Joanne Calo Obituary

Hi Mom, I just can´t believe it has been 10 years. I still think of you everyday and those last moments we had together. Love you forever, Andrea

Well Mom, it's almost two years now and your book is coming to an end. I know I haven't written as much this year as I did in the last year, but I think I have finally reached a point where we have to move on. Don't ever think you have been forgotten because you are in my thoughts every single day. So much has happened since you have left. Some good, some not so good, friends lost, job changes, sickness, sadness, happy days, and good health. If you were here, you have been part of all this. But you are here, aren't you? I guess time just moves on and we learn to take it one day at a time. I miss you Mom and although it is two years already, it still is very fresh. I just want to hug you. I love you and miss you terribly.

Hi Mom,

I'm sure you greeted Peggy on her journey to Heaven! I just imagine you saying, "well, hello Peggy. Didn't expect to see you so soon, but you are going to love it here" and then hearing Peggy saying something like "well, Joanne, I didn't expect it either, but here I am!

I miss you Mom. I miss everyone that I have lost. Love you forever

Merry Christmas, Mom. It's hard to believe this is our 2nd Christmas without you. How I miss you! This time of year is always the most difficult but we continue on. How you loved Christmas and everyone being togethers! Although we are together, it will never be the same. CeCe reminds us of how we need to go to "Lita's" tree. It's so funny how every now and then she will talk about her Lita. We make sure she doesn't forget, but I don't think it's necessary for us to remind her. You have touched her heart and will remain there forever. So many people still miss you, but you were so loved and that is what matters in this world. Love you forever...

Lita,
I need you. Please give me your strength. I feel like giving up more often then rarely. I am dealing with so much than I ever could possibly imagine. All I can do is put a smile on my face a pretend everything is fine. Gene and I have a battle. A long one. But we will not stop at any cost, until we can find the right help for our son. Azrael, will be 5 this year. I wish nothing but the best for us. I love you lita and god I miss you all the time. I wish I can just talk to you on the phone like we used too. Please always watch over us. I know that may sound selfish, but I will feel at ease knowing your presence is right there. I love you.

Hi Mom, I miss you so!

Hi Lita,
Well It's no surprise that I think of you often and the fact it was strange, once again, to not see you on your birthday. A second year with the angels in heaven. I have this strong feeling you watch over my kids. How I know this because Ariel knows who you are perfectly and says your name perfectly. Though I talked to you all the time on the phone, it was hard for us to come by with Gene's work schedule and the fact, sad to say, I still have yet to drive, so I understand Ariel and Azrael did not get to see you that much, and the last time Ariel seen you she was still a baby herself and just turned 2 last year for her to remember exactly "Lita" or your face, even though I always show her your picture, but my point being made, I know you watch over them. Ariel see's your picture and smiles, points to her heart and says "LITA", my mom even seen her do it and now I do believe you are here. I was losing faith. Thinking you were too busy to worry about me, but now I know you're here always. Someone in my life recently told me that "Veronica, all this time you thought Lita wasn't watching you but you see she is, she may not be your guardian angel right now because she is your kids angel" That pleased me and I feel relieved. I love you Lita, and I truly miss you.

Happy Birthday Mom!! I love you and think of you every day. Miss you very much. It's been over a year since you've been gone and I still have this ache in my heart. I don't think it will ever go away. I still want you here with me. Anyway, I hope you had a wonderful birthday and sending you a big kiss and a big hug.

there isn.t a word i can say to make my heart stop hurting all i know is that i miss u alot!!! and to tell u happy brithday.MISS U LOVE U diane .

If roses grow in Heaven Lord, please pick a bunch for me. Place them in my Mother's arms and tell her they are from me. Tell her I love her and miss her and when she turns to smile, place a kiss on her cheek and hold her for awhile, because remembering her is easy. I do it every day. But there is an ache in my heart that will never go away.

Hi Mom, you are in all of our thoughts and it hurts as much as it did a year ago. How can I not relive that weekend, and the week before when you said to me "I know I don't have long to go, and I know you know too". And all I could do was sit and hold your hand because we both understood. And I knew that Friday night after seeing all your children and grandchildren together, when you said you were ready for bed, you would not get out of bed again.

During the next two days, you took us on this journey that will never be forgotten. As we went down memory lane with you, all we could do was listen. Saturday, at 2:00 am, it was just you and me. And you were you, and I brushed your teeth and we laughed when I forgot to rinse your mouth cause you said your mouth was like paste. You told me how much you loved me, and I was your guide to Heaven. And during the rough times, I whispered in your ear to " just let go".

None of us will ever forget the song Too Ra Loo Ra Loo as you sang along with Bing Crosby. You walked us though the garden of butterflies, the two ladies with wings, grandma at the lead with Patti, who died almost 40 years ago You needed help opening the gates, and made sure we opened the window so your spirit would be free. At one point you said 253 minutes, and almost approximately 253 minutes, at 8:06pm you left us and entered into Heaven. Some will say it's because of the drugs, but I can contest, as you wanted, there were no drugs involved. Your journey was real and made our faith stronger. I love you Mom and my heart will always be filled with your love. As you celebrate your first year in Heaven, continue to watch over us and protect us here on earth. Love you forever!

Much love and abounding memories - you are always close in thought, Joanne.

Happy Easter, Mom. I miss you and wish you could have been here with me. Almost a year without you and one of my saddest years ever. I can't imagine what it is like for you now; only know you are not in pain and the beauty surrounds you. Today was nice, just not the same. Love you always

Mom, i posted something and it didn't go thru. Well you know anyway. Missing you so much. Wish we could talk.

Lita i miss you so much..i can't stand the fact that a year is coming up since you passed...i don't want to b a year,cuz then that process time is passing without you..tho it already feels like forever....you have always been my rock and best friend and no one has been able to take your place..i feel so lost without you..i just need remember you haven't left my side

Lita,
Just thinking of you, we all got the stomach flu. It has a been a rough couple months for us but we are a strong family. Azrael's headbanging stopped and he is currently in helmet training. I know you always hated that idea but it came to the point where it was needed. He is doing very well and seems to be progressing. Ariel, my oh my that girl is a wise little one. I see to much of me in her that it is scary lol. She is so smart and I am proud of this girl. She starts school in April after her 3rd birthday. I am excited. Gene and i finally can have a little break for 3 hrs with no kids lol. I love you lita and I know you're proud of gene and I.

Hey Mom. Just want you to know how I'm still missing you like crazy. Was thinking of you a lot this past week. Wish you were here. Love you, but you know that.

Hey lita well i guess my post did not make it on here for some reason but just thinking of you and I love very much

Hi Mom, I know it's been a few weeks. We're heading to Disney tomorrow. CeCe is so excited! I know you are watching over us. Please keep us safe as we travel. I really miss you, Mom. I can't believe it is almost a year already. I don't care what people say, to me it still feels like yesterday. We think of you always. Love forever. Here's a picture of CeCe packing.

Well Mom, tomorrow Bup will be 30 years old. Can you believe that. Remember when he told you how he wished he wouldn't grow up so he can always be with you? We all still miss you, Mom. I still think of you always. Love you forever.

Hi, Mom still missing you. Had a dream with you and Grandmo. You are now finally entering my dreams and you are healthy. Problem with dreams is when you wake up, you're not there. One day we will all be together again! Love you forever

Lita i just want to thank you for being a wonderful guardian Angel From above..one more Angel in my corner..i know you always say im you angel,and thats fine I'll be your Angel on earth..lita with the info i recieved i am so happy..i feel your presence more than anything and again want too say thank you fir being here for me 100% even if it is from above,it feels good to know you're here

HI Lita, I know it has been a while since my last entry. So much has been going on I do not even know where to begin. Gene is so supportive and I am so blessed to have this wonderful man in my life. Anyways I am just going to talk about the positive things. Well you'll be proud of me. I started eating clean. I also quit smoking. I have not had a cigarette since December 21. As for eating clean been doing it for a while now and I have dropped almost 11 lbs in only a week!!!! I am proud of myself. I am trying to get myself healthy while I am still young. I am tired of being this large. it disgusts me. Though Gene said it never bothers him, I know he loves me for me but eh, this weight makes me feel ugly and gross. I believe you helped me with strength. All those nights I begged for help, I believe it payed off. I miss you. I wish i can talk to you person to person. It is hard. I know i can go off the wall sometimes but I know your there and somehow you'll put that faith in me to be strong for Gene and my kids. Ariel is getting so big Lita, I wish you could see her. SHe looks just like me so scary haha, nothing like a little ronnie running around haha. Azrael is doing good in school, though he still is non-verbal that boy tries and tries. He is a fighter just like Gene and I. He is another one getting so big. Our life has been a challenge but I remember you said god gives his hardest battles to the strongest soldiers. I love you lita.

Hi Mom, still missing you.

CeCe says Happy New Year!

Happy New Year, Mom. I feel empty knowing 2014 will not include you here on earth. I was waiting for that phone call. I miss you, but I will go into 2014 knowing you are with me. Thank you for being here. 2013 memories are bittersweet, but we laughed and cried to the bitter end. The year will always be special as it was the last we shared together. Now we will share in spirit. 2014 and the years to come will be sweet knowing you are now the Angel protecting my family. Always loving you!

Merry Christmas mom. I wrote in your book yesterday but for some reason it did not post. I just wanted you to know that we truly felt your absence and it was extremely difficult for all of us. Andrea surprised us by having our first cousins at her house on Christmas Eve. That was very nice. Ramon and I enjoyed our traditional holiday with all the kids and family around us but I was really sad. I love you very much. Merry Christmas to you and Grandmo. We love you.

Merry Christmas, Mom. It sure is hard and I'm missing you like crazy. How I wish I could wrap my arms around you, kiss you and say Merry Christma, Mom, I love you. We had a good time with the family, but deep in everyone's heart we knew ther was a missing link. But you are in a better place celebrating with the true Spirit. I hope our sadness doesn't doesn't make you sad cause you deserve every bit of happiness in Heaven. So, I will stop crying and smile as I say again, MERRY CHRISTMAS. I love you Mom with all my heart and that is where you will stay forever. I am attaching the Christmas card I bought you years ago. I remember you reading it and you started to cry. Now I understand why. Thank you for making Christmas magic even brighter with your love.

Hi Mom.

Hey Lita...Christmas is extra hard this year,Anthony motivated me to decorate just for you and i did...i dreamt of you the other night,i don't remember much but i know you were there and that makes me happy...well I'm preparing myself to go into these holidays knowing your watching me from above opposed to being right by my side...you know you were one of the closest people to me...my days were never complete unless we spoke...you were truly my best friend Lita..i luv you so much..happy holidays

Hey Jo Jo. Please let Coleen know that I read her post and we all know who the favorite is (which would be me) in case someone else claims it. But it's true you loved us all the same, except I was a little more special. LOL. Love you forever! We all miss you terribly and trying not to drown in all the tears that are flowing.

Hi my beautiful Lady. Well Christmas is almost here. I have been very busy decorating and deep cleaning the house. We added a little of Christmas in every room. It helps ease the pain of missing you. With every corner we turn a glimpse of Christmas twinkles at us. It is so hard without you here. Especially during this season. Christmas was one of your favorite holidays and I owe you to keep the spirit alive. Don't worry Christmas definitely lives and breaths at our house. I haves cried a lot of tears while listening to Christmas music and while decorating. But I also smiled a lot with memories of you. I am feeling your presence very strongly. I can actually feel you looking down at me. I keep hearing you tell me, "slow down Coleen, I worry about you. You need to take care of yourself before you beat yourself to your grave". I used to always smile when you said that. But you are right, I am extremely tired. But need to keep going. I need to keep busy so that I don't sit and weep for you. I love you very much and miss you with all the emptiness of my heart. Merry Christmas to you and Grandmo. Oh yeah, tell Jesus we said Happy Bithday. By the way, how old is he anyway? LOL I crack myself up. XOXOXOXO. Love Coleen, your favorite daughter. Just kidding, I know you love us all the same. Just threw that in there in the event my sister's read this.

Hi Mom. I was Christmas shopping and for a brief moment was going to get your gifts for your "care" package. I hate those moments, because I soon realize you are not here on earth with us. This Christmas will be different and it's difficult to feel that Christmas magic without you. I think of our last Christmas together and how tired you must have been getting gifts for everyone. I still have that gift. I miss you alove you always.

This will our first Christmas since God called you home. Each day has been a challenge and with it came good days and bad days. They say time heals all broken hearts, but my heart is empty. Sometimes I wish the Christmas music would go away along with the laughter. Listening to songs on the radio, it takes me back to a time when you were with us. So much has happened since you went away. There were days I felt like I could not go on. Crying myself to sleep and dreaming you were here, only to wake up and realize you were gone. Mom, I do have a Christmas wish for you. I want to let you know we are doing okay. We miss you deeply and you are not forgotten. We will cherish the moments we have on Earth and make more memories before we see you again. Your heart and spirit is with us and we will make you proud. Since God is allowing you to rest, we will be fine. All of it just takes time. We don't know if we can truly get passed the pain, But we can be the family you raised us to be. I love you Mom, so this Christmas I wish you peace and plenty of rest until I see you again.

Hi mom. I made it back to Chicago. I had Dennis and Jean spend almost a week with us during the Thanksgiving week. They had a great time and was very appreciative. Although the entire Calo clan was not together we all made sure that everyone was somewhere with family at their side. Christmas is approaching quickly and the sadness and weariness of your absence is making it hard. But I know how important the holidays are for you so we will not let you down. Ramon lit up the entire outside of the house again I am sure the neighbors hate us for it. But like you it is his favorite holiday and he decorates from his heart. I'll send you a picture later. I need to tell you that quite often during these moments I find myself wondering what to get you for Christmas and then a hard blow to my heart brings me back to reality. I sure wish I could give you a huge hug, touch your beautiful face, and tell you how much I love you in person. I feel your spirit all the time. I take your sweater with me on all my travels. You have been to India and you just got back from NY. As soon as I get to the hotel room i Han in on the back of a chair. Seeing it every day makes me feel safe. I love you very much.

So tonight, here I am balling like a big baby. Gene,the kids and I put on Christmas music to decorate the tree and it hit me hard. I remember, how during this time when they play their Christmas music on 93.9; you'd always have it playing while you slept. I had to walk away and just write in here. All these memories are just fluttering my brain now. The winter always makes me think of you. I always told you that, the smell of your vicks humidifier in your room. I miss it so much and you. I love you Lita and I am trying so hard to have the Christmas spirit. Gene is always happy this time of year. He has so much Christmas spirit, He is like a little kid. I don't want to ruin it for him, and I want the kids to be excited and not see me cry. I am trying Lita. I miss you.

Hi Mom just missing you and dropping in to say Hi!

Well Mom, I made it thru Thanksgiving. It was really tough! I went to Fonso's mom's house and they treated Sergio, Ashley and me wonderfully. Lacretia was in Texas with Frankie and Lil Joe was in Florida with his dad. If it wasn't for Andrea and Fonso I don't think I would have made it thru on Thanksgiving. It is really hard to celebrate the holidays this year without you. I still have a big hole in my heart missing you so much. Thank God I have a big family for support. You surely knew what you were doing by giving me such a big family and want to say thank you. I love you.

So lita I guess it was no surprise that yesterday was very hard for not only me All of our family. I tried so many times to hold back the tears but my emotions got the best of me . I lashed out a couple of times, no one deserved that. I was just so messed up yesterday. The truth is I just missed you so much and It was hard not seeing you for the Holidays. What killed me the most is the fact this was the 3rd time I made my own turkey and you still never got to taste it. The first time you were not here, and yesterday was the third time and again you couldn't try it. I was so proud of my stupid turkey yesterday. Even though I got mad and I told my mom I wanted to throw it out the window during my frustrations.It was taking to long haha, but it came out so juicy. Anyways lita I love you always and always keep you in my heart.

Happy Thanksgiving Mom. Just want to say how much I love you and miss you. Thanking you for always being there and for all the memories. Everywhere I go now I see you especially during the Holiday season. How much you loved the Holidays. It must be wonderful up there in Heaven. You have to let me know how the Angels celebrate (especially Jesus' Birthday. That must be one huge party) LOL. Trying to keep the humor up. Love you forever

Hi mom. Happy Thanksgiving. It is almost 6 am and I need to get up and start the turkey. I am trying so hard mom but it is extremely difficult. I hear your giggle in every Christmas song. I see the twinkle of your eye with every Christmas movie I watch. I hear your laughter in the kids words of cheer. I watched "The Christmas Kiss" this week. Remember when you and I sat by the fireplace the entire day and watched Christmas movies? It is not the same without you and I must cry a thousand tears a day just missing you. Well,I am sure you are very busy cooking dinner for everyone. Give Grandmother a big hug and kiss. I love you sooooo much.

Mom, the Holiday season is upon us and Thanksgiving is in two days. How can I be thankful when the one thing I want most is for you to be here. Thank you for always doing your best and providing uncondional love to all of us. We sure did have our moments, but I would never trade you for another mother. I wish I could see you and push you in that chair again this Thanksgiving. It is all a memory now and I will never let you fade away. Love you forever.

Mom I guess there are some things that are copywrite so it won't post. I sure have been missing you. Still waiting for that little whisper.

Good morning my lovely grandmother..i miss u Lita..yesterday i told Anthony i don't want to decorate fir xmas,he said i had to cuz you loved to decorate..he also said he would help..which i appreciate....Remember when would decorate on torrence and the east side? It was always so fun. Im happy i have those memories,I'm happy o had a wonderful lita like you

Loving her was easier than anything I'd ever do again...

Why are my messages not getting posted Mom? Are you trying to tell me something? Love you and miss you.

Lita these past couple of nights I been thinking about you more than I have in a few weeks. Not that I never think of you I just try not to cause it is painful for me. I was sitting on my couch and all these thoughts of you began to flutter my brain,I think because the holidays are nearing and I know how much you love thanksgiving and Christmas. I also got sad at the thought I won't have your Hawaiian salad this year. I never did get that recipe from you. I knew I should of when i had the chance. I love you Lita and please keep me warm with good thoughts. I am trying this new thing called being positive hehe, you'd like that. I miss you.

Here i go Lita back to that Crazy place...i can hear you now telling me to just ignore everything and hold my head up high..i look ahead and see you guiding me to where i need to be...is it just my imagination,or is it really you? I only ask these things because i can't get ode to the fact that you're not here in human form..i never thought id have to experience this..i always knew you'd be around forever. One thing though,i do still feel your presence like as if u are still here..i need you today more than ever..please give me the strength to face these beasts..please don't leave my side

Mom, thinking of you. Signs of the holidays are beginning and I just can't imagine them without you. I just want you back.

Silly though I may be, I am afraid of life now that you are gone. You were my world, my inspiration and my heart, but when you left me, I thought I would fall apart. You were my best friend, my one true confidant. That's not all you were, you were my Mom. I dream of the day when Heaven's gates open to receive me with your smiling face and loving arms, reunited once again I will be. I love you Mom.

Where did you go? Where did you go my mystery? You left me alone, you left me to drown in misery. I can't feel no pain, I can't feel nothing but memories. You took my heart, you took the purest part of me. You left me alone, you made me my own worst enemy. Lost in a world, searching for how it used to be. When you were there, when only you could carry me…..Now Half of me is gone.

It has been 6 months since you have gone,
Since I saw your face so drawn.

A face that is always on my mind,
A smile I have seen a million times.

Two eyes that always shone with light,
So dark in the battle you could not fight.

The days were long, yet went so fast,
I knew that soon you would pass.

I clasped your hand so warm in mine,
Soon, I knew we'd be out of time.

To stay with us you fought so hard,
A million pieces went my heart.

Now a photo I look at to see your smile,
Your number I left still on my speed dial.

A video I watch to hear your voice,
This I do.... I have no choice.

I listen to the message saved on my phone,
It helps me sometimes not to feel alone.

I never really said goodbye,
To understand why, I can but try.

But great memories I will always keep with me,
Your love in my heart for eternity.

Waiting in heaven from this moment on,
Until God tells you to bring me home....

Love you Mom xoxo

“What a thing to acknowledge in your heart! To lose a brother is to lose someone with whom you can share the experience of growing old, who is supposed to bring you a sister-in-law and nieces and nephews, creatures to people the tree of your life and give it new branches. To lose your father is to lose the one whose guidance and help you seek, who supports you like a tree trunk supports its branches. To lose your mother, well, that is like losing the sun above you. It is like losing-I'm sorry, I would rather not go on

Mom, What's it like? I wish you can just tell me! It has been just about half a year already. Yet still feels like yesterday. I wanna smile when I talk about you, not tear up. I want to remember you when you were you, not just when you were sick. I want you here for the Holidays, it is going to be so hard. You'll be happy to know that whoever now lives in your place, decorates the windows like you did. It hurts driving past your place. I just miss you so much. Also your tree that we claimed :-) has gone through a clean up process. Love you always, Andrea

Lita i miss you so much...in sure you are happy where you are celebrating in heaven with your own mother...I luv you so much

You know Lita, I just can't do his anymore. I sit here and try to act like I am fine, when i am just so damn miserable. I can't even call you, yes I know many say, Oh I am sure she can hear you and what not well that is not the same for me. I want to hear your voice again. I want to hear you say ronnie. Though I hated that nickname but I always loved when you called me it. I feel very alone, not in the sense of needing people around, I enjoy my solitude, I mean alone more in the way that I always called you for random things and advice. You were the only one that could give me that piece of mind and comfort. You've always helped me with certain things. Now I deal with them on my own though I get lost thinking of you. I try so hard to not think of you as crappy as that sounds but it is really hard. especially when there is so many things around me that remind me of you. A certain smell, makes me think of you, certain colors, objects, songs, even passing all your old apartments. I think of you. I truly love you lita and god I miss you too much it hurts. When you left you took a piece of me with you.

Mom..I'm still having a really bad time believing you are gone..I miss you so so much. I love you..

It's difficult, Mother!

Hey Mom, I just looked at your picture and realized I have not seen you in 5 months. Then all the images with the tears started flowing. I really wish you were here with me; I can use some of those words of wisdom. I love and miss you so much. Love Andrea

5 months now Lita, It still isn't easy I honestly dont think it ever will be. I thought about you so much yesterday. I think the hardest part is wanting to go to your house and hearing your voice. I bought some pinecones the other day immediatly I thought about you. I wonder sometimes if this is going to get easier but Im not really sure that it is. Ashley is doing good Lita, she's working now and working on going back to school. Lil Joe is on the honor roll and made quarterback. He's super proud. You would be to. Still trying to keep my promise Lita but sometimes it gets really hard. I love you and miss you so much. Stay watching over us all Lita we all need it very much. Sending your hugs to heaven hoping you get them.... Love you

5 months ago was one of the worse days of my life, the day u left this earth was devastating to us all. For u, Im sure it was an enlightening experience to join ur loved ones past those pearly gates of Heaven, especially with Grandmo. I havent been to see u lately, oifes busy schedule hasnt allowed it, but u know what, im startin to feel u past ur tree. Like when I get off the train in the mornings to transfer over to next while standing under that dark sky theres always that one star always in the same spot shining down at me...I stare at that star the whole 3 minute delay....I know its u oita shining down on me....miss u and will go visit Gramo soon...happy fall my luvly grandmothers

I'm so sorry for your loss of your mother. I was just a little girl when I last saw her. I do remember her big smile. I'm sure you wouldn't remember me because we were just kids the last time we saw each other - but I'm your cousin. Your dad and my dad (Cuto) are brothers. Do you remember Rosita, Tony, Debbie, Jennie, Judy, GoGo, Punkin, PeeWee, GiGi, Laura and Junebug?? Our family has had our share of losses so I understand. I pray that God continue to give you peace, comfort n strength. And hold on to the wonderful memories! Our family remembers you all and hope that we can connect again. God bless you all , Gogo

Missing you so much.

Lita I miss you very much. Not a day goes by that I dont think of you. I just dont want to cry all the time. Your cd goes everywhere with me,I lusten to hit cuz its what u n I would do,but that makes me cry too. My bday was hard without u,but I know in spirit youre here. On my way home from wisconsin dells,it felt good to get away for a while. Til we meet I will always cry for you,dream of you & reminusce r times together. Luv u always kiki

Mom, wish you were here. I'm lonely and I miss you.

Lita. I just go on with my days and try to forget things, I am ashamed because I try not to think of you because when I do, it brings me to tears and I know that is something you wouldn't want. Ariel is growing so fast, so smart this girl is, I wish she can sing in front of you, you'd be so proud of how much this little girl can sing, and what breaks my heart even more because I could not call you about the good news of Azrael, He said mamma eww last night, he said my name so beautifully, it was amazing. You would of been the first person I'd call, you know that already, as the holidays are nearing it is making me more sad because I know how much you love Christmas and this will be the first Christmas without you. I love you Lita and all i can do is just remain strong.

Never a day goes by that you're not in my thoughts. You will forever remain in my heart. Thanks for everything Mom..Miss you..Love you..

Mom, sometimes I wonder how I continue to go on without you here. Even though you were sick, I honestly thought you would always be there. Loving and missing you forever.

Hi Mom, missing you!

Mom, 4 months have passed and as i write this I cry! I just miss you so much. The days we spent together will always stay with me. How we laughed, talked, cried, but you always stayed so strong. I always knew you were strong but never realized how strong until the end. You are my hero, my idol, and my angel. You will never be forgotten. Hope your angel lights up your nights. Love you always.

Well Mom, it has been four months today that you have been gone, It is still hard for me to accept and to believe that you are actually gone. They say time will heal but I am having trouble with that. Every time I think of you I still hurt inside and accepting that you are actually gone. I still want you here on earth with us and to hold you and tell you how much I love you. I know in reality that is not going to happen so I am holding you in my heart and know your standing beside me as my angel; knowing this gives me some comfort and takes some of the pain away.I love you Mom and hold you in my heart forever..

HI Lita, Thoughts of you have been fluttering through my head. Tomorrow will mark 4 months since you been gone. I do not know how I even managed to go this long with out hearing your voice. It is so hard not to see you or talk to you on the phone anymore. I miss telling you all the exciting news, and I also wish I could tell you how I lost nearly 30 lbs, I know you'd be so proud of me. Even though I no I lost it from stress. Azrael started school and since he had them tubes inserted, he has been doing so good. Even his teachers see a difference. And little Ariel, woooh if you could just see the little attitudinal brat she has become you'd laugh your heart out. She takes after me to the tee. There is so much I need to tell you but of course I can't, so Gene bought me this journal, now I just write in it all the time, I like to think of it as writing to you in heaven. I love you Lita and I can not wait for the day I'll see you again.

Hi Mom; It's been a while. This whole week you have been on my mind..Some sad and some happy, I miss you so much. I really which I can hear your voice.. This is what hurts me so much, not being able to pick up the phone to talk to you..I Love you..

Hi mom, it's been awhile. We are all still trying and grieve in our own ways. I can't believe it is almost 4 months since I last saw you. Sometimes I still think I can go see you. CeCe turned 4 years old. Can you believe that? She still talks about you. We will never let her forget you. I love you forever.

Hi Mom, I am still waiting for the days when I can think about you without tears. I don't think it will happen. I had the strangest dream about you. Sometimes I forget that I ca t see you, or talk to you. Then it hits me really hard that you just aren't here with us anymore. I miss you so so much. Love forever.

How I wish, how I wish you were here!

Miss you Mom

I'm having one of those days Mom..I really wish you were here to give me those words of wisdom you were so good at..I really could use some right now. I miss you soooo much.

Mom, these past few days have been so difficult. I can't stop thinking about you and how everything around me just reminds me of you. I really miss you. Love you.

I miss you

Hey mom, for some reason my birthday wish to you was did not get posted. I am so missing you today and it really hurts.

Happy Birthday Mom. Hope you and Grandma are celebrating. I still miss you a lot and think about you everyday. Make sure you read the birthday card we left you at your tree. Jaslene also sent you a message so make sure you read that one too. I wish you were here to see her, she's adorable. Everyone says she looks like Frankie. Well, I'll let you go so you can continue to celebrate your birthday. Have fun. I love you.

Hi Mom, your tree is really decorated. In a few days you'll be celebrating your 80th birthday in Heaven. I wish you were here so we can celebrate it with you. Still missing you. Love forever

Hi Mom, wish you were here...

Hi mom. It's been a long time since i wrote in this book. It is not because I have forgotten you, it is not because I don't miss you, it is not because when your out of sight your out of mind, it is because i am still having difficulty facing the fact that you are not here. Writing and reading all the beautiful memories bring me down and make me so sad. But today i felt like talking to you. I felt line telling you how much I love you. I felt like telling you that I miss you so much everyday and it is still very hard not having you physically in my life. I hope you are doing fine up there and found the peace you always spoke of. I'm at Rosie's getting my hair done and thought i would take the time to write to you. As Willie Nekson would say, "you are always on my mind." Love you " little lady".

Hey lita, well its been two months since you been gone and it feels like eternity already..how u celebrating up there..and you know its Elias birthday..so Happy 1st Birthday to your one n only Great-Great grandson..he will know all about his Lita and be proud to have had the chance to be in your arms many times....Lita i luv you and will defintely visit you Sunday..RIP my luvly grandmother

Lita, Im certainly hanging in there. Its def been a journey since youve been gone and really hard one. Everytime I feel myself slipping I hear your voice telling me to keep my faith, don't give up and keep my head up. Lita I am trying; I really really am but it's hard with you not here. I miss your face and your hands but most of all I miss hearing your voice. Only you could say just the littlest things and make a person feel better. I love you and miss you tremendously.

Hi Mom, I am still missing you more than ever. I wish I could see you. It feels so lonely on earth without you here. A big part of all of us is missing and could never be filled again. We're trying, tho! CeCe still talks about you. We will make sure she doesn't forget you. Love and miss you always.

Hi Mom, wish you here to tell us how cute CeCe looks in her glasses. Sending you this picture so you can brag in Heaven!!!! Love and miss you forever.

Good morning Lita..i luv u..i miss u..thank youfir being here..home life is starting to b a ok..of course i wish my phone would ring and i'd hear the phone,say your name,but i think that's asking to,much..i know you're in a better place..can't wait till Sunday,wish icould seriously grill you a hot dog out there,,,lol,but like Andrea n them said its not a park...o Lita ive been feeling you lately,so thank you fir being here fir me

Hey Lita! Just wanted to say hello and i miss you. I really miss you actually although i may not cry as much, i always think of you. You will never be old news to me, I am just trying to be strong. Please give others the strength I have during this time. I know some really need it. I love you.

I will never find someone who loved,prayed, cared and worried about me more than you did. Mom, it's hard to live without you. It's hard to breath, it's hard to see and it's hard not to look for your hand to hold. Even though your not here with me, I still have you in my heart and my memories. I love you Mom..

Happy Father's Day, Mom.

People say it does get easier
I can't imagine how
Thinking of you everyday
Wish you were with me now

Things are just so different
Without you by my side
My life just changed completely
The moment when you died

Our souls live on forever
And I know that you are free
This thought will keep me going
Until, again, it's you and me

I really want you back :-(

Wish we were together on this stormy Wednesday night. Miss you always. Love you forever.

I miss you Mom.I feel a big hole in my heart and it hurts.I'm having trouble believing you are gone.Forgive me for being selfish, but I want you back with us on Earth.I want to hear your voice again..I miss you so much!!

Mom, just miss you so much! Things ate not easy here on earth. Love you forever!

Hi Mom..I knew you were there with me..Come to find out. I don't need surgery..Just an injection and two weeks of therapy. Thank you Mom for still being here with me. Sending you all my love and kisses..Miss you alot

Hi Mom..I wish you were here..I have so much to tell you..There's Frankie's and Yelisa's baby Jaslene (BEAUTIFUL).There was Ashley's graduation (SO PROUD)and unfortunately I will be having surgery on knee..I'm a little nervous but I know you will be there with me holding my hand..I miss having that security you always gave that everything will be alright.You are always on my mind and in my heart.I really really miss you.I love you