Alberto Gutierrez Obituary

Miss you kid hasn't been the same without you here

Dear Beto



its been a year that you've been gone and it seems like it was just yesterday. i feel so anxious because i want to see you and hug you i love you dearly taco nothing will ever be the same without you our lives have changed for ever. I still cant accept that you are gone i have alot of anger in me and i don't want to beleive that im never gonna see my brother again, it really hurts me and i feel like screaming hard and calling your name, Oh if only that could bring you back mi taco. i love you mi taco and miss you dearly and remember you are for ever in your familys heart and will for ever be missed.

I can't believe it is almost going to be a year when we were awaken by that phone call on July 10, 2004.



How I wish we would of never recieved that call. I wish we would of been able to get in touch with each other the night before this tragedy happened. I know if I would of spoken with you, you probably would be here today with us, preparing to celebrate another 4th of July.



Why? Why is life so unfair? I don't seem to understand why God takes the good and leaves the bad? It's amazing how we don't value and appreciate eachother when we are alive. I guess we see how young we are and we figure we have a lifetime to live. I use to think only the old died. I don't have enough fingers to count the number of "young" people who I knew and who have died. Never in my dreams would I of thought you were going to be one of those. I wish I can go back in time and appreciate all the wonderful people I knew who have died. There are 2 people I would hug so tight and kiss endlessly, that is my father and you.. The two great men in my life who really showed me and made me feel so loved have left me. God, what I would give to have both of you back. I so much need the affection, love and attention you always gave me. I feel empty inside, wishing you come back and refill that hole you left. I think alot about you and my dad. I know you ears must hurt from all the talking and praying I do to both of you. I feel so bad for your family, especially your mom. Your mom will never be the same. The day you left you also took a huge part of herself. I could only imagine it must be so difficult to wake up every day and know that her family is incomplete... There will always be one of her children missing. I can only imagine the pain and suffering your mom goes through everday knowing her son will not be back. That is why I ask you to give her the strength and the spiritual guidence that she needs. I know she will never overcome the loss of her son, but I ask you to give her a sign or sense of reassurence that your body may of left this earth, but your spirit will always be with her and with everybody.



It so hard to say these words, but what else is there to do or say other than to move on.. I know there will be days I won't remember you or I may forget to speak to you but always remember you will always be in my heart! I pray to God we re-unite one day.



As 4th of July approaches, I will remeber that day so vividly, since this was the last day I spent with you. All I can do is remember the conversations, laughs and affection we shared that day. Who would of thought that day would be so memorable. On July 10, 2005 Our heart will be broken just the same as they did on July 10, 2004 and we will relive the pain, emptiness and suffering you left us.



I miss you very, very, much..



Love Always,



Lena

:-(

2 MY FAVORITY UNCLE ALBERTO/DEKOE,



I WISH THAT U WER STILL HERE BECUASE I MISS U ALOT AND CANT STOP CRYING OVER ALL THE FUN THINGS U DID WITH US LIKE TAKING US TO THE BEACH I MEAN ME,GELICA,BABY AND WE ALL MISS U WE CANT STO9P THINKING ABOUT HOW GOD COULD TAKE U INSTEAD OF US U HAD A DUAGHTER AND A FAMILY THAT LOVED YOU ALOT AND THAT CARED 4 U MAN I LOVED U WITH ALL UR JOKE AND RAPS AND HOW U WOULD INSTEGATE I LOVE U TIO BETO AND ALWAYZ WILL.



LOVE ALWAYZ,UR NEPEW P-LEE AKA AROK

Hey,Tio

Just wanted to write a few things to let you know how much I miss you and how your constantly on my mind.Tio I feel like its been years since I last seen you God I miss you so much.Tio I wanted to let you know how depressed I've been feeling lately I cant accept the fact that Im never going to see you again it hurts me so much.

Tio what hurts me the most is that you were always looking forward to life you were excited about what new things were coming your way you always lived your life so freely at your own pace.One thing I loved about you is that you never let anyone talk to you about how you should live your life or what to do. I loved your lyfestyle always wanted to kick back and just chill at the house no matter what you did I never thought of you as a boring person I loved being around you tio. Always making me laugh you always seemed to bring a smile to my face even at times when I was sooo mad. Tio you were so special so unique thats what I loved about you,you never tried to be anything else you were who you were a loving,caring,affectionate person with a great sense of humor.Im so blessed to have been able to have an uncle like you. I love you tio and you will always be in my heart.



Love always,Gelica

Softly As He Leaves You–

Life is so uncertain,

this we all may know. . .

No one knows the time of day,

when they'll have to go.

Though now Beto's time has come to leave you, to face this world alone. . .

These promises he'll make to you,

to give you strength to carry on.

When the sunlight awakens you,

He’ll be there too.

When the moon shines on your pillow. . .

He’ll be shining on you.

He’ll be in the cooling breeze,

as it rustles through the trees. . .

He’ll be in the pouring rain,

as it hits your windowpane.

When darkness dims your vision,

just close your eyes and look above

He’ll be standing right beside you,

You will always have his love.

May peace and comfort be upon you. . .

Hold close your happy memories.

For in your hearts you'll know

that no matter where you are . .

Is where he’ll always be.

Unknown-



I wanted to share this beautiful poem/prayer with everyone. Everytime I read this it brings some comfort to me. I hope it does for you as well..



Missing you always Beto!

hey tio beto just wanna let you know i havent stopped thinking about you and all the good times we had together....well for now i just wanted to say i love you and you will always be in my heart

heehah

HELLO BETO! I JUST WANTED TO DROP A FEW LINES TO REMIND YOU THAT YOU ARE NOT FORGOTTEN. AS THE DAYS AND MONTHS GO BY LITTLE THINGS JUST REMIND ME OF THE SPECIAL PEOPLE I HAD THE CHANCE TO KNOW, AND YOU ARE ONE OF THEM. REMEMBER THEM JUAREZ YEARS? WE WOULD SIT AT LUNCH TOGETHER AND AFTER SCHOOL WE WOULD WALK DOWN 21ST. JUST LIKE EVERYONE IN THIS BOOK HAS MENTIONED YOU GAVE EVERYONE NICKNAMES AND I REMEMBER MINE YOU WOULD CALL ME GINA JONES! YOU WERE THE ONE PLAYING MATCHMACKER WITH ME AND BUSTER. YOURE THE ONE TURNING ME OUT TO ALTERNATIVE MUSIC. REMEMBER? WELL I JUST WANT TO THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE AND LEAVING ME NICE MEMORIES OF YOU CAUSE THATS HOW YOU LIVE ON IN THIS WORLD BY MEMORIES. I KNOW FOR A FACT YOUR UP THERE WITH ROY AND TONY SO SEND THEM MY LOVE AND REMEMBER YOU HAVE PEOPLE DOWN HERE THAT LOVE YOU! GINA

Hey,Tio



How you been,hopefully you are in God's hand and you are being well taken care of.Tio Beto I miss you so much everyday your unpresence is getting harder and harder, and the pain grows stronger and stronger. It's been so long since I last seen and heard your lovely voice. Every day that passes I still continue to ask myself why you had to leave us so early.



I still dont understand why some of the most special people in our lives can just walk away with no reason, and open one of the biggest wounds ever. A wound that will never heal.Tio nothings the same without you. Everything now seems like it has no meaning to it. And it will forever remain that way without you.



Well I do have to admit that there is at least something that keeps me going each day. The memories all the good times we spent together. No one will ever understand how I fell I act as if everything's O.k but deep inside Im hurting so bad. I need to see and talk to you one last time.I know it seems impossible but it isnt. Just come and visit me in my dreams so we could talk and joke around like old times. That will make me so happy.



Well Tio that's all for now. I LOVE YOU,I LOVE YOU,I LOVE YOU. Please dont ever forget that. And dont forget that there's no one in this whole world that will ever replace you. I know that there's no one in this world as special as you. LOVE YOU LOTZ!!!!!!!



Love always,

Your Hogan

P.S Give Chiquita A big

hug. I know for a fact that she's happier up there with you cuz I know I would.

JUST TO LET YOU KNOW I MISS YOU ALOT BETO, THERE IS NOT ONE DAY WHEN I DONT THINK ABOUT YOU MY DEAR BROTHER, OUR LIFES ARE CHANGED FOR EVER WE ARE NERVER EVER GONNA BE THE SAME WITHOUT YOU IT HURTS ME TO KNOW THAT I WILL NEVER SEE YOU, OH I WISH I COULD SEE YOU BETO, I WANT TO HEAR YOUR VOICE I FEEL SO DEPRESS JUST THINKING ABOUT YOU I LOVE YOU TACO AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH LOTS OF HUGS AND KISSES FROM YOUR LIL SIS ROSIE THAT LOVES YOU VERY MUCH





LOVE YOU TACO AND MISS YOU SO SO MUCH!!!!!



MI LINDO TACO

hey tio how u been sunshine to start off i wanna say ilove you to death and everyday i think about you i get more and more sad, just knowing the fact that your gone tears me up inside i hate the fact that you had to leave us even though it wasnt your choice well never be the same without you dekoe you left us all with a wound in our heart that wont heal until we see your face again in heaven. the beloved days when you would sing and dance around are no longer here but deep inside i know at the partys you'll always be there by spirit dancing with us singing to us laughing with us and crying with us. i love you dekoe i miss u and ill never forget you...

baby

hee-hah

sneevy

dads

wize DEKOE R.I.P

DEKOE ROX SOULS IN HEAVEN

LOVE YOU FOR EVER

P.S OUR LANGUAGE SICINAL TAL PAL KINAL SAL HA HA HA.

Hey tio is me nes i dont even know where to start we all miss u so much we cant believe your gone.God called you to early tio your not gonna be at my house every saturday partying singing and making us laugh Im trying not to cry cuz it hurts so bad.I try not to cry in front of anyone because then theyll start to cry to.i just wish i could of been there to help.Im gonna miss you so much tio u were the life of the party u were the only reason we would have fun because you hung wit the kids u were EVERYONES favorite uncle.Tio i promise you from the bottom of my heart that I will NEVER forget you. You are and always will be my favorite uncle.I miss u so much every night i try not to cry then when saturday night comes its worse i try to keep my mind occupied and try not to think of your passing.Tio plz promise me that youll watch over us my mom lost two brothers in one month. Im not sure how much more she can take tio.Please watch over all of us be our angel.Well tio ima keep it short i love you so much tio

Rest in peace i love you.

Hi sweetie.



It's unbeleivable that you are not here with us. Sometimes I feel you left on a trip and I wish I can call you or write you a letter and ask you to come home already. We miss you so, so much. I don't think there has been a day since I haven't thought about you. I especially think about you in the mornings when I am heading out to work. I hear the radio and either the Alicia Keys song "If I ain't got you with me" song comes out or the song from Hobastank "Reasons" comes out and I just start crying and I feel like life was so unfair to you! Why is God so unfair? I guess I will never understand how he determines who gets to live and who gets to leave this earth.. I just pray to God that you are in peace. Sometimes, I feel you are sad, sad that you can't be here with us and share many things with us. I miss seeing your beautiful smile, the way you walked, seeing you eat. You were always so good looking. I always liked you, ever since I was a kid. I always wanted to go out with you and luckily I was able to know what it was like to be your girlfriend. And you know what? you treated me the same way I always thought you would. You were so carinoso with me, always so affectionate with me. I miss that so much. having someone who truly cared about me. I hope the day I die I get to be with you again, because there is no other person I would of loved to of spent my life with, and if it wasn't possible on this earth, I hope God let's me spend my life with you in heaven..



I could go on forever...words can never explain what I feel for you and how I dearly miss you. Again, I ask you to never leave my side. Your body may of left this world, but I know your spirit is always with us...



I LOVE YOU SWEETIE!

Dear Taco



I can't beleive its been almost 4 months that you have been gone, oh i miss you so much,it's getting harder for all of us to live without you, life just isn't the same anymore and will never be. we will never be happy without you,i feel so depress just to think that we are never ever gonna see you anymore,it hurts me to visit you in the cementary,i can't beleive we are going thru this, its very hard. i wish i can see you and touch you at least one last time and tell you how much i love you mi taco. i miss you burning on me while you would sing, now i don't even have a nick name for my new baby beacuse the nickname master is not here.i love you taco and i just want you to know that you will forever be in my heart and in everybodies heart because you were very special and always will be you will never be forgotten,i also want you to know that our family will never be the same without you





Love you for ever

your sister

Rosi





La Wacha

Fidelia

nancy bedolla

marimacha

and so many other nicknames you had for me i don't think i will ever finish typing all of them..

Love you

Dear,Beto I can't believe you have already been gone a month!! It feels like only yesterday when me and Nene got that horrible phone call, the one your poor brother always feared and the one I thought would never come... or at least I never thought it would have been " you" as selfish as that sounds "I never thought you". Im sure you can see how "devastated" your loss has left us all including myself. I truly in my heart feel like I have lost a "brother" not a "in-law", because to me you were my brother and in return you made me feel like your sister. It is going to be so hard for all of us to try to move on without you in our lives. Funny how we use to give you grief over playing your "carnival music" and now we can't stop searching for it in the radio. We constanly remind our selves of things you said and did that manages to bring a smile to our face and at the same time sorrow in our hearts,because we want and deserved so much more of you!! but we were robbed of that. It is just not fair to your Mom and Natalie and all your brothers and sisters and nephews and the many friends that loved you. I hope you know how special you were to so many people . I want to "THANK YOU!!" for being such a good brother to Nene and making him feel so loved by you and especially for loving and caring and being there for Gelica and Baby so much. They will continue to need you so I know you will be there for them in spirit and in there minds and in there hearts forever. We will miss everything about you...from your shy smile to your infectious laugh or from your quiet stare to your Durangense dancing. We will keep you in our hearts forever.

Dear Beto,

Its very hard for me to beleive that were not going to see you anymore and that youre gone! I know most of us are still in denial we dont want to accept the fact of your passing. You have left me with alot of beautiful memories of our childhood, and every time i think about you, you always make me laugh or bring a smile to my face! you were such a happy person, you had such a beautiful spirit and somehow you used to share that with everybody who was around you! the get togethers are not going to be the same with out you cause were not going to see you sing and dance like you always did. I want you to know that I will be always there for your family and your beautiful daughter whenever theyre in need! I know your watching us from above and I know your in a better place its just going to be hard not hearing you make fun out of everyone like you did! I hope you found a little bit of comfort the last night we talked Im just so sorry the way that awful night turned out! I will never forget it! you will always be in my thoughts and prayers. We might of lost you here in earth but heaven just gained another angel!!! you will forever be missed and loved!

your cousin forever!,

adriana c.(charlie)

To: My favorite uncle

I really dont know where to start off,I still cant accept the fact that you are gone. There is this huge pain and emptiness in my heart that will forever be there.I miss you so so much its so hard to live without you. Why did you have to leave us so early.



This life means nothing to me without you. I miss you so much,I can't believe that Im never gonna see that loving face of your's again. I feel so angry inside I feel like screaming!!.Im gonna miss all those times you me and baby spent together. What we had was so special and no one will ever replace that.



I wish that I could rewind the past and protect you from anyone and anything,and hug you tight. This life is not the same without you. I miss the times you would call me and baby just to mess with us. Im gonna miss you not sleeping over our house almost every other weekend.Im also gonna miss the times we made fun of each other and hit each other in the back.



Tio to me you were always more than an uncle. You were like my second father and also my best friend. Most of the fun and special times in my life were spent with you. You did more things with me and baby than anyone else in this world.



I ask that you come to my dreams and tell me your O.K because it's really tearing me up inside the thought of you not being O.K. I also ask that you go into my dad's dream an tell him your O.K. It breaks my heart everytime I see his face, he is so hurt. I hope God is taking good care of you because you are truly an angel.



Tio thank you for all those times you spent with me and baby. I will forever treasure those beautiful memories you left behind for us to remember. I know that in my life there will be good and bad times like now but I ask that you always share them with me. I love you,I love you, I LOVE YOU and I'll never get the chance to say it enough.



Im really gonna miss the forms of showing me you loved me. For example the nicknames you had for me like you Hogan and your twin and the famous one of all which I cannot mention. You will always be in my prayers,and I hope you never forget the good times we spent together cuz I never will and thats a promise.



Im gonna miss you at the parties they will never be the same without you. Were gonna miss your dancing and singing. You were always the one that made the parties fun. The Holidays are going to be the hardest, I really dont look forward to them,but I know that you are still gonna share those special moments with us maybe not physically but in spirit. However it still wont be the same. I wish that you could come back even if it's just for one more day so I can tell you everything I didn't say when you were still with us.



I cant wait for the day till I see your lovely red face. I know there will be a day when we will all meet again,and you will be waiting for us with open arms and greet us with a welcome home.

I love you and miss you so much. I will never forget you.



Love you always,

Gelica(Your Hogan)

"I wish that i can hold you now, i wish that i can touch you now i wish that i can talk to you be with you some how"...

to my tio beto i miss you so much and i cant beleive your gone why did got take such a talented loving man from this world. thank you Dekoe for showing me as much as you could in art i just wish that you could have had more time in life to show me all u wanted you where a part of my life before are now and will be forever thanks for backin me up when i needed you there will be no one to take your place in my heart because that space is already taken by u. im gonna miss the times you slept over hung out with me im even gonna miss when u called me hee-hah and how u would walk in to my house with your face always red and how we listened to music together and and drew together. me and gelica love you so much and so does my mom and dad i know hes gonna miss u alot also and how you would watch cubs games with him and eat carnitas with him almost every sunday morning. and my mom will miss how u loved her cooking. you touched all of our hearts and you will never be forgotten love always your loving nephew baby...p.s i will keep you in my prayers in my head and in my heart ill be seeing u in heaven say hi to my grandpa for me love you again baby(wise)

Dear Beto,

I just want to let you know how much Ill miss you being around. How much I loved having you close to me and my kids. How much they loved you and miss you. I feel this emptiness and pain inside of me that I dont think will ever go away.I love you and always will remember you.



Your Brother

NENE

I will truly miss him so very much. He will forever be in my heart.

Dear Brother Beto i miss you so much already it's Gonna be hard to live without you Taco,I Still don't want to beleive that you are Gone i feel so desperate i want to scream and yell out for you i wish that could bring you back.i wish time could go back so i can hold you real tight and never let you go, i try real hard to be strong for my mom but theres times when i just sit at home or drive home from work close my windows an i just scream for you, i ask my self why do people have to die?It's hard for me to say Beto R.I.P Se me ase muy duro ver todo eso, my heart is Broken once again and this time i know for sure it's never gonna Heal cause your my blood and your my brother, I promise Chubis will always know who her uncle beto was and how much you loved her, Im sorry you didn't get to know my other baby, I Promise we will all look out for your Daughter cause i know you Loved her dearly. I miss you Mi Taco, I love you.Porque te fuiste, Your sister Rosie

Mi Querido Beto,



I have no idea where to start off. I still can't believe that you are not hear with us anymore. I can't accept why God took you from us. You have left a huge emptiness in my heart and in my life. I feel so sad without you, I miss you so so much!



Beto, I am so sorry I wasn't able to hold your hand when your life was taken away from you. I am sorry I wasn't able to be with you when you took your last breath. Baby, I guarantee you I was there with you, maybe not physically but in spirit I was with you all the way.



I can't picture my life without you. My days will be so lonely and so empty without you. I hate waking up every morning feeling lost and empty without you. I hate coming to work and not seeing my voicemail light on. 8:45am, noon, 2:30, 5:00 comes and your number doesn't display on my caller id anymore. My drive home is so lonely, no more hearing your beautiful voice call me and ask me how was my day or what time you were going to get home.



Weekends will never be the same. I actually don't look forward for the weekend anymore. Who is going to call me early Saturday morning and ask me "Am I gonna see my guerita linda today?" I will miss you at the parties and get together's. I will miss eating carnitas on Sunday morning!! Mostly I will miss you chiquilandome!! You always made me feel so good! Thank you for giving me so much of your love!



God, I know my life will never be the same. My life feels meaningless without you Beto. I never realized how important you were for me and what a huge factor you were to my life. I will regret not huging you harder, and kissing you stronger! I will however treasure the beautiful times we spent together in my heart and in my head forever! I will never forget you baby!



I will wait impatiently for the day that you and me can be together again, till that day my heart will never be complete. I will remember you every day and hope that you never forget me. I will pray that you always find eternal peace and may God Bless you always! Baby, I hope you never leave my side. I ask you to become my Guardian Angel and continue to share with me the upcoming hapinesses and sadnesses that are yet to come in my life.



I guess its time for me to say "see you soon" I won't say "good-bye" because I know eventually we will be together one sweet day....



Love you for eternity,



Lena (your guerita linda)..