Edward Kernbauer Obituary

I think of you often Ed. I miss our conversations. I wish you knew the type of imprint you left on me. Oh yeah, and I still eat my sausages with sour kraut.

Watched the sun rise this morning. Beautiful- like you.
Happy 34th Birthday Eddie. I love you so very much & I miss you always

xoxoxo...
mom

Missing you on Christmas Eddie. Missing you always

XOXOXO...

Sometimes I feel like I'm drowning in a river of tears. I will never stop missing you Eddie. I love you deeply and forever. You are always on my mind and in my heart

xo
love,
mom

With love...always in my heart...
Aunt Di

December 16, 2014

To My Dearest Friend,

I mourned you yesterday. It was the first time I cried in over 5 years. Although I've been away for over a decade and you've been gone for 7 years already, I lost a dear friend yesterday and my heart sank. The news was broken to me second hand as if I was a stranger, a bystander, or simply an audience to your story. I told my daughter about you this morning as I made her breakfast before school. I told her about the late night sleepovers, and the stupid stunts like trying to ride a big wheel down the elephant slide in your driveway, capturing your cat with a laundry basket and Nerf guns or attacking your mom with stuffed animals from your sister's room. You remind me of a time when life was so simple; just live and be happy. This will forever be my memory of you, and I will carry it with me forever. I promise to spread our storied to keep the memories fresh and close to the heart where they belong.

I searched for you on social media sites about a year ago, driven by a spontaneous urge to reconnect that quickly passed when I saw no trace of you online. I wish I would have searched sooner, or most importantly never have parted in the first place. I bear the weight of failure on my shoulders; failure to act, to reconnect, I have failed as a friend. We have so much to catch up on, and instead of a friendly phone call from a shadow of your past, I now write this note with the intentions to bring solace to your mother, your sister and any other loved ones who read this as they visit your obituary.

I lost my way in high school and we took separate paths, my path led me to my sweetheart, now my wife and our 4 beautiful kids. My regret is not my path, but that I made the choice to not keep in touch, I chose to be selfish and focus on only the paths of the few closest to me. I'm left grasping at “what ifs”. What if I didn't stray away from the group, if Id only just reached out once? I was blind to what really matters in life: friends and family. I have forever lost a friend, and I now mourn you along with all the others who crossed your path in life.

To my dearest friend, you have my deepest apologies for my ignorance and absence during your time of need. I bear this weight, partially lifted only by the memories of time we spent together. You will forever be in my thoughts,

Sincerely,
Daniel J. Goelz

Missing you this Christmas, missing you so very much every day.
I love you always, my Eddie, forever

My God- how I miss you Eddie- there are no words. So blessed to be your mom. I am so very sad & sorry that you are not here with me
I wait for the day I can see you again & touch your face & hear that laugh & hug you ever so tightly.

Happy Birthday in Heaven.
"I love you forever, my baby you'll always be…"

love always,
mom

Eddie, you are always in our hearts, an angel in our midst. Thinking of you especially on your birthday.
XO Aunt Di

Happy Easter Eddie!
I live on hope

love always
Mom

I have been going through a really hard time lately and every night I talk to you. I hope you can hear me and I really hope I have you looking over my shoulder watching over me. I miss my Superman so much and I wish you were here with us. Love you!

Merry Christmas Eddie. I miss you today ~ I miss you everyday. You are in my heart forever, and I love you so very much. You are my beautiful son

xoxo
mom

Six years…? Life goes on - all around me- but not one hour of one day goes by that I don't think of you Eddie. I miss you with all of my heart. I love you forever and wait for the day that I can see you and hug you again. I could not have asked for a better son. You and Lanie were and are the greatest gift ever, the best part of me and of my life

xoxoxo
love always,
Mom

We gathered for our "Thanksgiving" last week. We took a moment and raised our glasses to you. Because even after all this time we are all still thankful for the time we had with you.

Happy 30th Birthday Eddie !
Love Chris

Happy Birthday my dear Eddie
I love you beyond words. I miss you every day, every minute.

xoxox…

Mom

Ode to those cereal box gifts :)
xoxoxo

forever….always...

all my love

"you're in the arms of an angel, may you find some comfort there"

JB<3

Happy Easter my Eddie!

I love you so much, always,
mom

I miss you so very much, more than yesterday…. xoxoxo

bright and early for the daily races...
going nowhere, going nowhere...

I miss you more with every passing year Eddie
Merry Christmas my son

I love you, always, forever,
mom
xoxoxo

EK...thinking of you today and every day.
UB

No matter how many years pass, I will Never stop missing you Eddie.
No matter how many tears I cry, there will always be more.
A certain sadness will alway lurk, it will follow me throughout my life.

But I really do try to laugh Every day, just as I promised you, just as you would have wanted.
And one day we will laugh together again

I carry you with me forever. My son. I pray you have found peace, and I hope that heaven is pure joy for you

I love you so much,
mom

Always in our hearts.
Aunt Di

You are missed and loved by your family and friends,
Love Chris

Another year and as I'm driving to work the sun reflects off the Superman necklace that hangs in my car. The daily reminder of the joy and love your friendship brought me is what I need to get through the hard days. You will always be in my heart. Miss you.

I thank God for blessing me with such a wonderful son.
I miss you so, today and always
Happy Thanksgiving in heaven

I love you Eddie, always & forever
mom

may you stay forever young

Love that smile...

My birthday was a few weeks ago and as I was celebrating with friends and family my thoughts turned to u and my 20th birthday party. I was so happy that u came to celebrate with me, it was the best gift that year. That was five years ago and I wish every year u were here to celebrate with me.

I miss you everyday Eddie. Everyday

I love you,
mom

can you hear him cry?
tears of an angel…

Don't let go

Stand by me

still my guitar gently weeps

Happy Birthday Ed

happy birthday to you

Happy Birthday, dear Eddie

Your fifth birthday in heaven…how can this be??
I will Never stop missing you, not so long as I breathe.
I hope you have found peace, my beautiful son.
And I hope that one day I will see you again, and I will get to hold you, and I will hug you ever so tightly, with all my love

I love you so, so much… as I did even before you were born, and as I always will ~ forever

mom
xoxoxo….

Heaven has a new angel today. Do me a favor if u run into my gma up there give her a big Ed hug for me. Could really use one of those right now. Missing my Superman.

Thinking about you often... I hope you have found complete joy and happiness. I miss you, my friend. I cannot tell you how many times I think I see you on the street and I will stare at complete strangers just trying to convince myself that it can't really be you. I'm sorry I don't write to you more often but just know you are never forgotten in my heart.

I hope you can hear me

big blue eyes

Happy Easter Eddie

I love you always,
mom

I am lonely without you

I love you, Ed. I think of you all of the time...I miss you with every breath I take

Just wanted to say I was thinking about you. I miss you, your beautiful smile, and that special "Ed laugh" we loved so much. :)

A close friend of mine lost a friend a few weeks ago and she had never gone thru that before. We talked for hours about you and her friend. I cried because I miss you so much. I told her how I call you my Superman and she said her friend always said he was Batman. I told her how no matter what our superheros are always protecting us. You are always and forever in my heart Ed.

another year over
a new one just begun

Merry Christmas, my Eddie

Love always,
mom
xoxoxo...

Ive written messages on here so many times and I sit back and read what others have written and in my heart I hope you know how many lives you made happier and how many smiles, laughs and hugs you influenced. People say it gets easier with time but it doesn't. I miss you! We all miss you! Not a day goes by that something doesn't remind me of my Superman.

Miss you Ed...
UB & Family

Missing You, Loving You, Always In Our Hearts.

They say time heals all wounds. I'm not so sure….
Maybe it's the 'all' that's wrong. Or maybe time can be a lifetime. The truth is, certain sorrows never fade

"Always remember that not a second of any minute of any hour of any day passes when I am not aware of the presence of your absence"

My heart is so heavy. I miss you and I love you, dear Eddie.

someday I will see you again

love,
mom

Always in our hearts

and it's another holiday without you :(
They will never be the same- that is for certain~ that empty space in my heart, that empty place at the table... But know I am forever grateful for the 24 1/2 years I had you, dear Eddie. Such a blessing

Happy Thanksgiving in heaven, my son. I miss you so

love always & forever,
mom

PS Hope I get 'thumbs up' at dinner

The last chapter does not rewrite the story

Thinking of past Halloweens…some really, really great memories…laughter & fun. Some Excellent costumes! And the pumpkin seeds!
God I miss those days, the days when you were here. How I miss you- all the time Eddie. Everyday.
I still have the same window decorations. Wonder if Mike still has the 'terrifying' scarecrows…? They were always a hoot for us

love always

I miss you too, with all my heart, each and every day, and I will until that day when we are together again

I love you so very much Eddie,
mom
xoxoxoox….

Miss you crazy!!!

I've heard there was a secret chord

my God, my God...

Calling all angels ~
I need you near to the ground...

I miss YOU

'I don't live here anymore.
Since you've gone, I never know…
I go on, but I miss you so…

You've been away too long…my heart is aching for you…'

xoxo

as keeping with tradition happy birthday a day late! miss ya. dv

UB- always fun, always fUn-E…I know you agree, Eddie…good, Good times, lots of laughs and love and happiness

Happy Birthday, Eddie
You are missed and loved by many,
Love Chris

Happy Birthday EK. We all miss you and love you dearly.

UB

PS...the Sox need your help. Thanks.

Happy Birthday, Eddie!
We have so many good memories! We miss you terribly but we love you and hold you in our hearts! We'll meet again someday...
You are our angel!
Love,
Di, Stas & Matt

Happy 28th Birthday, dear Eddie!

How can this be your 4th birthday in heaven…?
It seems so very long since I've seen you, hugged you, yet at times it feels like I just lost you. Time passes, it's funny that way, all so relative

Not a day goes by that I don't miss you, not even A Moment. You are always on my mind and forever in my heart
I love you so very much. I miss you my son, my Eddie

xoxoxo….
mom

Remember the penguin?

:)

Happy Easter, Eddie.
Was just thinking about the brownish-gray ('pretty ugly'!) egg you used color every year- an Easter tradition!

I love you so much, I miss you so much
See you later son,
mom
xoxoxoxo…...

And so I have to say….I just want you to know….

xoxoxoxo

hey, hi

I do not know how to 'live" without you, Eddie…can you help me…? Can our God help me?

"All things shall perish from under the sun; music alone shall live, music alone shall live, music alone shall live…never to die…."

Happy Valentine's Day! You'll always be in my heart, my Eddie

I love you so very much- more than life itself

I bide my time

what a storm!

I did my best, it wasn't much
I couldn't feel, so I tried to touch
I've told the truth,
I didn't come to fool you
And even though it all went wrong
I'll stand before the Lord of Song
With nothing on my tongue but Hallelujah

still, I wish I had a river I could skate away on

another year over...
and a New One just begun...

Merry Christmas, precious Eddie. One day we'll be together again- at Christmas and forever.
I miss you so very much, I love you always,
mom
xoxoxo….

"Like snowflakes, my Christmas memories gather and dance - each beautiful, unique and too soon gone."

would be awesome if you could write back. why not put that in the suggestion box, ed?
(whatcha think, God??)

Though life seems as constant as the moon and the stars, and sunshine seems but a day away, I now reside in a sadder place.
It is a world filled with memories, and one filled with reminders of what will never be: a world, a lifetime, without my Eddie

xoxoxo

"…but only in my dreams…"

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, SCREAMing out loud