Christopher Gasper Obituary

Happy birthday buddy. Miss you more than you know. CJ Wyatt Hunter and Xavier say hi .

Well it´s been 10 years. Wonder what you be doing right now. Miss you.

Miss you bud. I will never forget you.

Miss you bud. Life ain’t the same but you would be the best uncle with CJ Wyatt Hunter and Xavier.

Thinking about you all. Love you! Chris will always be in our hearts!

Chris,

Geese Gramma said I can't talk to you anymore. Well you were there. You heard her.

(Just kidding Mom. I know what you meant.)

Another opening day without you god they are just not the same miss you buddy . Love dad

3-3-2016

My dear, dear Godson,
I had the most horrible nightmare again about you. Parts of it were probably in my dream bc of a TV show I had watched last night and a little boy I am following who is going to come home very soon from a liver transplant and how he is having to do physical therapy bc he was intubated and knocked out for so long. Anyway, I found out in the dream that you were in the hospital actually and were pretty much immobilized BUT that you could say a few words and could hear what was said to you. I became INCREDIBLY ELATED but the hospital was a bit far but I COULD NOT WAIT to get to you and talk positive and encouraging stuff to you to help you get better. THEN my stupid brain kicked into my dreams and reminded me of where you really are, that I cannot drive there, that I cannot touch you. I think probably more than even any/all of my own children, or maybe because of the accumulation of all of my losses, I felt THE MOST AND DEEPEST AND HARDEST heartbreak EVER. But don't worry bc I am getting help with all this. If I don't, all of these losses will repeat themselves if I don't learn and go through what I need to, asked to, go through to become a more highly evolved soul. That's what gets me through the day, barely, but it does. Love you my Second Son.

Hey Chrissie,
I have been having terrible nightmares again every time I take a nap and at night. I went online for some advice from other PTSD sufferers and one person said that she listens to podcasts when going to sleep. I immediately thought of you and your podcasts on Midway Madness. So I wonder if getting them on a cd and listening to you would keep the nightmares away, leave me with you on my mind instead of whatever is inducing the nightmares. Not being a sports fan (I know, blasphemy), I would surely fall fast asleep. I am going to figure out how to get them on cd and try it. Maybe just an hour's worth per cd because when I have had cd's playing all night, it has woken me up and just simply waking up at night/can't sleep (gee I wonder why) is another problem all together!!!

Chrissie,

Will you tell Geese Gramma that I am missing her a great deal as I see all the Easter and St. Patrick's day decorations out for sale. I have great video of you be-boppin' in my driveway with your eggs in the bottom of your shirt. I have to pull it off the camcorder and put it on DVD. Send me someone who can do that. Oh and tell Aunt Mag that I am missing her and Uncle Buck too. I could list a bunch of people. I never imagined that I'd have soooo many family members in heaven by the time I was 37. Tell my Babies to go spend time with Gramma and listen to her stories of past Easter egg hunts. Love you Boy. Oh and bet you enjoy watching baseball games with Uncle Fred now that he can have his beer again because you no longer have to tell him no because Heaven is NOT a "dry county". LOL. Oh and Gramma loved a cold beer at a Sox game. Come to think of it, with the group you have up there, you guys are surely having more fun than us. You just wait til I get a hold of you!

Miss you buddy

Christopher,
You are needed.
Go to Lurie Children's Hospital in Chicago..
Go find a little 2 year old named Miles who is in intensive care after a liver transplant. He is suffering badly from withdrawal after being weaned from the drugs that sedate you when you are intubated. It's called "ICU Delirium" and he may be hallucinating and confused as to why he can't "reach" mommy and daddy no matter how hard he tries.
Go to him. Get into his consciousness. Do your funny kid stuff to get him to laugh and not be afraid of the bizarre world he may be stuck in. He doesn't have words to know what hallucinations are, like I did when I was in the hospital. Comfort him. Ground him back to reality. You are the "Kid Whisperer". Please help him as it is tearing his mom and dad apart to see Miles so out of it and distressed. It's NOT like being on happy drugs. He is confused and very, very upset and inconsolable. Oh and give Dad some strength as he is going through chemo for Stage 4 cancer.
I love you for doing this. I love you anyway.

"You're his witness now.
Without a witness,
they just disappear."

from the movie "Taking Chance"


"When it gets hard, remember this.
For no one can share them with the
world exactly like you can, through
your eyes, your view."

by Jena Nylec

Christopher,
I was deeply saddened today when I saw a flyer of the Chicago Cubs and a big list of positions they are hiring for.

"I have to tell Chris!!!!!!!!!!!!! "

"Oh I can't."

To make you happy I would even not tease you if you got a job with the Cubs.
To make you happy.

Ok I was kidding when I said that you and Emily can use the new roller shade to scare me like when it rolls up with the force of a NASA launch all by itself. It just did and I think it scared me more than if you or Emily appeared before me here and now.
So no more playing with the roller shade, ok? And could you fix it so they don't get stuck pulled allll the way down and then I have to take them down and reroll them. Come on, help me out here. =)
Love you Boy.

For every grieving mother I meet, I know that my child has met their child. We are all united in a very special way.

Remember that smiling face and feeling sad we won't see it again. I feel his family has a special angel watching over them.

Chris,
I know it had been a while since I had even seen you when you passed but you cross my mind often. Keep an eye out for Kelsey, CJ, Jer, and the rest of your family and we will all do our best down here. Rest in peace and say hello to my dad for me. ❤ Miss you,
Christina

Chris, I hope you are resting easy & watching over everyone especially CJ. There are days that I see you in him and that's what I wanted. Seeing how you were with Jordan, Justin, & Brandon, I knew you would be an amazing uncle. I wish you got to meet him. Thank you for the memories and fun times. They will never be forgotten. Love you, big brother. ❤
Love, your little sister

Hey Chrissie,
I would think this was your prankster self but I know these things do tend to do this on their own. You probably don't remember the "shades" that used to be in windows to block the sun and for privacy at night. Well I have them now and just looked up how to fix this common problem with these shades. The answer made me laugh out loud!!!

~~~~~ Shade Glitch:
It rolls up with the force of a NASA launch. Sometimes all by itself. ~~~~


I do think these things are possessed. More than once did it shoot back up, like a NASA rocket, and scare the (blank) out of me!!!

This would be a good "toy" for the you and Emily to use to play tricks on me. Just don't do it in the middle of the night.

Love you Boy.

Hey Chris .. I hope you've found Rob .. I'm sure he's running some fun games up there and smiling like you all the time .. ❤

Chris, I hope you are resting easy and watching over everyone, especially CJ. Seeing how you were with Jordan, Justin & Brandon, I knew you would be an amazing uncle. There are days I see you in CJ & it puts a smile on my face cause that's what I wanted. Thank you for all the memories & fun times. They will never be forgotten. Love you Forever ❤

hey chris,
I miss you a lot, I still can't believe you aren't here. it still is so unreal to me because there's days I'm walking campus and I swear you call my name but your not there. when I have a bad day I always look to the sky to see if heavens gates are opened to see if your watching over me. I wish you were hear to talk to, I miss your voice & your smile. I will always remember building forts out of couch cushions with you and asking if I brought you food whenever I came over. I love & miss you tons Christopher. I'll see you again one day, but until then I'll see you later my beautiful guardian Angel

May you rest in peace and God keep you in his care. Our thoughts and prayers are with your family and you will always be remembered. May Gid give your family strength in their time of need.

Chris,

You are missed so much by everyone. It will never be the same without you. I hope you are enjoying your time in heaven listening to the stones who will probably join you shortly. :)

Love,

Kellie

Hi smiley!I still feel like its a bad nightmare that day you passed away.The day I got the call. The look on Kelsey's face when Emily and I walked into the house. The way they hugged. The sound of their cries. Sitting on the couch with your dad waiting for your mom's flight to come in and for her to get to the house. The look on her face when she walked in... The cries, the look on her face... A heartbreaking night. I wish it was not real. I miss you so much. Your hugs, friendship, your laughter, talking to you, your smile. You were such a sweet , kind, funny, caring, person. I thought it sucked when you didn't work at the gas station by the house. How I would go in on the weekends if you were there and get a hug and have a doughnut together. You would smile and we both would say until I see you again smiley! Because goodbyes were not our thing. Now it feels like a piece of my heart got ripped out. I know in my heart you are smiling down upon us. Watching over us. Always know I'm blessed to have known you. To call you my friend. I love you Until I see you again smiley ☺

Always on my mind.

Love
Grandma Gasper

Hi Chris,
I thought I submitted this entry but there is no sign of it. I just wanted to tell you that I feel that Emily was with you as you crossed over. Your time of passing is 2:41pm (14 backwards). The coroner signed off on 2-14-14, the time of the accident was reported as 1413 military time and the latitude of the accident was
41.35.15.25 (14 backwards). She's such a good kid, waiting beside you so you wouldn't have to go to heaven alone, probably with the gaggle of other family there too. You are never alone and we are now never alone either.
Love you to infinity and beyond.

Hey cuz,
It still amazes me the amount of people you have touched in your lifetime. Just shows what an amazing person you really are. Keep an eye on everyone!
Love ya

Happy Birthday buddy miss you so much but I know you are alright life just ain't the same

All who are touched by beauty, are touched by sorrow at its passing.

A man lives for as long as one carries him in their heart.

In our hearts and in our minds your beautiful smile and spirit shine on!

We remember the L♥VE, not the loss!

Gods speed Chris.

Chris we all so very much miss your smile and your laughter. You had the best hugs too! I can't believe you have been gone 2 years, but with all of us in spirit. I pass by everyday and I hope you hear me when I say hi and I miss you. Please watch over your family and friends up there. They still need you buddy. Until we meet again....

Chris
Happy birthday in heaven little cuz. The day u went to heaven was devastating for us all. It is still unreal. I didn't see you much, but I talked to your mom often and we always updated each other on you kids. I love your parents and all of u kids so much. When you went to heaven, it affected our entire family, but mostly the family and friends who saw you everyday. The last time I saw you was at Kellie's wedding. You hugged me, we chatted. You were all grown up and had grown up beautifully. You were such an adorable little boy. I will always cherish that last hug and short conversation. Please watch over your parents, your siblings, your nephew, your grandparents, aunts,uncles an cousins. We will always love and miss you!

I will always remember the Dan D Jac weekends. You were one of the sweetest people there. You always had a big smile on your face. I'm sure you're still singing karaoke with us up there. You are truly missed and always will be.

Cousin/friend/brother- all of these of which you are too me. I love you and miss you more than you will ever know. Remember you will never ever be forgotten and you will always and forever remain in my heart. Listening to some Jonny Lang right now *redlight* up next the stones *wild horses*

It's been 2 years since you passed. I think about you every day. We grew apart after high school but my favorite memories include you. My 9 month old son and I were in a car accident recently and I swear I could feel angels watching over us. I hope you can hear me talking to you..because I do, a lot! I miss your crazy hair and freckle face! You always knew how to make everyone laugh and I smile through my tears when I think about you. Xoxo

Angela and Larry, While I don't see you as often as in our past, you are never far from my thoughts. My memories of Chris date way back to our townhouse days. When he would push Hayley around the sidewalk in her little red Cozy Coupe! Always the big brother and taking care of those around him. And that never ending smile. All my love to you and the family.

Mr. Swindell said, "You should be here". And "I'll be missing you" is so different now. You told Akeeya that you couldn't believe how many lives you touched. You saw so many lives like you go too soon. I hope you are all playing some game or you are doing the play by play as they go back to whatever sport they left behind. You got too many friends up there. Too many young family members. Gonna have to come talk to you soon. love you boy

I don't know why I miss you so much. I never hardly saw you, you never answered my calls bc what 20-something kid wants to talk to their old, bossy, advice giving aunt anyway. I guess it's because I have loved you with all my being since the moment I heard of your birth into our lives. Well some of you I am okay with bc it must have been in OUR plan but you dying I don't think was in my Life Plan with you. I just get to suffer the consequences while we hope that whoever was supposed to learn something from this actually does. I swear your leaving was an accident and you got up there and decided it wasn't a good time to go, there was more for you to teach. I am boycotting the next death anyway. Maybe all the rest. You all done burned me out on them. Love you anyway Boy.

Ok Chris, I know this is note #3 for today but what were you doing about 12:30 or 12:45pm today?
I had the most bizarre, mind blowing dream. Your dads whole family was there, your mom and Geese Gramma came up to me and I didn't want to talk to them and they were trying to show me something and then out of the corner of my eye stood you, with that gentle grin on your face and you were not dead anymore, you had been but now you were alive like it could really happen.
I saw in loud, utter awe but so so confused bc I knew that you had died and I had trouble remembering if you were buried or cremated and if you were cremated how did they bring you back to life but the understanding of everyone in the dream was that you were able to come back to life. I touched you and you felt a little weird, kinda like you did in the casket and I remember thinking well of course bc the embalming fluid messed up your skin but you were totally alive and at one point, standing and grinning at me from just inside your front door at your parents house, like HI, I'm home. Emily wasn't there and I kept trying to call Uncle Ed bc I had to tell him and then he appeared too.
It was so upsetting and mind blowing that I woke up, quickly got out of bed to get my barings and then a bad headache came. When Emily comes to be with me in a dream, I know she is just visiting. I don't think I have EVER, EVER dreamt that any of you up there came back to life FOR REAL.

Ok I can't believe that you can actually do this...another soul gone too soon but go find Michael Jackson. I just put on a playlist and his song with his brothers when he was young came on...the one about being there. I stopped in my tracks because I had just finished the post to you with that picture of you and Uncle and it seemed like Michael's song was you speaking to me. If you listen to the words, it could be me saying it to you, me to my Girls, and you guys saying it to me. I tried to always watch out for you and my Girls but I wasn't very successful based on your current address. But I do know that you and Em DO watch over me now and I don't even have to look over my shoulder to see signs of it. I loved you Kid like my own son.

Hey Chrissie,
I found this great picture of BOTH you and Uncle Fred!!!!! How cool!!! I think you had your little "pony tail" in this picture too. I think this was around the summer of 1992 because Uncle's birthday is the end of June but however you are wearing long sleeves, hmmmm, and I think it was my college graduation party maybe but you look too old to only be 4 in this picture. And this was at Geese Gramma's house on 103rd. Thank God for photos and videos. Tell everyone I said HI. That should take a good hour. LOL.

Chris,
I had the most horrible nightmare last night about you. Basically I was told that I could still see you, that you were in a box. Geese Gramma told me. I slowly found the room you were in and with much fear, peeked into the window of the box and it was you but I was told to be very careful because something was wrong with the back of your head. Well that would be my daughter Anna, not you. Then you, a midget version of you with brown hair and brown eyes, well the brown hair and eyes is my son, you jumped out of the box and began jumping around real happy. Then I got very, very, deeply sad because I saw the date of November 18th (notice not Em's date) as being when you first died, as this little kid and the sadness grew much bigger when I realized that you'd die again, like you did, the real time. I was sobbing as it was so hard to want to keep hugging you, afraid that I'd hurt your head wound, but so much needing and wishing that you were really alive again somehow. I was instructed to just lay you back down, that you'd fall back asleep, and to walk away from you. Well that was incredibly hard, words do not describe. I hate these nightmares. I felt so real. I think I was sobbing for real. As Em's anniversary approaches, I find myself missing ALL of you, my family, that has left me. And now in the time since you have left, I have sent off two very good friends to join your space up there. It makes my chest feel very heavy and like a tremendous weight is pressing down on it. When you died, I thought to myself, how am I going to add another anniversary to my year as they begin to haunt a few months beforehand. Last year, this time, was my first time moving into Em's day, Christmas time, your birthday and now death day added on. I feel choked up, like I can't breathe, as I imagine trying to do it again this year. It's coming. It doesn't stop coming for anything. And it never, in 28 yrs, 17 yrs, 11 yrs, 9 years, gets any better enough so as I am not injured further and again by the loss of each of you. I've seen this pattern, this effect come over me even if I am unaware of the date on the calendar, a few months before the day, and to make it worse, more people have been added to begin to hurt for, again even if I am totally clueless of its impending date. And they are significant people too. And each year there is usually some other element added just to make sure that I never can get too risen up from these losses too much, much as I try. A new death, a new fall from ability, a new major change. At least both of your dates are in one month.one hellish month. You guys are killing me, I swear. But the only one I am mad at for leaving is you. I swear it was a mistake. You weren't supposed to go. So if you are going to stay gone, you had better be doing lots of work from there to help the younger ones you left who need your guidance. But here's some hope. Maybe you swore to someone when you were alive, that if the Cubs ever got into the playoff's, you'd surely rise from the dead. Well, there's hope.
Love you too much Baby Boy. You always had a piece of my heart. Still do.

Hey Chrissie,
I heard you got your roommate back yesterday. LOL. Please give him a big hug for me and tell him that I had just been thinking of coming to visit him these past few weeks. Now I am mad that I didn't make it one last time. Have fun with him. Even before he got sick, he still was a funny guy, dropping those out of the blue hysterical one liners! But Geese Gramma will be glad to have her younger brother, her friend, back again. I'm so glad he is going to be back to normal in his mind and thinking now. I'll miss him. Great all around guy.

Walking in park across from Prairie View, kids practicing football... Oh there's Chris !!! ..... Oh no it's not Chris. That kid is like 8 years old and Chris wasn't into football and well, Chris couldn't be here. Keep walking and I hear some girl yelling "Christopher! Christopher! ". Thanks for walking with me My Boy. Love you like nuts.

CHRIS!
Right now you are so much suddenly on my mind and I am missing you so. I feel there is something I want to tell you and would usually text you right now. I feel you here with me so strongly right now. Miss you Boy.

Oh and when I said last time about coming back soon, I had no idea you've been here since March disguised as your very own nephew! So everyone will see you again when you arrive in December. Be nice to Kelsey. Travel safely!

Chris, I meant to tell you this before but I found on the paperwork of your fateful day that I think Emily was with you the whole time. One significant event occurred at 1413 military time and another at 2:41 pm. 41 backwards is 14. Plus you passed in the 14th year of the 2000's. Emily was with you at that very moment, she didn't leave you but she did beat you to heaven because you said that she met you there in a white garden with a picnic. Just had to tell you. Love ya Boy.

Chris,
Make sure Emily has everything she needs for her junior year in college. Put little notes in her backpack. She'll roll her eyes when she finds them.

As for Joanna, Anna and Diane, tell them everything they should do and see and experience during this senior year in high school. Tell them the lessons you learned before you left us. Tell Em too.

Hug them all directly from my heart.

Love You Boy.

Chrissie Dear,
Took Maggie to the cemetery to show her where all the people she sees behind the couch live. Whatever you guys are doing behind my back has got her attention. She says you all have a pretty neighborhood and likes to sit with you guys and listen to all the talking and laughing. I do too. I miss you too much and still, still cannot believe that you are gone. Feel free to come back any time you are ready, like now. And bring all the family back with you. Great. Thanks Kid.

Caught a glimpse of your picture today. Took a little breath away. Wonder what you are doing and if you are happy. Hope you are happy. Miss you here.

Hey Chris,
Your mom gave me the Mother's Day card you bought me. It was a nice surprise from you. It said what I've wondered if you felt. I wished I could give you the hug but that I only have memories of now. I missed you tonight as we hung out. I can hear you. The house still holds your presence. I love you. I miss you.

Was that you this morning Chris? Got in car before dawn and on the radio comes this song from the video of you on the Midway Madness website. It's not a song you hear on the radio anymore and that was playing when I got in the car. Reality hitting me this week. Can't believe that you are really gone.

Hey Chris, Buddy Guy was doing an interview yesterday about BB King and I noticed 2 interesting things.....behind Buddy Guy were 2 White Sox things hanging on the wall AND Buddy Guy said that his favorite BB King song was "Sweet Little Angel". I listened to the song and he did a lot of guitar playing before he began to sing and, never hearing him before, I found that it sounded like his guitar was speaking, singing words. I actually found it enjoyable to listen to. Now the words don't match what I think of MY Sweet Little Angels including you but I find it interesting that he mentioned an angel song and there was a White Sox image in the interview with Buddy Guy. Hmmmmmmm

Here's one for you and Geese Gramma to discuss. When I was a kid, this original was still there and you could here the cheers and see the fireworks. Tell Grampa Gasper that I could have used his advice lately. You sure have a nice group of people with you up there. Hi to Aunt Mag and Uncle Buck too.

Well Chris, enjoy your time with B.B. King. You sure have had a lot of sports and music legends join you. I can hear you chatting happily non-stop about how cool it must be up there meeting these big timers. Love and Hugs,

Happy Easter little cuz! Everyone still misses you thinks about you. Keep watching over the family. I love ya!

Chrissy, you know what I miss and we'll never get it back EVEN if you and Em and The Girls (and Geese Gramma) were here........we'll never get back when you were little and everyone was home when I came over and play and laughing and traditions were a guarantee. Even if the 5 of you were here, you'd be in high school and college and working on a career and growing up and flying the coop.

Someone reminded me recently that if Emily was here, she'd be a sophomore in college and 2 years ago I'd have had to deal with her leaving me but I would have had prep time to prepare (unlike in 2004). Even with 3 girls still in high school when she left for college, no mother likes it when their baby is far from home or doesn't want to communicate as much anymore.

So now I am living without her JUST like I would have been 2 years ago AND she could be 6 hours away at college like I did. Oh but I wouldn't have traded it for ANYTHING if you had all stayed here because there would be future events to participate in like weddings and babies and becoming a Great Aunt and a Grandmother.

So even if the 5 of you were not in St. Mary's and were home, I'd still be sad (am sad) because you'd all be off doing things with kids your own age and have no time or interest in old folk like me or my kids any interest in me and Uncle Ed except for money and the occasional reassurance that we love them. Of course I'd do my over-reassurance that I love you all.

Even though I realize this normal, natural progression of you kids growing up, it's still a great loss of when you were kids and we had a really great, special time. I think more special than most kids and cousins and their goofy aunt.

Love Forever,

Oh Chris, how amazing you are to find this very old school graphic arts Birthday card that you made me many years ago and get it posted on here for my Birthday. Thanks for remembering my Birthday. Always many kisses and hugs, Auntie Jena

Hey Chrissie,
I went by the cemetery today to clean up Emily's birthday decorations. Now I know it wasn't a far walk but it was so nice of you to bring her YOUR Birthday card that I brought you over to Emily for HER birthday. That was sweet of you. I know she loves living so close to you now. Much love and hugs, Auntie Jena

From 2002, Uncle Buck's Memorial.
Just like in the video I sent Nick, always you and Frank together....

Hey Chris, when the crowd clears, enjoy talking to Minnie and Ernie.
Miss you too much. xoxoxoxox

Chris,

Did you meet Lauren yet?

When I told you and Emily to look for her last night, there was something I didn't know until this morning. You see, she too was an organ donor. Ask her about her rare blood type and the kids that would have NEVER lived except for her move to Heaven.

I believe organ donation was one of the purposes in both of your lives. And a big one at that. You saved lives, you all did. You saved lives. Thank you.

Happy birthday buddy sitting here thinking about you and missing you life just ain't the same

Chris! The Guestbook is going to be online for another year!

Happy 27th Birthday to my Godson. I am sure that Geese Gramma is making a gourmet dinner for you and Grampa Gasper and that she has a big dining room table set so all your other family and friends up there can come. After dinner you have to stick around for cake and coffee. It's tradition. Then you guys can go out. I can't believe you are that old already. Love and Hugs, Auntie Jena

Chris I still can't believe it's been a year. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about you. I sit here and reminisce on the times we shared the laughs, our talks we had, your crazy stories, the way you dance and lip sing well tried to lol, and of course grabbing a cold one on Sunday with you. I miss everything about you. Your laugh, your smile, your goofiness and your hugs God do I miss those. You gave the best hugs! There was never a dull moment with you buddy. Chris you taught us a lot, the little things in life that we tend to over look. You taught us how to live life to the fullest. To do what you want when you wanted to. Im so glad I got to meet the most amazing, adorable man in my life and I glad I got to call him my best friend. Chris you always remain our my hearts and will never be forgotten. I love and miss you so much.
Rest in Paradise
Forever my best friend and now my angel
Let's party like its 3012 tonight

January 14, 2015

Chris, I don't know if you were involved in this late afternoon's escapades but Emily and Uncle Ed were fooling around. Uncle Ed told me to get up and make a call and amazingly a cancellation had just opened up for a long time friend of ours that I wanted to see tomorrow. I had called this guy's office several times in the past, left a message, they called back but I didn't because “it just didn't feel like the right time”. Today the lady, who knows both Ed and I said that I would NOT have been able to get in tomorrow but about an hour ago, a cancellation occurred. An hour ago was when I heard it in my head to “just get up and make the call for an appt tomorrow”…..because I can't make any commitments past 2 feet right now. And Uncle Ed knew the time is right now to see this man, made an opening and told me to get myself up and call the man.

Then your co-conspirator Emily, well, in case you didn't know, the dead like to mess with electronic equipment. She's been messing with music on my computer, the TV and the remote but now she is repeating the same thing. Today was the 2nd time that I was texting Em's best friend's mom and AGAIN, Donna texted me and nothing came across. Last time, a few things helped us figure out that it was probably Em. There was some coincidental evidence at that time. Well today, shortly after her dad got me that appointment, she made two of Donna's texts show up blank!
I just had to yell out loud… ”You guys are nuts! Are you having fun? Is Chris in on this?”

REMEMBER THIS CHRIS… before this Guestbook closes…..you are now in a position of MUCH MORE power than you had in this earthly life you left a year ago. I don't know if you even know that Emily came to about 8 people in dreams in the first year after she died or all the signs she sent using “14”, especially to me in one week alone. Or that Emily now in the past few years wakes her best friend up and is standing next to her bed, smiling.

Some souls are old and some are newer. Some are better at communication and some need to learn. But you already spoke to me about a week after you died so I think you have a few tricks up your sleeve already. Oh and then there was the grave throwing thing, you s---!

You see, the bereaved that are here on Earth missing you, their ears, eyes, hearts, minds may not be ready or able to hear or see or feel you. They are hurting so bad that they are blocked from even feeling their feet on the floor. Me, voted most talkative in high school, didn't speak, email, answer the phone

(late word….Emily just sent the same text to Donna twice)

pick up voice mail, communicate in any way for what seemed like months after Em died. I was totally shut down emotionally and physically in my apartment. I was on auto pilot. However even a week after we buried her, she yelled my name to wake me up for something important. She has always been a strong soul like I think you are.

So my point is this………….if you are not already or if your soul is busy doing its homework, know, know, know that you have so much power from where you stand now. You can influence people. You can help people. You can plant seeds, ideas, guidance in their head. You can answer requests like when I can't sleep, I ask Em and I am asleep in 2 minutes and THAT is a miracle at times of great grief. You can affect their bodies. You can help more people from Heaven than you EVER would have on Earth. You can hear each other, see each other, talk to each other. And I can TRULY, TRULY attest, it is immensely healing. Go and make Kelsey pull up the PowerPoint I asked her to make of the book “Peace Angels”. It's the perfect example of what I am talking about here.

Oh, and your Godson and any children under or around age 3 CAN SEE YOU. Your nieces and nephews will be able to see you. In fact, you may meet them before their parents do. Then they will tell their parents “that's him, we played baseball together” when that born child sees a picture of you.

So DO NOT, DO NOT fret about what you are disappointed about in this life that you did or did not do. We are here to learn lessons and teach lessons. Review how you did. Learn from it and move on with a better understanding of life.

Whisper to those who struggle so much with losing you that they need to call out your name first before talking to you as you are doing other things up there and watching over so many people. For example, since I told you beforehand that I was going into my psychic and wanted to speak to you on Valentine's Day 2014, the psychic could BARELY do her opening ritual and you and Em were planted on each side of me and you were chatty, chatty, chatty, happy, happy, happy like your old self. I hope those 2 people you said won't talk about your death, I hope they have healed a little since then. Some may never come to grips with your being on the other side of the Veil. But again, their grief is part of their life journey.

Oh and the best gift of all are when Ed and Emily come to me in dreams and I wake up feeling LIKE WE JUST SPENT REAL EARTH TIME TOGETHER. Gramma didn't come for 15 years but for some odd reason she came for 3 days at Thanksgiving. Love to know the reason.

Thank you for keeping in touch this year. You know I appreciate that, tricks and all. I love you, I hug you always. Auntie Jena

Hey Chris,
I was telling Grampa about how you guys up there can play with things with electricity and how someone is making bursts of music with words come out of my computer. He doesn't believe so I was looking at a young picture of you on my wall and asking you to play with his clock in his car. Then I began to cry because I miss you and I was wondering if Geese Gramma was still up there. As tears filled my eyes, I began to see each of your siblings in your face. Yes, even Kelsey. It was really beautiful. You carry them all in you. I love you. I miss you. I could hit you in the head for leaving. Love Always, Auntie Jena

Correction Chrissie: I got out of the ER on the 15th, the day before your 9th month Angelverysary. Anyway, it caught my attention, the dates, as always. Emily the 14th, you the 16th. Emily November. You January. Forever going to be hard time of the year.

To my Dear Chrissie,
As I lay in the ER of the hospital where first you were born and then later Emily...with yet another migraine...I stare across from my "room"......over the doctors... to the wall. The calendar read a big "14". So I got to the ER one month before Emily's 10 year Angelversary and one day before your 9th month Angelversary.

Now...before you died, I had a good belief system about life and death that got me through the loss of my 4 Angels and all the other people in our family.

BUT
after you died,
FORGET IT.

Thanks for all the donated parts of the Greatness of Christopher Gasper.....oh except your broadcasting ability. You took that with you. Bummer.

But as I told Emily recently...
I'd rather she be back home in Mokena
IN A HOUSE.

No silly, not in Mokena in a cemetery.
Anyways, you better have a good person ready when I get up there to explain why you all died and NO ONE had better join you all ANY TIME SOON!!!!!

As always, I love you (and a hug)
Auntie Jena

Chris, this is for YOU and other "Unintentional Heroes".

http://youtu.be/rl4cozAHNdk

I don't find it coincidental that the songwriter is Irish and the proceeds benefit the Irish Kidney Association since Geese Gramma went to a kidney doctor for as long as I can remember.

Pa Curran. Is a Singer-Songwriter from Ireland.

He has a project to create awareness worldwide of the need for people to be organ donors.

He came up with this concept after the deaths of two friends, both of who were organ donors. In the video it shows the delight of 8 people who have been saved by organ donors, it also shows the families of the deceased donors paying tribute to their loved one.

All proceeds of the song are going to the Irish kidney Association and to the Strange Boat Donor Foundation

My dearest Chris,
I was on the "L" today and caught a glimpse of Columbia. Tears streamed down my face. That phenomenon will never stop. However, I am wondering how much you had to do with the amazing events that happened after I got off the "L" that were not planned, should not have been there but were, put me in places I wanted to be at some date but didn't plan to be today, put people in front of me that I could help and people in front of me that could help me. Did you all Upstairs orchestrate this? I am pretty sure some of you did. I, at least, wanted to let you know, that I feel your presence strongly. Big thanks if you helped today. Big hugs and I love you as always. Oh and STILL finding more things you made me as I go through old stuff. Love you Godbaby. Keep sending signs and thanks for listening. I can tell you are RIGHT THERE.

Chris, while thinking about you today, I realized how lucky I am to have you in a place where I can go visit the human part of you. What holds that great smile and that little boy I loved to take places. Some people never get the chance to bury their loved ones with all these major catastrophes lately. They never get them back. It means so much to me to be able to be physically near you even though I also know that all I have to do is to yell out "Chris" and you are by my side ready to listen to whatever is on my mind. Talked to Grampa about this today too. Said I couldn't have his ashes scattered around. He agreed for us to shhhhh.....sneak him in the ground in front of Geese Gramma's grave. We gotta stick together kid. Love ya, miss ya, need ya. Hugs always. P.S.--some animal opened your Reese's cup but didn't like it and left it. You are loved always Godbaby.

Chris, you'd be going nuts with the sports in Chicago right now. 4-26-2014
It's hard for me to hear sports on TV or the radio or even glimpse it on the news or if the game is still playing on TV because it makes me think of you and that hurts too much. Love you. Auntie Jena

Hey big brother, I cant stop thinking about you.. I miss you more then anything or anyone in the world. I love you.

Hey Chris, did you see Geese Gramma wearing this yesterday for the Sox opener? She sure loved a cold beer at the game. Remember she grew up blocks from the park. You and her are probably having lots of talks about the Sox. I'm sure she listened to every podcast or broadcast you did! You sure did her proud!

Thinking of you today as it was Opening Day at The Cell for the White Sox. Miss you too much. Auntie Jena

Chris, looking at your holy card ALL over my house, you look like an angel. I thought the same thing of Emily after she passed and Gramma too. What's with that. I hope you hear me each night as I talk to you. I hope Geese Gramma is making you cheese omlettes and Grampa Gasper has a recliner just for you in front of the TV and I hope you let Emily sit at your feet and talk your head off. She adored you. No more pain for anyone. Your new store looks fantastic. I told Gail that you'd protect it from harm. If Neo is up there, send him to Frank in a dream, after you hit him in the head for running away so much. And have a great bonfire with all the friends that were gathered on those holy cards in your room that had passed. Watch over your sibs and your parents hearts. They need it and you have the power to do it now. Love you Godbaby.

You will surely be missed...

Chris was the nicest and great friend to everyone. He always lit up a room when he was around. I had the pleasure of knowing him for 8years and happy I had that chance. You will be greatly missed. All my prayers are to the gasper family in your hard time!

He was a good friend in high school he was like a bro and hope you r.i.p Gas

Larry and Angela,I was sad to hear of the sudden passing of your son Christopher; you and your family are in my prayers. (I am the neighbor of Lenore & Nick).

Angela, Our deepest condolences to you and your family during these difficult times. I'm so sorry for your loss. Our prayers are with you. God Bless You.

Angela, I am so sorry for your terrible loss. You have been in my thoughts and prayers since I heard the news. Chris sounded like he was a great guy - he will always be watching over you and your family. God Bless you all!

Angela,Larry,and family,

I am so deeply sorry for your loss. I did not know your son, Chris, but he sounds like one amazing young man! I just wanted to let you know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
It has been a long time since I have seen you, but I am absolutely heartbroken thinking of your tragic loss.

I am honored to have Chris as a friend. If everyone was just a little like him, the world would be a better place. Chris you will never be forgotten. Prayers to Gapser family!

Love & prayers to the Gasper family & all Chris's friends.
Vicky Foley

Angela, my heart truly hurts for you and your entire family. Such a tragic loss. Please know that you are in my prayers. Chris sounds like an incredible son, cousin and friend to sooo many. God Bless.

I'm honored to call Chris a friend. If everyone was just a little like him the world would be a much better place. My heart and prayers go out to all his family and friends. Gone but never forgotten.

My greatest sympathies to you Angela and your family for such a great loss. Remember to listen to the silence... you will hear him and feel him. Keep those moments close to your heart.

Chris was an amazing person and a great friend I can remember all thoses days just sitting in the garage watching sports or playing baseball,bags,pool or just listening to great music I'm going to miss you a lot. There are not many memories from growing up that dont have you in them. My thoughts and prayers are with the entire Gasper family

I am so sorry. Chris was an exceptional guy. He will be missed and never forgotten.

Happy Birthday Chrissie. Bet it's a big old cake and coffee PLUS party goin' on up there!

Our deepest sympathies to your family, Chris. This is such a painful time, but we all know you're just another guardian angel now watching over us. Be good up there.

Dear Gasper Family: Our deepest sympathy for your loss! Our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!
Steve & Alexandra Gajda & Family

We are extremely sorry for your loss. You will be in our thoughs and prayers. Love Julie and Bill Kwiatkowski

Angela and Family,
I am so deeply sorry for your loss, my prayers are with you and your family.

Diane Barberio