Tony Koniewicz Obituary

Still a rough time of the year for me I miss him so much please keep Tony in your heart, mind and memories send prayers God bless thank you.

It still feels like yesterday, the autumn smell of leaves and you there by my side. I know that you are still by my side every single moment of every single day but that doesnt mean that I still dont miss your actual presence. You have protected me and guided me along this long and sometimes rocky journey. I pray that you will continue to give me the strength to make it through every single waking day. I love you like I did the day you left this earth almost 7 years ago, and not a day goes by that I dont replay our last moments in my head. I will miss you forever!!

It's all still so fresh - the memories of you and the pain from losing you. I miss you dearly - god has blessed me with my Tony to fill the void that you left - he won't ever replace you but he will bring joy to those that knew you.

miss you brother!

Tuggie, wow, it has been such a long time since I read your guestbook it brought back so many emotions. I'm at work reading the entries and trying to hold back the tears, ppl probably think im crazy. I miss you, Im happy that I have many memories of you, I remember you telling me the story about U.G.L.Y.,,,,LOL...I told Maria about that and we do that sometimes, well I will keep you in my prayers like i always have.

MY GOSH..WHERE TO BEGIN...ITS BEEN 5 1/2 YRS SINCE U HAVE BEEN GONE AND SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED IN MY LIFE...SOME GOOD ..SOME BAD...SOME JUST SO HARD THAT I DIDNT THINK I COULD FACE ANOTHER DAY ALONE...BUT THROUGH THESE YEARS I HAVE ALSO LEARNED THAT GOD HAS A PURPOSE FOR EVERYONE..WE MAY NOT KNO WAT THAT PURPOSE IS..OR Y HE CHOOSES TO TAKE THOSE WE CARE FOR OUT OF R LIVES..AS I LOOKED BACK AT MY JOURNEY FROM THE FIRST DAY I WROTE IN THIS GUESTBOOK TIL NOW...I STILL CANT HELP BUT CRY AND FEEL THE SAME PAIN I FELT THE DAY U LEFT MY LIFE...U R STILL A HUGE PART OF ME..AND EVEN THO I KNO I WILL NEVER C U WALK THRU THE DOOR...I KNO THAT U R WATCHING OVER ME...SO MANY THINGS IN TECHNOLOGY HAVE EVEN CHANGED IN THE 5 YEARS THAT U HAV BEEN GONE..I NEVER WAS ABLE TO GET A TEXT MESSAGE FRM U..OR SEND U A MYSPACE COMMENT ...AND THAT JUS GOES TO SHOW THAT LIFE DOESNT STOP..IT JUS KEEPS GOIN AND GOIN...U STILL HOLD A HUGE PLACE IN MY HEART...AND I DONT THINK THAT THAT SPACE WILL EVER GO AWAY...I LOVE TUGGIE DEARLY STILL TO THIS DAY...AND I PRAY THAT U CONTINUE TO WATCH OVER ME UNTIL MY DYING DAY...

[your always on my mind]

Never forgotten, forever in our hearts

Hope your having a heavenly birthday bash!

This world is such a hard place to be in.So full of heartache and pain.God knows the pain of losing someone you love never will heal although it might be easier to deal with it will always be in your heart.You will never stop missing them. And i know Tuggie will forever be missed.His smile will forever be in our hearts.

I still can't believe your not with us. I still don't understand why God picked you to be with him. We shared so much yet there was so much more I wanted for you. I am greatful for the gift God has given me, a son named Tony. While he can't fill your shoe's. He is alot like you. My little angle has brought alot of joy for everyone. There is not a day that goes by and I don't think of you.



It seems like yesterday that we were having dinner. I can't forget everything we shared.



I love an miss you!!!

As time goes by it still feels as if it were yesterday planning that special sumthing 2 do for ur birthday, even though years have passed i have never 4gotten the joy that u once brought in2 my life. Back then it was as if our lives were paved rite there for the both of us. I have 2 admit i have encountered many bumpy roads in the past 3 and a half years but sum how or another i manage to make it through. I wish you a very Happy 24th Birthday and i know in my heart we will always share that special bond. I love you sweety as much as i did when ur presence was rite in front of me!!!!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO!!!

Dear Tony,

I just wanted to let you know that you are always in our thoughts, and in our hearts. Your birthday is soon, and once again we plan on spending it together, and somewhere with water. We know how much you loved water. We miss you lots. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo, your siblings.

Nothing can ever take away

The love a heart holds dear

Fond memories linger everyday

Rememberance keeps Tuggie near...

My Family and I will never FORGET!

TONY JUST WONT TO SAY WE LOVE YOU AND CAN"T STOP THINKING ABOUT ALL THE TIMES WE HAD! YOU WERE THE BEST! THIS IS YOUR MONTH I HOPE ALL WHO LOVED YOU WILL STILL REMEMBER!

hey tug, we just wanted to let u know that you will always be remembered and forever in our hearts.

love u!!!!!!!!

Dear Tony,

If tears could build a rainbow, and memories a lane, I'd walk right up to heaven and bring you home again.

I miss you. Mom

Okay you know that I had to come on here to wish you a Happy Thanksgiving! I remember you and Chach always making your rounds to eat at everyone's house! WE MISS YOU!!

Missing you ALWAYS and FOREVER!!! Glad that your family loved the decorations... Hope you liked it as much as they did... I'm excited about the tree your mom was telling me about... It's gonna be fun!! Never forgotten forever in our hearts and to us you still excist!! See you soon!!

Hey you

It has been 3 years since I last saw you rollerblading on race or tweekin in your system. I remember as if it was yesterday your smiles and laughter. How bout when we all went out for Valentines and went to go have dinner that was so much fun. Hey did you see G's baby and how big he's getting. Did you see him trying to walk? He's so lazy took one step and then gave up. Well I cant see you today but I will be there this weekend. I went to put a candle for you by Leavitt but It's gone now. I will be there later go put another one. Hope you are looking after your loved ones.

Always in our hearts... Tony.

Hey you,

It seems like yesterday we saw you tweekin on your system or rollerblading outside. It's been 3 years now and it seems like just yesterday I saw you smiling and laughing. Or in the mornings yelling bout something. And Valentines Day when we were all together at the dinner table that was so much fun. G's baby is so big now did you see him trying to walk... he's so lazy. Well I know I can't see you @ d cementary today but we will be there this weekend. I havn't seen your mom and I hope that you are taking good care of her and watching over your loved ones.

4 ever in our hearts....

Can't believe that 3 years has passed me... You are always in my thoughts... I hope that you and the rest of the angels are resting well... Stay close... One day CLOSER!!! Lots Of Love and Peace to your family who miss you the MOST!!

Hi Tuggie,

Weird how things happen huh? I was just thinkin bout you and I can't believe how time has gone by. I can't believe that it will soon be 3 yrs since you've become an angel. You will always be in our hearts. 4 ever missed never forgotten..

R.I.P Tuggie

THINKING ABOUT YOU!! CAN'T BELIEVE THAT IT'S BEEN SOOO LONG SINCE WE SEEN YOUR FACE... REMEMBER THAT DAY AS IF IT WAS YESTERDAY!! jUST KNOW THAT YOU ARE MISSED AND I'M ONE DAY CLOSER!! LOVE YOU TOO MUCH!!!

What's up Tuggie? I never knew you had a page on here, but now that I know I will visit it more often. I just wanted to tell you I really do miss you alot. You were sooooooo cool with me. Everytime I would drive through I would hear you yell "Lisa Lee" and now everyone calls me Lisa Lee. Compliments of Tuggie. Well Tug, I just wanted to drop a few lines to let you know I think about you often and you are truly missed. Forever in my heart. Love you much, Lee

hi you as you know today is a very hard day for me just wanted to stop in and tell you that I miss you and you have not been forgotten!!!!!

It's been seven, since SHAUNA went

To heaven. (7~22~97)

I miss you guys SO much...

OMG!! Such an emotional day!! I wish that we can all be together... Everything just seems SO wrong... I look at my life like a puzzle, there are just SO many missing pieces...

You are missed, one that will NEVER be forgotten...

Hey you what's up hope you guys are up there doing alot better than we are down here. The 4th is here and I can just remember the last one we all had together. Of course we were all at smith and it was so much fun. what will this year be like I don't even want to think about it. I know that If I didn't have (as you would of called him)lil taco I would be at home but for him I need to do something. Well Until next time and happy 4th of July

When I see the GrEEn fireworks I will think of you!! When I think of green I think of you and my brother... Love & miss you ALOT... Give my Sissi Poo a BIG HUG for me... I miss her ALOT too...

Hi Sweety,

I hope that you had a very happy birthday... Thought ALOT about you this weekend... Try to imagine how different everything would of and could of been... You are missed a whole LOT...

HAPPY B-DAY TO U

HAPPY B-DAY TO U

HAPPY B-DAY DEAR TUGGIE

HAPPY B-DAY TO U!!!!



WE hope that you have a great b-day we know that all of our friends that are now with you and have become angels just like you are there making it a blast. Let everyone know we love them and miss them. we love you and have a great b-day. Happy B-day!!!!

THINKING ABOUT YOU... HOPE YOU AND MY SISSI POO STAY TOGETHER SO IT WON'T BE HARD TO FIND YOU...

hey you I'm back



Well i've thinking alot about you lately. How are you ? So I saw your mom the other day by your sisters house and she wasn't kidding she really is holding up the "spot" for you. I love her so much. Well I couldn't write alot yesterday cuz I was at work but I just wanted to stop and say hi. Hey if you see andy tell him I said high and jess and shaun and shauna. I will never forget you guys in my heart you will never be forgotten. I keep of picture of you in my phone and Chach does to. I know he misses you alot to you were like a brother to him and I am sorry that we havn't gone to see you but it has been really hard lately. I know you saw us cuz you were there with us when we did go see you. It was pretty cool to go there and just bump into one of your sisters or Tommy. I know we havn't been to the cemetary but I want you to know that even though we havn't gone to see you doesn't mean that we have forgotten about you. that is impossible to do and so know that you will always be in our hearts and in our minds. Miss you xoxox

Hey you as you now today will make 2 moths since to of our friends passed away. I feel so much pain and I don't know how to deal with this. I miss you all so much. THis has been the hardest thing for me to deal with. Well I wish I could chat longer but know I can't but I will be back

Hey you

it's been a couple of days since we've wrotten in here but I just wanted to let you know that we miss you and hope you are doing good. In our hearts you will never be forgotten. Tell everyone we said HOLA!! You know we say your mom and like I said before I love to see her. She is such a wonderful person. Your sister is moving back to where ou used to live before on OHio and so yesterday as we were walking home I saw your mom so she said that she was holding the spot down for you and we started laughing. She was remembering how you used to leave your dog and the fron tied up and said you will be right back and you would leave for hours HAHAHA. Poor Dog sitting there waiting for you. Well just thinking about you I know Chachi really misses you and with everuthing that has been going on we can only think of you and everyone who is no longer here with us. Your mom really misses you to but I guess it will be nice to her around when I go walking down Ohio to watch her hold your spot down. We love you and will always have you in our hearts.

There is this poem that I always loved since I was a little girl that I wanted to share with you. Now that I have lost so many people that I truly love in my life It makes so much sense. I know that when I feel real down I pray to God and all the angels that we have with him to help us all get through this.

“FOOTPRINTS”

One night a man had a dream that he was walking along the beach with the LORD.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand; one belonging to him, the other to the LORD. When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints, and that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life…

This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it.

“LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you’d walk with me all the way. But during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don’t understand why when I needed you most you would leave me.”

The LORD replied, “My precious, precious child. I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you.”



I know all of our angels up there will be the ones helping the LORD carry us through our struggles. I Love and miss you all!:)xoxoxoxo

Hi Tugger

I know that I haven't had the guts to come and drop in but it has been really hard to accept that you're gone. I guess i need everyone I can right now to talk to. I know my boyfriend is still hurting inside because all of this. I have to tell you that your wake was the last one I went to and now we have Andy's right around the corner. So now I have 5 friends up there with god that I truly love and every day seems to get harder and harder. You will never be forgotten. We still love you very much and miss you very much. I know that your in a better place now playing your video games and eating your sisters meatloaf. I still see your mom around and you can still see it in her eyes that she hurts whenever she sees any of us from the neighborhood but she is doing very good. I love seeing her cuz we stop and talk and get to catch up always giving me her advice and I love her very much. I still see Tommy and Laurie and your nieces and nephews and they a re growing up to be very smart kids. Even Victoria is in dance classes and has recitals. Tommy says she loves to dance and she is good at that. I can just picture Tommy chasing around the boys when she gets older. something you would of being doing also if you were here. Well i gotta go now and l love you. Remember us down here and help guide us. I always said that you were my boyfriends angel I know he loved you like a brother so angel of his please watch over him and and guide him through the right path of life. We love you and missyou. IN OUR HEARTS YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN.

Hey Tuggie its been quite some time since the last time i wrote but you are still on my mind and it still hurts i am missing so many people and you are one of them. you have been on my mind alot these past couple of weeks and i try to be okay with everything that is going on but it is hard and i just wanted to let you know how much you are loved and are missed. well much love to you...oxoxoxooxo

Hey Tug,

Man this world is just full of superises... As you can see... I just want to let you know that you haven't been and NEVER will be forgotten... Shauna, Jessica, Shawn, and yourself are angels now and we want and need you guys to watch over us... I love you, I miss you and I'll see you soon...

ChaCha

hey was up fool, just want you to know i still think about your goofy self everyday and i will always look out after for you know who... the whole neighborhood misses ur' smile and crazy antics, your one of a kind tug. forever in my heart my friend you are, see you soon o.k

Hey tug alot has happened in the last week and there are 2 more angel's in heaven to keep you company may god bless you all!!!You will never be forgotten we love you all.

You will never be forgotten.

Happy Valentine's Day!! Forever in my thoughts.

God bless Tuggie!And his family and friend's as i'm sure it is still so painful for everyone.Tuggie will never be forgotten.

I'M STILL MISSING U & I'LL LOVE U ALWAYS!!!!XOXOXOXO

Just writting to say WE LOVE YOU:):)

HEY HOMIE...WHAT UP SONNY? JUST WANTED TO SAY WHAT UP AND I'M STILL MISSING YOU. BUT YOUR IN MY HEART 4EVER!!! ONE

One year ago was the horrific tragedy that took you from us. It’s been a constant wound ever since. Our hearts hurt.



I wish Jenna had gotten to know you. She’s grown so much and obtained quite a personality (very playful and a prankster). She is such a “Koniewicz”. She would have loved you.



We miss you terribly and think of you always. There is nothing we wouldn’t do or give to have you here.



We love you.



Forever in our heart,

Tug, So much to say, so much was left unsaid. I just hope you knew how special you were to so many people.



You were so much to so many people.



Until we meet again, Tammy

Hey Tugger,

We just spent a week in a house on the water. The kids had a great time swimming everyday, morning, noon, and night, and I know if you were still with us you would have been there too. Swimming right with them and Christmas. She had a great time and she brings Scott lots of joy, he finally got his "real" dog, thanks to you. We miss you terribly and think about you always. We love you and our lives will never be the same without you. XOXOXO

Tuggie we miss you so much, Lil Tommy always brings you up, He misses you. We all do it is hard with out you here. The other he asked to see a picture of you.You will always be with us. You will be in our hearts on 8-31-02.

WE LOVE YOU!!

STILL MISSING YOU!!!!!

Hi Tony:



It's been quite a while since we've dropped you a line. Just wanted you to know we love you and think of you often (of course you already know that).



Dean and Joanne

ALWAY'S IN OUR THOUGHT'S AND FOREVER IN OUR HEART'S!!!TUGGIE WILL NEVER ME FORGOTTEN.

I hate every month when it's another reminder to how long TUggie has been away from me. I never thought that I could miss someone so much. My days are so lonely without Tuggie. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about something that we did or something that he said to me. It's hard everyday without being able to call him I was so used to calling him a trillion times a day, even on the 22nd. All that I try and do is convince myself that he is in a better place than you and I and that he doesn't have to face another painful day here in hell, which we refer to as earth. I can't wait until I can meet him again beyond the golden gates of heaven and hold him so tight and vow never to let him go. I miss you sweety. Until we meet again!!!!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOO

All I can begin to say is that I Miss my baby so much. I hate the fact that I have to start a new year without him. For the past three years he was the one I kissed first at midnight and now everything is so messed up. My baby had so much more life ahead of him. WHy did God have to take him now instead of in 100 years from now. I guess I will never understand. There were so many things in TUggie's life that were left undone. Life for him and I was just getting started, at least that's what I thought, including on October 22. All I ask is that God show me the way and that my baby guides me in all of the right directions. I know now that Tuggie is with me every day of my life through all the tough times and will continue to be by my side up until the very end. Happy New Year baby!!! I Love you and I miss you!!!!!!!!! xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

As I think of all what Tugger and I shared. There were so many things left undone. I keep searching for answers. I ask that God allow me repent for my brothers sins and allow him to continue his jounrey into heaven.



By little brother, so young, so loved, so full of life and yet someone took that all away. My days have not been the same, since Tugger life this earth. I keep thinking this is all a bad dream and I may wake up and the pain, sorrow and tears would all go away. I have not awaken yet, the pain is still so strong, my heart is stilled filled with sorrow and tears still fall from my eyes.



Somedays are better then others. I find comfort in knowing we will be together again. My life will never be the same. Nothing can fill the void that was created once Tugger was taken from this earth.



Walk, Sleep, Tugger I am ever with you.

A brief moment of darkness
was all that i knew,
Before Heaven's Gate
came to my view.

Loved ones and friends
T had missed for many years,
Welcomed me with open arms
and many happy tears.

All the hurt,fear and pain
that i ever known,
is gone from my life,
I am finally home.

I gazed upon the lord's
sweet smiling face,
and for the first time in my life
I knew and felt the grace.

I know that you miss me,
but please dry your eye's
I will always be watching and
loveing you frome my home in the sky.
A cool breeze on your face,
a touch of light rain,
I will send as a reminder
that we will be reunited agian.

Life on earth is but one
brief moment in time
I am finally home,
Eternity is mine.

tuggie until we weet agian i will always love and remember you in mind and hart. Chris Staples

It's been eight weeks since Tuggie left me here on this earth all alone. I miss him more and more everyday. I'd give anything to get my baby back. THere is not one split second in my day that I am not thinking about him. It is as if everything I do we either did together or talked about doing together. THere are so many things that I miss so much. I haven't gone to Blockbuster since my baby was here and I probably never will be so caught up with all of the movies that come out. Those were the things that we did together. I never would've imagined that my whole life could be completly turned upside down without the presence of Tuggie. At times it is just so hard to go forward. I wish he were here to tell my day to or to tell that I got an A on my finals. I remember each time I got my test results back I would say,"Guess what I got on my test?" and he would say,"An A" and I would say,"How did you know?" I just miss everything about him. My list goes on and on. I just don't understand why GOd took the most precious thing in my life away from me. I would've done anything for TUggie. I hurts so much everyday to know that I will never again hear his voice or hold him ever again. WHy is life so cruel???? Until we meet again my Love, I LOVE YOU!!!!XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Weep for me not,My family dear,I am not dead,But sleeping here,As i am now,You shall be,So be prepared to follow me.Short was my life,Long is my rest,TO TAKE ME HOME,GOD THOUGHT IT BEST ...I AM AN ANGEL AS YOU WILL SEE,SO LOOK TO THE SKY AND REMEMBER ME!!!

tuggie,Each day that goes by i still wish things could be so different for me.There are day's I'm hopping that i just wake-up and everything will be the same when you were here with us.I feel so wrong,when i laugh,or when i'm enjoying my self.I wish i could just change things,and make everything normal again.I do anything,just to see you laugh or even yell at me or at my kids again.Sometimes i feel so sick to my stomach,i wish our family were just a little closer,but were not.tony please understand some of the things i say or do i don't mean to to be so mean,but that is how you always remembered me.And i don't know any other way!!!UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN MY BABYBOTHER I LOVE YOU ALWAYS AND I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU !!! YOUR SISTER***

when tomorrw starts without me, and i'm not there to see;

if the sun should rise and find your eyes all filled with tears for me;

i wish so much you wouldn't cry

the way you did today,

while thinking of the many things,

we didn't get to say.



i know how much you love me,

as much as i love you,

and each time that you think of me,

i know you'll miss me too;

but when tomorrow starts without me,

please try to understand,

that an angel came and

called my name,

and took me by the hand,

and said my plsce was ready,

in heaven far above,

and that i'd have to leave behind

all those i dearly love.



but as i turned to walk away,

a tear fell from my eye,

for all my life i'd always thought,

i didn't want to die.

i had so much to live for,

so much yet to do,

it seemed almost impossible,

that i was leaving you.



i thought of all the yesterday,

the good ones and the bad,

i thought of all the love we shared,

and all the fun we had.



if i could relive yesterday,

just even for a while,

i'd say goodbye and kiss you

and maybe see you smile.

but then i fully realized,

that this could never be,

for emptiness and memories,

would take the place of me.



and when i thought of worldly things

i might miss come tomorrow,

i thought of you and when i did ,

my heart was filled with sorrow.



but when i walked through heavens gates,

i felt so much at home.

when god looked down and smiled at me,

from his great golden throne,

he said " this is eternity, and all i've promised you"



today for life on earth is past,

but here it starts anew.

i promise no tomorrow,

but today will always last,

and since each days the same way

there's no longing for the past.



but you have been so faithful,

so trusting and so true.

thought there were times

you did somethings,

you knew you shouldn't do.

but you have been forgiven

and now at last your free.

so won't you take my hand

and share my life with me?



so when tomorrow starts without me,

don't think we're far apart,

for everytime you think of me

i'm right here in your heart.

TOday would have been three years and two months for me and Tuggie. I wish so bad that he was here for us to celebrate. I remember our two month anniversary and how we both dressed up and went to the Mashed Potatoe Club for dinner. Today we would've probably went to the movies or spent the evening at home with take out and a movie. I miss them days when we were together doing what couples did. I just don't understand why GOd had to take him away from me so soon. WHy is life so hard and why does he take those precious people who bring so much joy to everyone around them. I may never understand. Until we meet again my love, Happy Anniversary and I Love You.

IT's been seven weeks since my baby was taken from me and it is just as hard as it was seven weeks ago. I miss Tuggie so much. I hate not being able to hear his voice or hold him tight at night. I just feel so lost without him here. At least seven weeks ago I had a purpose and now I am just a lost soul. I just don't know what to do with myself I miss him more everyday. I try so hard to be okay but I am far from okay. My whole life was changed within minutes and I was so unaware of what was going on. I want Tuggie back so bad and not even in a million years will that be possible. My life will never be the same without him. At one point I at least had an outlook of my future and now it is just a blur that excludes the most precious thing I ever had in my life, Tuggie.I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!XOXOXOXOXOXO

It's been a little over a month,sence my baby bother left us.I hate everything about it!!!Sometimes i think that he'll just come through the door and say hi!.I feel sick to my stomach everytime someone brings his name up.The holidays will never be the same for me.It's hard for my children to understand what i'm going threw.Sometimes i wish i could just die and be with him,then i think of my kids and i think different.I miss him so much,i wish i could tell him that.Life s**ks! life is not what you make it!!!!I'T hurts so much.Until we meet again tuggie, your sister

It's been six weeks since Tugie has been gone and the pain is still the same. I still remember six weeks ago today right about now at 9:14p.m. we were rearranging his bedroom and I never would've imagined that he would have never came back home. I miss him so much and my life without him is only getting worse. It is hard to know that we will never grow old together and get married and have children.It is so hard knowing that. I looked forward to watching re-runs on Sunday mornings and watching movies from the 80's as dinner cooked on the stove. These are things that I wanted and now they are only impossible. Not even in a million years will he walk through the door or call me to talk. I will never be able to do all of the things with him that I yearned so badly for. My life will never be the same without him. All it consists of is school and work and no him. I thought we would be together forever and nothing would tear us apart. We both felt that we were meant to be because we dealt with so many obstacles in our relationship. I loved Tony more than Life itself and life is so hard without hearing from him. So until we meet again I LOVE YOU BABY!

XOXOXOXOXO

It still hurts so much, I don't think the pain will ever stop, perhaps with time it will dull- but at this time it hurts a lot. I think if we could all be there for one another it would be somewhat better. But, this is not the case. I'm just glad for the family members and friends that I do have and I thank God for them, even though I keep asking him "why did this have to happen?" Because there is no answer that is acceptable the pain will continue, and the tears will not stop. I miss him so much. I only hope he knows how much he was loved and is loved and that he will never be forgotten. Till we meet again.

It's been five weeks since Tugie left my life and these have been the hardest five weeks that I have has to lead in my whole life. There is not a second that goes by that I am not thinking about him, which is not uncommon because that is all I did when he was here. I loved Tugie more than life itself and if he wasn't okay I wasn't okay. It's definitely been tough going through this. Some days I just don't know where to begin. I believe he is in a better place doing all of the things that he loved to do when he was here. It's just hard to cope knowing that we no longer can do them things together as a couple. So until I see you again, I LOVE YOU SWETTY!!!XOXOXO

Will I ever understand what happen, NO. Will I get over this NO. Things for me will never be the same. I keep telling myself and others "Everything happens for a reason", "God has a bigger plan for Tugger". Do I belive this, sometimes. I just don't know why, God would want so many others to suffer by the loss of another person. Prior to the loss of my Brother on October 22nd, I looked forward to what my future would hold, now I am just existing trying to understand what my life has become.



Yes, Tugger is in a better place but, my place is so much worse without him.



Tugger, I miss you dearly. I am trying to cope with what has been left behind, it not easy. I don't think I will ever understand what happen to you. I have many great memories of you. Thats what gets me through the days.



Tugger, I am so sorry I can not fix this. I keep thinking if I called you on Monday to have dinner, would things be different today?



Good bye for now, but not forever.

Hey Tuggy

It has been a month since you been gone. It still hurts like it was yesturday. I know you want us to be strong and move on. It is really hard to do but we will do it for you because this is what you would have wanted.I promise you I will take care of your brother Tommy and your godchildren Tommy and Victoria. The way you would have taken care of them.Baby Tommy told Me That Uncle Tony is an angel.I will never let my kids forget their favorite uncle tony. The green power ranger as baby Tommy says.I know your resting now and nobody can hurt you anymore and this is what helps us get by. I say a prayer for you every morning befor work as I look at the picture of you and the kids. I see that great smile that everybody is talking about.I hang out with Toniann alot.I try to take care of her and make her laugh and sometimes it actualy works. I am sure you know how hard it is to make her happy.Since your gone it is even harder but I am trying tug! I am going to their for everyone, I promise, Just help me Take care Of Tommy he misses you so much.Well tug I let you get back to your fast food and video games. Love you always lori (I felt like you were my little brother)

Reading through the entries, it's obvious how many people love Tony. It's been so hard to accept his passing away and even harder to understand why it had to happen. One never thinks something like this could ever happen to them. There is a reason for everything. God has his own plan for Tony.



We watched Tony grow from a little boy with big hopes and dreams to a grown man with strength to carry out those hopes and dreams. His presence is all around us throughout our busy days and our restless nights. Sitting here sending our thoughts, a bell just rang ... an angel got his wings.



We miss and love you very much Tony. A kiss and a hug from you would ease all this anger and pain. It’s hard to focus and go on with our lives without seeing or hearing from you. We won't say good-bye, just so long. For Tony will remain with us, until we meet again. His spirit will forever shine on us.



We love you,



Dean, Joanne and Jenna

Life will never be the same.

Tugg,this is Joe (P-nut) I know we didnt talk much but we still knew each other and I will still remember you till its my time to go and I hope then we talk again. I hope your in heaven because you had a heart of a angel and heaven is where angels stay and I hope I make it there with all our friends and family exspecially your best friend CHRIS M. till next time Joe.

It's been one month today since me and Tugie were torn apart.Gosh what a terrible way to bring in the holidays. We would've been together today like every holiday for the past three years. Thanksgiving was my first holiday with the Koniwicz family and now it is my first holiday alone. This is so hard for me even though I know that Tugie is in a much better place than I am. I just wish we were in the same place. I still remember all of our holidays together and every ordinary day, they were always special because we were together and that was all that mattered to me. Life is so unfair. I miss my boyfrien more than anything and the minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, and years are only going to get harder. This morning I woke up to my mom's sourkraut aroma coming straight into my room, and all I could think about was how everytime she made it I had to bring him a bowl to eat when we left to go by his family for their dinner. This year I can't offer it to him and bring him a bowl and a fork for the road. Me and Tugie had so many memories and now that is all I have. Until we meet again my love I Love You and I Miss You so much. XOXOXO

What's up tugg, me nothing except thinking about you. How could any buddy do this to my favorite uncle. The people that did this to you were gealouse of you, because you had a heart of gold. And respected those who you came across. But any ways you are probily up there playing video games and eating my mom's meatlaof. Because you loved my mom's meatloaf. That's what you all way's said to us. And tammy all way's bruoght you fast food and made you dinner. Toniann loved you with all her heart. She was all way's there when you needed her. You and toniann would of made a great family. Well tugg just remember we all love you and you were my heart. Every beat was like a kiss from you. Until next time.

Chris

Tugger,As i walked alone threw the neighborhood,as i did so many times.Iwould see you and we tale a little and you make that smile only you could make.I go on my way feeling so much better seeing you.you were that little playful boy at heart,that your family loved so much.You also knew you were one of the beats of my heart that you always tested in life.!!My baby boy,I LOVE YOU ALWAYS.I still can't believe your gone,your still my baby. I will never forget you MY HEART HURTS SO MUCH TUGGER.!!!! MOM

AS I READ THE ENTRY'S OF TUGGIE'S FAMILY AND TONIANN I CAN'T HELP BUT FEEL SO SAD AND SORRY FOR WHAT YOU GUY'S ARE GOING THROUGH.IT'S A HORRIBLE FEELING THAT I KNOW WILL STAY WITH ALL OF US FOR A LONG TIME.IT'S STILL HARD TO SWALLOW.I STILL PICTURE TUGGIE'S CUTE SMILE AND NICE BLONDE HAIR(WELL WHEN HE HAD IT)AND EVERY TIME I SAW HIM HE WAS WITH TONIANN.I FEEL FOR YOU GIRL BUT BE STRONG AND KEEP THE MEMORIE'S CLOSE TO YOU AND EVERY TIME YOU FEEL THE SADNESS AT IT'S WORST JUST THINK HE'S STILL WITH YOU BECAUSE YOU KNOW HE ALWAY'S WILL BE.YOU WERE HIS #1 AND YOU KNOW THAT!!!I ALWAY'S SAY I'M NOT GONNA READ THESE ENTRY'S ANYMORE BECAUSE THEY ARE VERY UPSETTING BUT EVERYDAY I'M BACK HERE AGAIN.I HOPE EVERYONE IS O.K. TUGGIE WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN ...UNTIL NEXT TIME..GOD BLESS

As the days go by what seems to easy is getting more difficult. I don't know this has happened to my family and most of all MY LITTLE BROTHER! My job as a sister was to take care of him, God I tried. But, he was needed above for a bigger job. Those last few moments that I had with him, all I could think of was to just bring him home and make things all better. Tugger, please understand I tried and I am sorry I couldn't fix this one. God has a bigger job for you.

I have one request for all of my brothers friends and of my family, never forget him, for what he was and what he would of become. Tugger will always be with me, I carry his picture in my heart and wallet.I pray for strength and understanding everyday. I will never understand but, what I do know is MY LIFE will never be the same.



Tug, I know your out there, your my little angel. Until we meet again. Walk sleep, I am ever with you.



I MISS YOU!



Tammy

I'ts been three weeks and i still ask why?! I say to myself if i could have done anything to change that night,would that make things different.Would tuggie still be here with me?!! I just have so many question,and no answers!! Life is so hard and very differnet without tuggie.I wish i could yell at him or just tell him that i love him alot.My life will never be the same,but tuggie will always be alive in my home and in my heart.I say goodbye for now until we met again. LOVE (50)

Man Ping I love you alot. It's funny how the world the works, sometimes you feel on the top of this rock and then reality could hit you directly and crush your heart, the crazy way it did me I can't explain the loss in my heart, my mind, my daily activites that this sh** brought to me. I know that Tugg is telling me to grow up and take it easy, but damn is so unbelievelby imposible to even go on half my day without a word from him. I just got to wait till I could meet him up there to f*** around with him again I guess. Until then Tugg looks over my shoulder unlike any other person. Rest in Peace my friend. My extreme condolences to the Konowiecz family.
"C"

tuggie i always loved you and i always will.you are the beat of my heart. I know your up above with your best friend chris.I hope you receive this leeter pretty soon. Hopefully there serving your favorite chilli hotdogs. Well got to go love you lots and lots.



xoxoxoxoxxooxxooxxoo

WHY?

Sitting, thinking, just wondering Why? Why My boyfriend? Why My life? Why him? Why? Just tell me Why did Tony have to die?

Our time together just was not enough,

Now My world is gone and everything is so rough.

No more goodtimes, No more laughs,

No more smiles, No more naps.

Our time as a couple is now gone,

But My Love for Tony is still so strong.

He was My world, My life, My breath,

Now he is My angel brought to me through death.

No more hugs, No more kisses goodnight,

No more making up after a weekend fight.

My world is turned completely upside down,

No more future plans, No tux, No gown.

Forever young Tony will be in My heart,

He is always with me and now we will never part.

Tony was My companion, My lover, My best friend,

I swore I would stick by him up until the very end.

Tony will always hold a place very dear in My heart,

A place he gained when our relationship was at start.

Why Lord? Why? Can you please tell me Why? Why did we have to have our last kiss goodbye?

UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!XOXOXOXOXO

I truly believe Tugger is an angel and he is up there watching his movies and eating his take-out. I guess I am selfish because I wish he were here instead. LIFE will never be the same without him. I wish I could change things but I cannot. One thing that I learned during this time is that Tugger had a lot of friends. I am sure he is happy knowing this because it brings his family some comfort knowing this. Tugger we will always love you and in our hearts we know we will see you again.

I never met Tugg but I felt I knew him because Tammy had so many funny stories about her dear brother. Tammy my heart goes out to you and your family over the loss of such a sweet and loving brother,son and friend. I know Tugg is in heaven watching over all of you, he is one of God's beautiful angels.

It's been three weeks to the day since Tuggie left my life. This has definitely been the hardest experience I have had to go through in the twenty years that I have spent on this earth. Tuggie was more than a boyfriend to me he was my best friend, my confidant. I always turned to him when I felt I needed a shoulder to lean on. In a time like this I wish I could have his strong arms around me and his encouraging words whispered in my ears. He was my better half and life is tough when you're not whole anymore. I do appreciate the support that I have from everyone surrounding me and I pray that life leads me in all of the right directions. If I find it hard to do my best for me I know that I have to do my best for Tugg. I miss him more than anything in my whole life. I thank him for the strength that keeps me going day to day. So Until We Meet Again. I LOVE YOU!!!!

fall, 2001

"My favorite custy Tugg-nuts". I never in my wildest of nightmares would I of thought something like this would happen to one of us, we kept very close and would laugh at the thought of death occuring to one in our crew. Me and Tugg had a great time that Monday and made jokes about ourselves down the line and future on how we'd be with kids,wives and what not, He loved the rain so much, I would say "I can't stand this rain" and He'd be like "I feel so at peace with the rain" I guess God only found it fitting for him that it was a very rainy day that monday, the way loved it. I can't forget the so many smiles Tuggie brought me, no matter what the situation was he had such a great smile on him and he would convince me to cheer up. His attitude was very adicting and I'd catch myself listening to his advice or comments and He was younger than me!! Amazing the head he had on his shoulders very smart and mature for his age considering his surrondings he chose to be in. God keeps a special place for people like Tuggie. I hope the Lord Jesus puts me in the same place so we unite again. My best friend, threw the bull**** and the great times I love you papa ping. Tugg stays with me all the time, I feel him and I know he cares for all of you also. For all the young folks that may read this and knew Tugg-nutts just keep in mind the positive things he left with us and "Ball till we fall" the good way the way He would of wanted us to. To the rest of the Koniewicz family I love you alot too, Mrs. Koniewicz, Tammy, Tommy, Dawn, Denise. I'm very glad I had a chance to be part of your lives and his. Thank you.

R.I.P "Tuggie"

love

"C"

My deepest condolences go to Tammey and her family. May god bless you.



Anil

We carry Tony ("Tugger") in our hearts, thoughts, and prayers everyday. He was a tremendous part of our life and a beautiful person. He is in a much safer place now where he is embraced and protected by God and His Angels. We love and miss you with every breath, Tugger.

It's been a week since my life has been turned upside down. Tuggie was a huge part of my daily routine. Now all I have are our beautiful memories. I Love his family for being there for me during these tough times and treating me like I was a part of their family. It is going to be rough but I know deep in my heart that Tuggie is watching over me. I Love him so much and I miss his smile. Until we meet again. I LOVE YOU SWEETHEART!!!!

Tony was my world. He was a part of my life for three years. He had a heart of gold. It is wonderful to know that he is my angel and that he is guieding me through this hard time in my life. He will forever be a part of my world. I miss him dearly and I Love him with all of my heart. Until we meet again!!!

This was my youngest borther. He was my world. Besides my brother he was my best friend. He was loved by many people, that was clear by the many, many well wishes me and my family have received during this time. Tugger was a very big part of my life. During this hard time I find comfort in his words "Easy Wheezy". I also know he is in a better place. Tugger, we will miss you.

Tugger we'll miss you very munch!!! I love you and the kids do too.now you can be my watcher***(50).(as you always called me)

ME AND MY FAMILY LOVE AND MISS HIM VARY MUCH AND WE WILL NEVER FORGET Tugger AND I HOPE ALL WILL NEVER FORGET TONY. HE LOVES US ALL.

I am very sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

MY BROTHER ORVILLE AND TUGGER WERE GOOD FRIEND'S AND I KNOW HE WAS A GOOD KID AND LOVED BY MANY.GOD BLESS YOUR FAMILY AND KEEP YOU STRONG DURING YOUR TIME OF PAIN..TUGGER WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN.GOD BLESS

My deepest condolences go to Tuggie's family and friends. I met Tuggie when I was about five when he lived across the alley from me, although we weren't very close, he was a very, very familiar face to not only me, but our neighborhood, and will be missed so much. It's a horrible shame he had to leave the world at such a young age, but hopefully the memories of him will never fade.

Please accept my deepest sympathy during this time of loss in your family.

My hearts pour out to everyone. I know that Tugger held a very special place in all of you alls hearts. I just wanted to send my love to the whole family and let you all know that you all will definately be in my prayers.

my prayers are with the koniewicz family.I,M very sorry for your loss.I only met tony one time,but he seemed like a very nice person.sincerely ray and teena