Macario Ponce Obituary

Hey Macario
We never had the chance to meet you Im the lucky one who ended up with your son Tony. You would be proud of who's he become, it hasn't been easy and he misses you deeply. We had two amazing kids Gabriel & Nadiya. I know your with them always. Please visit tony some day I pray every night for him to see you again. Till the day I get to meet you I hope you know I'll love your son and take good care of him. You did great with him Big mac. Sincerely Tonys Christina

Macario, 18 Years ago today, God called you home and left us with tears in our eyes, grief in our hearts and an unbelievable pain in our souls. I still find acceptance difficult today but I live with the knowledge and faith that I will see you again! I love you my Heavenly Bound Big Brother!

Happy Birthday brother!!!!Today you would have made 56 yrs. But for all of us, you are 38 forever. Looking back at all the pics on my phone, while great times and laughter, one thing missing is you and your boys. How I wish we could go back. I love you and miss you daily my brother.

Hello Ponce Family. After many years of moving around, I sadly lost touch with a childhood friend (Mac). I had a dream last week with Mac, and I felt the need to reach out to him. I searched the net only to find out about his passing. So many memories came flooding my mind. I remember weight lifting in my attic room with him, delivering pizzas on a cold Chicago winter in what he called his little GTO (not sure, but I think it was a VW Rabbit). , or partying on the weekend. He was a great person with life exploding out of him. Oftentimes, I wished to be more like him. If you feel like reaching out, don't hesitate to call me (770) 769-0488

Hey Mac! 17 years without you, what can I say, I still miss your carefree way of loving and living. While things (emotionally) have gotten better, there´s always a void that will never be filled. I wish I could tell you that your sons have been part of my life since you have been gone, but no. They live their lives and raise their children and I don´t see them or know your grandchildren. However, I always keep them and you in my prayers and thoughts. I love you brother! Say Hi to Ma and Mama Luz for me and Papa Aurelio!

15 years today Mac since u have been gone. Still miss u more than I can explain. So many things have happened that are wrong and I wish u we´re here so I could talk to u. It´s so lonely without u. I love u my brother. Always will and May u b in peace, in heaven with Mom.

Happy Birthday Mac, I love you and miss you.

Pop's it's been 11 years since we've last talked man I wish we could speak again there's so much to talk about i would of loved for you to meet my amazing wife my awsome kids that just bring me total happiness you would love them. Man so much has happened over the years so many lessons lived and learned I could definitely get why knowing that you didn't have all the time with us hurt you so much. There's so much to teach and help our kids to be ready for this hell of a ride called life growing up I could write a book of my life and it would actually be pretty entertaining thankfully I was able to get through it with the life lessons you taught me and no worries I'm passing on the same knowledge there's so much more to talk about I could Write for days but being a father it's hard to find time to keep writing so please feel free to visit so we could talk about everything love you and miss you pops

Visited your grave yesterday and shared a moment with you along with Tito, Dad, Tío & Tia. Dad led us in prayer for you, Mama Luz, Abuelita Rosita and then Mom. 11 years in two Month bro. You've been gone a long time. Still seems like only yesterday I saw you, for the last time.
LOVE you bro. I still miss you like you can't believe and I wish you'd visit my dreams more often. But you're probably busy elsewhere with someone else's dreams.

Always in my ❤

Love you Mom and Mac. Come back and put things in order.

If Only:
If only I had a "reset" button. I would reset back to 1987. I was 14, you were 17 and it was a different time. A time full of Mom and happiness. A time with no pain and long summer days. When I thought nothing would ever change. Mom would be in the kitchen cooking something delicious while listening and dancing to Sonia Lopez. When you would walk in, smelling like summer. after a long day at the beach as a lifeguard...with stories about how many girls wanted to date you!!!! If only I knew what would happen in a few years and maybe hug you more, hug Mom more....tell you both how much I love and cherish you even though I didn't show it sometimes. If only you hadn't had to suffer an awful disease and die....leaving us all to scatter. If only Mom didn't suffer from your death and die a few years later.....If only I could see you both again and hold nothing back. If only....

Hey tio. I'm sorry I haven't really talked to you in a long time, but there isn't a day I don't think about you. It's been seven years. Seven damn years. And Tio I miss you. I miss you so much. I really wish you were hear with us. I know it's greedy but I don't care. I'm a greedy person and I love you tio.I came on here to tell you that I'm going to let my hair grow long and donate it to cancer. Right now there is only one obstacle in my way and that is my school deans. The have told me to cut it off and tomorrow I'm planning to go to their office and tell them the reason why I will not be cutting it off. I am scared. I am scared that I'm going to get into something I can't handle. I don't really know why I'm writing this but if you can see this please just give me some of your unwavering confidence you had in life to help me fight this battle. Thankyou Tio.

MISS YOU MUCH BROTHER,..RUB YOUR FINGERS THRU GODS HAIR FOR ME.......CRICKET

Has it really been 5 years already? Mac, I could swear I was with you yesterday! Missing you like no tomorrow. Can't wait to visit your burial site tomorrow with Mom, Dad & Mama Luz. Maybe others as well but that's who I've spoken with today about it. Dad has requested that tomorrows Early Mass be given in your rememberance and the late morning one he requested in Tony's name as Tony's Birthday is Tuesday! I love you my brother. I don't know how it has been 5 years since I last shared a moment at your side. -Michael A Ponce

Happy Birthday Macario! Still missing you like no tomorrow! I hope you're up there keeping a place for each and every one of us! Hope you found a good place for Abuelita. It's amazing, Tony has had two children now, so you're a Grandfather twice over! I hope when my time comes, we can be together again. We're going to visit your plot at the cemetary tomorrow around 10AM, I hope it doesn't rain on us. Either way, we'll be there! Love you very mucy and miss you more!

Mi querido Hijo:Cuanta soledad y cuanta tristeza, no me puedo consolar asta el momento que venga de volvernos a encontrar.Quiero verte una vez mas solo una vez mi chiquito quiero volverte abrazar y estar los dos juntitos la cadena se rompio con tu despedida hijo y a tu madre la dejo abrumada y sin consuelo cada dia que pasa mi hijo es mayor mi desconsuelo. Solo te pido una cosa, no me olvides mi chiquito pues yo colocare una rosa para mi nino bonito ojala que tu pudieras con el permiso Divino darle una vuelta a tu Madre que te extrana tanto mi hijo. tina ponce (Mom)

para los amigos de mi hijo Macario Ponce les mando esto es un libro que el tiene a donde le puedes escribir hazlo y veras que despues te vas a sentir muy bien. Gracias su Madre. Tina Ponce.

Mi hijo hayer nacio Madeline Ariana hija de Mike y Martha es una criatura hermosa y llena de amor pues los dos estan loquitos por ella se guinaban un ojo cada y cuando y se daban un furtivo beso de felicidad tambien los Papas de Martha estan felices sabes son una familia muy buena y los quiero mucho.

Dear Macario I look at all the lovely messages from your family and friends. All the pictures of your children and family. I look at your mom and dad you are truly loved and missed. I'm glad to have known you. I know you are watching over your mom who feels your love.
You are with all of us Thank you:)

Dearest Macario, four years ago you left this world to join our lord and a void was left. So many things have happened since you have been gone. You became a grandfather & I a wife & a mom. I wish you could be here but I know you are watching all of us from heaven. I miss you my dear friend but I know that I will see again when it's my turn to leave this world. Love you & miss you my dear friend.

so sorry to have heard of your passing Macario, I still reminence of our childhood days running around playing football & softball. Then as we got to be teenagers we'd see each other at parties & laugh, & joke around the entire night. You & the entiire Ponce family have always been dear friends of mine. Be a pal, give my brother Pep a big hug for me & tell him U both are dearly missed, and thought of daily. Your buddy, Hector Acosta

Macario, today marks the 4th year of your passing and I still think about you on a daily basis. I remember the day before, how I spent the afternoon with you and you wanted a blueberry slushy I remember how hot it was that day and how it took me almost an hour to find a 7-Eleven to buy you that slushy. I know you and I are the brothers who spent the most time together growing up and how you took care of me and made sure I was always safe. I wonder at all this and think it still wasn't enough. I wish I had spent more time with you. I wish you were still here. I miss you alot my brother. When my time comes to leave this world, I hope to meet with you again, in the grace of God Almighty.

We'll be visiting your grave in a couple hours. See you there!

I love you,
-Michael

mI QUERIDO mAC MANANA HACE 4 ANOS QUE TE FUISTE Y TE ANORO COMO SI FUERA HOY NO SABES CUANTA FALTA ME HACES COMO EXTRANO TUS PALABRAS todo va a estar bien mami solo tu hijo me haces mucha falta pero estas en un lugar hermoso donde ya no hay penas ni sufrimientos ni dolor ojala pronto nos veamos hijo ya estoy viviendo de mas te querre siempre asta que este corazon deje de latir tu Madre que te bendice siempre besos muchos. Mom Tina Ponce.

To a wonderful friend....i so enjoyed all of the camping trips...and i remember ur laugh and jokes around the firepit.....thanks Macario for always being you.....say hi to my dad up there....meche

ola mi nino. ya paso el dia de las madres pero sabes yo me alegre mucho de sentirte mover en mi estomago y de haberte dado vida pero los mandatos de nuestro Dios son dificiles de entender te amo hijo y toda mi vida te recordare con mucho amor pedacito de mama adios chiquito asta pronto. Tu Madre que te bendice y pide a Dios porque te abra las puertas del cielo y estes en su gloria celestial. besos Mami.

Hace apenas unos dias celebramos los dias santos, "Resurrexi et adhuc tecum sum, he resucitado y siempre estoy contigo".
Oh sublime misterio del Sabado Santo, Noche Santa!, dijo el Papa; Si Cristo hubiera quedado prisionero del sepulcro, nuestra vida y la vida querida de Macario en cierto modo, habria perdido su sentido. Pero nuestro Dios, resucito verdaderamente! y con El nos dio la gracia de participar de la vida eterna, asi que la muerte en este mundo es el verdadero nacimiento a la vida eterna.
Descanse en paz el muy amado hijo de Ernestina.

Ante la muerte, sólo una cosa hace que sigamos adelante, la Fe.
El plan de Dios es perfecto, la Cruz es la puerta del Cielo, ante Tu partida Macario no podemos quedarnos solo con el dolor debemos de fortalecer nuestra Fe por que si no nada tiene sentido.
En la memoria de Tu cumpleaños deseo que te encuentres gozando plenamente de la presencia de Aquel que te creo.

Qué difícil escribirte ahora, querido Maca. Lo que es cierto, es que permaneces en el recuerdo y ese recuerdo está en el corazón. Mis oraciones para ti y tu felicidad eterna. Faby.

ola Mac te amo mucho te recuerdo siempre vives en mi memoria cada dia al despertar y cada noche antes de dormir, no se decirte ya cuantas veces me he despertado a las 3 de la manana al escuchar que llegas en tu moto y despierto a papi para que abra la reja y entres, tu papi con mucha ternura me abraza y empiesa a rezar por su nino adios hijito siempre estas en mis pensamientos te amo. Mom

Happy Birthday Mac, you're 42 today and it's almost 4 years now, since you left us for greener pastures. We'll be visiting your body's burial site shortly, even though I know you're with us always, we'll take flowers over there for you and say a prayer too. I love you Mac, and I miss you beyond what I can express in mere words.

-Michael

Mi querido Maca. otro ano ha pasado ahora estubieras cumpliendo anos y tu ausencia me duele mucho cada dia mas te quiero mi pedacito de mama y aunque no se donde estas desde el fondo de mi corazon te deceo muchas felicidades en tu cumpleanos que Dios te bendiga y a mi me de muchas fuerzas adios chiquito de mi alma no me olvides por favor mami nunca lo hara asta que los anos cierren mi memoria te amare.

El vivir ya no esta en mis planes te llevaste la mitad de mi vida hijo mio

Mi amado Mac como has estado? mi querido angel ruega por mami ante el Senor tu Dios y pidele una vez mas que me de mi pronta recuperacion sabes me mandaron hacer un ct del cuello y manana el Dr, quiere verme dijo que para discutir lo que se va hacer me estoy muriendo de nervios pensando que encontrarian pues como ves ya casi no me puedo mover ruega por mi, mi pedasito de mama resibe mis bendiciones donde qiera que te encuentres y el gran amor de tu Madre que nunca te olvidara donde estaras mi primavera. Asta pronto mi amor no te olvido ni un minuto cada dia te extrano muco te sueno y te necesito solo tu que ya estas alla puedes rogar a mi Dios. te amo. tu Mom. Tina Ponce.

"Aunque Dios nos lo quite todo, nunca nos dejará sin El, mientras no lo queramos. Pero hay más; nuestras pérdidas y separaciones no son más que por breve plazo."

San Francisco de Sales

Mi querido hijo es tan dificil de vivir sin ti, xtrano aquellas platicas largas que teniamos todas las tardes cuando yo llegaba del trabajo y cuando te platicaba mis problemas tu siempre tenias en tus lavios aquella bonita rspuesta`que extrano y me hace falta escuchar
; Todo va` a estar bien mami. si no te hubieras ido seria tan feliz pero mi querido hijo en donde quiera que estes te deceo feliz navidad yo se que despues de 4 anos de sufrimiento con ese cochino cancer staras gozando de Papa Dios no hay duda yo stoy sufrindo mucho ahora hijo tngo un dolor que no soporto y soy debil quiciera ser tan valiente como tu lo fuist ruega al Senor por tu mama para que le de fuerzas para soportar su santisima voluntad te amo mucho hijo y asta que mis ojos se cierren te seguire amando.Mami.

Mi Mac como estas? te extrano mucho a cada momento pienso en ti cuando nos encontraremos hijo?pidele a Diosito que me de mi curacion por favor tu estas cerca de el y puedes pedircelo tambien a nuestra madre la santisima Virgen sufro mucho dolor hijo y soy cobarde no puedo ser como tu mandame tus fuerzas te quiero mucho y nunca te olvidare mientras tenga vida. tu Madre que te vendice en donde quiera que te encuentres Tina Ponce.

ve siempre hacia adelante no te detengas te amamos y recordamos todos con amor Mom.

Te amo mucho mi Mac.acompaname en este dia pues estoy muy sola.

Mi querido Mac hace tiempo que no te escribia pero no pienses que es porque te olvide a cada segundo vives en mi mente y en mi corazon mi pedacito de mama te amo mucho hijo y siempre lo hare por ahora solo tengo que platicarte que van a operar a Petra ruega al Senor que todo salga bien sus hijos la necesitan y tu sigue cuidandolos especialmente ahora que ella va a estar en el Hospital hechales una manita como siempre tu nieto esta hermoso si estubieras aqui lo traerias para todos lados contigo yo lo se adios mi baby te quiero y me haces mucha falta cuando vienes por 2 minutos? te esperare siempre y un dia nos volveremos a juntar y la cadena que se rompio se volvera a juntar con mucho amor tu madre que te bendice y siempre ruega por ti. tina Ponce(Mom)

Hi tio mac. Its me panchito wats been up hows heaven? i miss you tio we all do. I think about you all the time. I wish you were here. i pray all the time for you, grandma, and everyone else. i started my freshman year at st.ignatius. i kno it was your dream for one of kids to go there but Guero didnt want to takes the test. oh well. its a tough school. im pretty grown up now. Im 14 and 5'10 in height. yup im taller than my mother, anf fatheer who still insists that he is 5'10 when we all know that he isnt. Life been alright. im a cross country runer know. yup run alll the time. im ganna do boxing and brazilian ju jitsu in winter. oh and wrestling. well tio tats all for now im srry for being so late in writing. Love Panchito

Dearest Macario or Maca as your mother called you
You have been gone from this place called earth but only your body. Your spirit is still alive in all. Your mother always remembers things you've said or did and enjoys sharing the memories of you with me.

I have my own memories. I didn't no you for long or have the pleasure of knowing you in person except for seeing you here and there at the airport or at your home.
I remember that you always thought of others you brought hot coffee to the girls on those cold days. You warmed us up inside. You were able to do that because you are just like your mom and dad. Very kind and giving.
Your mother always no matter what or if it was her last
dollar gave even to strangers. I had the feeling and I could see that in you. So thank you for all your kindness.
Your mom misses you so much but I tell her you are always with her and your family.
Your children are beautiful and they also have your good qualities. You did a fantastic job. I have met your new grandson and he is beautiful. He gives your mother great joy.
I often wonder and wait for the day I see my mother and family members that are with you and the lord. I look forward to seeing you as your mother has made me apart of your great family.
Thank you for everything. May God keep you and your family safe and may your memory live forever

Martha T. Portillo

Our father who art in heaven, hollowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven, give us this day our daily bread and forgive us our since, as we fogive those who trepass against us and lead us not unto temptation but delivers from evil, Amen Lord, keep my brother close to your glory forever, Amen.

Mi querido hijo
; Hace 3 anos que me dejaste y no puedo consolarme las otras persons no me entiendn dicen que tu estas en un lugar mejor que este y es verdad yo lo se pero el vacio que dejaste nadie lo llena tus hermanos son buenos se quieren muco estan unidos siempre hay dificultades y problemas como en todas las familias tus hijos crecen y son todos unos hombres de bien veo a caitos y siento como si te estubiera viendote de nuevo, hijo asi como me ayudabas cuando vivias ayudame ahora que estas junto a Diod pidele por la salud de tu mama me van a opear el dia 24 de junio y tengo miedo quiciera ser como tu y no puedo yo soy mas cobarde ruega a Diosito por mi y tu hijo pide por todos especialmente por caitos pues ya ves como le haces falta se su guia y no lo desampares nunca hasle sentir tu presencia y siguele dando muchas fuerzas y a mi mandame tu bendicion y tus fuerzas y pide por mi ante Dios nuestro creador bendice a Mike para que siga siendo el buen hijo que es a tu papa dale fuerza y animos de seguir adelante te quiero y te querre siempre y siempre estaras en mi corazon ve con Dios. Adios mi hijo. tu madre que te bendice donde quiera que estes y ruga siempre por ti en sus oracions. Ernestina Ponce.(Mom)

hey dad,
I miss you soo much dad. some days i just think your going to call me sometime or just walk through the front door and late at night like you used to. it hurts me soo bad, but im happy to know that your with god now and that your pain free. i need you so much dad, id give anything just to have you back for one day, or even an hour. please help me in life dad, i need it, i need you. i love you dad!

Good Morning Mac,

Today, three years ago, God chose to gather you unto him. You had suffered bravely through several years of pain and he decided that it was enough. He gathered you unto him and left us with the pain of your loss. I know you're in a better place. No pain, no cancer, no suffering anymore. Since then, Patty joined you as did Abuelita Rosita and cousin we never got to meet in life. You've also gained a grandson who is handsome beyond words. You've also gained another Niece who has probably already stolen your heart too. She quite the drama queen alot of the time but when she's in a good mood she can put a smile on anyone.

Michael & Carlos are both taller than Tito now....imagine that, how'd that happen? No clue but it's amazing as they are too.

I still think of you daily and talk often with Dad about how our lives were. The many things you helped me make it through and how you protected me. Thank you for everything you did for me. It because of you and Tony & Tito that I was safe most of the time.

I love you Mac. When my time comes to go, I won't be afraid, I won't complain or ask why. My life has been great and continues to be so. But when my time comes, I'll know I'll be coming to see you and join you and Abuelita Rosita and Papa Aurelio in the wait for the rest of us.

God bless you and all of us.

-Michael

ola Mac.Como estas mi hijo? otra Navidad y yo sin ti, si supieras la falta que me haces en esta casa se acabo la felicidad desde que te fuiste y no hay ninguno pero ninguno de tus hermanos que quiera o que pueda ocupar tu lugar, como vez estoy sola sin navidad de ninguna clase y Tony y Nena igual su orgullo es tan grande que ninguno de los 2 seden en su disgusto donde estas Mac?me haces muchisima falta ayudanos de nuevo hijo solo tu puedes arreglar todo esto hijo,como cada ano lo hacias cuidate mucho y resibe muchos besos de ti mama que te bendice tina ponce.

Hi Macaroni..
Its been a while since I have written to you but u know your on my mind every day. I laugh sometimes when I think of you because you were a big contributor to my happiness and I remember! But then the smile turns to tears on my way home knowing I can't call you or see you or anything. I wish you were around to be the mediator your always were. You were amazing brother. I hope you are in heaven smiling down and watching over all of us tripping over our shoes without you.
love u much and miss you more
Nena

It has been over two years since you have been gone and I finally got the courage to write to you. I tried many times but I couldn't fine the words that would keep me from crying.The tears still fill my eyes but with a smile on my face and the great memories I have of our friendship in my mind and heart. I remember when I first met you I didn't like you. I thought to my self this kid gets on my nerves. He plays to much and thinks he is funny. Hey I was a kid what did I know then. Boy was I wrong. You were funny when someone needed to be cheered up and you were serious when you needed to. I remember when we were in boxing with Curtis and you would get Maria and me in trouble and we would have to do 50 squads every time. I think we got to do up to 300 squads a day because of you. (I thank you because that was the first time that I actually got thin). You would laugh and smile at us. That smile that I will never forget. You would make us run faster when we would just want to walk but we could never get angry at you. Then you started your family and we all went out separate ways for awhile but when I would see you were always the same Macario that I knew just all grown up with your children on your side. You always asked for my family and always wished us all well. I admired you so much then and admire you much more now.I am a mom now of a 16 month old and I look at my son and hope that I become the parent you are to your children. You may not be here on earth but you are still raising your children from where you are. The teachings you left them with I know continue to guide them. Congratulations on the new addition to your family I know you are watching over each of them from where you are at. My son doesn't know who you are but he has heard your name in my prayers and when he gets older and is able to understand he will know about you and what a great friend you are. You will always be with me in my heart and mind. I miss you my friend.

Hijito se me olvido decirte que tienes un nieto hermoso y fuerte es de Tony y se llama Gabriel Giobany Ponce es hermoso hijito muchas felicidades abuelo cuidalos mucho te necesitan adios. Mami.

quien me haya felicitado en mi cumpleanos sin poner su nombre mil gracias y que Diosito les siga bendiciendo. mac mom.

Sra Ernestina, Feliz Cumpleanos. Espero que este bien de salud, y que Dios la bendiga.

Good Morning Mac,
Today is Mom's Birthday and I know she's missing you strongly for being so. We went fishing on the 27th of June we caught 13 fish and had a good time. I know you were there with us watching but it would have been awesome to watch you battle a fish like Dad did. It took him 7 minutes to reel it in. He was spent afterwards. We were going to take Lil'Tony with us however there was s Job Fair in Cicero that I thought we thought would be best he attend and he did. Doesn't seem now like it mattered because he says they weren't taking applications just giving out info. Oh well, live and learn right?

Anyhow, we're still here making the best of it. I love you bro, I miss you too.

-Michael

May 15 2009
Maca, Maca, mi Canus, nunca te olvido, veo una pelicula cualquiera y volteo para comentarla o que me la expliques, tengo alguna duda en las clases y te las comento. Repito las platicas que tubimos y me llena de alegria saber que tubimos muchas satisfacciones que hicimos muchas cosas juntos tu y yo y con tus hermanos.
Hijo es la primera carta que escribo aqui, apenas me estoy abriendo, otro dia te escribo mas. asta entonces.TP

Tu no sabes cuanto me duele que no estas aqui..corazon mio te amo por siempre! descance en paz.

So much to say...

So few the words that come to mind to do so....

I know you're there to see it all happen and words here are more a comfort to all of us who knew and love you...

You're still in my mind daily as forever you shall be...

I love you bro....
I miss you too....

-Michael

You know, I always tried to cover my feelings and be strong no matter what. for everyone. But it always seemed that you would show up right then and there when I felt like giving up and you somehow knew I needed you. Well I need you. and you know I feel your presence, your arm and believe it or not I hear your words. I miss you so much and really wish you were here in person to give me my so much needed hug. I will always love you. and thanks for being here still for me.

No nos dejas olvidarte huh brother? I knew you would'nt. You come in my dreams and show yourself as healthy as ever, asking me questions about how you died and who was with you and how you looked. I couldn't answer you, but at least I was able to run and get you a tissue when you needed to blow your nose. Then you told me you felt no pain and to just go get some vitamins for you. Bro, i woke up at 5:30 in the morning from the dream. Thanx for always coming so peaceful. I hope that you are resting in peace, we still remember you with broken hearts. Just the sound of your name on someone's lips is enough to set any one of us off. I love you. God Bless You.

Maca, how can I put to words everything I feel.....thoughts flit in and out of my mind and you're at the core of everyone.

I feel you there watching, waiting, protecting, loving, caring and molding my and all of those you love, future to better, greater things.

I miss your physical presense in my life yet I know you are still with me.

I know I'll see you again and I know we're share in the glory of God together one day.

I look forward to that and I know when the lord decides to take me from this world, you'll be there to receive me with a smile and reassurance.

I love you bro,

-Michael

Happy Birthday Mac! Today you are reborn as an "ANGEL" in heaven, looking down on your loved ones who miss you so much. Have a cold one on us y goza la vida! I pray for you and family daily and you will always be in my heart!!!

Macario, you died a year ago yesterday (it’s 12:13am) so I missed posting this on the actual date of your passing, however, since I’ve yet to sleep, it still is, in my mind, a year ago today.

I offer you this poor attempt at poetry as a gift to honor you for who you were for all you did and for the love I have for you.

AN AFTERLIFE GUIDE

A promised guide,
For when I die

My brother went
To check ahead

To make it safe
I have faith

However long
The trip will take

I’ll find my brother
When I wake

This dream of life
Will some day fade

I’ll join the ranks
Of those who wait

To bask in light
To feel God’s glory

I wait in life
Until that day

For those who slumber
For those who dream

I'll promise you
To check ahead

To make it safe
For all your sake

Until the day
You come awake

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Macario told me and many whom he knew, that he would check ahead and make whatever arrangements needed to be made in order to make the transition to our place in heaven, easier, he was always checking the way for safety, for all of us, and I truly believe that he will continue to do so for us, until and even after, we join him in the Glory of Our Lord.

I was in church when the father said macario name. I was vary happy that I was there for his mass.

Hey Maca, its me again. Brother, Ma had a stoke yesterday, on your birthday. Thank God she was able to call an ambulance while it was happening. She is going to be ok, we are all here in the intensive care unit with her. I know your watching from heaven. Take care of you and her brother. Love you.

Macaroni,
Remember in 2007 I had not gone to work on your birthday and i was going to go out to breakfast with Panch and just do some stuff i had to do around the house, but u called me on may 4, 2007 to ask me if i could come by ma's house on your birthday. I went and u had bought some birria and tamales from the Casa del pueblo you just sounded like you needed everyone there to witness you turning 38 years old. Oh Mac, I miss you soo much, my life is so different without you, remember at Tito's first wedding? Remember when you made me take double shots with you? Remember then you asked me to dance and you twirled me around and around? But then said you had to sit down cus u felt dizzy?? that was a great nite, I had soo much fun, what i can remember that is. Waking up the next morning for an Engish Final was something else, but I passed with a B and that was even better. Brother, I can't tell you how many times a day I find myself thinking of u, seeing your picture that i have in my book at work wishing i can call you to tell you how bad my day is going or if you want to go out this weekend. Remember that summer that ma and dad were in Mexico and you let me crash at your place cus tony was doing a great job being the oldest that i had to get away. Remember you allowed me to drive your brand spankin painted camaro? I was 17 and you trusted me to drive a car u had just invested on.....wow....I went to an all nite rave with Paty and hit pot holes and everything but u were cool about it. Man Mac...I love you bro. I miss you soo much and please, please rest in peace brother. I am sorry for anything I might have done to make you sad while you were alive and sick, i know i tend to be too blunt and sometimes insensitive, but i hope you knew me enough not to be hurt. I think about u every day and it hurts to know I can't call you or talk to you or hear your voice again.

Happy Birthday my brother, I love you.
Your lil sis always,
Nena

From the first time I met you, I knew you were special. I saw in you a strength and love of life that I do not see often in patients. I dreamt of you a week ago and it seemed so real, promting me to contact your Mom. She informed me of your passing and it really shocked me. Somehow I was hoping and praying that by some miracle you would over come your illness, but such was not the case. Mac, I know that you now light up the heavens with your smile and that you are now living the Glory! You are a man loved by so many, especialy your family. I was very fortunate to have met you, y le pido a Dios que te tenga en su gloria siempre. Me despido for now, but will always have you in my heart and prayers. Descansa mi amigo and remember... Always keep a smile on your face and a song in your heart!!!

Hey Mac,

It doesn't get any easier does it?

Looks like I'll be missing you every day of the rest of my life.

Good night my brother, I'll still be missing you in the morning.

Your brother, who loves you,

-Michael

Ola mi nino querido hace 2 meses que no te escribia como has estado ? Mi querido nino no sabes como me haces falta y siempre va a ser asi aunque pasen 20 anos y yo siga viva me haras mucha falta mi corazon ya no puede mas con esta pena cada dia estoy mas enferma de soledad sin tu presencia y la presencia de Tony tu nino pero sabes esta muy bien va muy bien en esa escuela de lincoln chalenge se esta portando muy bien y ya es un lider es un muchachito bueno como su papa y tu yo se que siempre estaras a su lado como estas al lada mio y de tus hermanos siempre Maca ya pasaron 9 meses sabes hayer dia de palmas fui a Misa a Santa Ines a recordarte te acuerdas que el ano pasado me llevaste me compraste una palma y escuchamos misa ahi pues hayer hice lo mismo lleve a la coca a nena a petra los ninos y despues nos fuimos al guero a comer como hace un ano todo lo hice para recordarte mi querido nino mami siempre siempre te tendra en su corazon y te recordara y amara como siempre con todas mis fuerzas y con todo mi corazon sigo sin sonar contigo solamente una vez y fue un sueno maravilloso gracias hijo ojala y se pudiera repetir adios hijito que Diosito te cuide y te proteja mucho y que te de licencia de seguir acercandote a tu familia deja sentir que estas conmigo para no sentirme tan sola hasme travesuras en mi casa mi travieso adios amor te quiero y te bendigo igual que siempre . Tu mama que te amara siempre Tina Ponce.(Mom)

Mi querido Maca: Hoy hace 8 meses que te fuiste de mi lado y sabes te sigo estranando muchisimo y cada dia mas nada ni nadie llena tu lugar hoy no fui a verte hijito aunque nadie me hubiera detenido de hacerlo pero sabes la temperatura estaba a 29 bajo 0 y he pasado todo el dia a media calle en frio hoy estubimos en casa de Nena hiso un posole te recordamos todos te extranamos Michael si fue a verte el es mi nino valiente sabes te extrana yo lo noto cuando viene a mi casa y ve tus fotografias lo mismo cada uno de tus hermanos por favor hijo voy a seguirte pidiendo que si Papa Dios te da licencia sigue cuidando a Tito como lo hacias cuando estabas aqui tengo muchisimo pendiente de el .
Mi chiquito como estas? ojala y gozando del amor tan grande de Papa Dios te quiero mucho y siempre te voy a recordar aunque pasen muchos anos siempre estaras en mi mente y en mi corazon aqui cerquita de mi yo asi te siento sabes he sentido 2 veces ya tu precencia aqui en la casa verdad que si verdad que tu heres ? te quiero y jamas te olvidare mi corazon me falto el tiempo para decirte cuanto te quise cuantos celos me daban que no pudieras pasar mas tiempo conmigo ojala y si sea cierto que leas este periodico que te escribimos toda tu familia adios mi maca te quiero mucho que Diosito te bendiga te cuide y te proteja en su santo seno te quiero muchisimo. tu Mama.

Ernestina Ponce.

Hey Mac, it's 8 months today since we parted ways and I miss you as much today as ever.

Time has flown by so fast since then and I still can't imagine you as gone. I see your pictures daily, I see the images play in my head of when you were in the Hospital and when you were at home. I remember the moments I spent with you. I remember our childhood and how at that age, I idolized you for your strength, your confidence. I can't remember you ever being or showing weakness. This is how I remember you and how you will always stay in my mind.

God bless and keep you safe until we meet again.

Your brother who loves and misses you,

-Michael

Mi chiquito querido: ?Como estas? espero que bien sabes son las 1230 de la noche hoy viernes 14 de diciembre me gradue Mac finalmente como tu querias . No fue Papi porque estan cerrando la Ryerson y no quiero que falte tanto pero tu hermano Michael como siempre fue mi acompanante tambien fue Nancy y la Coca mis unicas amigas fue una graduacion muy bella ojala estubieras aqui para ensenarte mis certificados me siento muy orgullosa de mis logros. me han costado trabajo pero por din he terminado con este ultimo ahora van a dar un nuevo curso para como actuar para conseguir trabajo y lo voy a estudiar todo lo que me ensene algo y me deje algo que pueda ocupar con el tiempo lo voy a estudiar.
Hijo Navidad se hacerca y cada dia se me hace mas dificil pensaar y hacer lo que tenemos que celebrar ese dia pero sin ti no se si pueda te extrano mas que nunca yno sse que hacer como voy a poder pasar ese dia sin mi nino hijo te quiero muchisimo y sbaes al igual que todos a pesar del ultimo tiempo que estubimos juntos siento que me falto muchisimo tiempo para platicar mas contigo pienso y recuerdo tus actitudes tus gestos tus sonrisas tus palabras tus canciones donde comias que te gustaba en fin hay un sinnumero de cosas que me hacen recordarte cada minuto pero mas que todo la cercania de estas fiestas sin ti mi hijo estaba tan acostumbrada a tu cercania a todo lo tuyo que no sabes como me haces falta cada minuto,
cuantas veces te voy a pedir que vengas ya por mi escuchame hijo ya cada dia se me hace mas dificil estar sin mi familia completa me faltas tu y eso es muy doloroso para mi .
Hijo pidele a Diosito que me de fuerzas muchas fuerzas para pasar estos dias sin ti te extrano te quiero te necesito no dejo de pensar ni un minuto en ti y siento que mi corazon se acelera tanto que siento que el pecho se me va a partir en dos partes sin tu amor hijo mio feliz Nanidad dame el regfalo que tanto te he pedido ven a mis suenos si? quiero verte una vez mas y ya adios mi mac te quiero y espero que desde donde etes no te olvides de mi ensename que estas conmigo como me prometisite dame una sena para saber que heres mi angel guardian adios baby comunicate de alguna manera conmigo resibe muchisimos besos y bendiciones de tu madre que te extrana y te bendice muchos besos hijo mio.
Yuo Mom. Tina Ponce.

Monday it'll be six months since you left us my brother.

I can get you out of my mind today. everything I do, everything I see, reminds me of you.

I've shed constant tears today and remembered how you'd look up at me from your hospital bed when I visited and you would raise your eyebrows at me in a 'what's up' gesture and ask if everything was okay. Even at your worst, you worried more about us than about yourself. I miss you Mac. I hear christmas songs and I don't know why, but I think about you and think on how you won't be here with us this year. I have the picture of you and your kids surrounding you, in the hospital, the day you told them that your time with us was short. I remember how Guero broke down and cried. How you told them to never give up. Always be strong, always look ahead, always fight. You made me cry. I pray to god that he grant me your strength some day. Whenever I feel myself breaking down, I think of you and I feel shame at being weaker than you. You are my inspiration day in and day out. I pull inspiration from all of you, Dad, Mom, Tony, Tito, you and Rosemarie. Sometimes I feel like the weakest link. I made a mistake today, I actually told Lil' Tony that I was feeling depressed. I know it's wrong to show that type of weakness to him and or any of our children and I felt worse for it.

Forgive me for not being a better brother to you. As I said before, I wish we had more time. I wish we'd spoken more. I wish we'd shared more of ourselves and our lives with each other.

Good night Macario.
You'll always be a shining light in the darkest times for me.

-Michael

Mac, ¿Habrás venido a despedirte de mí alguna vez? No lo sé, pero aún, a veces, espero que vengas a darme un fuerte abrazo, como los que siempre me dabas.
Que tu recuerdo nos motive a todos a seguir adelante y nos anime a vivir con esperanza y alegría.
Te recuerdo mucho.

mi querido hijo.
el dia de dar gracias esta aqui dame toda la fuerza que tu tuviste todo el tiempo para poder pasar ese dia sin derramar lagrimas de amor por ti quiero que tus hermanos se sientan felices ese dia y tu papa tambien aunque el rara vez dice algo de ti yo se que sufre como nosotros pero el es el jefe de la familia y trata de ser muy fuerte aunque por dentro su corazon se desgarra como el de nosotros.
Maca te quiero mucho yeste va hacer mi primer dia de dar gracias sin ti sin tu pressencia sin tu felicidad sin tu amor te necesito mucho dame muchas fuerzas para poder soportar el no verte conmigo en tu casa como tu decias te guardo y te guardare siempre siempre en mi corazon feliz dia de dar gracias mi hijo necesito tu beso pero ahi te va el mio Dios te bendiga y te guarde donde quiera que estes mi amor mi chiquito adios hijito asta la proxima.

whats up pops this is the first time i write you in your book so i dont really know what to say except that you dont know how much i miss you how much i need your guidence ,and to tell you how sorry i am for not being there for your last moments of breath you took,how im so sorry for not alwasy being there for you when you were always there for me. dad im sorry for crying every night when i know im not letting you rest in peace like you deserve but dad i miss you i havent dreamed of you once since you passed, hopeing every night that i would see you, wishing every night that i could touch your hand wishin ude come to me to help the probs i have like you alwasys did.the way you would commute with me."ike i rember this one time i was a little bothered and you saw i couldnt sleep and it was around 3 in the morning and you couldnt sleep either knowing that something was bothering me so that night you said that we were going to play pool at a little pool spot i thought you were crazy because it was 3 am and you were very sick but you wouldnt go to sleep until we went and you found out what was wrong with me so we went and had a good time that night we played till 5 and while we were playing you were trying to find out what was wrong with me so finally we got tired and got back in the car and told you that i felt sorry and bad for what was happening to you and what you were going through and how i loved and envyed you for staying as strong as he you did.and from there i was already crying my eyes out and you grabed me and kissed my head and told me everything was going to be ok and i guess what im trying to say is that i need to go play pool again dad if not in real life then in my dreams i need your guidence again so come visit dad i love you pops.

Mi querido Macario sabes que el dia de dar gracias se acerca y me siento triste y a la vez contenta pues tus hermanos quieren celebrar ese dia y todos sienten que tu estas aun en esta casa sabes la mayor parte del tiempo pienso que me voy a volver loca sin tu presencia y lloro y lloro y nada pero nada me consuela peo el amor de mis otros hijos me lena de dulsura y pienso en ti en los recuerdos felices que nos dejaste y que viviste con nosotros y te sigo buscando y tu no te apareces te haces mucho del rogar asta ahora sigues como siempre tomandote tu tiempo como siempre te acuerdas cuando te pedia una cosa si me la hacias pero cuando tu tenias tiempo y ahora sigues igual por lo tanto quieo que sepas que te espero y te esperare asta que tu quieras venir por favor no tardes tanto ya estoy lista para encontrarte ven pronto ya vivi lo suficiente ya fui hija esposa madre abuela y creo que lo que tenia que hacer ya lo hice ahora solo me queda lo ultimo ir a reunirme contigo ven hijo ayudame a encontrarte no me dejes sufriendo tu as=usencia por mas tiemmpo no se como vivir sin ti .
te recuerdo a cada minuto pienso hablo contigo te busco y no te encuentro no crees que ya es tiempo de encontrarnos? te amo pedacito de cielo y siempre lo voy hacer asta el ultimo suspiro que haga mi corazon adios pequeno mio cuentas veces te pedire que me vusques aunque sea en mi sueno alibia este dolor tan grande y por un segundo piensa que tu madre quiere verte de nuevo asi como nena puede verte y hablar contigo yo tambien lo quiero hacer que Dios te bendiga donde qiera que te encuentres piensa en mi te amo hijo mio.
tu madre que te bendice

tina Ponce (mom)

Hey Maca,
Another Thanxgiving without u and ma and dad...last year cus u were too sick and this year cus your not here anymore. Me voy a California para hundirme en mi tristeza y soledad alla donde ellos no han ollido la historia de mi hermano Macario, porque aqui creo que ya se la saben de memoria y no se a quien mas contarle. Mi vida esta en slow motion...te perdiste ver la primera palisa que le dieron a mi primogenito...pero esta bien, o espero que lo este, le dije que esto era solo el principio de cosas asi...pero los ninos de hoy no entiended....no crecieron como nostros...siempre esperando problemas. Bueno hermano...solo quiero decirte que te quiero mas que el sol y quisiera nunca haberte perdido. Mi triste corazon te recuerdara siempre mientras late.

Nena

Patricia Pinedo
Fallecio: 10/22/07 3:28AM

Velorio: 10/24/07
Casey-Laskowski
Funeral Home
4550 W Diversey
Chicago, IL
(773) 777-6300

Misa: 10/25/07 11:00AM
Saint Sylvester Parish
2157 N Humboldt Blvd.
Chicago, IL 60647
(Sacramento & Palmer)

Entierro: 10/25/07
MT OLIVE CEMETERY
& MAUSOLEUM
3800 N Narragansett Ave
Chicago, IL 60634
773-286-3770

Que descanses en paz Pati, aqui te extrañaremos tanto como a mi hermano.

-Michael

Macario, hoy se fue Pati en busca de ti, al cielo. Ya su cuerpo no pudo superar los danos del cancer. Dios le de el eterno descanso y paz.

Lo siento mucho por su familia que sufre mucho su muerte y que ahora esta haciendo los arreglos para su entiero. Quida mucho de ella. Le dijo a sus hermanas que tu la visitaste y le dijiste que no se preocupara, que todo iba a salir bien y que tu quidarias de ella.

Hasta pronto mi Hermano,

-Michael

Hola Hermano Mio,

Aqui seguimos todos, extranandote mas cada dia.

Octubre onze se fue otro de la familia, a quien no conocia. Me da mucha tristesa saber que hubo alguien quien tuvo mi mismita sangre y nunca lo conoci. Michael tenia 26 anos y dejo a su esposa con tres hijos que sacar adelante. El nino mas joven ni alcanzo a conocerlo, pues nacio dos dias despues de su fallecimiento. Hermano, si te lo encuentras por tus rrumbos, quidalo y aconsejalo. Que dos los bendiga y tenga muy cerca de el, siempre. Algun dia te alcanzare y podremos seguir como siempre. Tu com mi guia en todo, quidando de que nunca tome un mal paso y aconsejandome a ser buen hombre.

Para los que visitan aqui y quieren ver y conocer a la familia mas a fondo, e puesto muchas de nuestras fotos en www.familiaponce.com/gallery

Hay mucho todavia que vivir, muchas vidas que tocar y muchos suenos que realizar. Macario, te extrano demasiado. Despues te vuelvo a escribir.

-Michael A. Ponce

Mi querido nino:
Hace ya 4 meses de tu partida y yo mi hijo me siento igual que el primer minuto que el primer dia sufro mucho tu ausencia no se vivir sin uno de mis hijos.
Sabes cuando veo ese pedazo de tierra en el cementerio recuerdo todos los minutos en que te tube entre mis brazos arruyandote besandote queriendote te acuerdas cuando naciste estabamos tu yo solitos porque papi no estaba con nosotros me sientia muy sola y muy triste y tu veniste a llenar ese vacio tan grande que tenia dentro de mi llorabas y te tomaba entre mis brazos te acurrucaba en mi pecho y te consolabas a lo mejor tu tambien sentias la soledad de tu mama.
Heramos muy pobres en ese tiempo y mama no tenia para comprarte lechita y tu mi nino tomabas lo que mami te daba y me sonreias feliz fuiste cresiendo .
Recuerdas cuando te enfermaste mucho y te tuve que llevar al cabrini hospital y te tubieron que abrir tu piecito pues no te encontraban las venas para ponerte el suero? y recuerdas que heramos solos tu y yo siempre recuerdas el dia que asaltaron a tony y a ti por robarles una peseta y mi nino como siempre inteligente se fijo exactamente en como los 2 hombres hiban bestidos y ayudaste a la Policia a que los agarrara mi caitos esos recuerdos heran tuyos y mios solamente de nadie mas mi pedacito de mama como estas en donde estas sabes te busco cada noche en mis suenos y todabia no vienes ya termine mi escuela de computacion hoy fue mi ultimo examen y lo aprove estas contento tu querias que terminara mi escuela recuerdas? Hijo de mi vida que te podran decir los demas? cuando todos mis recuerdos vivien en mi no puedo creer que estes ahi en ese pedaso de tierra cuando tu mi nino deberias de estar aqui para acompanar a tu mama en su caminar quien aparte de tus hemanos me llevara asta mi ultima morada? pero sabes tengo la completa seguridad de que tu estaras esperandome para ya no separarnos mas hijito donde quiera que te encuentres sabes que tu madre te llena de bendiciones cuidame hijo pidele permiso a papa Dios para venir en mis suenos quiero verte una vez mas y ya adios mi Maca mi pedasito de corazon un pedacito de mi cuerpo cuidate y cuidame siempre mi angel guardian te amo muchisimo y me duele no habertelo dicho mas y mas y mas adios pedacito de mama te amo, Tu madre que te bendice tina.

My Best Friend
Let me tell you about my best friend. He was strong and smart and funny. He was the one everyone waited for at a party. He was vibrant and exciting....never a dull moment when I was at his side. He would whisk you off to the movies on a school and work night and still want to go out for pizza or tacos afterwards. My best friend made all my troubles seem minor and would turn my frown into a half smile. My best friend is now gone and I miss him soo much.
Be in peace wherever you are Mac.

CONOCIMOS A MAC, A TRAVES DE USTEDES, Y A TRAVES DE USTEDES LO QUISIMOS Y NOS SENTIMOS MUY TRISTES POR EL SUFRIMIENTO TAN INMENSO DE LA FAMILIA, AL MISMO TIEMPO BIEN PORQUE AL FIN DESCANSA CON EL PADRE, QUE SU DOLOR Y SUFRIMIENTO NO SEA EN VANO Y SE TRANSFORME EN DONES Y BENDICIONES PARA LA FAMILIA.
CON UN INMENSO CARIÑO: FAM GALLARDO...

A nombre todos nosotros, guardamos los mejores recuerdos de nuestro querido Macario.
Que Dios nos permita como familia seguir unidos en los momentos difíciles y fortalecer nuestros lazos en los alegres.
Macario, gracias por tu cariño, tu disposición y tu ejemplo de vida.
Dios que es tan bueno y amoroso te guarda en sus brazos para que más que nunca seas feliz por toda la eternidad.

Con respeto y mucho cariño:

Fuiste como un hermano para mí y aún es difícil para mí saberte ausente y aún espero que vengas a visitarme...Pero yo sé que para todos eres un angelito que ve por nosotros, que a veces nos hace falta ver la luz que tú ya encontraste para siempre.
Gracias Maca por tus abrazos, tu cariño, tu amistad. Gracias primo por esos recuerdos desde la infancia, por las aventuras y tu atención.
Te recuerdo siempre y en cada puesta de sol, cuando necesito creer que en la vida hay que trascender.
Me has dado una gran lección de vida para amarla por completo, para seguir esforzándome cada día por ser feliz y luchar por cada uno de mis sueños.
Primo, Descansa en Paz.

Maca hijo no puedo ensenarme a vivir sin ti te busco y no te encuentro te llamo en tu cuarto y no me contestas veo tu fotografia y no puedo dejar de llorar y recordarte me haces tanta falta.
Latra gente aunque diga lo que diga nunca pero nunca va a sentir el vacio tan grande que me has dejado yo no voy a escribirte versos solo te voy a decir lo que me corazon siente.Siempre me digo y me pregunto si alla en donde estes piensas un poquito en tu Madre y estrano mi sol en mi cuarto por mas que lo haya mandado componer siento el vacio y l a soledad dentro de el.
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sabes hijo ya pase mi primer examen de computadora y manana voy poe el segundo como tu querias dame fuerzas muchas fuerzas para seguir adelante y ni derrumbarme sin ti a mi lado,pienso que ya no sufres y no me gustaria que siguieras sufriendo pero quita un poquito mi dolor hay diias en que siento que me asficcio me duele terriblemente el pecho visitame hijo yo se que como tu me prometiste heres mi angel guardian y siempre lo vas a ser te quiero chiquito mio porque sabes tu naciste de mi y Dios N S. me dio el pribilegio que en tus ultimos dias volvieras hacer mio eso nadie absolutamente nadie me lo quita te quiero te extrano necesito verte sin miedos te he preguntado si te gusta tu cuarto te grito y no me contestas pero he sentido tu caricia en mi cuello gracias hijito adorado que Dios te bendiga donde quiera que te encuentres y no te olvides de tu madre que reza llora e implora a Dios por ti piensa en mi hijo tu Madre que te querra siempre


tina Ponce

In the hallways of death and the
silent rooms holding their last breaths, you always seemed out of place. Like a 12 year old in an R rated movie. I couldn't see you were at the end, you were always strong and desperately brave. Now I try to be closer to you but theres no way in....I am an outsider without a key. The excitement in your childrens' eyes is fading....the thought of spending the weekends with you and giving them the freedom, love and joy they always received is gone and under six feet with you. I will never see them twice as confident as they were after an evening with you at Portillos for ribs and movies and Haunted Trails...my sons have lost that "what if"....feeling of maybe sleeping over with your kids, getting a feel of complete freedom and love with you. Mac...I know you will never know but I knew you were sick but I convinced my heart and mind that you would not leave, why? well because I need you..because my wit and jokes are lame without your laugh. I get home on a rough day and i can't call you..I have to swallow my lump that starts in my heart and tries to exit with a scream and a river of tears....i try to keep it in to not scare my boys but like now its impossible....It bubbles out and to no avail.
I don't have much to believe in now, because despite your rebellious nature, you were the most holy person I have met in my entire life.
I love you Macario Alejandro Ponce, or Mac to those who love you and feel the sun shining and the heat their faces but it doesn't reach their hearts

Macario, I was one of the "many" blessed people that had the opportunity to meet you, but to actually know you I have to thank my best friend your sister Rosemarie (Nena). It seems like yesterday when I remember your sister getting that horrible news at work of your illness, that scream she let out. I tried to comfort her as best as I could and tell her everything will be alright and to have faith. Unbelivable that 2yrs later have past and your now your gone!! she really has taken your loss very hard but I also admire the strenght and determination she has to push forward but Im sure she is able to do it because even though you are no longer here in body your spirit is very present in her life. I want you to know that you will truly never be forgotten by the many friends and especially your family and your beautiful children.

To the Ponce Family may God continue to Bless you all and comfort you through this difficult time....and to My Best Friend "Rose" I love and care for you very much and know in your heart that I will always be here for you...

Its three months now since you have been gone.
I still wait to hear you come in my house and ask, "hey nena, did you make any sopa?"...I have been keeping busy but those quiet moments in between are taken over by sorrow. Life was too short for you Maca, I don't understand why?
I love you dear brother of mine...may your soul forever be in peace and may some of that peace be sprinkled on all of us who are infinitely broken without you.
Nena

MI querido hijo: Te busco cada minuto del dia en cuanto pongo mi pie en el piso en las mananas lo unico que viene a mi mente es Mac subo a buscarte platico contigo me encuentro muy sola sin tu carino no sabes la falta que me haces chiquito mio no puedo dormir y cuando lo hago no te veo en mis suenos te extrano te necesito heres una parte de mi cuerpo y de mi corazon quiciera verte oirte sentirte una vez mas cerquita de mi y te aseguro que seria la mama mas feliz del mundo pero solo me queda vivir con tu recuerdo hijo asta el dia que espero sea pronto nos volvamos a reunir para ya no separarnos mas te quiero muchisimo hijo te extrano te necesito no hay ni habra otro hijo como tu ven hijo y buscame te lo ruego no me dejes morir de tristeza con tu ausencia te quiero mucho tu madre que te bendice donde quiera que estes .

tina Ponce.

THERE 's little joy in life for me,
And little terror in the grave ;
I 've lived the parting hour to see
Of one I would have died to save.

Calmly to watch the failing breath,
Wishing each sigh might be the last ;
Longing to see the shade of death
O'er those belovèd features cast.

The cloud, the stillness that must part
The darling of my life from me ;
And then to thank God from my heart,
To thank Him well and fervently ;

Although I knew that we had lost
The hope and glory of our life ;
And now, benighted, tempest-tossed,
Must bear alone the weary strife.

Maca...now your name is on a page of a website and that is the only way to talk to you...maca...i am lost..i don't know what to do...even if the sun shines i feel purposeless...I miss u soo much, my world is incomplete without u brother of mine....i spend the days thinking of the parties u took me to in my rebellious years and the non judgemental person u always were with me..what do i do now???half of my heart is gone brother without u..I love my family and i love my children and your children but i can't seem to make it without u brother....u are my sanity...what do i do???please i hope u are in heaven and out of the severe pain i know u were in....i wish could have asked u more or hugged you when i was there when u were travelling to another place and time...u don't know how many times i think about why i did not hug u as u were passing brother...i feel lost. I miss your conversations with me...I miss your sad smiles....I wish u the most blessings ever my brother, may u be in the company of God himself and take him everywhere u wanted to go!!!! God Bless you always my brother....I will always have u in my sad heart and mind and although the thought of going on is dreary without u, brother...i do it for my children and my pancho that u soo loved....my u be in a painless place where there is only happiness and love....everlasting non hurting love....always, nena.

I knew Macario in school and he was one of the funniest boy in school.
I will always remember him this way, because in my heart he is still that boy that love to have fun.
Macario because of the way you where, I know that god will always have you in his kingdom.
Until we meet aging my friend.
My thought and prayers goes out to macario family