Gloria Anderson Obituary

I love and miss you Grams! It´s going to be 14 yrs this yr. :(

Can´t believe you have been gone 15 years we miss you so much there isn´t a day that goes by when I don´t think about you
Love you Grandma

I miss you!

Grams this month marks 8 yrs since you left. I miss you so much. I know youve been with me all this time...but its not the same. Please watch over me and give my boy extra love this month as this has got to be the hardest month of the yr for me. I love you so much!❤.

It's been a year today since you've gone....but you will never be forgotten. You're the best person I've ever known and am blessed that you were my Mom.

Grandma just wanted you to know I'm thinking about you not only today, but always. I love you and miss you so much. Today is one year we all lost a big part of our lives. I can't say it ever gets easy, because it doesn't . I hope your at peace. Love you oxoxo

Good morning Mom,
I wrote to you yesterday but it didn't get published on this page. I want you to know that you're my heart. I love you more than you will ever know. Throughout the past year we've had our share of ups and downs and we've looked to you for your wisdom and guidance. Your love and support has seen us through many hard times and I thank you for that. Please continue to enfold us in your angel wings to protect us and keep us safe. If we lose direction please guide us back to the right path. I've often talked about all the "1ST's" we've had since you've passed away. Today is a personal first and a last for me. Today is the last day I will write an entry on this page....Today is the 1st anniversary of the worst day of my life. I'll be talking to you daily. All my love to the best Mother and friend I could have ever hoped and prayed for. God blessed me when he made you my mom.

Hey Grandma,
I'm sorry it's taken me so long to write to you. Writing here just makes it so much more real that you're gone. I still cannot believe it. Just thought I'd fill you in on everything that's been going on, but I'm sure you already know. I've started dating the girl of my dreams. Mom says she knows you'd love her. She makes me the happiest I've ever been, If only you could've met her. I've moved from a couple jobs since, you've gone, but I will finally be leaving for the Navy in January. There are so many things I would love to just sit down and talk to you about, and I wish I would've taken more time to while I had the chance. Miss you Grandma. Thank you for watching over me, tell Grandpa I say hello. I hope I'm making you proud. I love you.

-Mathew

I sit in silence with memories of you. Nobody knows how I feel. I keep it all in between you and I. I know I don't know how others feel but I do know nobody else will or could understand what I feel and why I can't let you go

Grandma today is the day before we lost you last year. You were the one person I still thought I had all the time in the world to spend time with. It has been very hard on eveyone. You were like the glue in this family, always tried to make everyone get along, you are also one of the strongest women I not only had the pleasure knowing you, but being your oldest granddaughter. I dont know how anybody could go through the things that you have gone through in life, and still remain as stong as you are. Since you've been gone a day hasnt gone by where your not thought about. Im so happy Nick and Baylie had the oppurtunuty to know their great grandma. Believe it or not Baylie can look at a piture of you and know who you are, I think thats wonderful, and Nick does it with my mom and has taught Baylie who she was. Nick said its going to be hard to celebrate his birhtday, because he lost you the day before, his birthday wish is that it was a bad dream, like I told him grandma wouldnt want you sad on your birthday. I'm going to miss being able to write to you, but I will always talk to you in my prayers, maybe you and my mom can listen together when Im talking through my prayers and thoughts. Someday hopefully along time from now we will be reunited. We love and miss you all of you so much. OXOX

Morning Grandma thinking about and wanted to say I love you and thank you for watching over Jen and the Lucas

Hi Mom,
Lucas Alexander was born today. It's been a long sometimes scary 9 months. Both Jen and I have looked upward to you for you to keep them all safe. I believe that you were at the hospital today to make sure the doctor's were doing their job:) We all know you knew way more than them anyway. Thank you mom for taking care of them. I know you're with Lucas's older brothers Noah and Bryan Jr. Please keep them safe until their mommy sees them again too. We all love you. Thank you

Hi Gram. I know I haven't written in a while so I am now before I call it a day, and what a long long day its been...I've been hearing that song "gloria" lately. Not a lot but every so often it comes on, I just say "Hi Grams" because I know you are there at that moment:) Things have been crazy here though, sometimes good sometimes bad. Something tells me you know this already though;). Anyways, I needed to say this again, You know how much harder this month is now for me. Not only did I loose my son this month seven years ago, last year I also lost you. Which hasnt been easy this month so far, esp between lance and I. I wanted to ask you and our son tocome around us more this month...let us feel your presence. Please be with my son, and keep him. Give him love and kisses for us and tell him we love him. Along with our other loved ones. You know who they are. Thank you again for being there for me last summer, and for being around now...as I said before... when Gloria comes on, I know its you looking in on us!:) So once again I say "hi grams:)" We love you and miss you dearly, give that kid of mine a lot of love ok:) Love you lots! NAMASTE GRAMS NAMASTE
p.s. I am really tired...hope this makes sense. <3

Please keep us all safe! We Love You!

Hi Gram the weirdest thing happen yesterday, we were driving through a cemetary and we were saying how we wished we had a place to visit you, and not even seconds later what comes on the radio but Patty Loves, Help me how to say goodbye. I knew than you were there watching over us. I love you and miss you and my mom everyday of my life.

It's October 2nd once again....Once again the leaves are changing colors and you can't see....I love you

I miss you so much Mom.

A year has passed but not a day has gone by that your smile,eyes and laughter hasn't been in my heart. I will NEVER be able to describe the depth of this pain. I love you mom.

A year ago today our lives changed forever, you had ur surgery and things were never the same. Grandma, I love u so very much

Happy Anniversary Grandma and Grandpa I love u and miss u both so much, at least this year you can celebrate together. I never thought a year ago today would be the last time I would have a real conversation with you. I said to you than that I love you and everything would be ok, and ill say it again I love you and it will be ok. Love you grandpa, my mama, mema, aunt cindy and anyone else I might be leaving out always and forever in my heart

Happy Anniversary Mom and Dad!
All our Love......

Hi Mom,
It's September 18th and I can't get you out of my mind. Tomorrow is yours and Dad's Wedding Anniversary. I remember our long talk last year on 9/19 and laughing about memories of you and dad. This year you're not here to do that with. It will be a year ago Thursday that you went into surgery. We all expected for you to have a full recovery and return home “as good as new”. Although it won't change anything I'm sure a lot of us will “relive” the next month in our memories. Our trips to the hospital, our prayers, the ups and downs that ultimately came to an end the day you passed away to eternity. So much has changed in the past year since you've been gone. Our lives will never be the same because of our loss of you. Sadly so many things haven't changed since you left. We've spoken so many times on this page of all the loved ones we've lost yet we still take life for granted. I believe that we should make the most out life when we have it. The reality that none of us is promised a minute, an hour or day from now is all too real. Life is too short to worry about what others are or aren't doing, getting angry over other peoples choices, finding gratification at the cost of others. I don't understand why it's that way but taking a lesson from you I also realize I can't change other people and only have the ability to control and change myself. I know I have to accept things I can't change and have done so. I miss out talks. I miss being able to tell you these things face to face and hearing your opinion and advice. I just miss you. This page won't remain online after October 21st. However, I will continue to talk to you daily as I do now. I will continue to look upward for advice and inward for what the “right” thing to do is. I will continue my own journal of thoughts and memories of you. There won't be a day that passes that you're not with me. There won't be a holiday that passes that your absence won't be noticed. I wish nothing but eternal happiness for all of you. I know we will see each other again someday but I hope that's a long time from now. I have a lot of unfinished business down here. My “family” means everything to me. I consider myself blessed to have the “family” I do and hope for many more years here with them. I pray to you and God every day to keep us safe and watch over us. Please extend my love to Phyllis, Cindy, Bryan Jr., Aunt Jackie, Mema and Dad. Please let them know that everyone misses them too. We miss you all. I love you mom. I'll be thinking of you often.

Hi Mom,
I can't believe 14 years has passed today since Cindy left this earth. 14 years seems like it's so far away from today yet the past 14 years went by so quickly.I'm happy you're together with her. I sure wish you were both here and Phyllis too with your children. I talked to Kristina, Cliff and Hollie today. They all miss all of you so much too. Cliff told me to tell you hi and he loves you very much. We all really need our moms in life. I miss all of you and will love you forever

Hi Grandma, was on the way to your house yesterday, and Patty Loveless came on the radio. It was the first party there since you left us, it was not the same. There is not a day that passes that I dont think about you and what your doing, and how your doing. I love you and miss all of you that have left us to soon.

Hi Grandma! I'm sorry I have not written you in awhile. We've been finding little things you gave us for Brylee when she was a baby and it makes me smile. I remember when Mom told you we were going to have her. I was taking a nap in Cynthia's room when you got to Mom's house. You woke me up to tell me how happy you were and to give us some baby stuff you had been saving. You were always such a wonderful, caring Grandma. Please keep watch over all of us and please keep us safe. We Love You Grandma!

Hi Mom,
I'm looking to you for strength again. Please hear my prayers. I love you.

Hi Grandma, I've been thinking about u a lot lately, and how much I love u and miss u so much.

Hi Grams, its been a while, things have just been hectic. You know what I am talking about too. Been opening my mind and my heart and trying to find my true calling which I think I have an idea of what it is. I found a pure white feather in my path the other day and these just dont fall out of the air. lol. I also heard Gloria on the radio. Thank you for being around and for letting me know you are ok...A friend of mine tells me my son is helping you over there..thats a good thing, keep that kid in check:) Aidan is growing more and more and getting more and more of a personality, a mix between his mamma and his daddy lol..YIKES LOL. Time really does fly, I turn 31 next week and it amazes me on how much one can learn and grown with in 2 years(IM talking about me) I now have an idea of of why what happened last summer happened. To spend the time I needed to spend with you:) Which I will be forever grateful for! You never know how much time you have left and need to learn and grow as much as possible and I really do feel like that has happened to me. I have started doing my readings again and seem to be accurate, which is way cool. I have also came across a lot of other people like myself on facebook and twitter which to me is a blessing because they are such an inspiration to my spiritual side. I want to thank you for bringing me back into your life 14 years ago. Such a blessing you are and always will be to me:) I love and miss you very much. Please give the family that is up there love for me, and of course do my darling son. <3 Namaste Grams. I love you

Hi Mom,
We had pizza and cake for Cynthia's 11th Birthday today at our house. We missed you as always. We love you so much.

Hi Mom,
Everyone was talking about you today. My Mohter in Law, Marilyn and Hank all sat together at the same table again this year. They all spoke about last years party at the Pizza Joynt, how it seemed like just yesterday and that you were sitting at the table with them. Cynthia realized about two minutes before we arrived at Riley's that this was her first birthday without you. We heard her crying in the back seat and asked what was wrong. She said "grandma! she won't be here today". We told her we knew she was sad but that you're always with us. Even though you're not here on earth you're in our hearts and memories forever. I told her how blessed she was to have had you at her parties for the first 10 years of her life and that I'm sure you were watching from above today. My heart just sank when she said that and I heard the pain in her voice. We all miss you and God knows we all wish you were down here with us. I love you Mom.

Hi Grams,
I missed you so much today. You would have done everything to be here today. This was my first birthday party that you weren't there. I wish you were here. That would be the best birthday present ever. So when you tuned in did you hear I got J. Bieber tickets. I love you so much!

Hi Mom,
Well we're getting ready for Cynthia's 11th Birthday party today and guess what was the first thing I thought of this morning....Mom isn't here. Sigh....We are having it at Riley's. I know how much you used to look forward to our "Saturday" Mom and daughter cheeseburger days after John had spent his Father and Son time with his Dad there. We will miss you today and the joy that will be absent without your presense. We have a huge surprise planned fo her so please stay tuned from Heaven so you don't miss it. I love and miss you mom.

Good morning Mom,
I have so much on my mind I want to say. First, I miss all of you. Today is the 6th anniversary of Dad going to heaven. It's not an anniversary that's a happy one. I miss Dad so much too. Dad was and is my hero. He was my Dad when he didn't have to be and he epitomized what a Dad should be. I love him and hope you are happy there in heaven with him. Can you please wrap your arms around Dad today and tell him I love and miss him so much?

Mom,
Yet another loved one has passed and gone to heaven so suddenly, without notice. I hope all of you were there with open arms to welcome him. I pray that God opened his arms and gave him the hug he's been waiting for his whole life. May he be happy and restful there with all of you. I love you mom.

Hi Mom,
There was a terrible massacre in Colorado today. Many people were shot and killed simply because they chose to go to the show and see a movie. Our Country is full of sorrow and in mourning for the victims and their families. Unfortunately our family is far to familiar with the pain and devastation of losing a loved one so suddenly and not being able to make sense of the "why" behind it. I pray for for all of them. I know they're where you are now and their families are where we've been too many times, full of sorrow, pain and questions asking why. God bless them all. We miss and love you guys so much Mom. Please hold each other close.

Hi Mom,
I can't seem to get you off of my mind these past several days. Once again a slap of reality has hit me that you're not here with us anymore. Sometimes it just seems like I haven't talked to you in a while and I'm ok. Then there's times like it has been lately when I just can't believe you're no longer here. All the same questions I used to ask myself when you first died come back to me. The why behind it, the fact that you were supposed to be in and out of the hospital within 5 days for what is known today as a routine surgery. I'm struggling with you not being here and I know I can't change it. I think that's the hardest part of it all. There is no going back and changing things....I and so many others wish there was and you'd still be here to love and be loved by. I miss talking to you most. We did that every day and it just stopped so suddenly. I'm just venting my feelings here. I hope you know that I miss you more than anything I ever imagined I could miss. I love you mom. The only comfort I find in any of this is that you're no longer in pain and you're back with dad, your mother and your daughter's. I know one day we will also see each other again face to face. Until then, you'll be in my heart and memory as the loving, attentive Mother you always were and am confident will always be. I love you mom.

Happy 4th of July Mom. Please wish everyone else the same as well. I love you.

It's the last day of June. Where has the time gone? 4th of July was always a time that everyone gathered at your house to go to Northlake Days and see fireworks. Dad used to sing out loud "I'm Proud To Be An American". Gosh how I wish.....I miss you, dad, Phyllis and Cindy so very much. I wish we could go back to the time when we were all together at Grant Park celebrating this holiday together. So much has changed since you've all been gone. You never realize the value of how much someone means to you until they're gone. It's so sad that it's like that but unfortunately it seems to be the way of the world. Anyway....we love all of you. We miss you so much. Enjoy the holiday with each other. Every firework I see with all it's beautiful colors and amazement will remind me of your beauty and I know that you'll be watching too.

Hi Mom,
"Life" has sure been crazy lately. I know I don't have to tell you. One thing I really miss is just talking to you, venting to you and hearing your words of wisdom and advise. Some days are so much harder than others that you're not here. Today was one of them. It really hit me hard. I miss you mom. I love you forever.

Hi Grandma, missing you, yeaterday Baylie won another pageant and as I was going down my list of people to call, I missed being able to call you. I love you so much. OXOXO

Hi Mom,
So today is the 1st Father's Day you've beem able to spend with Dad in a very long time. I hope you made it special for him. Of course I wished him a Happy Father's Day today but maybe you can extend the wish from me too in case he wasn't listening. We love and miss both of our parents so badly. I know it isn't easy for any of us. We were all very blessed to have you both for the years we did. Please give everyone our love. Talk to you soon.

Hey Gram, Well this would be another first that Aunt Paula would say you were missing. For the fist time in my life I wont be recieving a phone call from my grandma on my birthday. For the last 8 years I havent had my mom, and now I dont have my grandma either, it makes me sad that the person who brought me into this world cant be here. You were the next best thing to having my mom around. Sometimes I feel so lost without either of you in my everyday life, ur in my thoughts constantly, but its just not the same. Please keep pulling strings for us done here, some of us need your prayers a lot. So please keep watching over all of us. I love you and miss u very Much!

Dear Grandma,
I miss seeing you,and Im sorry I havent wrote to u in a long time, because I have been working so hard that I havent had time. SO just wanted to say I love you. Love

Hi Mom,
It's another hot day outside today. I'm filled with memories of summer days being at your house and sitting outside just chatting. I miss that. I love you mom. I hope you're resting.

Well Gram its the first of June and its very cold today compared to last weekend when it was 100 degrees. Missing you a lot, we talk about you daily. Everytime there's a gathering I sit and think how we won't be seeing you there, but know in my heart you'll be there. So many times I scroll through my phone and come to your name and wonder what your doing. And wonder if ur with my mom ur mom and ur daughters watching us. Hope you r happy being with them, even though we r missing u all so much, I hope u all r happy. Love u and miss u gram

Hello Mom,
It's 10:10pm and all 4 of the older kids and their "sig others' just left. Mathew officially turned 21 today so we had another little get together here for cake and to celebrate the day. We were talking about you. We have a lot of great memories and stories to share of the "remember the time when" about you. It was really fun. Andrew is sporting a beautiful new tatoo on his leg that he just had done a few weeks ago in your memory. Thank you for giving us so much to smile about and remember about you. We all love you so very much. Good night my beautiful Mother.

Just thinking about my mom. Thinking about how much I miss her and wish she was here with us. I miss everything about you mom. I told John this morning I would give anything just to have you here to yell at me. I wonder if this will ever stop hurting so bad. We're getting ready to go to dinner for Mathew's 21st Birthay. Up until know you've been at all of my children's 21st Birthday parties. Sure wish you were here for this one too.I love you mom.

Missing you grandma, wishing you were here. Just to call and say I love you or come by and visit. Watch the kids growing up so fast. We go through all these milestones of their lives and you should be here to share them, and your not. I know your watching, its just not the same. I love you and miss u so much. OXOX

It's been a week since I've written but not a day has passed that I haven't missed you......like right now. I love you mom.

Have a wonderful Birthday celebration with Cindy today Mom. No eating too much cake! Please tell my Big Sis I wish her a very Happy Birthday today! We love you!

Hi Grandma! I hope you had a great Mother's Day! I can't believe last year was the last one we got to spend with you. I know you were on all of our minds and in all of our hearts.

I know you're up there watching us and you probably already know how things will turn out. I pray that everything is ok. If there are any strings you can pull for us, please please do.

We Love You Gram!

Happy Mothers Day Grandma missed calling u today. I know u and mom were with Baylie on her huge win today. Love u both give my mom aunt cindy and mema my love. Love u always

Gram I went to call you today to wish you a Happy Mothers Day and had to stop myself. This day has been bittersweet for me. I miss u and my son so much that I feel almost numb in a sense if that makes any...I want to wish you a happy mothers day. We all miss you terribly and i pray that you are happy where you are. Please give my son hugs and kisses for me and tell him his mamma misses him and I wish with all my heart that you and him were still here with us.

Happy Mother's Day Mom. I've been thinking all week how this is yet another first for all of us down here. Our first Mother's Day without you. But then I started to think about how many you've had to spend without your Mother Mema and how many Phyllis,Cindy and Gloria have had to spend without their Mother. We will miss you down here today Mom. We still wish you were here but please celebrate your first Mother's day ever with Gloria and your first Mother's day in too many years with Mema, Phyllis and Cindy too! I'm happy for all of you to be able to have this first together. I imagine all of you getting caught up and you finally getting to know your daughter Gloria and it makes me smile for you. Please tell all of the other Mother's in heaven Happy Mother's Days as well and make Dad and all the other Father's in heaven make it special for all of you. Their special day is next month for today it's the day of the Mother. I personally know I had the best there ever was. Thank you for that Mom. I miss all of you so much.

Hi Grandma, With mothers day right around the corner, I wish you and my mom were here. There isnt a day that passes that I dont think of the both of you or try and talk to you. Each day I watch Nick and Baylie grow and learn and do new things and I should be able to pick up the phone to tell you all about it, then realize I cant and hope you were watching at that point. Nick is doing really well in school this year, and Baylie well she's 2 and she is something else, she does have fun when on stage. It makes me sad that you and mom arent here to physically watch, I know in my heart your watching from heaven, its just not the same. Was just thinking about you and decided to write you. I love you always!

You are on my night stand right next to me every night I go to sleep. I'm keeping you close always. Not a day passes that you're not on my mind constantly. I wonder what you would say in certain situations, I think about the advise you would give me or anyone of us. I still take into consideration as to whether you would agree or disagree with decisions I or anyone else makes. I truly base a lot of mine on what I believe you would think was best. It's so funny how close I still feel to you although you're a million miles aways. Mom I hope you know how very much I love and miss you. Everyday I continue to be here on earth a part of you will always be with me. I hope you're happy and finally feel peace Mom.

Gram I miss you...I wish I could call u to calm me down. Idk what I'm doing anymore. Please give me some kinda way to know you're Herr with me. I don't know how much more I can take. Please watch over me. I love you lots

Just like every other day, just thinking about and missing you. I love you mom.

Hi Mom,
It's the last day of April today. The month of May....Hard one. Mother's Day is May 13th and then Cindy's Birthday is May 14th. Neither of you are here for us to celebrate those days with you. It will be yet another first for all of your children. It will be our 1st Mother's Day since you've left. However, it will be yet another Mother's Day for Phyllis's and Cindy's children. I always knew they had to hurt when Mother's Day came and they couldn't be with them. It's only now I have a true understanding of the depth of their pain. I wish none of us had to feel it but also realize so many here on earth even besides us do. It's just this simple, life has changed and will never be the same because you're not part of it. Whehter it's the 1st of things or the 20th they'll never be the same without our loving Mother. It is my greatest wish that you know how very much you're loved now and forever. Talk to you soon mom. I love you.

Hi Gram just wanted to tell you I've been thinking about you and miss you terribly. I love you.

I had a dream about you last night. It was like you were here again. I was sad to wake up and realize it was only a dream. I love you.

Mom,
Whew! We had a close call today. I know you know. I was talking to you the whole time and asking for you to please let everything be okay. I finally understand all the times you used to say it didn't matter how old we were, we were still YOUR children. We got out of the car and there was another car next to us with a sticker on the window that simply read "FAITH". I took that as a complete sign that you heard every word I was saying and that you were telling me to keep the Faith. I will mom. Please don't let anything bad happen. Please use all your pull up there. Please ask Phyllis, Cindy and anyone who can pull some strings down here to start pulling, pull with all their might. We need it. Thank you for the sign today. I love you mom.

Grandma,

I miss you so much i never right on here but right now i need to talk.I hope my mom is with you too i cry every night shes gone and you.Im going trhu some health and financila probllems right now and im asking for you to please watch over me and my lil family.We love and miss you so much i havnt been back to the house since you've left us its still to hard.I dont think i can handle it but i know your watching with all the family whos left us too soon sitting up there watching us.i do love you and miss you dearly.love always meggylegs

Hi Grandma,
Well Baylie turned 2 on Saturday, and we had her party. Parties are just not the same without you at family functions. I cant believe you have already been gone for a half a year already, we miss you so much. At least you are able to tell my mom about her grandkids. I know in my heart you were both at the party. I miss coming to the house its been 6 months since I've been there. It's not the same without you being there. I love you and miss you very Much. OXOX

Another month has passed...We're at 6 today. It went by so fast yet seems like forever. I wasn't prepared for you to leave. I told John and Cynthia a few nights ago at dinner that I think it's been so hard for me to accept because I never imagined my life without you in it. I didn't think I had to and then one day you were gone. Although we all think about, talk about you all the time and keep you alive in that way, it's not the same. I miss you mom. How I wish you were still here with us. I love you.

Mom,
Although it's the 6th month anniversary of you leaving tomorrow you've been on my mind all day today because of it. I can't believe 6 months has passed. We were eating dinner last night and I told John and Cynthia that I think the hardest part of you not being here anymore is that I'd never prepared myself for that possibility. Never once did I sit and wonder how my/our lives would be without you here and as a part of them. I didn't think I had to. It really sucks. I know I can't wish it away and make you come back again but it really, really sucks living life without you here with us. Of course we all think about you and talk about you all the time but it's not the same. I miss you. We miss you. These last 6 months have flown by yet seem like forever...weird. I love you mom, wish you were here.

Mom,
It's Bryan Jr. 1st Birthday today. Please have the biggest celebration with him and hold him extra close and tight today. Please tell him his Grandma and all of us miss him much.

Thank and love you!

Today is Bryan Jr.'s first Birthday. I know you are throwing a huge party for him in Heaven and I Love you so much for that. Please give Bryan Jr. and Noah big kisses from their Mommy, Daddy, and big sister. Please tell them how much we Love them! We miss you all so much! Please keep praying for all of us!

Hi my grams Happy Easter. We had a good Easter,we would have had a better one with you. I miss coming to see you. I love you and miss you very very very much.
Love Nick

Mom,
I just wanted to let you know that we were able to find the eggs that Cynthia spoke of a few days ago here on your page. I made sure Cali, Collin and Cynthia got their Easter egg that hatches into a chick from their beautiful Grandmother and for Collin, Great Grandmother. It's a traditon I will keep going for you as long as I can. I love and miss you Mom. Today was yet another "first" we had without you. Please give my Sister's a big hug and kiss from me.

Happy Easter Grandma,
We miss you and love you so much. One of my Easter memories is when you worked at Century One and the Easter Bunny would be there and we came for pictures. Or when you would get everyone the carton of chocolate covered marshmellow eggs.
Love You nd miss you! Happy Easter

Hello Grams:) This East Sunday really gave me some reflection on things lately..so I started writing something. A lot of people think Easter is nothing but a candy, rabbit, games/toys type of holiday...when really its not. Its actually one of the most sacred(in my opinion)Holy days that we have...Even though people dont know the exact day of Yashuas Resurrection, its still the concept..anyways this is what I came up with...and you are one of the people I am talking about....Remember why we are celebrating today...its not for some white rabbit bringing candy, eggs and toys, its the celebratiom of the resurrection of our Precious Savior Jesus Christ, Yashua(sp??). With out him we wouldnt stand a chance at everlasting life or seeing our loved ones that have past on before us...our heavenly father gave up his only perfect son for the sins of this forsaken world so we all may spend eternity with him as we are all his children. That is pure love...so on this day as you spend time with your loved ones....love one another as Christ loves us...UNCONDITIONALLY...

I love you my Grams, Happy Easter!

Happy Easter Mom

Hey grams the last time I seen you was October 18 I miss you, but our time will come soon, you only went to rest a little while and soon it will be our turn to visit. I miss the joy, the laughter, the smile, and most of all you. When you went, all those things went with you. One day we'll have that again, but for now all I need is our memories. Love you Grandma see you soon. Sincerely, Cali

I'm wasting time
wishing on stars
Waiting on dreams
that will never
come true
I go numb and...
I just want to be with you
I'm so alone
lost in this bitter world
I have nobody left
and I can't keep painting this smile
The strong one...
that's what I am
huh...you're the only one
who knew the truth
I was only strong
because I had you
Now I hide from them all
I can't let them see me fall
In the shadows
I sink lower and lower
No more stars in sight to wish on
The sky that once gave me hope
Is now nothing but dark
The few things that brought me joy
slip further from my grasp
I've let everyone down
All I've really ever wanted
was someone to love and...
For that someone to love me back
apparently that's to much to ask
I don't even have friends...
and FAMILY...well that's gone too
They all left with you
so here I sit drinking my sorrows down
Waiting impatiently for my time to come
So I can once again
Feel the warmth of the sun
With you by my side
and again be YOUR strong one

Just a little poem I wrote...
I love you mom and miss you more than anyone knows!!!

Grams,
Easter is coming up. Everything is the same except one thing. You're not here. Remember how you would always get me that little egg with the chick inside it? Well this year is different. It's a tradition that wasn't aroung very long. I miss everything that we would do together. I love and miss you grams.

I find myself sitting here looking around and realizing how empty I feel without you here. You were my strength when I felt weak, my light when all I could se was darkness, my shoulder to cry on, and most of all the person I looked up to more than anyone else. Now your gone and I'm lost. There's no one here who can take our place, though some may try, no one will ever be you. Death makes you realize how fragile and important life really is. We sit here wasting it on pity things like money and lust, when we should really take in the wonders of the world. Children's laughter, a cool breeze on a hot summer day, the first, untouched snowfall of the year. I've been that person who takes life for granted, and I'm sure I still will unfortunately. But I'll also appreciate all the small things in life. And I'll raise Collin to do the same. I feel weak, I see darkness, I need a shoulder. But I'll have to go on and be strong not just for me or for you, but for by gift from above, my angel. I know you're watching over us, an still lending strength when you can. I love you, and I miss you like crazy. Rest in piece while you can, because one day hopefully a very long time from now, I'll join you. R.I.P grams, you were the best, you'll always be in our hearts.

6 months ago today I sat at your bed side asking you to wake up. I told you it was October 2 and the leaves were changing. I told you that if you didn't wake up soon you'd miss fall all together and not see the beauty of all the colors on the trees. Today 6 months later the leaves have gone and are coming back again. It's another reminder that even when our loved ones leave us here on earth that life goes on. The seasons still change, Fall and Spring will come again over and over again. I wish you could have woken to see the beautiful colors and wish you were here now to smell the beautiful lilac trees that are in bloom. I know how much you loved lilacs. I wish for a lot but realize that a wish is all it is. I wish you were still here. I love you mom. Not a day passes that you are not in my heart and mind. The love and memories that I have for you will last a life time....beyond the leaves falling in the Fall and blooming in the Spring.

Hiya Grams:) Things have been quite interesting lately. Got some things accomplished(FINALLY LOL)and found new freedom lol..you know what I mean when I say that! Anywho..it worked and it happened. I heard Gloria on the radio the other day:) It was in spanish lol..but I still understood it...brought tears to my eyes but then I realized it may have been you letting me know you were there with me that day:) Aidan is still getting bigger and bigger:) Can you believe it? He'll be six in June, Jordan would have been 7...Please watch over my little guy up there...I have heard that kids who pass still age over where you are...if that is the case please give him a big birthday hug and kiss from us. I love you and miss you...