Tracy Skalski Obituary

Hello lil Sis,
Another has passed since you left us..So much has happened this last year. The most important is that your son Ronnie got engaged to his love of his life and is getting married this year on Halloween..He proposed to her with your wedding ring and I thought that was so sweet but then cried because your weren't here.I know you are always with him in spirit but still just wish you were here..Joey and Chuckie's boys are all doing good and your Niece Aimee is a senior this year and going to go off to college next year. Gram can use an extra prayer as we just found out she has Covid so please watch over her. Love and miss you always your big Sis Karan xoxo

To my little sis Tracy... another year gone but you are never forgotten. You live thru our memories and live on thru your son Ronnie...What a great young man he has become...You would have just loved his girlfriend Kelsey..She is so good for him...they are an adorable couple...Sending love up to you...Love your big Sis Karan.. xoxo

Thinking of you today Tracy and still can't believe it's been 21years that you left us...Your spirts still lives on in all of us...I swear there is some of you in Aimee I can see..a little of your attitude, loves name brand clothes and shoes...enjoys crop topped shirts like you did. You would just love Ronnie's girlfriend Kelsey...She is such a sweet girl and great for Ronnie...love and miss you always your big Sis Karan.. xoxo

20 years! How has it been 20 years? Miss having you here. Your son has grown to be a wonderful handsome man. I love seeing these memories of you and talking about you to Ronnie. Hug everyone for me! Love you

Another year gone without your beautiful smile. Miss you always little Sis. So much you had to miss being apart of since you have been gone. You would just love Joey and Chuckie's boys. They are such a joy to be around. Love and miss you always. xoxo
Karan

MEMORY ETERNAL BLESS YOU

It's been 19 years ago since you left us but not a day goes by that you are not missed by all who lives you touched. Wish you where here to see all that you have missed...Our family is full with new babies and you would would have loved them all. Miss you always your big sis Karan

Thinking of you my sweet daughter 19 years ago you left us and even though it left a hole in my heart I knew that you were not in pain anymore . I say good nite to you every night and to your father who is with you and so many family members like your grandmother who I miss so much. Pray for us to get over this terriable illness that we are going through . Your son is a wonderful young man I know you are so proud of him he reminds me of you so much.I love you with all my heart God Bless you❤

It has been 15 years since you are now an angel in heaven, it has been almost 11 years for our Brookie. I am sure you both have found each other and are walking the streets of gold in heaven. We miss you both everyday but know you are with our Lord. Love you forever.

My dear sister Tracy,

Can't believe another year has gone by and it's been 15 years since we lost you.I went to visit you yesterday and for the first time no snow....yeah! Your son is getting ready to turn 21 next month...Wow he has grown into a wonderful young man. You missed the Cubs winning the Word Series. What a shocker right? Ronnie bought Dad a World Series jacket and made him speechless. He was so excited that Ronnie did this for him. Got to love that boy! Chuckie is going to get married this year on September 23rd. Hard to believe my boy is getting married. Sure wish you were here to help me plan for a shower and to take Ronnie out for his 21st.
Miss you always xoxo Karan

I can't believe that this is 15 years today that we lost you. My Beautiful God daughter, Tracy Lynn. We all Miss You. We miss your Smile, we miss your Laugh, we miss your Everything. Please Hug all that are up in Heaven with you, as we speak. A Kiss for my Harold. I Love and Miss You Very Much. Auntie Lori

14 years have gone by since you left us and I still think about your smile and your silly laugh. Aimee talks about you a lot and feels sad that she never got to meet you. She included you in a little family list before Christmas on her White out board and I told her that she has many aunts and uncles she can list and she then replied that Aunt Tracy is special that is why she is included. I see so much of you in her which makes me laugh sometimes and wonder oh no am I going to be in trouble when she gets older...lol

Love and miss you Tracy,

Love Karan

I Love and Miss You Tracy Lynn. I still say your Name in my Prayers Nitely. One Day I'll be able to Hug You again. Love, Your Godmother, Auntie Lori

Thinking of your today and wondering how life would be if you were still here. Ronnie is doing great in college and he is working his butt off. He loves hanging out with his cousins and loves when I make him Cherry Cheesecakes..lol..I got to go with him to his first Bears game and felt so honored that he asked me to go. It was a special moment when we got to go to the Cubs 100th birthday with Dad too. You should have saw Aimee with the leg warmers on the other day..Sandy said she reminded her of you...Love and miss you always
Karan

Hoping that you found peace Tracy. You are definitely someone special and "one in a million" to so many people. You are missed beyond words.

Love you and miss you re living every minute of the last days of your life 13 years ago on January 18th...rest in peace my little girl .

Just thinking of you and your family. I always loved that picture of your son dressed like a clown with his "jazz hands." I'll never forget that silly joke a paramedic told you one frantic evening..."What did Winnie find in the toilet...?"
Hard to believe so many years have passed. Can still vividly hear you saying, "I'm so sick of being sick" then easily distracting you with something funny. I will always remember and miss you.

Happy Birthday my little girl....i'm sure you were dancing around in heaven when we went to see you on Saturday.We miss you so much on your birthdays and other holidays....love you soooooo much my Tracy Girl !

Hello Tracy,

Just wanting to say Happy birthday Lil Sis. I know I'm a day late but will visit you at the cemetary tomorrow. Wow you wouldn't believe how many family members kids have graduated. Mike & Eileen's twins & Ashley Louis from H.S, Nick from 8th grade, and Aimee from kindergarten. We thought of you at Nick's grad party...It was like old times when we all used to hang out, party, and dance. Most of the friends where there and we even tried to get the DJ to play Diamond girl...but he didn't have it. You are always thought of and missed by all who knew you and even some who didn't know you but know of stories and see you in the pictures we have and wish they could have known you. Ronnie is starting his first job tomorrow...Can you believe it :-) My Bob is going to buy his first pair of work boots for him. He is growing like a weed ( he sure can eat alot)and is the sweetest boy. You would be so proud as we all are of Ron.
Watch over him as he starts to grow into this young working man and send him wishes for a great senior year for the class of 2014.

Love ya,

Karan Schnidt

Tracy another Angel in heaven. I did not know you but, I know your Mom. She was so blessed to have you even for a short time. But our lord wanted you more.
May God bless you and I know that you are walking the streets of Gold with our lord. I only pray that you have met another Angel her name is Brooke.
Bless you a friend of your Mom.



A friend of your Mom

Hello Tracy,
11 years ago today you left us and went to heaven. You are so missed and thought of everyday as we look at your son Ronnie. He so looks like you and has been doing great. We all love spending time with him and showing him our love :just as you would. He recently got his license. Its hard to believe he is going to be 17 soon. You would be proud...before we know it he will be off to college...wow! Hope u enjoyed our visit today and the little treat I brought u...
Love you always
Karan

10 years have gone by too quickly since you left us but it is always reassuring that I know you are pain-free and in a better place with all of our loved ones that have passed on. We keep your memory alive with pictures and stories told. You touched so many hearts and it is so great to see that so many people that know you and even those may not even have met you but know of you where thinking about you yesterday with the posting I placed on face-book. You truly where one of a kind and I miss you so much! I also agree with Mom and there is for sure some of your traits in Aimee...So many see it and it's funny to think back at when you used to do some of the same. Thanks for watching over all of us especially your little boy who is not so little anymore...He is grown so much in the last year and it's hard to believe he will be turning 16 in a couple of weeks..
Love and miss you lil Sis...Karan

This is a very sad day for all of your family & friends ,10 years ago we lost you . Now you don't suffer anymore , but I am very selfish because I never wanted to let you go,but I handle this everyday . Mss you sooooo much my Tracy Girl ! I know that you are very proud of your son . He's doing well.....Looks so much like you . My goodness he's going to be 16 in feb. Where does time go . I think you have some kind of inflence on Karan's daughter Amiee....she reminds me sooooo much of you ! May God bless you on this day. Love you always, Mom

Has it really been 10 years? Memories of you flood my mind, especially today as we said our goodbyes to you. I trust in my faith that we will meet again up in heaven and I will be looking for that fabulous smile of yours. You are certainly missed here on Earth. Ronnie has grown into such a great young man, you would be so proud. He's turning 16 in a couple of weeks. It's hard to believe. Thank you for looking out for all of us and please continue to do so, especially Ronnie. Help guide him through high school, driving and keep him safe. Til we meet again my friend. xoxo

Just wanted to say I miss you soooo much ....we are upon a very sad season....when you had to go back in to the hospital after Thanksgiving, and had to have surgery...then back in the hospital after CHRISTMAS. I live everyday from then till jan. 18th when we lost you ....May God bless you & pray for your father give him the will to get over his illness. He's fighting and we're proud of him . Love you so much & miss you even more .
Mom

I can;t believe it's nine years since I lost you. I know that you are with me in all that I do. Please watch over your family & friends. We need all the prayers we can get.
LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH, Mom

Well Tracy here we are again...9 years has gone by and you are still missed so much each and every day. We will be going out at lunch time to visit you and bring you something chocolate..lol
I was just thinking this morning on my way to work that...I can't beleive your baby boy is going to be 15 next month. He is growing up so fast and I enjoy spending time with him. When I give him a hug I can feel your presence. Love and kisses to you.
Karan

Tracy was like the big sister I never had. I wanted to dress and be like her. Miss her much but know she is somewhere greater in spirit.

My Sweetest Godaughter, Tracy Lynn, There isn't a day that goes by that you are NOT in my HEART. Your name is in my every nightly prayer! Cystic Fibrosis took you from the world at 30 years old,on this day,and still after nine years,I am sad. However, happy when I think how lucky I was to have YOU in my life since the day you were born! Still it's a long time without seeing that smiling, giggling face. I miss you SO! The last time I saw your Ronnie, I had to leave the room, so he wouldn't see me cry, for INSTANTLY as I saw his face?...I SAW YOU.! Be proud of him Tracy. He's a good boy. I LOVE YOU,and I will see you one day...YOUR [as you called me} "AUNTIE" LORI.

I miss the energy that you brought to every occasion but most of all I miss your smile and laughter. I think of you often and know that you gave us wonderful memories to fall back on. You own a special place in all of our hearts. xoxo

A former classmate had just told me of Tracy's passing. We all lost touch so long ago and I am very deeply saddened to hear of this. Tracy was always a blast to hang out with and talk to ,. She will be missed beyond words. I went to Gray with her

I know yesterday was your birthday so I wanted to say Happy Birthday and tell you that I'm doing just fine(even though you already probably know) I hope your having a great time up there. I miss you and I think about you everyday. I love you and have a great b-day!

It's no surprise that our hearts ache not having you with us. We know that you are watching over us and especially Ronnie. Always keep him in your care, Tracy, especially as he begins to make decisions on his own in high school. Although we miss celebrating your birthday with you, I'm sure you were having a party up in heaven with past friends and family. Miss you lots!

Well Tracy...today is your birthday and a bunch of us went to visit you and of course bring you some goodies to celebrate the life you had with us. Well on May 26th your baby boy graduated from grammar school...It was just beautiful and brought tears to my eyes earlier that morning and also after seeing him and giving him a hug from me and also another from you. Ronnie is growing up so fast and he is a joy to have around. He is very helpful with Aimee when I need him and had a good time spending time with my family at a hotel I got for the 6 days; swimming for hours. He will be sharing his graduation party with Aimee's for her 3rd birthday and hope that all goes well as he deserves to have the best.

Love and kisses to you.

Karan

Hello lil Sis,

Sandy, Aunt Kathy, Mom, Jackie and I all went to visit you today...It's hard to believe that it was 8 years ago you left us. I was with Ronnie last night for dinner and wanted to tell him that we went to visit you but didn't want to make him sad. He misses you so much. I have been seeing a lot of him lately and it's been great having him so close to my house. He will be coming for dinner again tonight. Bob is going to check out his H.S tonight...Can't believe he will be a freshman next year. It's still so sad that we don't have you here to celebrate so many memories that have come and went. You will always have a special place in our hearts. Look over Aunt Jean who has been so sick and make sure you help get Uncle Harold better and kick him out of the hospital.

Love and kisses to you lil Sis.
always, Karan

I was thinking about you at 9:29 today. Such a sad moment for me. eight years ago today you ended all of your pain.
I miss you so much, you are forever in my heart, & you'll always be with me every day for the rest of my life !

Love You, Mom

I miss your smile and your laugh, your neverending bubbly personality. You were truly a special person in my life. Please keep watch over Ronnie and help guide him in the right direction. Miss you and love you!

I was just thinking of you, so I thought I would just talk to you . I spent Christmas with the family. It was so nice not having to work. It was a nice day.
Ronnie is getting so tall. He's so handsome. Looks like you & Bob. He's got your smile.
We all missed you on the holidays. Sometimes it's so hard not having you here. I miss you so much !
We will be going to visit you on the 18th (a very sad day.) I can't believe it's going to be eight years.

I love you, Mom

Hi Everyone,

We just had a relaxing weekend at the camper where I got to see Ronnie running around and laughing, just enjoying life. His face lights up exactly like Tracy's when he smiles. He has grown so much this past year. I can't believe that he'll be graduating from 8th grade this year. He's got a good head on his shoulders and loves to read. I know you're watching over him Tracy. You're doing a great job being his guardian angel. All of your family and friends miss you. Please keep watching over all of us.

Hello all,
I sent in entry the other day but it never appeared so I'm trying this again....

Just wanted to wish my Lil Sis a Happy B-day. We all miss you so much...Jackie, Sandy & I went to visit you on June 2nd your b-day and brought you some goodies. There has been a lot going on in the last month....

Ronnie made his communion and looked so handsome at church. You would be so proud of him...He even walked in the CF walk a thon with us this year.

I got married in Mexico,can you believe that one....lol You would of had a blast on that trip. It was so much fun!

Joey graduated from H.S.and went to prom. He will be off to college at teh end of the Summer.I'm so proud of him...
Aimee is getting ready to turn 2 already and I see some of your traits in her...lol
Well ...we will be thinking about you and wishing you where here to help us create great memories as the years go by..

Love always,
Karan

Happy Birthday to my dear friend...
just wanted to let you know that there is not a day that goes by that i dont think of you.. I miss your smile and laughter and funny sense of humor too!! well I love you today and always!! miss you lot;s
Love,
Karen Resh

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY" MY ANGEL GODAUGHTER...

I THINK OF YOU ALMOST DAILY AND OF COURSE YOU ARE STILL IN MY PRAYERS EVERYNIGHT!

ON SATURDAY, UNCLE HAROLD AND I WERE DRIVING ON THE 1-57,{ALL COUNTRY ROAD} AND I WAS LOOKING AT MY PINKY FINGER,AT MY GOLD CROSS RING THAT YOUR MOM GAVE ME OF YOURS... AND I LOOKED UP AND IN THE SKY MILES AND MILES AWAY WAS

" ONE YELLOW BALLOON "...

I KNOW IT WAS YOU!

FOR MY THOUGHTS WERE AT THAT MOMENT OF YOU, AND OF YOUR UPCOMING BIRTHDAY TODAY!

I LOVE AND MISS YOU TRACY LYNN..
AND I KNOW GOD WILL LET ME BE WITH YOU ONE DAY...

AUNTIE, LORI

Hello Lil Sis,
I also can't believe that 7 years have passed since you left us. Ronnie is doing great and is getting so tall now. Everytime I look at him I see you in his face. I can't believe he is going to be 13 in a couple of weeks. You would be so proud of him. It was a hard day yesterday remembering your passing and also going to two wakes. One of them was a baby girl just shy of a month old and I thought of you and how much you wanted a little girl and wondered if you are up in heaven playing with that little girl right now. Mom was really hurting yesterday and called me at the time when you went on to be with God. I know she feels bad that she didn't get a chance to write in this book since her computer is down but you know that she is always thinking of you. I made a book for Ronnie of all the previous entries and gave it to him last year so he can see how much you truly meant to everyone who loved you. Well it's time for me to go now. Thanks for watching over us when we need a little help from above. Give a kiss from me to our loved ones up there ok.
Love you,
Karan

Tracy 7 years seems like it has gone by like the wind blows in the day....I will never stop crying and fighting to be my best and have your memory live on through me in my music and songs.........I will always cherish those memories i spent with you as a kid and adult and up to the few months i spent at your home ...cooking you,Ronnie,& bob dinner and helping you clean your house..you making me watch soap opera's even when you fell asleep and i changed the channel you woke up and told me to put it back on.
I really wish you could have been here physically to witness some of the great things going on...in body...in spirit i know you have been there for me like no one will ever know.
I thanks you for watching out for your brother in many incidents that have happened since you passed on to Heaven you will always be my older sister and my guardian Angel....I love you with all my heart and soul...and I cant wait to see you again someday when you welcome me home with that great smile and beautiful curly hair shining like gold..and eyes of diamonds!
Love you
your Brother
Kenny:)

Hello, my "Angel Godaughter..".
Well tomorrow will be {And I cannot believe=} 7 years since we lost you!
As you know, I have been talking to you nightly, IN MY PRAYERS, which is SO many times{since that horrible day you left our sight.} You left our sight, however, NEVER will you leave my HEART!
I LOVE YOU SWEETIE...
I MISS YOUR GIGGLING LAUGHTER !

Well here we are again, going to visit you on your birthday.
I went with Kenny, & we brought you some flowers & kenny got you a beautiful card.
I love going there to feel close to you. I told Kenny that I felt you there with us.
I love you Tracy Girl. You will always be in my heart & on my mind every day of my life !
Mom

Hello all,

Well here it is ...Tracy's b-day! My how the years just fly by. Aimee is going to turn one on June 13th already and is just starting to walk this week. You would just absolutley just adore her Tracy....Sometimes when I look at her I can see you in the features of her face from when you where little like in the picture we took with those ugly Orange and Brown dresses..lol She is petite just like you where and doesn't have a lot of hair...lol
Well anyway...It's almost time for Sandy, Mom, Jackie, Aunt Kathy and I to go and visit you like we do every year and bring you the little goodie you always liked to have. It really sux not having you here to celebrate your b-day and for you to watch your family grow. It is good to know that you are watching all of us from above though and hanging out with all of our loved ones that have passed. You would be so proud of Ronnie, he did the walk a thon this year and I believe it made him feel so good inside that he did it for you :-)

Love you,
Your sister Karan

Kenny & Karan said everything that I wanted to tell you sooooo I just want to tell you that I love you very much. You will always be in my heart. I hope you liked your candy & flowers that we brought you.
God bless you. Love Mom

Tracy I have missed you so much since that terrible day we lost you....Now god has a great woman up in heaven to add to his people.
Every year that goes by makes me think of how loved you were by many people friends & family...you touched so many hearts strangers and family & friends....I was glad to have stayed with you bob & Ronnie in those last months of your life...I remember all the conversations we had and can remember you still told me how it was and put me in my place even when you were in so much pain you never lost who you were..(A little firecracker)
I will always miss you and have a song on my new cd..called missing you!
I dedicated my whole career to you and your life...I will make you known even in death when your brother goes on the road soon and i will never ever let your great legacy pass away..no matter what you did bad or good...you are my hero....and will be your voice in and through my music and will do everything to always put you first in my conversations...like i still do all the time when telling friends about you!
Ronnie is a miracle and god was kind enough to allow you to keep a piece of you here on earth with us everyday...when i look at him he reminds me 1000000% of you your smile your kindness and heart....uncle kenny will make sure he always has anything he will need...and that's why i keep on with the music!
you will always be by my side and i will make you the rock star in life through my words and music no matter what anyone says about my music..I know you and god are blasting my songs in heaven cause you are my angel by my side!
Oh thanks for the insight on those few things in life that helped me.....between you and me you know what i am talking about...I owe you...and you will always be my big sister no matter how old i get:)
I love you with all of my heart and soul and miss the heck out of your laugh your cries and even your side when you got mad at me...I was scared of you when i was a kid cause of how tough you were...it was that look in your eyes that said it all!
I enjoy reading these stories about you and even learn a little about you more and more through others stories.
you lived a great life even though it was short lived...you over came things most would have given up on right away...your a awesome person and beautiful woman and your memory not only will be strong in our eyes i will make sure on my life that you will come first in all i do.....sorry i want always around for everything but I am so blessed to have been there during your last days on earth:)
I can hardly see right now cause i am crying like a baby and boogers are running down my nose..hahaha....I know your smiling at that one:)
I love you Tracy and thanks for all you have done and are still doing for people:)
Love your brother
kenny.

I'm signing this book a day early since I won't be at work on Friday. This last year has flown by so quickly and it's hard to believe that it has been 6 years since you passed away and I wrote last. I actually thought I wrote on your b-day but somehow it didn't save it. well I had my little girl Aimee and she has you're middle name and once she is old enough I will show her pictures and movies of her Aunt Tracy. She is adorable and I see you in her since she is petite and looks like one of your baby pictures of when we where in those Orange, White and Brown dresses. I know Gram Schnidt has a copy of the picture. I also wanted to tell you that Gram Louis went on a cooking binge two nights ago and made her famous baked beans you loved so much and I said you would be so jealous to know she gave me some even though I never ate them when she made them. I tried them last night and they where really good. haha...you didn't get any. Well Ronnie is in Junior High now and getting ready to celebrate another b-day and I can't believe he will be 12 already. He is doing good in tae kwon do and very well in school. You would be so proud of him :-) Mom, Jackie, Sandy Aunt Kathy and I are going to visit you tomorrow. Oh by the way...Lil Harold had a baby boy and he named him Payton(yeap after Walter payton) He's a cutie. 2007 has really been a blessed year for Harold and I. Well got to go for now lil Sis.

Love,
Karan

Today is your 36th Birthday & I miss not being able to call you & sing Happy Birthday to you. But in my heart I will be singing to you , my little girl.
Karan is almost ready to have her baby. I wish she could have it today on your birthday. I'm so excited that she's having a girl. I know you would of been excited for her !
Ronnie's doing great. he's sooo tall. I look at him & see you.
Thank you for risking your health to have him. I know you wanted him sooo much.

God bless you, I love You.
Mom

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. I'VE ALREADY TALKED TO YOU IN MY HEART, SOOO I KNOW THAT YOU KNOW EVERYTHING THAT'S GOING ON.
FIVE YEARS AGO TODAY I HEARD & FELT YOUR LAST BREATH & I WILL NEVER FORGET THIS.
PLEASE WATCH OVER US & PRAY THAT WE DO THE RIGHT THINGS IN OUR LIFE.
I FEEL YOU AROUND ME ALL THE TIME. WHEN I'M SAD I THINK OF SOMETHING THAT YOU DID ,OR SOMETHING THAT YOU SAID THAT WAS FUNNY & I SMILE.
WE WENT TO SEE YOU TODAY. WE BROUGHT YOU FLOWERS,CANDY, CHIPS,WATER & WINE COOLERS.LOOKS LIKE WE HAD A PARTY THERE. KENNY TOOK ME .
REST IN PEACE TRACY.
LOVE MOM

Well Tracy here it is another year marking the day you left us Jan. 18th. We all miss you so very much. There is so much that has gone on this last year but I will only tell you about some of the good. I'm getting ready to buy a new house, Kenny 's music is doing well for him, I'm pregnant with a baby girl and boy is Mom excited, Uncle Dave adopted his step daughter Keaton and now she is a Schnidt. It has to be so exciting for him especially since losing Nancy.
Sandy, Jackie, Mom, Aunt Kathy and I are off to visit you today and bring you some treats. It is still hard not having you around to talk to or just hanging out with the girls.
Ronnie is sure getting big and is almost ready to celebrate another b-day. We are doing a Football theme this year and I'm sure everyone is going to wear their Bears stuff since we are in the playoffs this year. Yeah!!!!
Ronnie sure does miss you so much and continues to buy an ornament or something else special to add to his Mom box every year. He is so proud of this box and will show it off to anyone that asks him to see it. I just talk to Mom and she says that she wants everyone to say a prayer at 10:30 am since this is the time you passed on. Well it;s about that time now so I will go and say mine.
I love and miss you little sister,

Always,

Karan

THIS IS THE FIRST ENTRY IN HERE BECAUSE I DID'NT KNOW ABOUT THIS UNTIL BOB TOLD ME ABOUT THIS.TRACY WAS A GREAT SISTER WHO THOUGHT ABOUT EVERYONE ELSE BEFORE HER SELF AND I WILL MISS HER MORE THEN MY OWN LIFE.IF I COULD TURN IT ALL AROUND I WOULD OF HAD ME GO INSTEAD OF HER.SHE HAD MORE TO LIVE FOR THEN ME.SHE HAD HER HER BEAUTIFUL SON RONALD UGEAN(I THINK THAT'S HOW IT'S SPEELED)THERE AINT A DAY THAT GOES BYE THAT I DONT HAVE SOMETHING THAT REMINDS ME OF TRACY.SHE IS MY HEART AND SOMEONE WHO AFTER GOING HOME TAUGHT ME LESSONS ABOUT LIFE.IM ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT HER AND I LOVE HER SO MUCH,MORE THEN WORDS CAN SAY.I WROTE A POEM FOR A PIC THAT I SAW HERE AND RONNIE IN LOOKING OUT IN THE DISTANCE.I THOUGHT IT WAS WHAT SHOULD GO WITH THE PIC.HERE GOES.CAUSE THE WARMTH OF A MOTHER'S LOVE NEVER WILL LEAVE YOUR SIDE,AS YOU STARE OUT IN THE DISTANCE TOGETHER YOU SEE THE FUTURE ME AND YOU MOM TOGETHER ONCE AGAIN SIDE BY SIDE IN ETERNAL LIFE NEVER TO BE APART AGAIN THANKS TO GODS LOVE FOR US....ME AND YOU.TOGETHER AGAIN.

Hello to all of Tracy's friends and family members. I thought of Tracy a lot last week especially since it was her b-day on June 2nd. While at Chuckie's graduation from H.S. our family had a whole row of seats and there happened to be two empty seats and then Gram Louis said that the seat next to Sandy must have been empty for Aunt Toni and then I turned and said that the seat next to my Dad must have been for Tracy and it really felt like she was there watching her nephew graduate. On your b-day Sandy, Jackie, Aunt Kathy and I went to visit you at lunch time again and we did our yearly ritual. I went up to Bob's camper and when I saw Ronnie I gave him a extra hug & kiss for you.



We all miss and love you,

Your sister Karan

Happy Birthday Tracy!



Today, I went to our church because Nick was receiving an award during mass. I asked our priest if we were honoring anyone in the mass today and since no one had been prenamed, today's mass was said in your honor. I hope you were able to hear all the childrens' beautiful voices.



You will always be remembered and will forever be in our hearts.

Dear Tracy,



Just wanted to say hello, and tell you how much we miss you.. Well ronnie turned 10yrs old as you know, and I cannot get over how time goes by so fast, and that you have been gone 4yrs now.. Me and doug were talking about all the funny things you use to do to make everyone laugh to the point where they were crying!! (ha! ha!) We sure do miss your smile and laughter these days but they will always remain here in your friends loving memories of you and in your son ronnies smile!!! your friend always, karen

I was just sitting here looking looking to see if Uncle Butch's Obituary was in the paper yet. As you know already he passed away yesterday morning but it wasn't in the paper yet. I'm sure you where right there waiting for him to give him a hug as you did when our cousin Nancy passed away last month. We just had Ronnie's 10th b-day party on the 4th. It's hard to believe that he is 10 already and when I look at him I see so much of you in his little face especially the expressions that he gives. We all miss you Tracy and know you are watching over us and keeping us safe. It was really hard being at Nancy's memorial and thinking of you and how you had to leave Ronnie behind and now she had to leave her two babies behind too. It's just not fair..the both of you where too young to go.I know you and Nancy are in a better place free from pain and are watching over your babies and your family.

Happy Valentine's Day Lil Sis.



Love always Karan

Dear Tracy, it's been four years since we lost you. I was thinking about you this morning & it seems like yesterday that we were at the hospital and we lost you. I feel like I'm going through the same thing I did that day that God took you to heaven. We're going to Karan's house for dinner so we can all be together as a family.

I'm going to see you today. I've got a beautiful basket with flowers & a big lavender butterfly balloon tied on the basket.I just wanted something special for you.

I love & miss you soooooo much. Like you used to tell me.....(Did I ever tell you that I love you....well guess what, I do ...forever!) Love, Mom & Dad

I have come to realize that time is dear and I cling to memories to keep you near. But yet, I know that you are just a whisper away, eager to listen and to watch over us each day.



Another Christmas season has begun and the year is coming to an end. We miss your smiling face and vibrant personality. There have been too many losses for our families this year…it doesn’t feel like Christmas. We need your contagious good moods but we are left with only memories of times spent with family and friends to help bring out the Christmas cheer. We know that you are watching over us and protecting us. You are undoubtedly missed beyond words and tears.

Well here we are, another Thanksgiving without you. I've been thinking about you all week.We went to see you yesterday. We (Sandy, Aunt Kathy, Karan & me) were there for Grandpa's birthday. I brought Christmas wreaths for you, grandpa, & little Kenny. I hope you like yours.

I love & miss you very much.Tracy..."LIFE MAY NOT BE THE PARTY WE HOPED FOR...BUT WHILE YOU WERE HERE....YOU DID DANCE AS MUCH AS YOU COULD !!!!!!

MOM& DAD

Hi Tracy --



First off, Happy Birthday! We miss you so much and wish you were with us to celebrate your birthday.



Your family really came out and did a great job at the walk-a-thon. I know how proud you are of them. They are very special to us.

I also wanted to let you know that I talked with several people at the walk about you and your many accomplishments throughout your life. Everyone was so grateful to hear your story and overwhelmed that you have a beautiful son and how long you had with him. Obviously, it was not near long enough but it made me even more fortunate to have known you and been part of your family.



We love and miss you dearly. Please continue to look after us and keep us on the right paths.



Cheryl

Here we are Tracy remembering you on your birthday. It still is so sad that your are not here to celebrate your b-day with all of your friends and family. I'm sure everyone is thinking about you today and I will stopping by and visiting you at lunch time to leave a couple of favorite chocolates. Well today is the big day for Joey. He's graduating tonight and I wish you were here to help him celebrate. A bunch of us went to Florida over the weekend and I'm sure you watched over all of us while we were flying and gave us the good weather we had. Remember when we went a few years back. That had to be one of our best trips with the girls. I thought about you while I was there and remembered the good times we had with all those jello shots. lol

Well it's time to go now and I'll be thinking about you and missing you.



Love your big Sis

Karan

Hello Tracy, Well we did the walk-a-thon. I made the whole 6 miles. You would of been proud of all of us. I will do this every year if i'm able. It made me feel sooooo proud.

Tomorrow is your birthday. I will be thinking of you all day, & remembering how much you loved every birthday that you had. I'm sure that you will have alot of vistors.

I love you my little girl!

Mom

Hello everyone...I just wanted to say that I've been thinking a lot about Tracy lately and Reba(Country star) just came out with a new song called "my sister, my best friend" I think I heard it about a month ago and I just sat in my driveway and balled my eyes out. It just talks about all the good old days and how they miss how they used to be when they were younger growing up. What a great song it is.Joey is going to be graduating on your birthday this year which will be kind of neat & we will be thinking about you and celebrating his graduation. I wish you were hear to talk to me about some stuff I've been going through lately but I do know you are there watching over all of us and I hope you can help me get through it all.



I love you little sister...



Karan

Next month on may 22th alot of your friends & family members are going to be walking for Cystic Fibrosis. I'm going to be doing this as well. Yes your mom is going to walk 5 miles for a cure ! I just got new gym shoes, so I'm going to practice walking in them , so I won't get any blisters. I'm going to finish if I have to crawl. I hope you'll be proud of me. We're getting T-shirts with your picture on them. Our group is called ( Tribute to Tracy) I will be proud to wear this shirt. I hope Ronnie will be proud of his NaNa for doing this in memory of his mom.



Tracy, I love you soooooo much. You're in my thoughts everyday.

God Bless You, Love Mom

Dear Tracy,

I can't express how much we all miss your smile and laughter and your kindness towards others. I wanted to let you know that there is not a day that goes by that i don't think about you and how you are watching over us especially ronnie and bob. I wanted to tell you that on january 18 I was watching a movie on tv in my bedroon and all of sudden out of no where came these buckets of tears and I was wondering why I was crying so hard and just at that moment doug came in the room and asked why i was crying and it came to me all of sudden "this is the day tracy died and I miss her so much" I felt you here with me in spirit and I just wanted to let you know how much I love you!!! you will always remain here in my heart.. your friend karen

Tracy,



Your mom is so right...it's supposed to get easier but it just seems that it hasn't. I can't believe that we've been missing you for 3 years now.



You've been on my mind a lot lately. There is so much uncertainty and health issues in both our families. It helps knowing that you are looking after all of us. We all certainly miss you.



Nick and I were just looking at some pictures and he picked one up of you. He said that you have a warm and bright smile and that is what he remembers the most about you. He knows that both you and Busia are angels up in heaven. You are his "two girl angels."



Miss You!

YOUR SPRIT WILL REMAIN WITH US EVERY SINGLE DAY, APPEARING AS A RAINBOW. YOU'RE IN THE GENTLE RAINS THAT FALL AND IN THE MORNING DEW. ALL WE SEE THAT'S BEAUTIFUL REFLECTS THE LOVE OF YOU.

THIS IS A HARD DAY FOR ME RELIVING THIS DAY. I LOST YOU THREE YEARS AGO. THEY SAY IT GETS EASIER AS THE YEARS GO BY, BUT IT DOESN'T

LOVE YOU, MOM

HELLO, WELL WE ALL GOT THRU ANOTHER CHRISTMAS ! I MISSED YOU SO MUCH OVER THE HOLIDAYS. YOU ALWAYS LOVED THE HOLIDAYS. I DON'T KNOW WHY, BECAUSE I KNOW IT ALWAYS MADE YOU SOOOO STRESSED OUT. YOU ALWAYS WERE THINKING OF EVERYONE ELSE.

RONNIE'S BIRTHDAY IS COMING UP. THIS YEAR THE THEME WILL BE RACE CARS. HE'S GETTING SO BIG. I LOOK AT HIM AND SEE YOU IN HIS FACE. WHEN HE SLEEPS, I CAN TELL THAT YOU ARE WATCHING OVER HIM. HE ALMOST HAS A SMILE ON HIS FACE. I WILL BE THINKING OF YOU ON HIS BIRTHDAY. REMEMBERING THE DAY HE WAS BORN. THANK YOU FOR GIVING US THIS WONDERFUL LITTLE BOY & THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A WONDERFUL SON-IN- LAW. HE'S SUCH A GOOD FATHER. I'M REALLY PROUD OF HIM & I KNOW YOU ARE TO. IT'S NOT EASY FOR HIM. HE MAKES SURE THAT WE SEE RONNIE ALL THE TIME. HE'S MORE LIKE A SON TO ME THEN A SON-IN-LAW .

GOD BLESS YOU TRACY,

LOVE MOM

TRACY, I JUST WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I'M THINKING OF YOU ON THANKSGIVING DAY. THE LAST THANKSGIVING THAT WE WERE WITH YOU WAS WONDERFUL. ADA HAD JUST HAD HER BABY, AND YOU WENT CRAZY OVER HER. SHE WAS SO TINY. YOU WERE HOLDING HER ALMOST THE WHOLE TIME WE WERE THERE. I MISS YOU SOOO MUCH ON THE HOLIDAYS. MOSTLY BECAUSE THEY MEANT SO MUCH TO YOU ! YOU WOULD CELEBRATE THEM AS IF IT WERE YOUR LAST ONE. WELL THAT THANKSGIVING WAS YOUR LAST THANKSGIVING WITH YOUR FAMILY.

MAY GOD BLESS YOU MY LITTLE GIRL. WE WILL ALL BE THINKING ABOUT YOU TOMMORROW.



LOVE, MOM & DAD



P.S. PRAY FOR OUR SERVICEMEN IN IRAQ .PRAY THAT THIS WAR IS OVER SOON!!!! PRAY FOR PEACE!

Hi Tracy,



It's been a while since I have been able to share my thoughts with you. Thank you for meeting me in my dreams last night. It was really nice to see you and be able to hug you and feel your hug in return. You looked so beautiful as you usually did and your smile just lite up the room. I am glad you came to me and told me that you missed us. We miss you very much too and you are always on my mind. Some day I'll be by your side. Until then, I'll wait until you meet me in my dream again. I love you, girlfriend!



Jacqueline

GOD BLESS YOU ON YOUR BIRTHDAY, WE ALL MISS YOU SO MUCH. YOUR FATHER & I WENT TO VISIT YOU ON MEMORIAL DAY & BROUGHT YOU NEW FLOWERS. I KNOW TODAY YOU WILL HAVE ALOT OF VISITORS. WE LOVE YOU, MOM & DAD

Just wanted to let everyone know I was thinking of Tracy and found this poem and thought I would share it. This would be how Tracy felt and she would want to share it with all of her loved ones. I'll be thinking about you on June 2nd, since that's your b-day and we will be going to visit the cemetary like we always do to bring you your favorite little treats.The boys and I love and miss you dearly.

Love you Karan



P.s here is the poem that reminds me of Tracy.



If tomorrow starts without me,

And I'm not there to see,

If the sun should rise and find your eyes

All filled with tears for me;

I wish so much you wouldn't cry

The way you did today,

While thinking of the many things,

We didn't get to say.

I know how much you love me,

As much as I love you,

And each time that you think of me,

I know you'll miss me too;

But when tomorrow starts without me,

Please try to understand,

That an angel came and called my name,

And took me by the hand,

And said my place was ready,

In heaven far above,

And that I'd have to leave behind

All those I dearly love.

But as I turned to walk away,

A tear fell from my eye

For all my life, I'd always thought,

I didn't want to die.

I had so much to live for,

So much left yet to do,

It seemed almost impossible,







That I was leaving you.

I thought of all the yesterdays,

The good ones and the bad,

The thought of all the love we shared,

And all the fun we had.

If I could relive yesterday,

Just even for a while,

I'd say good-bye and kiss you

And maybe see you smile.

But then I fully realized,

That this could never be,

For emptiness and memories,

Would take the place of me.

And when I thought of worldly things,

I might miss come tomorrow,

I thought of you, and when I did,

My heart was filled with sorrow.

But when I walked through heaven's gates,

I felt so much at home.

When God looked down and smiled at me,







From His great golden throne,

He said, "This is eternity,

And all I've promised you."

Today your life on earth is past,

But here life starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow,

But today will always last,

And since each day's the same way

There's no longing for the past.

You have been so faithful,

So trusting and so true.

Though there were times

You did some things

You knew you shouldn't do.

But you have been forgiven

And now at last you're free.

So won't you come and take my hand

And share my life with me?

So when tomorrow starts without me,

Don't think we're far apart,

For every time you think of me,

I'm right here, in your heart.

Dear Tracy,



We just wanted to drop a note and say hello and let you know that we (Patrick and I) were thinking of you. We want to thank you for introducing us that day at Teasers, May 21st to be exact. That date is right around the corner and so is your birthdate. These are dates that we will never forget. We do miss you very much but we know you are in a much better place. We will always cherish the wonderful memories and the experiences we have shared with each other. Thank you Tracy for everything.



We love you and will never forget you!

Jacqueline & Patrick

Dear Tracy, Please give your aunt Toni, a hug for me. Today is her birthday.(St. Patrick's Day)

God Bless the both of you !

Love, Mom

Well here I am again, writing you. We went to see you yesterday. I can't believe that's it's been two years since we lost you. The whole week long, I relived every single day before you passed away. I was trying to figure out if there was something I could of done to help you.I wish I could know that you are at peace Tracy. That's what I pray for....to know that you are at peace & that you are with us in sprit ! Ronnie gave me a little angel yesterday, and it said grandma angel.That was very nice.We spent the whole day with Ronnie & Bob. it was very nice.

God Bless you my Angel,

Love,Mom & Dad

Tracy, my sister-in-law and friend,



I've been talking to you so much this past year that you're probably ready to put tape over my mouth! Thank you for watching over our family.



We came and visited you the Sunday before Christmas. Nick sang Jingle Bells and Merry Christmas to you and we left flowers and a picture for you. We knew they would blow away since it was so windy but yet we wanted to honor you and your life. We truly missed you this holiday.



Ronnie has grown up so much this past year. He looks more like you than ever! His mannerisms, personality, his smile. He is such a joy to be around. Ronnie gave many of us the privilege of seeing what he's kept in his memory box. I don't think there was a dry eye in our dining room. He has many happy memories of you and wants to share them with us.



Just wanted to let you know how much we miss you and that we're ALL thinking of you. There feels like a HUGE void in our lives without you being here. Thank you for keeping watch over us.



xoxo

Cheryl

WELL WE HAD RONNIE OVER FOR NEW YEARS EVE AND WE HAD SUCH A GOOD TIME. WE HAD LOBSTER (YOUR FAVORITE) AND PORTER HOUSE STEAKS. DAD MADE THEM FOR ME AND RONNIE.TRACY, I REALLY MISS NOT SPENDING THE HOLIDAYS WITH YOU, BUT EVERYTIME I LOOK INTO RONNIES EYES I SEE YOU. IT MAKES ME FEEL VERY CLOSE TO YOU. TRY AND GIVE HIM AN EXTRA HUG IN HIS SLEEP. HE NEEDS THIS ! HE DID TELL ME THAT IF HE CLOSES HIS EYES, THAT HE CAN FEEL YOU HUGING HIM.

ON THE 18TH OF JANUARY, YOUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS ARE GOING TO GO BY YOUR HOUSE AND WE WILL BE TALKING ABOUT YOU TRACY. WE WILL BE CELEBRATING YOUR LIFE.WE NEVER STOP TALKING ABOUT YOU,AND WHAT YOU DID IN YOUR SHORT LIFE. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN OUR HEARTS FOREVER!

I WILL BE CLOSING MY EYES THIS DAY AND I KNOW YOU WILL BE HUGGING ME!

I LOVEYOU, MOM

My Dear Tracy,



The holidays are rapidly growing closer and I find myself thinking more and more of you so I decided to talk to you. I really do miss our chats, your laughter and well, just your craziness. I always got a kick out of that. You were always willing and up for anything no matter if you weren't feeling your best.



I know that you are with us in spirit so I would like to ask you to please watch over our troops in Iraq and now that the main leader was caught that our soldiers will soon be able to get back home to their love ones. Tracy, my dear friend, you will always be in my heart and you will never be forgotten by anyone. During the holidays, keep our families, friends and loved ones safe and their hearts at peace. God be with you and us all. Until we meet again, my friend.



Loving you always,

I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW TRACY, THAT WE ARE THINKING ABOUT YOU, AS THE HOLIDAYS GROW NEAR. MY MEMORIES OF YOU KEEP ME GOING. THE HOLIDAYS ALWAYS MEANT SO MUCH TO YOU. GOD BLESS YOU MY LITTLE GIRL. I KNOW YOU'LL BE WITH US IN SPRIT.

LOVE, MOM &DAD

Hi Tracy -



Just thinking about you and wanted you to know that I miss you lots. I really miss hanging out and going out and getting into all kinds of trouble. This weekend was really hard for me as we all went bowling with Laurie, Jackie and your sister and it sure was hard not having you there. I know you were watching us from above and you were with us in spirit. I really miss you and think about you all the time..........



Love ya lots,

Sherry

HALLOWEEN IS HERE AGAIN. I KNOW YOU REALLY LIKED DRESSING UP AND TAKING RONNIE TRICK OR TREATING. I HAD SPECIAL CANDY MADE UP FOR HIM TO HAND OUT. I THINK THERE'S EVEN ENOUGH FOR HIS AFTER SCHOOL PROGRAM. I'M LOOKING FORWARD TO SEEING WHAT HE DRESSES UP LIKE THIS YEAR. I WILL BE MISSING YOU ALL DRESSED UP. HOLIDAY'S ARE HARD FOR ALL OF US.WE ALL MISS YOU VERY MUCH, BUT I KNOW YOU ARE WITH US IN OUR HEARTS. THIS IS WHAT RONNIE TELLS US ALL THE TIME. GOD BLESS YOU SWEETIE.

LOVE MOM

Tracy,

I have been thinking of you alot. I miss not seeing you. My cousin Christine passed away last week and it is really hard. I know she is with you and I am glad. I think about you every Thanksgiving because that was the last time I saw you. How glad I am that you came that day.I think of you all the time. I really do miss you.

Love

Tracey

WELL , ANOTHER BIRTHDAY HAS PASSED BY, FOR YOU MY TRACY ! I MISS YOU MORE AND MORE EVERY DAY ! AUNT KATHY & I WENT TO SEE YOU, AND I SEEN YOUR FAVORATE CANDY & CAKE WITH A CANDLE FROM SANDY & KARAN & FLOWERS FROM YOUR BROTHER. HE AND HIS GIRLFRIEND SENT SOME BALLOONS UP TO YOU IN HEAVEN. WE ALL THOUGHT OF YOU THIS DAY. WE LOVE & MISS YOU VERY MUCH.

LOVE, MOM & DAD

Hello everyone,

I just wanted to say I was thinking about my Lil Sis Tracy today since it's her b-day. I can't believe this is the 2nd b-day we are spending without you. Jackie,Sandy Jerome & I just went to visit you just like we did last year. I brought a cheesecake and we sang to you. I left some other goodies too!

It's really hard not having you around. The boys and I miss you a lot. Thanks for watching over all of us when we went to Vegas Memorial day weekend and keep on watching over us in the future to come.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRACY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Love your sister

Karan

DEAR TRACY,

PLEASE PRAY FOR OUR SERVICEMEN OVER IN IRAQ.PLEASE PRAY THAT THIS WILL END SOON, AND WE WILL HAVE PEACE IN THE WORLD. PRAY FOR YOUR UNCLE RONNIE,HE'S OVER THERE ON A SHIP IN THE RED SEA. KEEP HIM STRONG, & HEALTHY & BRING HIM HOME SAFE TO US.

WE LOVE & MISS YOU VERY MUCH.

MOM & DAD

DID YOU EVER WISH WHEN YOU WERE WATCHING A RERUN ON T.V.THAT YOU COULD CHANGE THE PLOT. YOU KNOW WHAT'S GOING TO HAPPEN, BUT YOU JUST WISH YOU COULD CHANGE THE END.THAT'S HOW I FEEL WHEN I THINK OF YOUR LIFE TRACY. I WISH SOMEONE WOULD OF FOUND A WAY TO MAKE YOU ALL BETTER, BUT THAT DIDN'T HAPPENED. YOU CAN'T CHANGE THE STORY LINE TO MAKE IT EAISER FOR US. WE JUST HAVE TO EXCEPT WHAT WE CAN'T CHANGE.

IT'S BEEN ONE YEAR SINCE WE LOST YOU,YET IT SEEMS LIKE YESTERDAY!

GOD BLESS YOU,MOM & DAD

Tracy ~~

As this is your one year anniversary into heaven, I just wanted to let you know that we're thinking of you and remembering the special times that we've shared with you. Thank you for all the wonderful times we had together.

I dreamt about going down to the Tradewinds with you, Bob and Ronnie. Ronnie was so small and his eyes were so full of wonder of the ocean and birds. I remember Ronnie just looking out the suite windows at all the birds and just saying "Birdies". I remember both of us playing with Ronnie in the pool. It is just such a nice rememberance and you were so very happy back then. I remember buying that wish braclet and making a wish that you would get a donor soon for your transplant and it broke off shortly before we got the call that you were going in. These were all great times and again, I want to say thank you!

Nicky tells me that he can see you all the time so I know you are around us. Thank you for watching over him. You are very special to him.

Thoughts of you always make me smile. Thank you for being part of my life.

Hello to all of our family and friends. I'm writing to inform you that we are not going to have the memorial for Tracy after all. After thinking about it for a while we decided it would be to hard on everyone to go through again.

It's hard to believe it is almost one year ago that Tracy left us and became an angel to watch over us.

On Jan. 18th take a moment and remember all the good times we had with Tracy. Say a little prayer & remember she is at peace now... far away from the pain and suffering she went through for so many years.



We will always remember & love you Tracy.



Take care everyone & God Bless



Karan

As we approach the Anniversary of your passing, I still can hardly beleive that you are gone. But it's true, a year has passed so quickly - But not one day goes by where I'm not saddend by your loss. It's so painful at times, but I have your photo on my living room wall and on my refridgerator and somehow just seeing you eases the pain. I know your in heaven dancing with Jesus and pain free, but the pain we still feel will never leave us. Your little nephew Michael B. is doing well. He's almost three! Oh Tracy how I wish you could see him. You would be so proud of him. He won a baby contest for "Best Personality" and his picture hangs on a studio wall. I know you loved getting Michaels pictures. Hey Trace he's really into some serious hair pulling these days. He would have had a field day with yours. I just had lunch with your Mom and the little stinker ripped her earring right off. Everytime I'm shopping at Butera I can't help but remember the time you met me at the store to show me your new car and someone hit the car in the parking lot. I felt so bad that happened. Well I just wanted to let you know I think about you often, and on this anniversary of your passing, January 18, 2003 it will be one year you are pain free. I Love you and I will miss you always. Sharon SaaVedra(Norridge, Il) January 6, 2003

I JUST WANTED TO LET OUR FAMILY & FRIENDS KNOW THAT WE ARE HAVING A MEMORIAL FOR TRACY, ON JANUARY 18TH, AT ST EUGENE'S (SATURDAY) AT 10A.M.THE CHURCH IS LOCATED AT 7958 W. FOSTER CHICAGO. IT WILL BE ONE YEAR SINCE WE LOST TRACY AND I WOULD LIKE TO DO THIS FOR HER, IN HER MEMORY.

The first holiday season without you, Tracy. How much you are missed. I wish your family peace.

Bob and Ronnie, we love you.

Lisa & Craig

Zoë & Theo

This Holiday season is approaching fast and I'm really missing you Tracy. Thanksgiving just didn't seem the same not having you here to help us celebrate. It was the last Holiday you spent with the whole family and felt ok. Two weekends ago Bob had some of us over and I found myself thinking about you out on the patio and saying to myself " You should be here with us right now having fun with your friends" At anoter time it was warm in your house and I wanted to put my hair up so, I ran up stairs to get one of your scrunchies and realized you don't have any there anymore. I couldn't believe I did that.

I had Ronnie in the car with me last Saturday and he just seemed so sad. I put on some x-mas music to seee if it would cheer him up but it just looked like he was doing some thinking. Sunday came along and he was by my house making a booklet for Bob. He's always making something for somebody. There was a show that we we watching called Everwood. It was a Thanksgiving day special. The story revolved around a family that had lost a wife/mother the year before. The little girl really missed her Mom and wanted everything to be the way she did it. Her Brother decided to make the day exactally the way she remembered but when it came down to eating dinner she was upset. She said this is not the same Mom's not here and the Father had invited a neighbor lady with her son andd the little girl said " she not be here"

and then she ran off. The Lady went after her and told the girl how much her Mother loves her and that nobody could ever replace her Mother and a few other things. I know Ronnie had to be listening because he then wrote Bob a letter saying" My Dad loves my Mom and My Mom loves my Dad and Ronnie loves Mom and Dad." Tears just built up in my eyes and I had to leave the room.

Well Ronnie finished his booklet for Bob and then wrapped it up and then gave it to Bob to open when he came to pick Ronnie up. You could see how emotional Bob was when he saw what Ronnie did for him and then they hugged. They left shorty after that and then another movie came on called "The Christmas Shoes"

Well I got into watching it because Rob Lowe was in it. This movie reminded me so much of Tracy & Ronnie that I think I almost cried throughout the whole movie. The story was about a young Mother who ended up with a heart mumur and needed a transplant. Well the little boy in this story found out that his Mother was dying and he wanted to do something special for her. She talked about these special dancing shoes she used to wear when she was younger and she felt so special wearing them. Well this Mom looked like Tracy and she had the oxygen on. Prettty Scary....

Well this little boy raised money and bought a pair of these red dancing shoes. It was Christmas Eve and the little boy got home just in time to place the shoes on his Mom.

He told her that he wanted her to have these as she went up to Heaven. She then tells him to always remember her and he tells her every time my heart beats I will think of you.

Well I just wanted to share my thoughts with everyone. I miss my Sister so very much and have wanted to write so many times but there is just so much I want to say and so many memories of her. I don't know where to start. I would also like to thank everyone who has wrote something in this guest book. One day Ronnie will be so thankful knowing how much his Mom was loved and missed. We will always remember the memories we have of Tracy through our talks, the pictures and the videos we have. This Christmas & New Years is going to be so hard to get through without having you here Tracy. I miss hearing you call Ronnie LuLu. That was so funny! I remember when I brang you to the Hospital after Thanksgiving and all the pain you were in. You told Ronnie that Auntie Karan is going to help take of you now just like she did when you were born. It's like you knew that you didn't have much time left. I was like don't say that and you said I just can't take it anymore Karan. Then the last week you were in the hospital I was supposed to visit you on Tuesday and I was waiting for Mom to call me and when she didn't I called and she said for me not to come and that she would just stay with you. I said ok but little did I realize it would have been my last time to say good bye. You don't know how bad I feel that I never got a chance to see you that last time and say I love you and say good bye.

I have carried around that guilt for a long time now. I'm sorry about that. I'm glad you're not suffering anymore and I will help Bob out as much as I can with Ronnie.

Well now I will go and everyone reading this is probably saying it's about time.haha

Godbless my family & my Friends

Love Karan

SHE SMILED WHEN SHE WANTED TO SCREAM.

SHE SANG WHEN SHE WANTED TO CRY.

SHE WOULD CRY WHEN SHE WAS HAPPY,

SHE WOULD LAUGH WHEN SHE WAS NERVOUS.

SHE WOULD FIGHT FOR WHAT SHE BELIEVED IN.

SHE WOULD STAND UP FOR INJUSTICE.

SHE WOULD NOT TAKE "NO" FOR AN ANSWER WHEN SHE BELIEVED THAT THERE

WAS A BETTER SOLUTION.

SHE ALWAYS LOVED UNCONDITIONALLY.

SHE KNEW THAT A HUG OR A KISS COULD HEAL A BROKEN HEART.

HER BIG HEART MADE THE WORLD SPIN AROUND.

SHE AWAYS GAVE MORAL SUPPORT TO HER FAMILY& FRIENDS.

AS THIS CHRISTMAS SEASON IS UPON US,WE WANTED TO LET YOU KNOW,TRACY, THAT WE LOVE YOU.....YOU'RE ALWAYS ON OUR MINDS & ALWAYS IN OUR HEARTS !

MOM & DAD

TRACY,

WE KNOW YOU WERE WITH US ON THANKSGIVING.I HAD A WARM FEELING ALL DAY.LAST YEAR WAS THE LAST HOLIDAY THAT YOU FELT GOOD.AT LEAST YOU LOOKED LIKE YOU FELT OKAY,BUT YOU KNEW HOW TO HIDE THE FACT THAT YOU DID'T FEEL WELL !

WE LOVE AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH.

GOD BLESS YOU ,MOM & DAD

I just wanted to say that we miss you so much. We had so much fun last halloween. I'm so glad that your father and I spent halloween at your house. We had a good time.You were such a good sport for letting me dress you up as Raggedy Ann. Thank you for giving me this wonderful memory. We have great pictures of you, all dressed up! I will look at these often and remember what a good time we had !

Love Mom & Dad