. How about 2 god fathers?? Smile. People often say, outta site outta mind. That’s not true. I miss you sooo much and knowing that you’ll be here spiritually always makes me more comfortable.
I love you Sissi Poo!

Jessie,
Wow I just want to say thank you.Now its your job to watch over her for the next 6 mo. keep her healthy and safe. And please let this be easy for her,and throw a lil of you in the baby so she can see what you and her did to your mom and I hehe , but we would never trade our babies girls for anything even though you to drovvvvvve us crazzzy, Jess I LOVE YOU and I know your watching over all of us, Give Grandma a kiss for me and tell her I LOVE HER
LOVE YA FOREVER
Auntie
Pam

JESSIE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
LOVE
AUNTIE PAM

Thank you Jessica for bringing Nici back into my life. I really have missed her friendship she was always so real and so true and I could never thank you enough for bringing her back to my life when I need her the most!
I love you babygirl
Mom

jessica -
the last time I saw you - you were about 2 yrs old - how I envied your mom- she had the first girl, but I had my son a few hours before your brother Ernie was born.... I now have a daughter of my own and I wished that some day she would meet you and become friends just like your mom and I. We might not see each other as we did in years before, but I do miss her and think of her the boys and you. Last time I seen your mom it was in target after my dad and brother died. As I sit here crying like a baby I am asking my brother to give you a big hug...and tell you as that you are your mom - she was always able to light up my life. She is a very strong lady your mom - maybe we will connect as I see she writes you often. A blessing in disguise, thank you baby girl. My baby is graduating this may, can you be one of her g.angels?, at some time I hope your mom writes you again and will call me....Cheryl I am so sorry I was not there for you - I was looking for you on your birthday

Oh Jess! Your mama is going to be a GrandMA hehehehe GRANDMA!!!!
I bet she is loving that. Anyway you guys still haven't sent down those winning lottery numbers. Whats up with that. Oh yeah and don't be giving Steven's kid any idea's heheheh NO HEAD BUTTING ME!

I'm missing you Jessi.
It hurts so much not having you here as time goes by. The closer it gets to having Steven's baby here the more it makes me miss you.
Gosh the way you loved everyone's kids makes me think of how much more you would have loved this little lady that will enter our lives forever.
You and Grandma loved babies so much. And I feel so bad not being able to see the love in either of your eyes as she enters this life we all share.
Just make me a promise ok. If you and Grandma can't be here to hold her or make her laugh and feel all that love you would give her, could you please always keep her safe and happy and as free spirited as you were in life. Could you never let her hurt or feel the pain that we all felt when you & Grandma left us.
Give her your generous heart, your radiant smile and that glow of love that each of us have felt at different times in our lives. Let her grow without any fears in life and always be by her side.
I love you Jess.
And I know I really didn't even need to ask because you probably already have been kicking it with her already.
Since she's gonna carry your name I pray she lives up to it! But of course she is Jessi Jr. (smile) I love you too much
Mom

Hey Jess,
Berlyn deceided to go through my photo album and we came across these two of you with that beautiful bright smile of yours...

Happy Valentine's day to the sweetest angel in the world. Thank you soooooo much for spending the other night with me. It was wonderful to finally catch up! Miss you sooooo much.

Hey Jess,
Just thought I say HI
hey why dont you give us meaning the family some good luck on those numbers,why dont you get grandma to help
LOVE YOU
Aunt Pam

Yo!~~
Alright, Jessie! Keep it up with that string-pulling...slow and easy positive progress is what we're looking for and so far it's happening...
Maddie Emily is responding to the attention from her Docs, Nurses, Parents and Family (and you know you and your Grandma are such a big part of that)...
The only way I get to sleep at night is knowing that you and Mom are with her...
*kisses*
(one for you, one for Miss Maddies' GreatGrandMother)
--Karen--

Jessie a special prayer is needed. Krina nd kelly had a baby girl and they need some special help. The babay is in critical condition and they don't knwo if she will pull thru. Please pull some strings and get grandma's help.
Thanks

Hi Baby!
Hey I Know YOU! (smile)
Gosh I know I promised myself no tears just cheers but man Jessi
Real Talk here....... I miss you!
Even when I write it I feel it in my heart how much I miss you.
I was making cookies all last week for Christmas and as I stood in the living room looking towards the kitchen counter full of cookies I was just imagining you coming over and trying to get me to focus on something else besides the cookies while you just helped yourself to all that you could. I miss you sneaking cookies at christmas. I miss your famous inventory of ornaments to make sure that each memory was in its spot. Remember when I stopped the gold tree and made the frosty tree? You took all your favorite gold ornaments and hung them on your Barbie tree. (smile) You and Grandma were so much alike in so many ways. I have felt this inner peace flow through me ever since Grandma left. I didn't get mad because she left me too I felt good that she had you there her most precious joy to be by her side and guide her. They say there is a reason for everything right? I know how afraid of dying mom was and for some reason ever since you died it felt like you took alot of that fear away. You know what I mean? She never let any of you kids down and I'm so glad to say that I know you were there for her. You helped bring alot of peace to us all.
I love you Jessica Emily
Can I get an early Christmas Present like a hug or a dream?
Too much love & kisses
Mom

Jess tell Grandma this would be a good week to send down the lottery numbers. It;s a very large jackpot and could take care of the whole family ehheheh

Jess,
been thinking alot about you,I hope you and grandma really are having fun. Give her a kiss and tell her im thinking about her always.
Love you both
Auntie Pam

Jess hugs and Kisses! Tell your Grandma I have almost completed her puzzle. She will know what I mean! Oh yeah tell her she forgot to send down the winning lottery numbers hehehe

HAPPY THANKSGIVING HONEY!!!!

Hi Baby!
How is the happiest princess in heaven? I know you and Grandma have been having the time of your life catching up and remembering all the happy moments you had together here on earth.
I'm finally at peace Jessi. I know you are ok and I know Grandma is finally happy again. Keep her close baby and always remember that you both are in my prayers daily. I talk to you both all the time and I know you both hear me.
Give Uncle Rick a hug let him know you two are ok this is really the hardest on him and I don't want him to hurt as badly as I did when you left. So lots of hugs and many kisses to my two favorite angels in heaven.
Now don't have too much fun with Grandma and forget to come visit from time to time. Ok?
I love you babygirl
Mom

Hey, Jess I haven't communicated my thoughts to you for such a long time. I know that you are looking down at us and enjoying what you see. I would like to tell you about my baby girl Isabella. She is now 6months old and I'm currently expecting my second baby. It's a boy and I'm super excited. I will visit your mom's soon. Although she does not know! I know that although you are gone, you will never be forgotten and you will live on through the individuals who love and care for you. And with that I say to you keep looking after us, because without beautiful Angels like you some of us would lose hope. Keep shinning bright! Love ya!!! xoxo

Hi baby
We all met up by Ricks house last night to clean up Grandma's things and I came across this letter she wrote to you...........
Jessica,
You will always be Grandma's Little Girl.
We always shared great times together on Paulina Street, you me & Uncle Rick.
Whenever you called me, you relived those memories of all the happy times we had together.
We shared our Birthdays and cakes together every year because you were born on my birthday, this year I'll be alone.
Grandchildren are little pieces of the Heart and you took a piece of mine with you.
We always ended our telephone calls with "I Love You" and our visits with a Hug and an "I Love You".
We were very close. Some of your last words to me were my family will always come first with me.
I love you Jess!
God needed another angel so he took you, it left us with a lot of grief but, you left alot of love.
I love you Jess!
Grandma Emily

Well thats the letter we found in her drawer just thought I needed to share it with you. I know your not sad because shes hugging you now. Too much love for you baby too much.
Kisses mom

OMG aren't you the happiest angel in heaven!(smile)
Wow now I can finally feel at peace with your leaving me.
No one else would I trust to bring me this peace within me now.
I know it was very hard for Grandma when you left. It almost seemed as if she never got over your leaving. She would always question me about heaven and death and your visits. (Like who am I the expert??) hehehe
Well she always hoped that you would remember her in heaven and be right there when she passed. I know you would never let her down.
I love you babygirl and it's time to live a little bit easier now because I know you have the one person who loved you the most in this world with you now.
And may God take a vacation for a while with the two of you together!
(smile)
I love you both dearly
Mom

Jessie,
Please Take Care Of Grandma

JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU HONEY

Party Like a rock star! It's Tuggie's Golden Birthday today, I know your always good at making everything special, GET EM! HaHaHa!

Yo! Jessica~
Did you see the candle I lit on the back porch for you last night?
HBD, Miss Jess...
--Auntie Karen--

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
I hope you like the ballons Sarah and I left for you
I Love U

when I SAY Happy, you say Birthday, Happy Birthday!!!!! Jessica, it isnt fair, and it still hurts so much that your not here with us, I will be sure to sing Happy Birthday to you.....I love you and I miss you always...Love Tina

Happy Birthday Sissi Poo!

O Jessica
As it gets closer to your day, I sit back remembering the goofy and funny birthday memories I have. I can't help to think WHAT IF... How would we be celebrating your big *21*? I FOLLOW YOUR LEAD MY GUARDIAN ANGEL. Show me the way.
I see my entry back in Feb when I asked if it was Pooh Bear you were sending my way. It must be. I can't wait to see what the little man looks like. I know our Genes our strong but I'm sure he'll have his uniqueness and I'm sure Lil Bro will do a very good job at being a daddy!
Not a day goes by without you by MYSIDE! I love you and miss you mucho mucho mucho!
Gone but NEVER EVER EVER EVER Forgotten!

Goodbye

Saying goodbye is never easy
It's the hardest thing to do
But what hurts even more
Is not the chance to say it to you.

Yesterday is just a memory
Our laughter was sunny and bright
Then clouds started to gather
For you were no where in sight.

You are a great person
and this I will never forget
How you left without a warning
I couldnt say goodbye is my only regret.

Wherever I may be now
Always searching for a friend so true
To place my world of emotion
Handing my friendship to someone like you.

If again I must go there
And experience all the pain
I would do it in a minute
For all the good I would gain.

No matter what my wrongs
You offered only love
Until the day you left me
For your new home up above.

I know you still are with me
Your love is within my heart
Though life is no longer present
Our souls will never part.

This is given to you in honor
Of all that we did share
I just wanted you to know, Jessica,
How much I really do care.

Hey Jessi..
Still thinking of you; still missing you;

K

Hi Honey! Thinking of you. I'm wondering if that's Pooh bear being sent my way. Missing you sooo much.

Uncle Gary, you read my mind!
Happy Valentine's Day, (Happy Birthday Josh) Missing you always!

Pancakes!

You were so full of life,
Always smiling and carefree,
Life loved you being a part of it,
And I loved you being a part of me.
You could make anyone laugh,
If they were having a bad day,
No matter how sad I was,
You could take the hurt away.
Nothing could every stop you,
Or even make you fall,
You were ready to take on the world,
Ready to do it all.
But God decided he needed you,
So from this world you left,
But you took a piece of all of us,
Our hearts are what you kept.
Your seat is now empty,
And it's hard not to see your face,
But please always know this,
No one will ever take your place.
You left without a warning,
Not even saying good-bye,
And I can't seem to stop,
Asking the question why?
Nothing will ever be the same,
The halls are empty without your laughter,
But I know you're in Heaven,
Watching over us and looking after.
I didn't see this coming,
It hit me by surprise,
And when you left this world,
A small part of me died.
Your smile could brighten anyone's day,
No matter what they were going through,
And I know everyday for the rest of my life,
I'll be missing you.

Crazy girl,
I miss you! I luv u!
Things here are a bit crazy but you know how life gets. Only you could make the sun come up each day for us. I miss your crazy ways and giggles and spuratic moments that no other could give me.
Saturday watching those girls act so crazy at the resort in Wisconsin made me laugh so much and remember all the parties and days in our house with you & Stephanie jumping around and acting just as silly maybe even more. Everything was going so good until I seen this look in one of the teachers eyes, that look that Stephanie would have when you could just see her want to get just as out of pocket and crazy as you but that one look where she would hesitate for a moment then continue on acting just as silly as you. That look would always let me know something was going to happen to make me laugh silly. Like the day we went to IHOP! OMG that was too great of a day!
I guess that is probably why I felt this deep sense of loss all of a sudden that brought me back to reality that only you could provide those kind of special moments in my heart,so then I felt out of place and had to leave to go back to my room. It really hurts to be without you Jessi. No matter how much I try to push it out of the way to live each day, I know it's there and at any given moment I could hear one of your songs that you would sing or smell a common scent that you would wear feel a memory come to full focus something somehow someway pushes a Jessica thought to my brain each and every day and remember that the mission you were on was some serious business that you had to live so much of it within those 17 years here. Watching you grow and seeing the woman you were turning into was remarkable. I know the last 2 years were kind of unbearable for us both with your growing pains that were thorns in my side at times but in a way I'm glad that you took advantage of life and lived it so happily (well at least until you got home and had to answer to me) Sorry! but growing pains right? Well I'm just glad you chose to ignore the rules and regulations and got to live so freely. No regrets just alot of love babygirl.
Alot of hugs and kisses.
Mom

Hey Mija,

I just needed to say Hi..Every morning I come here and say Good Morning Jessica..But today I just needed a little bit more...please keep watch over that silly Andris clan of yours...they need that bright smile of yours to keep them going, some more than others...

Miss you and see ya when I see ya!
Besos!

K

Its been a while babygirl,
I've just grown so accustomed to talking to you in my mind and with my heart that it almost seems like your still here in my life and I thank you for that.
Well its boiling down to the day I know your here and I know you will be there that day.
Thank you for all my blessings and tell God He has been awesome.
Love Ya Toooooooo Much
Mom

OMG can you believe it? *21* I love you so much.

Just want to tell you again and again how much I miss you!

I just can not stop missing you!

Last night I recieved a text message and thought man that is ALL JESSICA! It said...

Ur the bullet to my gun, the moon to my sun, the right to my wrong, the lyrics to my song, the truth to my lie's, the brown to my eye's, MY GIRL TIL I DIE!!

I'm still here Jessie and when I'm done I'll come home to rest and we'll be together again!

Love you always!

Oh Honey! How do you like my place? Remember how we talked about getting our own apartment? The colors were picked out for each room and the parties were all planned out... And now look... You've help create an independent, responsible and strong lady. I just needed to Thank you! I love you so much. You live on forever Sissi Poo

Trapped in the glorious years

within the memory of belief, lost of all grief.

Take the reasons,

which once seemed so clear,

but never mind, you have nothing to fear.

For you my friend will be, forever young,

Forever in the heart of memories.



Lost in the glory of all time,

the wisdom was there within that smile,

You see you could have told us,

there within lies the mystery.



So shed a smile, and grin a tear,

For you my friend, will be,

Forever young, Forever young.

Forever in the heart of memory,

We see not through our misery.

Forever young, forever young.

There's a new angel tonight.



As I'm about to take this step in life I pray Jessica that all goes well. Things never worked out the way we planned and that always makes me sad. So much time has went by and there are no words to explain how much I miss you!

I love you B!

What a pretty summer day huh?

Remember those lazy summer days nothing to do bored out of your mind? Well, unless you were (BORROWING MY CAR) without me knowing or grabbing the keys and sneaking me away for a ride.

Seeing you drive past with Tina and Maria screaming out the window or singing to me as you guys drove past. Wow big sigh!

You know I was cleaning today and I put one of your bootleg cd's on and gosh the memories of you singing so silly and crazy to me all the time. I sometimes wonder if you really thought that you could sing? (just kidding.)

Well just thought I would stop by to say I love listening to your cd's I can feel you here wanting to sing and jump around and dance through the house like before.

I love you

Mom

Gimme Kiss!

Hey Jess.... I havent seen u in my dreams in a while, so i was so surprised last nite/this morning... and then BOOM the thunder hit!! We were cracking up I miss your laugh, your smile, your sassyness! I love u a lot and keep watchin over us all and well thanx for smiling down atcha girl. Love ya love ya love ya! SONNY CAME HOME!!! Ahhh I MISS U! LOL We had a blast!! Kareoke nights!

IT'S ME AGAIN

HERE TO BUG YA!!!!!!!!!!!

MISS YA

AND

LOVE YA LOTS <3

HI BABY GIRL I WAS THINKING ABOUT YOU TODAY I WAS JUST REMEMBERING ALL THE FUNNY LITTLE THINGS YOU USE TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!! WHAT WOULD I DO TO HAVE YOU BACK............... SEE YOU WHEN I GET THERE SILLY GIRL

hey boo.............

just wanted to stop by and say hi i wanted to thank you for helping me get through this rough weekend that i was having all i got to do is sit back and let you take over your always in my thoughts and prayers lova ya 2222222 much :o)

Jessica

I want to thank you for being my strength and support... These have been some long and stressful years... I now wonder why I was in such a hurry to grow up... These last couple of weeks have been a nightmare and I pray that you stick by my side because I feel like I'm about to break down...Bless me and protect me my beautiful angel!

I love you always and forever!

The One and Only

Maria Poo

Hey everyone,
Want to thank you for all the support and love you gave on Jessica's Birthday. I love you all.
Mass for Jessica and Dre will be at:
St. Helens Church
Oakley and Augusta
Sunday - June 11th 2006
9:00 a.m.
Everyone is invited to celebrate the lives of two people that we all loved dearly!
God Bless Everyone
Cheryl

Happy Birthday AGAIN!

Wow it's over and I don't know how to react. I mean I've spent your whole life fighting with you through good and bad, then I spent the last two years fighting for you.

I spent your whole life kissing tears away from pain in your life even if it was pain caused by me or by you, and I've spent the last 2 years crying tears for the pain that you had to suffer through and have left us to suffer through.

I thought that there would be some sense of closure but I feel even more empty inside.

Nothing to celebrate nothing to be happy about.

Still Empty - Still waiting - Still need you.

I love you

Happy Belated Birthday AGAIN!

Mom

JESSICA

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

MISS YOU LOTS

SONJA

I HOPE THAT YOU HAD THE BEST 20TH BIRTHDAY IN HEAVEN!!!!! I LOVE YOU SOOOO MUCH SWEETIE AND I MISS YOU MORE THAN EVER!

Happy birthday Jessica, it felt great to witness some justice! You will live on forever in my heart!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSSSSSSSSSS! THE BIG "20" AWW YEAH AWW YEAH. A FEW DAYS BACK YOUR MOM WAS TALKIN ABOUT OUR BLUE OX!!! AND MALIBU!! WHAT I WOULD GIVE TO GET UP ON SOME OF THAT TONITE!!! I MISS U SILLY GIRL AND I LOVE U A LOT. HAPPY BDAY HAPPY BDAY!!!

I want you to know that I miss you SO much... Your birthday is just around the corner and you know that will always be a special day for me. What do you think of everything that has changed? Crazy huh? I'm in shock myself. Life is amazing and it makes me really sad that your not here with me anymore... I pray that everything goes well on the 31st. Got the day off! I LOVE WHEN THAT HAPPENS but I love you even more.

Hmmmmmm....... Balloons, Cake, Candles, Presents lots and lots of presents if only dreams could come true. Special, special, special were each and every birthday. You appreciated each and everyone even if I didn't go all out something somehow had to make it special for you. (Well ok maybe we went overboard a tiny bit when Maria and Nicco and I woke you up at 6 in the morning. If only I got that look on tape. Gosh that made me so mad not to have that!) But it's forever in our hearts and when we want to laugh or smile we can just close our eyes and see that Gosh Horrible look of terror as we busted into your room that 16th year of life.

Maybe a hug for Grandma this year huh Jessi, I know having you on her birthday made her really happy but now she won't even recognize her birthday any more without you. So hows about it? Maybe?

And look at Nicco wow 17 already crazy right? Maybe I can do something special for him what do you think?

Well I better close this letter to you I feel the ole eyeballs starting to swell.

Just remember babygirl no matter what we ever went through in life I know it's all been forgiven in death. Eternal hugs and billions of kisses an eternity of just the "Good Times" I can't wait.

I love you tooooooooo much

Bestest Friends Forever

Mom

I knew that was coming! I love you so much and thanks again for being the most amazing angel! I love you!

Hi Baby,

Well another perfect Mass from Father Richard and yes his eyes all aglow from the crowded church. (You really can pack em in there huh?)(Smile)

Your day was beautiful & your friends are even more beautiful. You know you always wanted Stephanie and Evelyn to be close and you did that babygirl they are like your two older sisters and that is so beautiful to see how they share so many memories of you and no one can ever change that. You know its funny because I used to say your brothers gave me those girls but in actuality you did Jessi you are the one that brought the closeness and love between us together. When I think back on all the crazy times we had together one of those girls were usually around with you making me laugh or touching my heart with a surprize (Please Birthday Breakfast in Bed is not included!(smile))

Thank you Jessi for leaving me the girls I need them.

You know another thing that I did at the Cemetery on Tuesday? I looked around and seen so much love there for you it's amazing and wow to see Nicco there thats too much love, that took alot for him to do and I love him so much for it keep staying next to him I know hes gonna do great with his life.

And how about your other family? The whole family was there I bet you were doing cartwheels to see all of them there for you huh? There is alot of love there for you babygirl Ma & Pa miss you just as much as I do I see it in their eyes you were their daughter too and that is so beautiful to know that they helped to make you the person you were growing to be. I give a big thank you kiss and hug to the Mendez family I feel so much of you and Maria when I go to their house, it's as if you and Maria were truely sisters. I feel you there.

You know when it rained that night, I sat by the frontroom window thinking what a beautiful day we had and how happy you had to have been to see everyone together for you, but all of a sudden when it rained, I felt so sad because all I could think of was you crying because you missed everyone. You know each person that you gave the opportunity to let them into your life, you left them with a piece of you. Each person that knows you has everlasting memories that you made special for them and that is so remarkable baby. That day I looked at each of your friends and I could see you in all of them. Even Andrew I wish you would have had more time with him. I know you guys would have gotten alot closer now that you have the same friends that is so cool to hang out with your family something you always wanted.

Maria, Tina and Cory are the hardest to look at because when I see them I still look for you. Thank you Jessi for leaving me with the most beautiful people in the world to share you with. You chose your friends so wisely and they are really good people to know because they love you mama and forever I will see you in their eyes, hear you in their voices & stories and I doubt it very much if any one of them will ever forget you.

I know I shouldn't blame the Easter Bunny for what happened but the thought of Easter kills me it's like I have to relive your death twice for some reason and the hardest is Easter. I hide from everyone and everything that day, but I made a promise to Father Richard I promised him that I would go to the Easter Mass that he is having for you at 9:00 a.m. you see even Father Richard can't forget you. Do you realize how special you are? God Bless you babygirl & look for me in church.

I love you Jessica Emily and thank you so much for not leaving me alone.

Mom

April 11th wasn't so bad. I felt sad but you've mad me stronger. I can do it! As we get ready for Easter is when it gets hard for me. April 11th is just another day... That Easter morning will NEVER be forgotten. The baskets, the eggs, all that stuff. It has a different meaning now. The day that Jesus came and took you away. Life is not the same. Never will be without my Sissi Poo!

I miss you ALOT!

It's been 2yrs but it feels like it was just yesterday when u were sitting in class doing what u did best make me laugh ... i still don't understand why things have to happen this way..the only thing that keeps me sane is is knowing that the Lord knew what he had planned before any of us were even born ....so i know that ur in good hands..and i will keep praying for your mom and everyone that loves you deeply...your still the best JESS...u'll never be 4gotten..God Bless Love U !!

April 11, 2006

jessica oh jessica.. its been 2 years too long without you being here... and we all love u and miss u very much. its so beautiful outside today and the sun is shinin'... reminds me of ya.. i wish i could have went to go visit but im in school right now, and i been thnkin aboutcha all morning... i love u and the famo so so much you'll always be on my mind and in my heart! <3

hi honey,,,,grrrr today isnt a good day i woke up feeling a lil cranky and a lil sad...i cant stop freeakin crying...and im at work so i have to stay away from everyone because they already think im cucu,,,,i still miss you and there are times i still try to grasp what happened//this is still very hard,,the weather changes and i get sad, i hear a new song that i know we would like and i get sad,,,right now im sad....well just wanted stop by and write a few things....it makes me feel better when i write in here...welli love u soooo much. talk to you later...

Hi Babygirl!

It's me!!!!!!

Missing you sooooooooo much.

I had to go through some of your things the other day to get a few things for next week and I pulled out your journal that you wrote for me when you were in Puerto Rico with Maria that one year and it took me pretty much the entire day to read the whole thing but I did. It was something that hurt so bad to read because part way through it well kinda like the 4th page is where you starte writing how much you missed me and by the 6th page I could feel your tears for me. By the 8th page I could feel your longing for me and it tore me apart because to think what a 2 week vacation did to us and our hearts, how could 2 years come and go and not to even be able to have a phone call or a letter or a touch or a smile.

But anyways...........

I love you!

Hay Jessie,



Its been a while, but I've been extremly busy with school, work, and the baby. Hes getting so big. You see him? Hes amazing as always. I was looking at my pictures that I had taken at my birthday party at Smith last year. And Neca had your t-shirt on. It just brought back so many memories.... I know that I didnt know you as well as most of your friends, but what I did get to know of you will always be cherished!

Remember me, and know that you will always be in my heart, thoughts and prayers.

Your Friend,

Yessenia